Time to stick with it!!

[~Tutti~Frutti~]

I told my bf when I started using the forum - we live together and he sees me on here all the time (although I wont let him see what I'm reading or writing) so I could hardly keep it from him. I'm not embarassed about it, but he doesn't really get it either - he doesnt see what people could possibly say that would help me! (Which says a lot about his understanding of losing weight!)

There's nothing to be embarassed about; what you write is personal, but using a forum to gain support from others who are trying to acheive the same things as you is common, why should weight loss be any different? And you using this is not the same thing as your bf talking to people about porn etc - you had no problem with him chatting about sports, it was just the sexual element which made you uncomortable.

Keep up the good work... x

 

[chubbygirl]

Thanks for the advice - still haven't decided what to do or how to go about it but I do plan to tell him - just not sure when or how.
Ok so I didn't accomplish my goal yesterday and I'm pretty bummed about it. Why couldn't I be strong and only stick with 1 snack? Why do I every night sabatoge my days hard work? It's really frustrating. I have another confession to make - I take my birth control pill consecutively and never get a period. Well a doctor told me recently I should be taking a break every 3 months so I decided to get a period and it's the worst!! It has been at least a year and I'm embarassed about that because I know I should have been taking breaks. It was pretty funny though because I almost forgot how to wear a tampon! I forgot about the applicator I almost died laughing. Anyway this week has not been the norm for me and I am hoping my will power comes back because I finally feel like I have my gym mojo back.
Yesterday at the gym I did 28 min treadmill (2 miles), 30 min cycle class & 30 min power barbell class (the first 30 min is arms and last 30 min is legs and my legs are still too sore so I left half way through.) I felt great going home and made myself a nice big veggie salad with a can of tuna and wrote down all my points for the day and everything was good. I started to think about snacks because of all the damn commercials during the BL and had my 1 allowed snack for the night - a curves 100 cal peanut butter granola bar and then I wanted something more. So I got a glass of water with lemon. Still wanted something more so I did the dishes then my will power went out the door and I ate a scoop of peanut butter - and didn't stop after 1 - I had 3 big scoops and was so mad at myself for not sticking to my goal and adding all those unnecessary calories to my day.
Anyway enough crying about yesterday today is a new day and I am just going to try again. My goal for today is to stay within my WW points of 20 and drink at least 100 oz of water. I feel like I need to have both those goals complete for the day to be a success so that's what I will do.
Have a good day everyone
I finally have some before pics to post!

 

[chubbygirl]

Ok here are a few after's for comparison - I know most of you have already seen these.

 

[thelast20]

Wow Lisa, you have such a beautiful smile!!

I had an IUD (never get one, they're evil!!!) for a year and went without a period that whole time so I know exactly what your talking about After that I did the consecutive pills for a while and ended up going back to the monthly. I found that my body was still cycling so I would still get PMS every month, and then I would get the worse period every 3 months... didn't seem worth it for me. Good luck with those tampons

You'll get the snacking under control. One battle at a time... at least you're eating food that had a nutritional factor (unlike the apple turnover I ate last night )

Have a great day Lisa
Marie

 

[skkroll]

WOW LISA! I can't even believe that was you before! You look like 2 completely different people! Gosh you should be soo proud of yourself... you have come soo far!!!! AMAZING!

Your snacking last night wasn't even bad in my opinion.... you'd think watching the Biggest Loser would make you NOT want to snack but it just makes me want to snack for some reason! I just got my period today and it's funny cuz last night I ate a peanut butter chocolate chip granola bar... and then I had another! That damn peanut butter!!!!!!! It's a love hate realtionship!

I also missed my goal yesterday so looks like we both gotta step it up today and get it done!!!!

 

[chubbygirl]

Wow Lisa, you have such a beautiful smile!!

You'll get the snacking under control. One battle at a time... at least you're eating food that had a nutritional factor (unlike the apple turnover I ate last night )

Have a great day Lisa
Marie

Thanks Marie! The rest of my day was really healthy so it is getting better - thanks for reminding me I will get there!

 

[chubbygirl]

WOW LISA! I can't even believe that was you before! You look like 2 completely different people! Gosh you should be soo proud of yourself... you have come soo far!!!! AMAZING!

Your snacking last night wasn't even bad in my opinion.... you'd think watching the Biggest Loser would make you NOT want to snack but it just makes me want to snack for some reason!

I also missed my goal yesterday so looks like we both gotta step it up today and get it done!!!!

Thanks Sarah - I actually feel like two different people too. I am really proud too. I was that size from the time I can remember till around 3rd year University and have kept it off since then and will never go back! I wish I would have kept one pair of jeans size 20 just to remember but oh well I just have to look at those pics!
I honestly think it's the commercials - there are so many breaks and they are always advertising FOOD - BAD FOOD!
Since you've already reached your goal today - it's time for ME to step it up!!
I have 11 points left for dinner and snacks so I SHOULD be good!! I will be good

 

[Janvier]

Lisa That is an AMAZING transformation! You are so gorgeous! I am so proud of you, that is a shocking change. I hope you are extreamly proud of yourself. I wouldn't feel bad if I were you about not telling your hunnie about this site, you aren't doing anything inappropriate here so you have nothing to feel bad about in my opinion, I don't think its a bad idea to tell him if thats what you want to do, but at the same time if you think he will try and find it and read all of your posts and you don't want that then I think you should feel free to keep it to yourself. Your workouts sounds great this week, I'm glad to hear you have your gym mojo back, I think I found mine as well this week. Don't beat yourself up about your snacks, I really admire you for getting back on the tredmill the other night after your snacks, thats some dedication! Its a learning process...I bought a biggest loser workout dvd over the weekend, I really like it, but Bob does some sections of advice and he said not to consider if "falling off the wagon" when you cheat, he said to consider it a trip and not a fall and just keep pushing forward and you'll make it and I think you already do that, we both trip but we always keep pushing forward and refuse to give up and I think that shows that we are determined to make it no matter what so keep being positve, you still have the rest of the week to meet your daily goals and I know you can do this! Keep up the great work!

 

[Alta818]

I get so little time to barely come on here and read anything ...but I must say CONGRATS MY DEAR!!! !!! You look fantabulous & I love the blonde!!! Very cute!! ! ..You are such an inspiration and look like two different people as they say.

...I can completly relate with you on the feeling of the porn stuff, cause I caught my boyfriend like 2 1/2 years ago with an alternate email address which him and his huge balloon friend would click on sites when his friend came over. (i knew about that but I thought it was just the friend)...I was shocked to find out that the email address that was alternate...was HIS ...!!! It made me sad,...more than anything kinda betrayed at the moment that he didn't tell me. I realized that porn is something of our society, it's normal to an extent..and it shouldn't compromise how sexy you are and that they are just fantasy women...that do things often times, that you have too much respect for your parter to do because it makes them look like trash.

I do tell my hunnie about this site, and he knows what a big part of my life it is...and he thinks it's great ...whatever floats my boat ya know!! hahah...but if your hunnie is going to snoop on you...then maybe you should mention it ...but non chalant...and let it roll off your shoulder. And if not, he didn't tell you everything...and you are an individual who is doing something positive for yourself...so no worries about not telling him. You need to have privacy from him in some sense.

...All in all...so glad you are back to the gym!!!...I did see Biggest Loser last night & I cried!!! It was so inspiring what those people did at home by themselves!!! !!!

...Have a great day doll! ....(your tampon story was funny!! haha)!!!

 

[chubbygirl]

thank you for the wonderful comments and Alta I know you are sooo busy so thank you for taking the time to comment! I know you don't even have time to post in your own journal so thanks for taking the time for me! I also cry at every episode of the BL and my hunnie makes fun of me!

Ok so yesterday was an awesome day!! Yeah I can finally say that! I met both my goals and had an awesome work out and it felt great!! Here's how it looked:
B - apple, ff yogurt & all bran buds (3)
Snack - 2 cups mint green tea (0)
L - 1 can Campbell's chicken and brown rice (5)
Snack - tangarine (1)
Exercise - 24 min treadmill (2.3 miles), 30 min core class, 34 min treadmill (2.75 miles), stretch
D - 2 pieces WW whole wheat bread w 1 tbsp PB & 1 tbsp jam (3)
1 hour cleaning - dishes, laundry, tidying
Snack - peppermint tea
Went to airport to pick up hunnie (he was working out of town)
D #2 - salad w baby greens, chick peas, green olives, green onions, red pepper, cucumber & olive oil & balsamic vinegar (5)
Snacks - 2 turkey sticks (2), s.f pudding cup (1)
Total Points 20!!! Plus I drank tons of water today!
It was a perfect day in my eyes and a good start to many more! I woke up feeling better than ever and I can't wait to get back to the gym! I feel my will power coming back too. The scale has been all over the place so I'm not sure still what my weight is. I am going to wait until I am done my period to post a weigh-in. My friend weighed my last Friday night at the gym and I was 157.5!! I figured it was high because I was wearing my gym clothes and it was later in the day. I wanted her to do a weekly weigh in but she told me yesterday she is taking Friday off the gym so I dont know if she will be reliable to weigh me once a week so I might just be better to pick a day and do it myself. I don't neccessarily like Friday nights because then I can't share it with you so I might go back to posting whatever my scale says Friday mornings so I can be in line with Marie and Sarah and that was working before.
My goal for today is to take another cycle class at the gym and again drink 100 oz of water because I am so bloated and haven't been for a # 2 in a few days.
Ok that's it for now! Have a great Thursday everyone!!

 

[Verobc1]

I wanted to say congrats. I am a fellow small Town Ontario resident. I was also on weight watcher and I had success for my wedding but then got pregnant and now almost 4 years later I am trying to follow weight watchers on my own since I can't really afford joining right now and i am using this board as my meeting to keep me accountable. I just really wanted to say hi and introduce myself

 

[thelast20]

Now that's more like it!!! I'm so glad to hear the postivity back. You are beautiful Lisa and this is your year... lets keep it up

Marie

 

[chubbygirl]

I wanted to say congrats. I am a fellow small Town Ontario resident. I was also on weight watcher and I had success for my wedding but then got pregnant and now almost 4 years later I am trying to follow weight watchers on my own since I can't really afford joining right now and i am using this board as my meeting to keep me accountable. I just really wanted to say hi and introduce myself

Thanks Verobc and welcome to the forum. I imagine that same thing will happen to me after having kids. I am doing the program on my own right now too because I can't afford it - I do miss the meetings though. I'm be sure to check out your journal if you have one. I just started a new one today called Here comes the bride...6 months to go! so be sure to follow me there and we can work on this together.

 

[chubbygirl]

Now that's more like it!!! I'm so glad to hear the postivity back. You are beautiful Lisa and this is your year... lets keep it up

Marie

Thanks Marie. I started a new diary today called Here comes the bride...6 months to go! Come check it out. I will come back to this one after the wedding.