I don’t know what to post about the last 10 days. At first I thought I would just keep the diary off line and post when I got back on – but 10 days' worth is too long.
I am just fully noticing what it was that was missing, now that I am back on line and feeling that things are okay again. While I was off I just got an increasing sense of being deprived and didn’t cope as well as I had been. Reading other people’s diaries and knowing that I am connected again makes me feel happier and in control. Oh ok - light bulb. This food thing is a control thing for me – and the internet being pulled on me and not being able to fix it myself is a lack of control thing. So that was a bit more pressure. I was worried that having been off-line and feeling that this had become a battle after all might be something that would stay with me once I was reconnected – like it was just the end of a honeymoon period. It’s good to know that wasn’t the case.
I think my food was not too bad at all – but not as good as usual. My feelings about food deteriorated quite a lot. In the last few days I started thinking often about the kind of food that I don’t want to eat at all – fat and sugary. Last night I wrote a long muddled whinge about how bad I was feeling. I didn’t have cravings as such but I was starting to think about food constantly, in an unhealthy way, and to feel bored with the food on my plan. Tonight it’s suddenly good food again! LOL.
My exercise was way off. Of 10 days I only exercised 5. I did actually find the phone calls and waiting around for people to help fix this internet problem constantly interfered with my plans – mainly because they didn’t contact me when they said they would. Having the internet isn’t necessary for me to get more healthy but it sure helps a heap, so it was worth giving it some priority too. Then there was the mechanic who turned up 2 ½ hours early. Also there was the night I drove my daughter to hospital because her fever was making her so hysterical and achy. Also I started working again for the first time in quite a while – and oh boy was it ever exhausting!! So there was plenty of interference and 3 days where I don’t really see how I could have managed to walk no matter how determined I was being. Yet I’m still aware that I wasn’t really well set up to meet the challenge of a stressful period. My food was pretty much automatic – and still was knocked a bit off target. My first day at school I didn’t even manage my water, though I had thought it was a total given by now. My exercise was not automatic and it really suffered because of that I think. It is still not properly sorted out even now. However, I haven’t ever thought that I wouldn’t do it because I couldn’t be bothered. – it’s been more of a time management issue.
Some good things I did were choosing to go with my daughter and husband to the Maritime Museum in Fremantle instead of staying home getting organized - I still think that was a better choice than going for a walk by myself, even though it used up all my spare time last Sunday. I had to climb a mountain of stairs and was amazed at the cramped conditions the Australian submariners lived in. Seriously it would be torture to me, yet our guide had done it for 17 years! (Hmm. As long as my current obesity. Over a certain size our bodies turn into prisons.) Also good was finding the best choice for lunch while out at a market I hadn’t been to before. Also going in to hospital well prepared with lots of crackers, almonds, V8 juice and a new bottle of water just in case. I still remember a good eating patch foundering on a 2-3 (nightmare) days in at the children’s hospital 2 years ago. Also, I stopped on the way home from the hospital and bought everyone else KFC but still went home and ate some chicken from the fridge with a microwaved potato and quick fix V8 vege juice once more. Tonight I bought the children KFC and the smell seemed good again for the first time in a while. I reminded myself of how unpleasant I now find it to get a mouthful of fat or oil and how noticeable it is. That helped. One thing I have started to get better at - from necessity and from less internet - earlier nights.
I can't fit in all the food for so long. I have just included this week's.
Sunday 11 February
Breakfast ~ 9:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk, 1/3 C peaches. 1 slice of wholemeal toast with minimal margarine and strawberry jam. 1 boiled egg. ½ glass tomato juice. 1 C White coffee ~ 40 ml Hilo milk .Lunch 12.00 Box of melon. Lowfat cappuccino. 1 Salada cracker. Big handful of almonds. Snack 4:15. 400 ml Pepsimax. Dinner: 2 lean grilled chicken thighs, microwaved potato, corn cob, ~ 2 C salad inc.1/2 tomato, ~ 3 blackolives. Balsimic vinegar. low fat yoghurt with 1 nectarine.. Exercise None.Water: (?) 2250ml +Yesterday’s Bedtime: 12:30
Monday 12 February
Breakfast ~ 7:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk, 1/3 C peaches. 1 slice of wholemeal toast with minimal margarine and strawberry jam. 1 boiled egg. ½ glass tomato juice. 1 C White coffee ~ 40 ml Hilo milk .Lunch 1:30 2 Salada crackers, 100gm low fat cottagae cheese, 1 tomato, 1 nectarine. Snack 7:00 ½ Salada. Dinner: 2 lean grilled chicken thighs (with herbs), microwaved potato, 3 slices beetroot. 1 V8 vege juice box. low fat yoghurt with 1 nectarine. 400 ml Pepsimax. Exercise None.Water: (?) 1500ml Yesterday’s Bedtime: 12:00
Tuesday 13 February
Breakfast ~ 7:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk, 1/3 C peaches. 1 slice of wholemeal toast with minimal margarine and strawberry jam. 1 boiled egg. ½ glass tomato juice. 1 C White coffee ~ 40 ml Hilo milk .Lunch 1:30 2 Salada crackers, low fat cheese, 1 tomato, 1 pear. Snack 4:30 1 Salada. 1 V8 vege juice. Dinner: 5:30 Lean lamb casserole, with potato, carrot, parsnip celery, peas . Later, 1 apricot diet yoghurt, 2 weetbix, ½ C diced peaches, 1 C low fat soy milk, 1 blueberry/banana muffin. Exercise 1hr Carine ~ 4km. Water : (?) 1500ml Yesterday’s Bedtime: 11:30
Wednesday 14 February.
Breakfast ~ 7:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk, 1/3 C peaches. 1 slice of wholemeal toast with minimal margarine and strawberry jam. 1 boiled egg. ½ glass tomato juice. 1 C White coffee ~ 40 ml Hilo milk .Lunch 12:15 Handful of raw almonds, V8 vege juice box, 1 fortune cookie. Snack 5:00 2 weetbix, 1/3 C diced peaches, 1 C low fat soy milk. Dinner: 150gm tinned red salmon, 100 gm tinned corn, 1 med. Microwaved potato, 2-3 slices beetroot, tinned asparagus . 2-3 C salad, Blueberry/banana muffin. Exercise 37 minutes local walk.Water: 2500ml Yesterday’s Bedtime: 9:30
Thursday 15 February
B]Breakfast[/B] ~ 7:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk, 1/3 C peaches. 1 slice of wholemeal toast with minimal margarine and strawberry jam. 1 boiled egg. ½ glass tomato juice. 1 C White coffee ~ 40 ml Hilo milk .Lunch 12:30 2 Salada crackers, hard low-fat cheese, V8 vege juice box. Snack 5:00 Leftover lamb stew that I forgot to take for lunch. Dinner: 7:00 Lots of fried fish, some with sugary marinade (because I ate the bits my daughter didn’t eat, not after I had eaten my dinner – before), 2 slices wholemeal bread, 3 C salad, with lots of broccoli and celery, about 3 olives, cucumber, tomato, capsicum, carrot. 1 nectarine, ½ C low fat yoghurt. Exercise None.Water: 1500ml Yesterday’s Bedtime: 10:30
Friday 15 February
Breakfast ~ 7:30 2 weetbix, 1C lowfat soy milk, 1/3 C peaches. 1 slice of wholemeal toast with minimal margarine and strawberry jam. 1 boiled egg. ½ glass tomato juice. 1 C White coffee ~ 40 ml Hilo milk .Lunch 12:30 2 slices wholemeal bread, grilled chicken, V8 vege juice box. Snack 5:00 Sugar snap peas and 1 Salada cracker. Dinner: 9:00 Thai chicken (with liquid drained) – chicken, bamboo shoots, zucchini, 1 C rice. 2 weetbix, 1/3 C diced peaches, 1 C soya milk. Exercise ½ hour local walk.Water: 2000ml Yesterday’s Bedtime: 12:00