AthalaRanger
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Hello Jade and Cloudy! Thanks for stopping by my diary. 
So it has been a while, and I've been pretty much maintaining my weight at around 75 Kg. It can swing up a little or down a little (Going UP much more often than down), but so far all I've managed is to go back to 75.x and stay around there.
I've incorporated a fair amount of weight training and found some dumbbells / also improvised some stuff so now I can incorporate isolation movements for upper body (Which is FAR better than just doing bodyweight exercises). I'd like to join a gym sometime on the future, but at the moment I just don't have the guts to do it.
As far as emotional eating, at first I tried to completely detach from food (Essentially it would mean making food as less enjoyable as possible, until I just didn't care for eating for any reasons other than 'I need to'. So, eating strictly for nutrition and not for flavor/emotions), and I think it would have worked, but I ended up desisting and never doing that in the first place.
I ate around 3000 calories for a couple weeks, and I seem to be able to maintain my weight (as long as I'm training / doing some exercise) at that level. Lately I've been eating around 2500 cals and my weight has come down a little, however I haven't done this for any length of time, so I'm still weighing around 75 - 74 Kg.
What I've been trying to do is to work along with my habits so I can stop being stuck at this weight. You see, here you have two options, you can either work WITH your habits, or AGAINST them. For me, trying to detach from food would have been working against them.
It's not that one option is better than the other, but we acquire those habits over the length of a lifetime, and trying to get rid of them is going to take a good deal of effort and time. That's why, at least while I'm still trying to lose weight, it makes sense to work with those habits. Dieting (I.e: eating at a deficit) and exercising consistently both require effort, and I also need to deal with anxiety / feeling depressed (I don't want to say 'depression'), so I really don't need to add fixing a lifetime habit to that equation, and I'd be spreading myself thin if I did that.
For me I'm not exactly sure anymore if it's strictly an issue of emotional eating or possibly just binge eating. When I'm eating 'at will', what I'd do is pretty much binge on stuff and wouldn't stop until I'm really stuffed. Emotions can be involved, but not always will be involved, so it's also a bit of a habit for me.
So even when I've tried to avoid binging (even while being successful for a while), I've over and over and over again ended up failing every once in a while, and that's pretty much all it takes for me to offset the progress of entire weeks!
So after recognizing the problem, I've trying to work WITH that so hopefully I can stop being stuck at the same weight!! So instead of binging on bad stuff, I try to eat as little as possible during other times of the day, and then I have most of my calories on one sitting. I'll include a lot of veggies, and eat proper food instead of just crap (which is how I got to be +100 kilos; binging on junk day in and day out) and drink non-calorie or low calorie drinks with said meal.
So working with that habit, I can satisfy the psychological craving without ending in the unfortunate position of either overeating, or eating properly for a while and then erase all my progress in a single day!
So this is more of a reflection more than anything, but I hope it helps to anyone who reads it.
Take care folks!
So it has been a while, and I've been pretty much maintaining my weight at around 75 Kg. It can swing up a little or down a little (Going UP much more often than down), but so far all I've managed is to go back to 75.x and stay around there.
I've incorporated a fair amount of weight training and found some dumbbells / also improvised some stuff so now I can incorporate isolation movements for upper body (Which is FAR better than just doing bodyweight exercises). I'd like to join a gym sometime on the future, but at the moment I just don't have the guts to do it.
As far as emotional eating, at first I tried to completely detach from food (Essentially it would mean making food as less enjoyable as possible, until I just didn't care for eating for any reasons other than 'I need to'. So, eating strictly for nutrition and not for flavor/emotions), and I think it would have worked, but I ended up desisting and never doing that in the first place.
I ate around 3000 calories for a couple weeks, and I seem to be able to maintain my weight (as long as I'm training / doing some exercise) at that level. Lately I've been eating around 2500 cals and my weight has come down a little, however I haven't done this for any length of time, so I'm still weighing around 75 - 74 Kg.
What I've been trying to do is to work along with my habits so I can stop being stuck at this weight. You see, here you have two options, you can either work WITH your habits, or AGAINST them. For me, trying to detach from food would have been working against them.
It's not that one option is better than the other, but we acquire those habits over the length of a lifetime, and trying to get rid of them is going to take a good deal of effort and time. That's why, at least while I'm still trying to lose weight, it makes sense to work with those habits. Dieting (I.e: eating at a deficit) and exercising consistently both require effort, and I also need to deal with anxiety / feeling depressed (I don't want to say 'depression'), so I really don't need to add fixing a lifetime habit to that equation, and I'd be spreading myself thin if I did that.
For me I'm not exactly sure anymore if it's strictly an issue of emotional eating or possibly just binge eating. When I'm eating 'at will', what I'd do is pretty much binge on stuff and wouldn't stop until I'm really stuffed. Emotions can be involved, but not always will be involved, so it's also a bit of a habit for me.
So even when I've tried to avoid binging (even while being successful for a while), I've over and over and over again ended up failing every once in a while, and that's pretty much all it takes for me to offset the progress of entire weeks!
So after recognizing the problem, I've trying to work WITH that so hopefully I can stop being stuck at the same weight!! So instead of binging on bad stuff, I try to eat as little as possible during other times of the day, and then I have most of my calories on one sitting. I'll include a lot of veggies, and eat proper food instead of just crap (which is how I got to be +100 kilos; binging on junk day in and day out) and drink non-calorie or low calorie drinks with said meal.
So working with that habit, I can satisfy the psychological craving without ending in the unfortunate position of either overeating, or eating properly for a while and then erase all my progress in a single day!
So this is more of a reflection more than anything, but I hope it helps to anyone who reads it.
Take care folks!
, if not, then it's only a modest amount.