This is the time

I passed the eclair test! :D

Well I’m happy about how my food panned out today. I was rushed and so didn’t eat the veges I’d planned to have before I went out for this afternoon tea, and when I first got there and saw the little chocolate slices I stopped thinking about how little I could deviate from my plan and started thinking about how much I could deviate!! I was pretty hungry by the time we started and everything was too high in fat to eat a bunch of – plus that would have been inappropriate for the scenario. Anyway I had planned not to eat anything sweet until the end, and waited until I had stopped feeling actually hungry to have the little cream puff thing. I don’t think it would have added much more sugar to my diet than the little bit of jam I have every morning. I certainly didn’t end up with any cravings, which is very heartening.

We had take away for dinner. I can see a number of healthy options these days – I thought I might have had a noodle soup, or Subway, but ended up buying a couple of pieces of Portugese skinless chicken from Red Rooster. I decided not to bother with their potatoes (cause how cooked?) or salads (cos not enough salad for the money), and came home and popped a potato in the microwave and grabbed a bowlful of salad veges that I didn’t bother to cut up but none-the-less enjoyed.

I went for my walk before breakfast because the weather is hot and I thought having it in the morning would make sure nothing disrupted it later in the day. I got up a bit late though so it was still pretty hot by the time we got back – my dog was slowed down too!! I really need to put more effort in on more of the bedtimes.

It was a good day. Everyone was very nice to everyone and presents were well received all round. I have been playing Cryptic Christmas Carols on line and having fun and I feel content.

Breakfast ~ 9:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Afternoon Tea ~ 3:00 A little piece of sausage roll, a toast square, about 5 Jatz crackers, creamed cheese dip (2 bits), Blue Castello (2 bits), pate (2 bits), pesto (2 bits) 1 small passionfruit éclair, 2 cups white coffeeSnack: 5:30 1 stalk celery, 1 carrot Dinner: 7:15 2 pieces of skin free Portugese, Red Rooster chicken, 1 microwaved potato, 1 capsicum, 1 carrot, 1 stick celery, 1 carrot, Tub of apricot diet yoghurt. Exercise: 8:30 am 37 min moderate speed walk. Water: 25000ml Bedtime: 11:25 (well it's a bit closer to 11:00 :eek: )
On plan:20 days Achieved food target: 18 days Exercised: 14 days All goals: 5 days
 
Last edited:
Another good day. I reckon I actually did a fair bit of work, shopping - housework etc – I was hungry in the afternoon and tired before dinner. I actually wanted to rest then but didn’t have time, so I just had the little snacks, and made dinner, and by the time I sat down to eat I wasn’t really tired any more. I ended up having my walk a bit too late, the street lights came on before I’d gone too far. As I left home there were cockatoos making their evening din and by the time I was on the way home there were frogs croaking everywhere. I don’t really understand how there can be so many frogs when we’re not close to a lake – they must spawn in people’s pools and fish ponds.

I knew I would be late to bed tonight because The Biggest Loser finale was on and it didn’t finish until 11.30. I was surprised because it was the one other people were watching in America just a week or two back. I thought our programming would have been a lot further behind. Anyway, I had tons of salad in the fridge – I was too full to eat it but I had figured it would be backup if I got the TV watching munchies. I didn’t need it though. I was too interested in the show – plus doing washing in the adverts. It was amazing and inspiring. I was interested also in how differently I felt about it than the last time I saw a finale like that. Last time was an Australian version and I had actually watched all the episodes. I found the finale very interesting and moving – but I felt like it was very much removed from my life. I don’t do their punishing exercise routines, and I’m not trying for rapid weight loss, but now I feel like the experiences of those people have a lot in common with those of other people on this forum and with what I want to for myself. It’s too soon for my weight to have changed much but I’m really noticing the difference in my attitude to food and exercise. It’s a good change. I wonder why it took me so long to make it.

Breakfast ~ 8:30 2 slices wholemeal toast, 2 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, vegemite spread, 1 boiled egg, 1 C SoGood, 1 C tomato juice, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch ~ 12.00 1 cob corn, 2 soya and linseed corn thins, 1 stalk celery, 1 carrot, ~ 90 gm cottage cheese mixed with 1 small nectarine . Snacks[/B: 3:30 2 Premium crackers 5:00 1 C soy milk 6:30 10 sugar snap pea pods Dinner: 7:40 2 pieces skinless fat trimmed chicken thighs, Rissoto (1 C basmati rice, mushrooms, zucchini, onion, olive oil, a little hard cheese), a little salad (3/4 C?) (lettuce, tomato, carrot, cucumber, olives) 1 nectarine. Exercise: 8:20 pm 35 min moderate paced walk. Water: 2750ml Bedtime: 12:30
On plan:21 days Achieved food target: 19 days Exercised: 15 days All goals: 5 days
 
Last edited:
It is a mystery why we wait so long to make our changes (usually ill heath is our motivator) but I'm like you in that regard, the change feels so good it's hard to ever consider letting ourselves go back to that old 'unchanged' person.

Your diary inspires me through your dedication to tell it the way it happens. I think it's great when people speak of all the highs and lows on their journey. I almost sense your diary as being therapeutic for you - as it should be, right ??
 
i love the biggest loser! those shows inspire me to keep going, and stay motivated! great job with the positive attitude, just keep focused and on the right track and you'll be that much closer to your goal =-)
 
It is a mystery why we wait so long to make our changes (usually ill heath is our motivator) but I'm like you in that regard, the change feels so good it's hard to ever consider letting ourselves go back to that old 'unchanged' person.
I have tried to change many times before. I think when I was younger I might have hoped to diet quickly and then change to something healthy - but never quite got past the lack of decent food to start off with. Then the past few years I've tried to change but always to something I didn't think was really "normal" - I thought it was something special I needed. Currently I feel like what I am doing IS normal, or should be, and that what I was doing previously is what was strange.
Your diary inspires me through your dedication to tell it the way it happens. I think it's great when people speak of all the highs and lows on their journey. I almost sense your diary as being therapeutic for you - as it should be, right ??
:D Oh my diary is 100% therapeutic for me!! I also want it to track all the factors that might be keeping me on track, or show where I started to go off track, if (when?) that happens, because I have learnt from some of my old failures, and I'm not sure right now what it might be that I still have to learn.

In the last few years there were two times that I made changes I totally expected to last. One was my no cow's milk change. I believed it could stop my cancer returning so I was meticulous with it. Like milk was poison. It cut out such a lot of high sugar food that it made me lose weight, but I hunted as hard as I could for replacements that contained fat and sugar, but not milk, and I don't remember trying to exercise. Anyway, after one whole year I was stuck in hospital for 2 weeks having plastic surgery. The food was good, but I couldn't control it much, my choices were limited by the no milk thing and after the first week all the menus recycled (=boring). Then my sister bought me chocolates, to be kind. And I got mobile enough to find the vending machine. And I thought that since the poison was in me anyway , there wouldn't be any difference between a little bit and whole bunch all at once, and that I would start again tomorrow. Well the next tomorrow after this one. Well I would start again next week - better eat fast because starting again next week!!! etc. Also I had found out some things that made me less sure about the no milk thing anyway.

The other time was a high fat no sugar diet that I was going to take the fat out of once I had the sugar under control. Also I was dancing for exercise. I lasted four weeks and while it was going well I didn't feel tempted at all and I did feel like another person. A better person. Then, it was hard to eat all the fibre/food while I was working and lacked time, my knee started playing up badly (this is when I first found out it isn't in such good shape now), but the worst thing was this unexpected extra special morning tea at work with masses of fantastic looking little sweet things that normally aren't available - AND THAT I MIGHT NEVER SEE AGAIN!! Anyway I just had a little, but it was like that first chocolate, not planned, not controlled, and I kept saying the exact same things I said about the no milk - let's squash in as much of this sugary stuff as possible before starting again. Mistress of internal doublethink = felici.

Yeah. So writing things down does tend to throw doublethink into relief I hope. I also think that the idea that someone else might read it might make me a little less likely to try to bullshit myself. I hope I would at least notice that what I was saying sounded like rubbish, or didn't match up to what I'd said before - or that someone else might remind me.

Thank you for listening!!

i love the biggest loser! those shows inspire me to keep going, and stay motivated! great job with the positive attitude, just keep focused and on the right track and you'll be that much closer to your goal =-)

Yes. The show is inspiring. I find the biggest losers on here inspiring too - and they're here every day!! How good is that!

Thanks for your comments. I do find them helpful. It's so good to feel in touch with other people who have a losing attitude too.
 
Last edited:
I totally agree with you. This diary is very therapeutic, and it should be for everyone. just wondering.. but what did you have plastic surgery on? Was it a bad experience? and what were you in the hospital for, for such a long time? if its too personal.. just tell me and i'll butt out.

I hope you keep using this forum for support, thats what we're all here for.. we all need to support eachother to reach all of our goals.

I know what you meant by not really being able to stick to something. me and my boyfriend dan have tried to be on diets together before. I have had such a low self-esteem for such a long time. but we'd stay on the diet until we were hungry, and then would pig out! But i finally found this forum and got tired of feeling so badly about myself. So i am trying to stay on the diet. and i got advice about when i cheat on my diet and want to go back on.. not to consider it restarting.. and more of re-committing. I realized we all have to recommit ourselves everyday.
 
I had breast reconstruction when I had surgery for breast cancer. However the first lot didn't work out and so I had the surgery I mentioned above - which was a lot more successful. I don't have any issues talking about it though maybe some people might have issues reading about it. The kind of surgery I had is called latisimuss dorsi flap reconsctruction. It's quite a big operation and I was a bit slow to recover, and because of the problems I had the first time I was a bit reluctant to go home until I was sure I was safe.
 
Walked late again today. I know I will need to up the ante on these walks. I think it would be good to go early in the day. The late walk tonight was gorgeous – fed and happy, pretty much finished my duties for the day. Wonderful sunset, birds singing like crazy (honeyeaters and finches mainly I think). Only I do run the risk of forgetting until it’s too late, or somehow missing out. It would be better to go in the morning and then if I want I could do another one in the evening.

Tomorrow is my weigh day. I want to go to bed on time to make sure I’m up bright and early. Hmm. Better not walk first or that will put my pattern out.

Breakfast ~9:45 1 slices wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg, 1 C SoGood, 1/2 C tomato juice, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch ~ 3.00 Eggflip - 1 C soy milk, 1 egg beaten, nutmeg. 1C tomato juice. 4 Premium crackers Dinner: 7:20 Salmon pasta (1C pasta, 130 gm tinned red salmon, green olives, onion, 2 tomatoes, parsley), a medium salad (1 C?) (lettuce, tomato, carrot, cucumber, olives). Snack 10:00 1C watermelon Exercise: 8:20 pm 35 min moderate paced walk. Water: 2250ml Bedtime: 11:00
On plan:22 days Achieved food target: 20 days Exercised: 16 days All goals: 5
 
Last edited:
i know what you mean. its always nice to walk in the mornings... the air is crisp and peaceful. But around here... its WAY too cold. lol. thats why i like playing DDR
 
My new weight is 93.6 kg (206 lb). For this week that is down 0.6 kg or 1.3 lb. It doesn’t seem like much, but it’s ok. There is a part of me that would love this fat to just be falling off instantly, and I do know how to make it happen faster, but I doubt that’s the best way for me. I really want to make this change a regular sustainable thing. I might up my exercise though, especially as it’s holiday time.

I checked out the other scales at the shopping centre too, in case the ones I have been using break down or something and the good news is those scales cost half the price -and say I weigh 1.3kg (2.9 lb) lighter than the others!!

We have a little street party to go to tonight so I need to fit in an earlier walk. I wish I had remembered about that earlier. I remembered the party – but the consequence has just occurred to me and it’s already hot out now. I went off without my water this morning too.

I like what bm said about recommitting daily. I have been thinking about it. I was not sure about whether it was something I wanted to take on board at first because I look forward to a time when living my plan has become second nature to me. However, I do recognize that if it ever comes that time will be a looooong way off, and also, that if it never comes, recommitting every day is a much better deal for me than being fat.

I’m back from the street party. I ummed and aahed about whether to make my own salad with light sour cream or yoghurt, then decided yoghurt so there’d be something there that I knew what was in it, then brought bread rolls and realized I couldn’t have a roll and also my salad anyway, and when I got there, there were three other potato salads (conventional) and I thought great, I just wasted all that time and money to make a giant salad that no one else will want but me, only I don’t want it. Only then lots of people ate it anyway and were quite complimentary. And one old lady looked like she might have liked it even better if she could have been sure the oil had been sprayed on the potatoes, instead of brushed on! So there you go. Now will I worry about it all over again for Christmas Eve or just go with my healthy plan? (This is my salad: roast potato wedges, lemon and dill dressing made with low fat yoghurt and whole grain mustard, baby spinach, cherry tomatoes)

When I first got there and saw all the food on the table I had that same thing as at Mum’s. I just instantly wanted to eat lots of unhealthy things because wow everyone does make an effort and presents the food beautifully, and though it’s salad everyone has added all the extra things that make them different and interesting (and fatty and sugary)!! I started wondering how I could have some and it would somehow be ok. Or if this was an occasion to go off my plan. Only I didn’t really want to. So I started thinking if there was something that looked good that would still be on the plan and wondering what was there that would truly fit. And then the good thing was, that just waiting a little and thinking in the groove for a bit somehow fixed it, and I realized that it wasn’t that important to have croutons, or bacon or fried noodles, or nuts, or semi dried tomatoes in oil, or sugary mayonnaise etc., and that I could do what I’d planned. Oh good. So that is a thing to remember. Table loads of food make me want to go crazy, but waiting a while and searching for the healthy food helps put me back in control. Cool. :cool: I ate what I planned and I don't feel in anyway deprived. :cool: It was good to catch up an just enjoy the company - and the food I had was good!!

Breakfast ~8:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg, 1 C SoGood, 1/2 C tomato juice, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch ~ 12.00 4 Premium crackers, low fat cottage cheese, tomato, celery, an orange. Dinner: 7:20 BBQ Steak, yummy fresh wholemeal bread roll, a little lettuce, tomato, carrot. 2 cans Pepsi Max. Exercise: 5.35 pm 20 min moderate paced walk. Water: 2250ml Bedtime: ~ 1:30
On plan:23 days Achieved food target: 21 days Exercised: 17 days All goals: 5 days
 
Last edited:
I like that you keep track of how on plan you are. Its a good idea. I think i'll start doing it for my new years resolution. There are times when its ok to cheat on the diet. Its better to cheat only if you really want to... but only a little bit. For example if you go to a party and there are tables filled with cookies and brownies. Instead of having 3 of each type on the table, try 1 cookie and 1 brownie. And in case you do have a bad day... dont worry, we all have those days.

Congrats on staying on track. i would have cracked under the pressure. :D
 
. I look forward to a time when living my plan has become second nature to me. However, I do recognize that if it ever comes that time will be a looooong way off, and also, that if it never comes, recommitting every day is a much better deal for me than being fat.

This won't take as long as you think. Consistency plays in a major stealth-like way of letting this happen almost without your awareness. It becomes reflex to the strong minded.

and congrats on the 1.3 lbs. Weight loss is a series of time events and again, consistency brings great results over a series of sessions. What an incredible loss you will have if you duplicate the 1 week + 1.3 lbs loss over the next 26 weeks !!
 
Last edited:
When I first got there and saw all the food on the table I had that same thing as at Mum’s. I just instantly wanted to eat lots of unhealthy things because wow everyone does make an effort and presents the food beautifully, and though it’s salad everyone has added all the extra things that make them different and interesting (and fatty and sugary)!! I started wondering how I could have some and it would somehow be ok. Or if this was an occasion to go off my plan. Only I didn’t really want to. So I started thinking if there was something that looked good that would still be on the plan and wondering what was there that would truly fit. And then the good thing was, that just waiting a little and thinking in the groove for a bit somehow fixed it, and I realized that it wasn’t that important to have croutons, or bacon or fried noodles, or nuts, or semi dried tomatoes in oil, or sugary mayonnaise etc., and that I could do what I’d planned. Oh good. So that is a thing to remember. Table loads of food make me want to go crazy, but waiting a while and searching for the healthy food helps put me back in control. Cool. :cool: I ate what I planned and I don't feel in anyway deprived. :cool: It was good to catch up an just enjoy the company - and the food I had was good!!

This was absolutely inspirational for me, and I really take what you've learned to heart :)! Keep going with the progress. You're doing great.
And thanks for the encouragement you've left me in my diary as well. You've boosted me so much! =o !
 
Thanks Pinch. I don't even know if that will work all the time for me, but waiting has helped a couple of times now. Funny how these small things can make a big difference.

I have been going crazy for two days trying to make an animated Christmas message. Finally I finished it this evening. It is now quick to do because I know how, but when I started I just had the idea of what I wanted but not much knowledge. I realized at the end that I was acting like I have when I've been trying to make other things. I am not controlled about it at all. I almost missed my walk again. I have had no fruit. Last night I didn’t get to bed until 1:30 – 2:00 and then I didn’t sleep in today, and was back on the computer. It is so in me to act like that. I don’t know how much I want to change it because it is rare for me to act on it, but it is definitely a dangerous behaviour for someone who is trying to make health a priority rather than random obsessions.

Well. Now if I post this and it goes straight in and I don’t read any one else’s posts, I will be only 15 minutes late tonight, and won’t have to edit the bedtime later for once. Yeah. Cos I felt sluggish today. Time to have a nice long sleep. Aaagh. Already had to add on 10 minutes. Run awaaaaaay.

Breakfast ~8:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg, 1 C SoGood, 1/2 C tomato juice, 2 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk eachLunch ~ 2.00 4 Premium crackers, low fat cottage cheese, tomato.. Snack 5:30 1 slice wholemeal bread, 1 stalk celery, 1 carrot Dinner: 9:00 170gm fish, 1 tbspn olive oil, 2 slices wholemeal bread, ~ 1 ½ C salad (lettuce tomato, sugar snap pea pod, carrot, mushroom, 1 tbspn olives Exercise: 8:26 pm 35 min moderate paced walk. Water: 2250ml Bedtime: 11:46
On plan:23 days Achieved food target: 21 days Exercised: 17 days All goals: 5 days
 
Last edited:
This diary doesn't put me to bed on time!! I think because I keep thinking I can catch up. Oh well I will try again tomorrow.

However the diary sure helps keep me on track with other things, maybe because I try to put everything in it. I have thought about doing something I think is wrong for me and then thought about writing it here and how I do NOT want to write it! I've also thought about not making a real effort then just pretending - but that would just be too revolting - so yeah - it does help keep me on track.
 
Back
Top