Saturday November 10 2007
Breakfast: 9:00 Toast with plum and cinnamon jam. A boiled egg. Weetbix with soy milk and tinned peaches. Coffee with a little hilo milk.
Lunch: 1:00 2 slices wholemeal bread. 100 gm cottage cheese with a tomato, 2 mushrooms, and some yellow capsicum. ~ 1 c watermelon. Diet lemon drink. Coffee with milk.
Snack 5:00 black tea. 6:00 4 fresh dates.
Dinner: 7:30 2/3 c spaghetti. Sauce of evo oil, onion, garlic, 140 gm turkey mince (I was looking forward to beef mince and ticked off when I realized I'd put the wrong one in, but it tasted great!), tinned tomatoes, carrot, capsicum, lots mushrooms, chicken stock. 4 dates. 1 tub diet apricot yoghurt. Bottle of diet ginger beer.
Exercise: No.
I weighed myself at the shopping centre today and the scales showed 73 kg. Since I last weighed myself 10 days ago, I've gained a kilo. And the last weight was a gain too. I've finally changed my siggie now. I hadn't bothered to put the last increase on (from 71.3 – 72 kg on 31 October), though I put it in my diary. At that time I wasn't sure how real the increase was and thought it would probably drop again in a couple of days!! I knew I needed to tighten up – and I did, but ... clearly not tight enough!! Again, maybe this amount has an element of the random in it – but however I look at it, there's no endorsement there of what I'm doing.
Yet the food I've posted doesn't look too bad. I think I've been careless about amounts. Even, or maybe especially, the ambiguously numbered one slice of bread. I had a slice more often – I'd decided to have more carbs in my snacks, thinking that this wouldn't help me lose weight in the short term, but would help me even out the cravings I was getting at one stage. It did still fit the original eating plan I had, which I'd been told would make me lose weight at the weight I am now. Yet, I know I was cutting those slices thick!! I stopped buying the Vienna batards, but maybe I made things worse, because I bought a loaf on which the normal surface area was higher, and didn't reduce the width of the slice enough. What if I recounted the last week and every time it says 1 slice I counted that as 2. I can't be bothered chasing the writing – sometimes I have bread, sometimes crackers, but I bet it would add up. On a day when I ate a lot of bread it could be as much as 6-7 extra slices. Then I haven't always weighed my protein either. And the amount of dates I was eating at a sitting was too high. 160 cals worth, when I want it to be 60-80 to fit as one serve of fruit. I haven't weighed myself on the official scales for 2 weeks either. So if for example it was 10 days x probably 350 extra calories for bread, 100 extra for dates, and 100 extra for protein.... 5500 extra calories and it only takes 3500 (or something like that), to make a pound. Good grief.
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I was a bit too full a couple of times, hungry a few times... I weighed myself every morning on those unreliable scales that I thought I was getting the measure of... I didn't expect to gain, but truthfully I guess I should have expected it, if I had been paying more attention to this, instead of thinking that going through the motions would be good enough just now. Sometimes I use my doublethink for good, but this time, not. OK.
So today I bought a sliced loaf!! I expect the others in my family will be sorry about that too, but for the time being they will have to suffer. Also I went back to only 4 dates at a time, but I know that I should replace them with a different fruit altogether. They're just too much of a trigger food for me.
I have that thought I can use now, about being glad I'm not eating the wrong food, because I want to lose weight. I need to use that more and eat less. That sounds like nothing much but I find it quite powerful when it comes to cravings. I don't really need to eat so much food in order to be able to eat with control. (I hope!!!!!!!!) So my dates are gone. I ate the second 4 then went to the fridge to get them to eat. I hadn't even noticed that I'd eaten them!! That says something all by itself I think. Mindless eating. I am too tired tonight I must say, too many short nights lately.
I know I also need to sort out my exercise, but there are many things that can affect that, I want a food plan that works regardless, and I reckon I need these changes to get that.