This is the time

A glass of tomato juice. ( 52 cals)
2 Weetbix with (107 cals)
1C So Good light soy milk (122 cals)
Splenda
A boiled egg (71 cals)
A wholemeal english muffin with (159 cals)
5gm lite margarine and (18 cals)
5 gm strawberry jam. (13 cals)
Coffee with about 40 ml Hi-Lo milk. (20 cals)

2 Wholemeal Saltine crackers divided into 8 little pieces, topped with (110 cals)
100gm cottage cheese and (91 cals)
1 tomato. (19 cals)
A small tin of pumpkin soup. (117 cals)
A small pear. (81 cals)
Coffee with about 40 ml Hi-Lo milk. (20 cals)

2 (tot 130gm) skinless chicken thighs, roasted with herbs and w/o added fat (98 cals)
a medium sized potato (microwaved with skin), (160 cals)
a large salad with lettuce (4 cals),1 tomato (19 cals) , 1 carrot (21 cals), 1 med stalk celery (6 cals), ½ medium cucumber (10 cals), 2 med.mushrooms (8 cals), 5 snow peas (7 cals), 3 sliced olives, (12 cals)
A little no fat, lite dressing. (4 cals)
A tub of diet apricot yoghurt (82 cals)


Total calories: 1431 :)

I don’t normally count calories, I just wondered what an ordinary day’s worth of my food looked like, seeing as I think I eat heaps.

Edit: I just noticed that I didn't actually have that yoghurt last night - it's still in the fridge. What a difference from Saturday!

I went for a walk in the bush at a nearby open space today with my husband and our dog. Brisk. 22 mins. :)

Water: 1500 ml :) Bed: 12.30 :(

It was interesting having another look at what I eat. I reckon I could have a smaller tomato juice at breakfast time and still be having as much as I need. I don't especially look for it. Also I could cut back to half a muffin now. A full breakfast like the one above has been making me feel a bit too full, and I am not ready to eat lunch when I should be. Also I noticed that pumpkin is a controlled vegetable, though still ok to fit in with a tomato at lunch time. However the vege soup I have been buying, I now see has potato as a main ingredient! So that's less satisfactory from my point of view. It could be useful if I was in a terrific rush - I'll check it later.
 
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i for one like counting calories. it makes me feel like i'm keeping myself on-track. You obviously choose good foods to eat... thats a lot for such little calories. good for you. keep it up!
 
This is for yesterday. Monday 11 December.
For some reason I could get in last night but it wouldn't accept my post.

School holidays can be stressful. Today was a good example. I ended up thinking my blood pressure’s going up, and doing some deep breathing while I was preparing dinner. (It helped a lot). In the morning I wasted time trying for ages to do something on the computer that I didn't achieve, and then lost over an hour to delousing my girl’s hair. Then the worst bits were worrying that I had already bought the wrong computer for my son and trying to find out about upgrading it which makes me feel ignorant and stupid anyway, while I was also feeling guilty and that was making it harder to think straight. Then my son rang up (husband: “He wants to speak to you”.), to say his bike has been stolen. Second one in three months. So then my husband is wanting to act cool about the bike but actually still angry....
It was a crumby day. Still it's just ordinary crumby, not really a disaster.

I wasn't seriously thinking about breaking my plan, but I can still feel the bogey woman nearby ready to say “Give it up, it’s too much trouble, hide out here…….”

Walked the 30 minute route – a bit more slowly I think, concentrating on enjoying it. Those sheoaks are great. I swear it’s like they talk to me. Relaaaax. Relaaaax..

Breakfast ~ 8:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1/2 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch 1:30 ~ 2 Salada wholemeal crackers (8 squares), 20 gm hard cheese, 1 tomato, 1 carrot, 1 kiwi fruit . Snack 5:20 glass So Good 720 1 carrot, 1 stalk celery Dinner: 70 gm steak, 50 gm lite cheese, 100 gm corn, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, celery, carrot, capsicum, mushrooms, lite dressing. Tub of diet yoghurt. Exercise: 35 min fairly quick walk. Water: 2500ml Bedtime: 11:30
 
I had a dream last night that I was eating chocolate biscuits (Tim Tams). In my dream I had one before I remembered not to, then later in the dream I was somehow still eating it, thinking, but I don’t have to eat the other half, then later on I was somehow thinking that I had already eaten two, and was eating another, which was so big it seemed kind of like an éclair. There was no enjoyment in my dream just massive guilt - which was not stopping me from eating anyway. Also in my dream I was back working in a place I used to work but had somehow got left behind while all my friends were working in a new section that I didn’t think I had the skills for, also I had invited people over who would soon be expecting food but I had none in the house, also, I was supervising children but somehow not paying much attention and a principal was saying aren’t you supposed to be in there supervising their toileting………

What did I do to make myself have such a BIG GUILT dream? Buy my son a computer, after much careful investigation, that was probably not such a good choice. Not do enough housework? I woke up feeling depressed and lethargic from the dream. I feel normal now though.
 
Maybe it wasn’t a BIG GUILT dream. Maybe it was a FAILURE dream, a fear of failing dream. As though there is a bit of me that is very conscious of all the things I haven’t managed to do – or don’t seem to be able to do well – a whole bunch instantly spring to mind - and it was just out there having a go at me. I did have a lot of failures/mistakes on my mind yesterday – not just the ones I recorded here.
 
OMG!! Is that what the problem is!! Stopping today! Promise!

PS I love your Christmas decorations.
 
Good job on not giving in :) I guess that dream personifies how you used to feel about food, and maybe you're just reflecting back on it.

At least you weren't eating the Tim Tams in real life! I had a weird feeling when I woke up early this morning too, like I'd already eaten 500 calories and would have to keep track of that later in the day. But it was only 7 am, and I THINK I fell asleep right after that, so I'm not entirely sure if I really did eat or not.

Weird, huh? o__o

Well, if you got the wrong computer, could you ever return it?
 
Hi Felici,
I'm no dream expert or anything, but it sounds like you've been pretty focussed on your diet and eating plan lately - it's only natural to have thoughts about food and temptations pop up in your subconscious. It's like the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other telling you it's ok while the Angel makes you feel guilty! Don't worry about it, just keep on doing what your doing and you will get there. At least your only eating Tim Tams in your dreams and not letting it turn into reality. Did it taste good!!;)

Here's another little something that may help spur you on to greatness!!
(Not that I for a second think your going to quit... it just may help somewhere down the track...:))
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Don't Quit​
When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
and forget all about being healthy and thin.
So What! You went over your calories a bit,
It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!
It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done,
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
but facing each challenge will help you grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit,
If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit!
 
Thanks MellyP. I'm sure there will be a time I need to be thinking about that. I don't feel like I'm going to quit either, but I am nervous about how I will go if/when I need to "get back on the horse"! I do perceive this as being a piece of the "Successful weight loss" jigsaw that I have been missing, and am not too experienced with.

I do get quite focussed over a lot of things that must seem small to other people, but because I have made so many unsuccessful attempts to lose weight, I am very conscious of a lot of the little things that have previously contributed to get me off the path I wanted to be on. Today I was remembering that after my second marriage broke up I saw a counsellor for a while and I told him that I was worried I might be doomed to repeat the same mistakes I thought I'd made after my first marriage broke up and he said that I wasn't, because I had changed since then, and learnt things I didn't know then. He was right, and I'm still with the man I met after that - 17 years. Hopefully I have now learnt enough to make the significant differences I need in order to follow this weight loss all the way to the end too.

How cool that this forum is here? I have been wishing and half looking for something that would allow me to get more of a check in, and support. So far I have tried a psychologist, a doctor, and a dietician. I didn't try WeightWatchers or something similar because I went to EasySlim years ago and perceived it as just a lecture, not the kind of support I wanted.


Today's Journal Entry

I had a pretty good day today. I got a bit more done than yesterday. I went to the library with my daughter and she got some more books. A couple of her friends have been keen on particular books lately which may help. The book she liked the most though is about making Christmas things. So I doubt she will read much until she has finished making all the new things in the book! Luckily there are a lot she can do without much help.

I went for my walk in between making dinner and eating it again. I felt a bit more energetic this time. I was hungry so I ate a carrot and a mushroom before I left. I didn’t feel hungry while I was walking though. I have been eating so many veges we have just about run out of them. I will go shopping tomorrow because I also want to weigh myself. Time to make a dent in the Christmas shopping.

It was a nice walk. When I got to the spot with the wattles it looked like someone had popped baubles on the tree next to the track. It had a little flock of pink and grey galahs sitting all over it eating the wattle seeds. Very Christmas in Australia!

Breakfast ~ 8:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch 12:30 ~ 2 Salada wholemeal crackers (8 squares), 20 gm hard cheese, cucumber, capsicum, mushroom, ( I made them into little mini stacks – as I had run out of tomatoes, but wanted not to feel deprived)1 carrot, 1 small peach . Snack 7:00 carrot mushroom Dinner: Spaghetti bolognaise: 150 gm lean minced beef, onion, capsicum, olives, carrot, tomato juice, 1 cup spaghetti, 1 carrot, Tub of diet yoghurt. Supper: 1 glass SoGood Exercise: 35 min fairly quick walk. Water: 2250ml Bedtime: 12:00
 
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Hi! Just wanted to say thank you for posting in my before and after pictures thread :) I can definately use the supprt. You are doing so good with your eating! The word wholemeal isn't even in my dictionary, lol. But you look like you're doing good and your calorie intake is awesome for not usually counting :)
 
I lost a kilo (2.2 lb this week) – exactly the same as last week. That is good. Validating. The coin jammed at first, and I was a bit disappointed, at first, because I forgot to subtract .7 kg, which is what I have been taking off for my shoes! (I weighed them the first time.)

I was unsure about having a walk immediately before dinner, the first time I did it. I wondered if it would make my blood sugar drop too low and make me super hungry. However it actually felt fine, and I remember now that it is in this list.
From Maleficent’s Easy Ways to lose weight – 50 + ideas
39. Take a walk before dinner. You'll do more than burn calories -- you'll cut your appetite. In a study of 10 obese women conducted at the University of Glasgow in Scotland, 20 minutes of walking reduced appetite and increased sensations of fullness as effectively as a light meal. Interesting. I don’t plan on aiming at doing it all the time – but it’s good to know that it’s a positive thing to do, not dodgy. I know it increases endorphins, maybe it increases adrenalin as well.

I noticed a couple of things about my eating tonight. I was watching TV the whole time I was eating, which I haven’t been doing lately. The salad was really crunchy with lots of celery and I actually got a bit tired of eating it because it just took so long and my stomach was full, but all my protein and carbs were mixed in and I thought I should finish it. Then I finally finished eating at almost the same time as the show, but I was still sitting in a lounge chair in front of the TV – and I instantly was thinking I wanted something else! So to me this says TV is a real crap food trigger. Also, I should not make such a BIG salad – and if I think it might be too big I shouldn’t mix some in with the other things, but not mix all of it in. I left out the tomato and olives, and had virtually no dressing on it and used iceberg lettuce, so it wasn’t as nice as usual. I didn’t do that on purpose, I was just rushing and forgot. (I made 4 separate meals at different times tonight – one for each person.) I will be glad when I’m finished that iceberg. It seems insipid now I’m used to cos. This is all important because I want to be happy about eating these salads. I think it is important that I don’t build up any unnecessary sense that I am deprived. I must stay careful of the TV too. (Lucky I don’t often want to watch it these days.)

Breakfast ~ 8:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch 1:30 ~ 2 Salada wholemeal crackers (8 squares), 20 gm hard cheese, 1 tomato, 1 carrot, 1 small peach . Snack 7:00 1 carrot Dinner: 8: 15 Giant salad: 100 gm lean chicken, 10 gm lite cheese, 100 gm corn, lettuce, ¾ red capsicum, 2 medium mushrooms, ½ carrot, sugar snap peas, cucumber, celery. Tub of diet yoghurt. Exercise: 6:50 pm 25 min brisk walk. Water: 2500ml Bedtime: 11:15
 
I definitely had a lack of interest in salad today. Even my lunch time tomato was tart! I need to stay in love with my salads though. I bought some vine ripened tomatoes, instead, cost extra but the smell is divine. Like being in a vege garden. Also I made myself a full 2 serves of potatoes (in my plan but I don’t often bother). (Overcooked them though, so I ate 1 ½! )Also I wrote my dinner down in restaurant language. The truth is, it really was as delicious as it sounds.

I just tried to update my signature and the rules seemed to have changed. Now a maximum of 3 lines. Maybe it’s better recording more against the day anyhow. I keep forgetting if I’ve done it or not and have to count it up on the calendar again!

I have started making a list of all the weight loss methods I have tried. I won’t post it yet because I keep remembering more!!

Breakfast ~ 8:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch ~ 1:00 2 Salada wholemeal crackers (8 squares), 20 gm hard cheese, 1 tomato, 1 carrot, 1 small peach . Snack 6:00 1 stick of celery ~ ½ tspn lite french onion dip Dinner: 7.55 120 gm fresh bream, dipped in eggwhite and flour and pan fried in 1 tbspn virgin olive oil, with a sqeeze of fresh lime juice, 2 small microwaved jacket potatoes, cos lettuce, baby spinach, 1/4 red capsicum, 1 medium mushroom, 5 sugar snap peas, ¾ cucumber, ½ stalk celery, ½ vine ripened tomato, 2 tbspn sliced olives. Balsimic vinegar. ½ cup black grapes. Tub of apricot diet yoghurt. Exercise: 6:30 pm 37 min brisk walk. Water: 2500ml Bedtime: 11:30
On plan:17 days . Achieved food target: 16 days . Exercised: 11 days . All goals: 5 days
 
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Well, I sure like that thought, fsaiidni. When I see my list of unsuccesses I understand why I am less confident than I would be if this was my first or second attempt. Now I look at them all I think I might just put them away for a couple of years. Not very inspirational at the moment.

Right now though. I am doing well.

Oh oh. I just had a thought. My immediate family, me, husband kids, are going to my mum's for afternoon tea on this Sunday. For Christmas. Not a massive Christmas event but important to her. I know she has sweet things planned. It is one thing to have a day off my plan for Christmas but I have three special family Christmas eating things to go to this year and they are all on different days! She already told me very firmly that she doesn't want me to bring anything. Well she said she'll have cheeses - so that's what I'll eat. If I have breakfast late, I can have a vege snack first and her afternoon tea can be the rest of my lunch. I don't know about having anything sweet at all yet. Maybe it will be all right if I plan it in advance and stop at one thing? It will still be an easier thing to recover from than the following weekend - 2 special meals one day after the other + leftovers in the fridge! OK. My current plan is, stop at one sweet thing. Be organized about the evening meal afterwards. Go back on a strict plan til the next weekend and walk extra. I don't plan on never ever having a sugary food again. I am a bit scared - like it might be an alcoholic's first drink.
 
Mum told me more about her menu today. I am definitely having a passionfruit eclair. Then I am definitely going back on plan till Christmas Eve.

This will NOT be like the morning tea that derailed 4 weeks of care two years ago. That was unexpected. This is planned. (LOL) I do have to be determined though.


Breakfast ~ 10:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch ~ 4:00 An egg flip (1 C milk, 1 egg, beaten together and topped with nutmeg, 1 C tomato juice, 2 Salada crackers (8squares) . Dinner: 9:15 Veal parmigana, asparagus and roast vegetables. 150gm veal, 10 gm parmesan, 2 tbspns oil, 4 fresh asparagus, 2 small potatoes, 1 carrot, 1 small piece pumpkin. (Roast veges just smeared with olive oil), 1 tomato, ½ cup black grapes. Tub of apricot diet yoghurt. Exercise: 7:30 pm 15 min brisk walk. Water: 2250ml Bedtime: 1:30
On plan:18 days Achieved food target: 17 days Exercised: 12 days All goals: 5 days
 
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Today was hot (38.8 degrees Celsius - nearly 102 degrees Fahrenheit) and busy with shopping. My daughter wanted to come with me for some of it and as it was getting close to lunch time by the time I had finished my morning chores, we got it ready and packed it into plastic bags. I would have carried it like that but she wanted to use a pretty lined basket I had been given and carried it quite happily. I did a little (unsuccessful) shopping in a tourist area – a boardwalk with shops on it over the ocean and we had our picnic at a little table in the shade next to the beach. That was the good bit of the day.

In the afternoon I took a litre of water with me shopping elsewhere, but drank it all before I was finished and felt thirsty for a little while trying to see where to buy more without going out of my way. Eventually I bought some from an éclair stand that I had carefully not even looked at for more than a tenth of second earlier. I didn’t really want an eclair though. Still it did make me think that I definitely want the one I planned for tomorrow ! I see people eating and drinking unhealthy stuff everywhere at the shops but that doesn’t make me want what they have. I just think that they are making a mistake and feel glad that I don’t feel compelled to make the same one. I think that might be different if I was actually hungry while I was shopping. It kind of bothered me that I ran out of water though because I was feeling tired and I know that feeling thirsty can end up seeming like feeling hungry.

In the evening each of the others in my family wanted something different from the video store that could only be used on the (one) TV in the family room. I negotiated who would get what then went with the children, and chose a couple of movies for my husband. I was getting pretty grumpy by then. I don’t really know why. Just cross that I needed to sort out the sharing I suppose, and that no one was prepared to give up much out of what they wanted, plus I didn’t feel like it was fair that I wasn’t getting a video I was interested in but still had to chose one for my husband. Though now this doesn’t strike me as being worth getting upset about.

When we got home I started trying to do something on the computer. My husband was cooking. We had discussed the meal earlier in the day and I thought it was safe enough though I wondered if I might need to make myself some extra salad. I thought I would try it first and see. However, my daughter wanted me to watch her video with her. I didn’t want to. I told her that and I told my husband that, but then he said he thought I should at least watch some of it while we were eating. He didn’t want to eat his own dinner until later. So I agreed, but then the movie kept sticking, and I finished eating my food and realized that I felt like having more. I felt like TV food. I had ended up, eating a meal I hadn't actually prepared myself, watching a long movie on a Saturday night, with no preparation for how to deal with it probably giving me cravings, and I was also missing my walk time. With the DVD not playing properly I lost whatever patience I had left and got up, told my husband curtly, that I think movies make me want to overeat and I don’t especially want to watch them and don’t have time because I need my walk, and took the dog for a walk instead.

I was really angry. I think ultimately I was angry with myself. I kept thinking things like I don’t want getting angry to stop me from getting healthy, and that I couldn’t expect to not have any negative emotions or stressful times, all the way till I had lost weight, and that other people managed while they were dealing with much worse issues, and that I have to expect to just slog it out sometimes when my feelings aren’t helping, but also feeling like I was too cross to bother doing anything effortful, or care what happened. I was worrying that Christmas was going to turn in to one long stresser, being in situations that will make it hard to stay on track, hard to be the one in control. After Christmas I have my birthday, then a wedding and then New Year as potential banana skins. That is no way to think about them is it? They are for celebrating! About half way through the walk I noticed that I was feeling full, not hungry, and that I still care a lot about being healthy, and noticing nice things around me, weird shaped gum nut caps, and little groups of galahs all over the oval...

Then I came home and had a shower, talked to girl, did housework, talked to boy, did housework. Right now I feel kind of ok and have eaten less than I intended instead of more. The eating is on track, the exercise is on track. I’m late to bed again, but not too badly. I don’t see why I was so angry really. I think it is a control thing. I have never had much natural inclination to try to control other people, but I care a lot about being able to control my own life. I am wary of telling myself to just tough things out because I feel that I have overestimated how much I can achieve by determination alone, at times in the past and prefer not to test myself unnecessarily. I don’t think today was unnecessary testing though. I think it was necessary testing. Sometimes things are tiring or tricky and no amount of planning can make them smooth. So today, I still had enough options left for getting my needs met and stayed on plan. Sometime in the future that won’t happen, and my needs won’t be met and I will have to tough it out, or I will have to deviate from the plan, but stay anxious to return to it asap.

LOL tomorrow the eclair test! :D

Breakfast ~ 7:30 1 slice wholemeal toast, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg. 2 weetbix, Splenda, 1 C SoGood, 1 C coffee with 50ml Hi-Lo milk Lunch ~ 12.30 picnic with my daughter. , 2 Salada crackers (7squares) with a little light cheese and tomato, 1 carrot, 1 nectarine . Dinner: 7:00 150gm grilled lean lamb ¾ cup mashed potato, minted zucchini, Exercise: 7:37pm 35 min brisk walk. Water: 3000ml Bedtime: 12:15
On plan:19 days Achieved food target: 18 days Exercised: 13 days All goals: 5 days
 
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