Transformation

[Flumes]

ROFLMAO!!! Girl, you really crack me up! I just got a mental image of an old bugs bunny cartoon where this big hairy moster/alien grabs bugs bunny and is petting him and saying something about how he will love him and pet him and call him George.... LOL!

Thats got to be my favourite Bugs cartoon if the following is the one I am thinking of...





I caught up on your thread Jana and have to say I am very impressed with your dedication and the effort you are putting in to this journey! Amazing what you can do when you put your mind to it....especially with a bit of motivation from folks around here to help you along. Well done!

Looking forward to more of your posts and hope that your motivation rubs off on me!

Take care!

 

[JanaNanner]

Good Late Afternoon!

That story you shared above regarding that visit to taco bell, while annoying, is not really surprising. There are unfortunately people in this world who have very poor/non-existent social skills. Usually you will find that people like these are fully aware of their under developed position in society and they see opportunities to pick on others as a glorious thing. These would be the same types of people that, as children, would have bullied the smallest kid in the classroom.

I have no time for it and do not see any excuse for it. Nobody should ever feel they have the right to address you in a negative way when you are minding your own business and getting on with your life. These are merely punks... if it is of any satisfaction to you people like this usually make a mistake and open that big mouth to the wrong person and they then learn a hard lesson.

Take a peep at this video. Every time I watch this I think "how many other people has this little idiot tried to intimidate.... and then one day... BANG"

Thank you for sharing that video. Honestly, I don't want them to learn that lesson, even though I know it's often the only choice. As unlikely as it is to happen, I want them to care enough about people in general to not do it in the first place. What breaks my heart about it the most is that they don't even think about the consequences of hurting other's feelings, let alone mine. I can't imagine what it must be like not to empathize to that degree. Trying to imagine that is far more upsetting than any hurt they actually caused me.

I caught up on your thread Jana and have to say I am very impressed with your dedication and the effort you are putting in to this journey! Amazing what you can do when you put your mind to it....especially with a bit of motivation from folks around here to help you along. Well done!

Thank you Flumes. Yes, a great part of my dedication and commitment has been inspired by the support I have received from certain people at this forum, including you. I feel driven. I've wanted to lose weight so many times before and I've even made minor attempts. But for the past couple of months there has been a feeling inside of me that I've never experienced before. I can't quite explain the feeling-- it's similar to certainty but more than that-- but it is the source of my drive to finally do this and change my life.

 

[shygemini]

Haha, that's so true. Even though I'm fat, I know I'm not ugly. Plus some people's ugly attitudes are so hideous that no amount of physical attractiveness will ever be enough to compensate for it.

But there are definitely some things that I could share here at the forum that I can't share in person... like my weight. No one, and I mean NO ONE I know in person actually knows my exact weight, so you are all privileged to a carefully guarded secret number.

Totally agree about ugly attitudes!

I am very secretive about my weight as well. I didn't even tell my husband for a long time! But when i did tell him (we both did a weigh in ) i felt relieved, and happy that he knew. So just him and my mom know...no one else. BUt i completely understand because it is a very hard thing to share in person, even with those who you know will love you no matter what.

 

[juni]

Hi JanaNanner, I have been reading your posts in journals, and been meaning to come by and visit yours and I read all 17 pages of it. You are doing really well and love the positive attitude. Will drop by more often and say hi. Hope your week is going well.

 

[ecky1]

Thank you for sharing that video. Honestly, I don't want them to learn that lesson, even though I know it's often the only choice. As unlikely as it is to happen, I want them to care enough about people in general to not do it in the first place. What breaks my heart about it the most is that they don't even think about the consequences of hurting other's feelings, let alone mine. I can't imagine what it must be like not to empathize to that degree. Trying to imagine that is far more upsetting than any hurt they actually caused me.

I agree with you there. It breaks my heart that people have had such a bad upbringing and are so unhappy that they feel the need to behave like that.
My sister and myself have a lot of empathy with people and can't bare to see anybody that isn't as happy as we are and when we come across angry people we make a point of trying to 'break' them with friendliness. It usually works after a bit of perseverance. There were 2really miserable moany shopkeepers in the village where I live. Both of them just grunted at the customers and I would always go in really smily and cheerful however they treated me. In the end both of them would still be miserable with the other customers but as soon as they saw me they would break into a smile and be friendly. I just always wonder why some people are so unhappy and feel sad for them. My mum did the same with a neighbour of hers. It took 3 years but when my mum died last year the women was so upset as she said that she really misses my mums smiley face every morning.

 

[JanaNanner]

Totally agree about ugly attitudes!

I am very secretive about my weight as well. I didn't even tell my husband for a long time! But when i did tell him (we both did a weigh in ) i felt relieved, and happy that he knew. So just him and my mom know...no one else. BUt i completely understand because it is a very hard thing to share in person, even with those who you know will love you no matter what.

It's funny, though. I know that once I've finished losing all the weight, I'm going to be broadcasting that number like crazy because I'll be so proud of it. Random strangers will probably know how much I weigh.

Hi JanaNanner, I have been reading your posts in journals, and been meaning to come by and visit yours and I read all 17 pages of it. You are doing really well and love the positive attitude. Will drop by more often and say hi. Hope your week is going well.

Thank you for stopping by! I'm impressed that you read through all 17 pages of it and I'm glad that you found something positive in it. You have a great week, too.

I agree with you there. It breaks my heart that people have had such a bad upbringing and are so unhappy that they feel the need to behave like that.
My sister and myself have a lot of empathy with people and can't bare to see anybody that isn't as happy as we are and when we come across angry people we make a point of trying to 'break' them with friendliness. It usually works after a bit of perseverance. There were 2really miserable moany shopkeepers in the village where I live. Both of them just grunted at the customers and I would always go in really smily and cheerful however they treated me. In the end both of them would still be miserable with the other customers but as soon as they saw me they would break into a smile and be friendly. I just always wonder why some people are so unhappy and feel sad for them. My mum did the same with a neighbour of hers. It took 3 years but when my mum died last year the women was so upset as she said that she really misses my mums smiley face every morning.

Hehe, you could melt an iceberg, I bet. I'm not surprised that you come from a whole family of warm, kind-hearted people. Did you know that you're one of those people that make others want to be better people? I've never met you but I still know that without a doubt. Thank you for being a bright ray of sunshine in a world that's often clouded over.

 

[JanaNanner]

My motivation is in the pits today. I feel discouraged that I apparently regained a pound, even though I burned 1100 calories yesterday. I don't understand my body at all. I want to scream at it sometimes. Hard work should be rewarded, not punished.

Hehe... it doesn't help that I stepped on one of my weights today and nearly killed myself at the beginning of my cardio. That just started it out in a very bad direction. And I felt extremely sore after my 2 hour fitness romp yesterday, as well. I am starting to feel much better after the hour of cardio I did today though. I find it interesting that some exercise loosens me up and makes my body feel better. Actually, the thing that helps most when I'm sore is belly dancing. All of that shimmying and swaying feels really good.

But the motivation to get up and do any more than that one hour is just non-existent right now. There's this little voice in my head that says "Why on earth work so hard to gain a pound?" I know, it's the end result that counts, not the little day-to-day losses and gains. I should really just toss my scale out the window, watch it smash into a million pieces on the ground below (oh, would I enjoy that...), and keep pushing forward.

I'm going to go do 10 minutes of kick-boxing. It's not much, but it's more than nothing. I won't be defeated by this horrible helpless feeling. I'm not helpless.

 

[ecky1]

I'm going through the same thing at the moment. My weight seems to fluctuate a lot but I've lost hardly anything for weeks. The thing to do is not to stress on it and concentrate on getting fit and the weight will drop when it's ready. Exercise is never a waste of time so don't give up on it especially as you seem to enjoy it so much.
Your body is probably just getting ready for another whoosh

 

[Tigpuppy]

My motivation is in the pits today. I feel discouraged that I apparently regained a pound, even though I burned 1100 calories yesterday.

Do you think maybe because you are working out so much that the muscles are growing (and weighing more) faster than the fat can melt away? Maybe you gained 1 lb of muscle?

If not, try not to get too down on yourself. You have been doing an amazing job of getting yourself in shape! The scale will start going the other direction in no time at all!

 

[ecky1]

Do you think maybe because you are working out so much that the muscles are growing (and weighing more) faster than the fat can melt away? Maybe you gained 1 lb of muscle?

That's what I think is happening to me. I read that you couldn't gain muscle with a calore deficit but I have just been told in another thread that when you first start to work out you can gain muscle but it isn't substainable over a long period. As we are new to exercising we are probable gaining muscle. My legs which used to be very soft are now really solid and my butt the same so I think that they must have gained a lot of muscle.

 

[JanaNanner]

I'm going through the same thing at the moment. My weight seems to fluctuate a lot but I've lost hardly anything for weeks. The thing to do is not to stress on it and concentrate on getting fit and the weight will drop when it's ready. Exercise is never a waste of time so don't give up on it especially as you seem to enjoy it so much.
Your body is probably just getting ready for another whoosh

Thanks. I know in my heart that it isn't a waste of time. Exercising and never losing weight is still far, far better than not ever exercising. My trouble is that when I don't lose weight, I begin to think I'm doing something wrong, even though everything that I know says that I'm doing everything right. But I really, really second guess myself. I'm such a nut-case.

Do you think maybe because you are working out so much that the muscles are growing (and weighing more) faster than the fat can melt away? Maybe you gained 1 lb of muscle?

If not, try not to get too down on yourself. You have been doing an amazing job of getting yourself in shape! The scale will start going the other direction in no time at all!

Hey, if that's the case, I'm all for it. I will choose muscle gain over fat any day, hehe. Thanks for the encouragement...

 

[JanaNanner]

So, I ended up doing 20 minutes of kick-boxing instead of just 10. And I'm going for a walk later, too.

By the way, 'I'm Still Standing' by Elton John is amazing motivation during a workout.

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

Even though the song probably describes moving on without someone, I'm just going to pretend that 'you' refers to unhealthy food, instead.

 

[jjjay]

I think you have to chill out and not let 1 little pound turn you around!! Weight is going to fluctuate on a day to day basis and the same thing that makes us whoosh is also gonna add on a pound every now and then but put it in the perspective of the last week or two weeks and you ARE doing GREAT! So I say time to turn that frown upside down and get kickboxing or 30 day shredding!

I missed a lot of goings on here... Been so busy at work and only got iPhone to read the forum and post on so I hope you all appreciate JUST how much effort it takes to type on a phone LOL and just how OCD I am being about no typos!!

So here goes. Your late night writings - funny how a combo of late night and big body changes gets you thinking. I surrounded myself with a defensive layer of fat - I know I did. My uncle had died very suddenly of cancer, my daughter was in and out of the emergency department from 10 months old with terrible life threatening fits AND I was studying for my professional exams....so I ate and ate and ate. You are right though to recognise that having wanting a relationship isn't just about having any old relationship, it's about knowing what's right for you and so much change is going on right now that you got to focus on yourself and your needs rather than factor in someone else as well. As you gain confidence and love yourself, all that will come. I promise you won't end up a lonely old woman that gets eaten by her own cats.

The food looks nom nom nom to quote a certain flumes!! Great that you are exploring and enjoying new tastes. And that you have such an Internet following here!!

What else?! Raspberry vinegar - did you know that is the main thing you put in a Yorkshire salad? Hehe or did you get that from your visits here?

So , I say again, no demotivation allowed! Turn that frown upside down. Tomorrow is a new weigh hahaha full of terrible puns tonight... That's what happens when you spend all day in a room reviewing IRS docs lol it sends you slightly mad!!

 

[Verobc1]

Hay Jana

Don't worry about 1 silly lb, Just think of how many are gone since you started you journey. I am weighing myself only once a week now cause if not my emotions where all over the place! If you want to weight yourself everyday you should pick one day as your official weigh in day that way you can see the difference from the same day of the previous week. :ess discouraging! You are doing so good forget that one lb and get fit cause that is really the important thing here getting healthy, strong and fit! The weight loss is just a bonus!

 

[juni]

Do not let 1 lbs bring you down. Our bodies are strange. Just the other day I was 62kgs and then in a matter of day I went up to 64kgs (whith is 4.4lbs)- stayed like that for two days and then I was back down to 62kgs. A lot depends on what we eat- if you had less water, more salt etc. Also TOM is the worse time of the month (which is what I have right now). Sugar and salt cravings, weight gain and generally bloating. Ugh. Take it easy, hun. You are doing all the right things, so the weight is bound to come down. Keep at it. Sending you hugs.

 

[Verobc1]

Hey Jana

You haven't been around in a few days!!! I hope all is going well and I am sending you a dose of motivation,,,,I am starting to feel it may as well share!!!

 

[JanaNanner]

I think you have to chill out and not let 1 little pound turn you around!! Weight is going to fluctuate on a day to day basis and the same thing that makes us whoosh is also gonna add on a pound every now and then but put it in the perspective of the last week or two weeks and you ARE doing GREAT! So I say time to turn that frown upside down and get kickboxing or 30 day shredding!

I missed a lot of goings on here... Been so busy at work and only got iPhone to read the forum and post on so I hope you all appreciate JUST how much effort it takes to type on a phone LOL and just how OCD I am being about no typos!!

So here goes. Your late night writings - funny how a combo of late night and big body changes gets you thinking. I surrounded myself with a defensive layer of fat - I know I did. My uncle had died very suddenly of cancer, my daughter was in and out of the emergency department from 10 months old with terrible life threatening fits AND I was studying for my professional exams....so I ate and ate and ate. You are right though to recognise that having wanting a relationship isn't just about having any old relationship, it's about knowing what's right for you and so much change is going on right now that you got to focus on yourself and your needs rather than factor in someone else as well. As you gain confidence and love yourself, all that will come. I promise you won't end up a lonely old woman that gets eaten by her own cats.

The food looks nom nom nom to quote a certain flumes!! Great that you are exploring and enjoying new tastes. And that you have such an Internet following here!!

What else?! Raspberry vinegar - did you know that is the main thing you put in a Yorkshire salad? Hehe or did you get that from your visits here?

So , I say again, no demotivation allowed! Turn that frown upside down. Tomorrow is a new weigh hahaha full of terrible puns tonight... That's what happens when you spend all day in a room reviewing IRS docs lol it sends you slightly mad!!

It's okay. It's understandable that sometimes life gets busy. Thank you for always coming back here when you can, reading, and offering advice and support. After I wrote about that bit of low motivation, a bit of it did end up coming back and I worked out for another half hour that day.

Ah, I understand about the iPhone. My sister has one and it is IMPOSSIBLE to type on. It's the main reason I may not ever get an iPhone or iPod Touch, because the keypad would drive me crazy. I commend you for the effort you must have put in using it here at the forum.

Hay Jana

Don't worry about 1 silly lb, Just think of how many are gone since you started you journey. I am weighing myself only once a week now cause if not my emotions where all over the place! If you want to weight yourself everyday you should pick one day as your official weigh in day that way you can see the difference from the same day of the previous week. :ess discouraging! You are doing so good forget that one lb and get fit cause that is really the important thing here getting healthy, strong and fit! The weight loss is just a bonus!

Thanks.. I'm trying to stay strong and focus on getting healthy, strong and fit. I appreciate the encouragement.

Do not let 1 lbs bring you down. Our bodies are strange. Just the other day I was 62kgs and then in a matter of day I went up to 64kgs (whith is 4.4lbs)- stayed like that for two days and then I was back down to 62kgs. A lot depends on what we eat- if you had less water, more salt etc. Also TOM is the worse time of the month (which is what I have right now). Sugar and salt cravings, weight gain and generally bloating. Ugh. Take it easy, hun. You are doing all the right things, so the weight is bound to come down. Keep at it. Sending you hugs.

Yes, our bodies are strange and I am not sure I will ever completely understand why they do what they do in weight loss. Thank you so much for the support.

Hey Jana

You haven't been around in a few days!!! I hope all is going well and I am sending you a dose of motivation,,,,I am starting to feel it may as well share!!!

Yes, I've been a bit absent for a couple of days, but I'm still around. Thanks for checking on me and sending me some motivation.

 

[JanaNanner]

So... I fell off the wagon a little today... In all fairness, it's the first time it's happened since I began in early June. But I definitely teetered over the side of that wagon and hit the ground hard below.

It was emotional/starvation eating. I woke up this morning and almost immediately entered a four and a half hour conversation with my ex in which I heard all the lovely details about his current happy love life, all the while putting off eating for the day, telling him I didn't mind hearing all about his happy love and really just feeling dreadful and about as single and alone as single and alone gets. Later, when it was finished, I went to the kitchen with the intention of having a healthy meal. I opened the freezer, there was the frozen pizza, and I grabbed it without a second thought. Admittedly, I did weigh it and count the calories and I still have about 1300 calories left for the day, even after that. What made it wrong was that it wasn't as much a choice as it was a compulsion followed by immediate, thoughtless gratification.

It's kind of funny though that what added up to essentially one and a half slices of extra large pepperoni pizza is considered binging now. In the past it would have been half the pizza. Yay for that tiny silver lining!

Haha. My stomach hates me right now. It's saying "What is this greasy stuff and why'd you fill me with it? Vegetables next time, PLEASE."

I've been doing REALLY well with exercise this week, though. 6.5 hours since Sunday and I haven't even worked out today yet.

 

[ecky1]

If you really think about it Jana you should congratulate yourself on being restrained enough to stop at one and a half slices. You didn't go over your calorie allowance so no harm done.
That man was obviously not the right one for you so you still have the pleasure to come of meeting your Mr Right. I got it right second time round and believe me it was worth all that I went through before I met him.
Well done on all the exercise

 

[Verobc1]

Haha. My stomach hates me right now. It's saying "What is this greasy stuff and why'd you fill me with it? Vegetables next time, PLEASE."

I've been doing REALLY well with exercise this week, though. 6.5 hours since Sunday and I haven't even worked out today yet.

I had a similar experience this week I was in a rush to get back to work and stoped at a drive tru for lunch, bad decision I was sick all night long....I guess my stomach wants nothing to do with over processed greasy junk, and she let me know big time.....I will think twice next time!

Great job on the work outs WOW 6.5 hours is something...I have to get back into that I barely do 1 hours a week now....no wonder I am at a standstill weight wise. Next time I want to pass on a work out I am so gonna think about you!!!! What would Jana do???? And then start working out.