Time's a Wastin, and I'm Still Fat.

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Alright, it's peptalk time. I think you need to take a breath and sort of restart yourself here. I'm a big proponent of being critical of yourself when you're not doing what you need to do, but there comes a point where you do have to not go overboard. If you let it get to the point where you feel defeated, you've gone too far. And it's starting to sound a little like that right now.

My suggestion: work on fixing things in stages, particularly considering the time of year. Until New Year's, set a goal of just getting back on the exercise track, the riding is excellent exercise but supplement it with the stuff you've done before at the gym or wherever. And do it with the mindset that this is exactly the plan, not any sort of compromise. You've got to get back to the point where this is just something you do as a regular part of your life.

And once you do, once it's to a point where getting enough exercise in seems normal enough, then you can concentrate on cutting back the food bit by bit. Say by mid January or so.

One of the few benefits to going off the rails is that afterward the first wave of pounds come off the scale real easily as long as you do good. That 180 can become 165 again in a blink of an eye, not all of that weight gain is fat.

If you want to get mad at yourself, fine, to an extent you probably should be. But do it from a perspective that you know you're capable of doing far better than you have and then set about to correcting it. Don't try and convince yourself you can't do it, because if you succeed I'm afraid there's a good chance things don't stop at 200 pounds. I've done it and it will hopefully remain as my biggest regret of my entire life. I'd dearly like those 13 to 14 years back where I gave up, but they're gone now. I'd like to spare you that.

Consider this a kick in the ass followed by a great big hug. Or reverse the order, whatever works for you. You've done it before, do it again.
 
This is a supportive and informative share. It reminded me of some things I am working on. Like losing and gaining back the same three pounds.
 
Thanks you guys.
I'm back!
My riding has still been going well, had my first lesson in ages and it went great.
Doing nothing yet with eating better or exercising. My current goal is to start eating better. Maybe not calorie counting yet, but just making sure that I'm eating lunch and supper with maybe a light snack. No late night binging, no high calorie drinks, limiting take out/going out for dinner.
Once I've semi got a handle on that I will work on the exercise part.
It will be a little hard coming into the holidays, especially since my work days will be long and hard and will want to encourage me to eat comfort food, but I can do it.
 
Great to have you back! Baby steps will get you there more quickly than sprinting and falling down. I feel you on the long, snack-inducing days but they are managable when I have healthy snacks on hand and don´t beat myself up for "overeating" on those.
 
Glad you're back. Do as good as you can do and get through the holidays. You shall kick arse and take names in 2015!!!
 
Hey Mystic!! I agree with MrVee's advice, try improving one thing at a time. Just do what you can until you have a better handle on things. You've done it before so you absolutely know you can do it again!
 
Thanks you guys.
My first day back was alright. Hard day of work, but got done at a decent time which was nice.
I had lasagna for lunch that my mom brought me. Got an 80 cal gatorade, but had less than half.
Despite the busy day I got up the energy to go ride my horse. Really happy with my dedication to that.
For supper I had tacos. Had a lot of ground turkey in them, more than I probably needed/wanted, but I didn't realize I had made so much till they were in the tortilla shells.
Had 2 small peanut butter muffins for snack.
Decent day for my first day back.
 
Welcome back Mystic. I agree with all of the above. Baby steps & take each day at a time. It's lovely having you back xo Cate
 
Thanks you guys.
I'm quite proud of myself today. It wasn't perfect. I didn't have anything I could bring for lunch, so I got subway. However I got a 6 inch when I always would have gotten a footlong, and I didn't get a big fruitopia drink like usual as I had brought my water along.
I did nibble on some of the Christmas treats my clients have been bringing me (would prefer a bigger tip or nothing rather than having bad food around!).
My mom also asked me out for supper. The place we went to gives you soup (or salad) and bread to start, then your meal. I had tomato soup (though didn't finish it all), had some bread, and had a coke (should have gotten a water). My meal was... gross. I don't know what was wrong with it, I've had this dish many times before at this exact same restaurant, it's my favourite dish, but today it was not good. I let the waitress know and she allowed me to order a different dish. By the time it came I felt full from what I had already eaten. I took a couple bites then packed the rest up and took it home.

BUT the BIG thing I'm happy about is that after eating an early supper (done and home by 6) I didn't eat a single thing all evening!! I had some strong temptations, strong desires to make cookies, but I held off. Baby steps.
 
Goal time.
I don't really know what I currently weigh. Am gonna try to remember to weigh tomorrow morning.

I would like to lose 20 pounds before I leave for my big horse show at the end of March.
 
BUT the BIG thing I'm happy about is that after eating an early supper (done and home by 6) I didn't eat a single thing all evening!! I had some strong temptations, strong desires to make cookies, but I held off. Baby steps.
Well done Mystic!! Baby steps add up to huge strides when you do things like that!
 
I know the christmas treats thing... My clients are SO kind and I´m not allowed to take money so... yeah. Was able to give away most of it though. And my next weigh-in will be on january first :eek: 20 lbs in 3 months (including the holidays) is a big goal but it´s doable if you´re consistent. Good luck!
 
Thanks you guys.
The christmas goodies are definitely hard to deal with. I had a few today, but I'm not going overboard on them. And I took the leftover food from dinner last night, but cut it in half for lunch, instead of having the whole thing, so I will have lunch again for tomorrow from it.
Worked a busy 9 and a half hour day at work today. Feeling pretty exhausted. I go home and changed out of my work clothes, and seeing myself in the mirror is just so saddening. I just look so awful. And I'm supposed to be getting dressed up to go to a ballet on sunday, but I have nothing nice to wear and even if I had something that fit, nothing looks good on me at the moment.
I have been good since getting home. I haven't snacked at all. Getting ready to make myself supper, which I think will be egg mcmuffin type things.

Here are my weigh in stats

Today's Weight: 180.2 (GULP) :(
Mini Goal Weight: 160 by March 27th
 
Had my snack and am done for the day. I had a couple of my small peanut butter muffins. They aren't the best snack as I imagine they're fairly high calorie, but I don't really have another option till I go grocery shopping.
 
Ugh, the dressing up thing is the part I hate most about being overweight. Even though I probably don´t objectively look horrible I will automatically compare my mirror image to the one I used to know. And I´m not happy to buy (mostly expensive) "pretty" clothes when I don´t think I look anything like pretty in them. So I don´t have anything which fits and look even worse. Even though I regularly see overweight people who dress wonderfully and look good with their weight. Which we probably could, too...
 
I still have zero idea what I will wear for the ballet. I haven't couple really old dresses that might be ok paired with my little shoulder wrap thing.

179.8 this morning. Glad to get out of the 180's.
 
Well done Mystic on being out of the 180's! I'm sure you'll look lovely, regardless of what you choose to wear xo Cate
 
Thank you.
Today was ok. Very busy day again at work, looking forward to my one day weekend.
I had the other half of my restaurant leftovers for lunch, and a few cookies at work.
My friend and I went out for vietnamese. I should have stuck with water but got a can of pepsi. We went to my place and watched a movie and split a bag of popcorn.
I have strong cravings for cookies right now, thankfully it's too late to make them or I'm not sure I could resist.

whoops, I slipped up. had some peanut butter and chocolate this evening.
 
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Made a yummy ham and potato soup today for lunch. Didn't have anything for breakfast (as usual).
I did have some peanut butter and chocolate :(
Went out for supper before going to the ballet for the first time (Nutcracker). Had some pita with hummus, a couple slices of bread, and a bison burger.

Have enough soup to last me for lunch tomorrow.

Seeing the ballet and all those athletic girls with those crazy nice legs wants me to really get on track and do better.
 
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