Trevor10
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ya, don't get me wrong i have already seen muscle gain due to the creatine, but it isn't for me. I rather stay around my weight right now and burn the remaining fat, than take creatine and look bloated and gassy.
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ya, don't get me wrong i have already seen muscle gain due to the creatine, but it isn't for me. I rather stay around my weight right now and burn the remaining fat, than take creatine and look bloated and gassy.
Trevor10
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Woke up this morning feeling well. Started the day off with 7 egg whites and two pieces of fiber toast to put me at 350 calories for the day. I plan on eating an apple on the way to class this morning. Today after my noon class, im hitting the road to go home for the weekend, which im looking forward to.
Today is a arms/chest/abs workout, which i plan to do tonight at a friends house ...well time to get ready for class, everyone have a great day!
Trevor
Today is a arms/chest/abs workout, which i plan to do tonight at a friends house ...well time to get ready for class, everyone have a great day!
Trevor
Oh honey, this is EXACTLY how I feel. I'm surprised actually, that this is so extremely close to what I'm dealing with. For sure, I can say I know how you feel. It feels good to be able to say that and mean it. I'm trying to overcome the same psychological roadblocks and it's ten times more difficult than loosing weight.
I've also been called anorexic, and I can't stand it. I'm not. I know that. And I know who I am and what I'm doing and how much more I have to lose. And yeah, it's really, really difficult and yeah, I binge and it's at night and I hate myself afterwards. Yet in the morning, I'm okay and I forgive myself and get over my guilt trip. This type of pshycological transitioning is so much easier than believing, deep down that maybe I'm finally attractive and worthwhile. It's gonna take a while, I know that for absolute certain. Maybe one day I'll feel drop dead gorgeous. That time, unfortunately, doesn't seem to be in the foreseeable future.
Trevor10
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Its so refreshing to be home for the weekend and to get away from the whole college scene for a few days.Anyways i slept great and i ran some errands this morning. I'm at or around 1000 calories for the day and i plan on running and lifting in a little bit. The weather is a breezy 65 degrees and it feels great in the sun.
3 tests next week is going to kill me, but im trying not to stress out, especially over physics....yuck
well i will most likely update about everything else late tonight. Everyone have a nice sunny day!
3 tests next week is going to kill me, but im trying not to stress out, especially over physics....yuck
well i will most likely update about everything else late tonight. Everyone have a nice sunny day!
Trevor10
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I'm so relieved that im not the only one who feels this way. My mom talked to me about a lot yesterday when i came home to visit. She told me that she was proud of the dedication i put into my weight loss and she reminded me that i have always been a good person no matter my size. She offered to pay for some counseling if i want it and i may take her up. Lately i have been doing well not freaking out about everything i eat and do, but i still have that barrier telling me i look the same way i did a year ago. I hope will a little more focusing on my good qualities, i can overcome that feeling i have and i wish you the best of luck as well. Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to, because we share the same kind of problems. Lets get past our psychological barriers and accept who we are and be proud of what we have accomplished!
Trevor10
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Hi Trevor,
Have a great time at home!
I'm glad you stopped using that stuff. (It’s all crap)
No offense to you Booty! You’re a smart Person.
Remebmer:
Happiness is only what you want it to be.
You are only as miserable as you think you are.
Have Fun!
I'm already having a great time at home, its so nice to get away sometimes. I'm glad i stopped taking creatine too, because i know if i just lift weights and keep a strict schedule i can build muscle without its help. Thanks for the uplifting words! Hows everything going?
Yeah, sounds great to me. I do need someone to talk to.
And you know, this situation with your mother, it's reversed in my life. It's my father who really supports me and gives me encouragement. He's been overweight all his life as well so he and I can relate. I haven't talked to him in greath lengths of my lack of self-confidence. He knows though, I think, by the way he's careful when he speaks to me. He's such a doll though, constantly complimenting me on how I look now. If there's anyone in the world who makes me feel worthwhile, it's my dad. Yeah, I'm a daddy's girl. I can't help it.
He's said to me, that if I need more than just him to talk to, he'll pay for my seeing a proffesional. I'm not sure yet what I want to do. I want to say that I'm strong and I can overcome these emotional barriers myself but I don't know if I can. But gawd, it would be so miraculous if I could. Can you imagine the accomplishment and inner confidence I would have, if I could no longer be psychologically effected by my being obese once upon a time? That would be the best gift in the world.
Edited to add: I can't PM you until I've been a member for 5 days.
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Trevor10
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im still enjoying my time at home and im actually heading back up to college tonight since i have so much studying to do tomorrow. I wish i could stay longer but i will be back in 3 weeks for spring break so im not too worried.
i will update later tonight
everyone have a great day!
i will update later tonight
everyone have a great day!
bikinibound
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Hi Trevor! I wish I'd stopped by your journal long before now.
You are such an adorable cutie. If I were your age and single, I'd be flirting with you mercilessly. What is it with young Texans named Trevor? There is another Trevor from Texas a year younger than you here also. And he's a cutie too. Haven't seen him much lately, though.
I remember the college days of being poor and balancing work and school.
You seem to be handling it very well, though.
Your weight loss is fantastic, and I love that you're currently building muscle. I'm glad you stopped the creatin, though. That was a smart call.
Your mom sounds like a great lady. She was right on about you being a great person no matter what your weight. Have you taken pics of yourself lately? I'm sure looking at how fabulous you are looking these days has got to be an ego boost. What about the girls? They must be paying more attention. If not, they're crazy.
Have a great weekend--even though it sounds like you'll be spending a good portion of it studying. What's your major?
~Kimberly
You are such an adorable cutie. If I were your age and single, I'd be flirting with you mercilessly.
What is it with young Texans named Trevor? There is another Trevor from Texas a year younger than you here also. And he's a cutie too. Haven't seen him much lately, though.I remember the college days of being poor and balancing work and school.
You seem to be handling it very well, though.Your weight loss is fantastic, and I love that you're currently building muscle. I'm glad you stopped the creatin, though. That was a smart call.
Your mom sounds like a great lady. She was right on about you being a great person no matter what your weight. Have you taken pics of yourself lately? I'm sure looking at how fabulous you are looking these days has got to be an ego boost. What about the girls? They must be paying more attention. If not, they're crazy.
Have a great weekend--even though it sounds like you'll be spending a good portion of it studying. What's your major?
~Kimberly
Hi from 
Trevor!Just wanted to thank you for dropping by my pics & leaving me such encouraging words! Your own progress has been AMAZING on the weight loss front! You are certainly on a mission to improve your body & your life, what with losing weight, getting fit, and working towards your degree!
Trevor, losing so much weight is a fantastic accomplishment. Having done that, YOU CAN DO ANYTHING - including overcome any emotional/mental barriers that may still be attempting to weigh you down. Deal with them however you can: read self-help books, talk with a counselor, pray, whatever. You have simply come too far not to do the rest of the work! Our life's journey is such an incredible opportunity for success & growth.
Cheering for you from Canada,
ABBA
Trevor10
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Hi Trevor! I wish I'd stopped by your journal long before now.
You are such an adorable cutie. If I were your age and single, I'd be flirting with you mercilessly.
I remember the college days of being poor and balancing work and school.
Your weight loss is fantastic, and I love that you're currently building muscle. I'm glad you stopped the creatin, though. That was a smart call.
Your mom sounds like a great lady. She was right on about you being a great person no matter what your weight. Have you taken pics of yourself lately? I'm sure looking at how fabulous you are looking these days has got to be an ego boost. What about the girls? They must be paying more attention. If not, they're crazy.
Have a great weekend--even though it sounds like you'll be spending a good portion of it studying. What's your major?
~Kimberly
Thanks for all the great compliments Kimberly! I really do appreciate it!! I'm in the phase of trying to get into Architecture school for Environmental Design because it interests me so much, and i have to have near perfect grades to get in. So if everything goes well, next semester i will under that major!
Trevor10
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Just wanted to thank you for dropping by my pics & leaving me such encouraging words! Your own progress has been AMAZING on the weight loss front! You are certainly on a mission to improve your body & your life, what with losing weight, getting fit, and working towards your degree!
Trevor, losing so much weight is a fantastic accomplishment. Having done that, YOU CAN DO ANYTHING - including overcome any emotional/mental barriers that may still be attempting to weigh you down. Deal with them however you can: read self-help books, talk with a counselor, pray, whatever. You have simply come too far not to do the rest of the work! Our life's journey is such an incredible opportunity for success & growth.
Cheering for you from Canada,
ABBA
Thank you for all the kind words ABBA and i appreciate you taking time to come to my journal and help me out!
I'm gradually getting better at giving myself a pat on the back and i hope that all goes well for you!
bikinibound
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That's a very cool major. I find architecture very fascinating. As much of a perfectionist as you appear to be, I'm sure your grades will be fine.
Are you a sophomore?
Trevor10
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That's a very cool major. I find architecture very fascinating. As much of a perfectionist as you appear to be, I'm sure your grades will be fine.
Ya by credits, but once i hit my major, im not sure what i will be...lol college can get confusing when switching majors
Tell me about it. I have NO IDEA what I want to major in. So many things fascinate me. I'm really considering becoming a nutrionist. Because of everything I've been through, I think I'll be good at it.
Trevor10
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thats funny you mention that, my roommates always tell me i should go straight into nutrition since i lost so much and im so into dieting and eating healthy....it sounds fun but i am really into architecture...
I'm an artist who works construction, so of course, I considered architecture myself. I always found it facsinating, and I'd love to have engineering classes. Every guy likes a girl in a toolbelt, I hear. LOL.
Good for you Trev, I do hope you succeed. It's an extremely financially secure business field!
Trevor10
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Today is a day of studying, grocery shopping and laundry....sounds fun right?
This Next week my goal for exercise is 45 minutes of cardio after my normal lifting routine. I need goals to help push more or else i become Mr. Lazy for the whole week. My diet will be very high in protein with a moderate amount of carbs. Most of carbs will be eaten around my cardio and my protein will be spread throughout the day.
As far as last night went i had a late night snack because i was starving and it wasn't that great for me. I know i wont gain 100 pounds from that one bad snack, but i really don't want to continue down that road so im sticking to a different goal at the start of each week for a month and i will see where that puts me.
Well i got to hit the grocery store up, everyone have a nice day!
Trevor
This Next week my goal for exercise is 45 minutes of cardio after my normal lifting routine. I need goals to help push more or else i become Mr. Lazy for the whole week. My diet will be very high in protein with a moderate amount of carbs. Most of carbs will be eaten around my cardio and my protein will be spread throughout the day.
As far as last night went i had a late night snack because i was starving and it wasn't that great for me. I know i wont gain 100 pounds from that one bad snack, but i really don't want to continue down that road so im sticking to a different goal at the start of each week for a month and i will see where that puts me.
Well i got to hit the grocery store up, everyone have a nice day!
Trevor