This beginning is two years in the making

178.8

Uggggh. I had no will power this weekend. And I had THREE days of Thanksgiving, instead of just one. And my family didn't notice the weight loss. My fiancé's family did, but my mom couldn't see it. That was depressing. And I'm up THREE pounds. That's so discouraging. I'm not worried about losing it again, but I don't think I'll make 173 by the wedding. Fail.

Ok enough pity party. I'm back to the grind and my routine today. I MISSED it. And I NEED it. It's so much easier to have willpower when you know what's coming and can plan for it.

Going out to lunch with my bridesmaids today. Going to have chicken and rice at our favorite middle eastern restaurant. Sensible portions, nothing crazy. Then soup and a sandwich for dinner. I may actually be lazy and just eat cereal though.
 
Feeling better

Got back into my routine yesterday and I feel so much better. Spending the last week or so constantly full to the point of feeling ill kind of sucked. :( I am back down to 176.9 so that's great. I shouldn't let such changes on the scale affect me like that, but it does. However, most of the time when it goes up a little I think to myself "You're down almost thirty pounds. Even if you get set back FIVE pounds, you're still way better off than when you started." That seems to get me in a better mood and back on track.

I'm going to take a guess and say I'll be 174 for the wedding. I don't know what makes me think that but that's my guess. I'll let you know in 10 days whether I'm right or not!

My fiancé has started hinting that he would like to lose weight too. He's gained since he and I got together (which I contribute 100% to my cooking) so I've been packing lunches and trying to figure out the number of calories he needs so he can lose but not be hungry. I don't care what size he is, but if he's not happy at the size he's at then we will work to get him to lose weight. :)

Beef bulgogi tonight in lettuce cups. It's been marinating all night and just from the combination of things in the marinade I think this is going to be good.
 
175.6

Down a bunch today, though I know that's mostly in part to me giving blood yesterday. Hopefully it doesn't come up too much in the next couple of days.

I am having issues getting my snacking under control. It's that time of year where everyone brings in snacks and treats and leaves them in our row of cubes at work. And it's hard for me to resist. :-( On top of that, I'm snacking after dinner which I thought I had gotten under control. But I don't even think about what I'm doing until I'm already done and then I kick myself. There are some foods in our house I need to get rid of (or make someone else eat) so I am not tempted.

Spicy shrimp sandwiches for dinner. I'm not sure if I'm actually going to eat these or not, as they don't sound all that appetizing to me. I may just have soup and a sandwich. Something happened to the cereal I love, like the recipe changed or something and I do not like it anymore. So I have totally lost my old standby of food to eat when dinner doesn't sound appealing. :-(
 
No Loss No Gain

Still at 175.6 today. I was expecting to go down a little bit, as I was way under my calories yesterday, but that's ok. It's better than gaining.

I'm not sure how I did it but I successfully fought the urge to snack all day yesterday. I had a scheduled dessert after dinner (peppermint hershey kisses, yum!) but other than that, I ate what I had scheduled to eat. I'm not sure where that will power came from but I'll take it.

The shrimp last night came out well, and my fiance and his friend raved about how good it was. But I still had soup. :) Pulling the exoskeletons off of shrimp is not the best way to get me to want to eat them later. Ew ew ew. They liked it though.

My favorite food tonight, buffalo chicken wraps. OMG I can't wait. MMM!
 
Hi. I've just read your whole diary and thoroughly enjoyed it:) How many days until your wedding? How exciting!!
 
Thank you ecky! I'm not the best writer ever, by I try to be a little entertaining. :)

The wedding is in eight days, December 11. It IS exciting. I'm so excited that I will be done with wedding planning. :-D The whole being married thing is just bonus!
 
No loss

No loss yet again today. This is getting frustrating because I ate way under my calories yesterday.

My fiancé and I work together, (and used to work on the same team) so I sat in on their team meeting yesterday to go over some work that I'm doing that's going to affect them. I found a skirt I hadn't worn in years in the back of my closet and decided to wear that with some tights. It looked pretty good if I do say so myself. One of my old teammates came up to my fiancé and commented on how good I looked and how much weight I'd lost! And my fiancé said he spent more time in the meeting checking me out than actually paying attention. If that's not an endorsement, I don't know what is.

Mexican casserole for dinner tonight and the Jingle Bell 5k tomorrow! Woohoo!
 
Hi,

Read the whole lot in one bite :) , gl to you and keep up the outstanding work.

Can i ask you a few questions?

Whats scales do you use
How do you know that they are accurate ( i move mine an inch and try again and they show different wieights) :(
At what time of day do you weigh your self
How do people feel about the accuracy of things like the Wii ?
Do you drink a lot of water ?

Gl at your next weigh in :) and of course on your wedding day

Steve
 
Whats scales do you use - Just this one currently
How do you know that they are accurate - I don't. I had been using the scale at my gym (which had been calibrated with weights) and once I bought this one I weighed myself on both and they were within .5 pounds of each other so I just assumed it was accurate.
At what time of day do you weigh your self - Right after I get up and go to the bathroom, before I eat or drink anything.
How do people feel about the accuracy of things like the Wii ? I use it, but it's too much of a hassle to turn on the Wii and get to the weigh in every morning. I have no knowledge about it's accuracy.
Do you drink a lot of water ? Yes. I drink probably 80-100 ounces per day.
 
Thanks for the reply.

Where do you get the details for your calorie counting is it from WW? Does it take a lot of time or is it after a while you get used to it and can do it quickly?

Steve
 
I use Sparkpeople.com. And it used to take a lot more time, but I've got a system now that works pretty well. I eat the same breakfast and lunch every week day (I'm not a huge fan of variety), so I can input those meals once and then copy meals from one day to the next. However, you can create numerous "meal plans" and it's one click to add all the food for that meal.

For dinners and weekend lunches I use recipes.sparkpeople.com. I plan out all my meals for the week on Sunday and then input them into Recipes, and then every morning put in the foods that I plan to eat. Before bed I'll update it if I ate off my meal plan which doesn't happen very often as I'm lazy and decide not to eat things because I don't want to update my calories. I find the simple act of recording what I eat makes me hungry, so I try to do it while I'm eating breakfast or a scheduled snack so I don't eat more than I should.
 
Stalled weight loss

That scale is not going anywhere. I even put clothes on after I weighed myself this morning to see if it was just wonky, but it went up a bit, so I guess I'm just not losing. I sort of have it in my head that if i eat badly once that all the weight will magically come back. I still have it in my head that I'm bigger. And I just assume that people see me as being bigger, especially on a day when I eat more like I did on Saturday. It's the weirdest thought process. :(

My 5k was on Saturday and OMG was it cold! The cold really slowed me down. I need to run outside more often to get used to it. But it was a great time. Afterwards I ate out TWICE. Once to celebrate with my mom and sister, and once to hang out with my sisterwives (not really, but that's what we call ourselves) while the guys were out for my fiancé's bachelor party. I ate well at the first restaurant, but not at the second. It doesn't seem to matter much though as I haven't gained anything so I'm not going to sweat it.

I'm getting married in FIVE days. I'm terrified. I'm not ready! Like, I'm ready for the marriage. My fiancé is so great for me and I cannot wait to be married. But I am so not ready for this wedding. How is it there is still so much (expensive!?) crap left to do. Ugh. Hopefully I'll get it done.

We're not having great food this week, but my lunch is a bit lower in calories to keep everything under my limit. We made a big batch of tortilla soup and that's what we're going to have for lunches this week. Dinner tonight is twice baked potatoes. Mmm. It's going to have bacon on it, so I cannot wait.
 
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Try and calm down and just enjoy it. Don't stress about the scales or eating for the nex few days you already have enough to stress about. How much damage can you do in 5 days anyway???
I'm sure that you will be a beautiful bride. :D
 
"It's going to have bacon on it, so I cannot wait."; that's my creed, more or less.

Try not to stress too much about your wedding; I'm sure it will be just as wonderful as you always dreamed it would be!
 
Hey Ecky - I'm just trying to stick to my routine. Same lunch, same dinners, the only thing different is I'm busy all the time. I'm really trying not to stress about the scale, as I only have a few days left and there is very little chance I will lose anymore before the wedding, I just want to make sure I don't gain TOO much. And thanks. I will try to be. :)

SoCoSideShow - Last night my fiance's girls and I started quoting those old beggin strips commercials while the bacon was cooking. "IT'S BACON!" The whole family loves bacon. :)

I'm trying not to stress. But people keep asking me if I'm stressing out and that's making it worse!
 
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Crunch Time

I am down to the wire for this wedding and I am vacillating between cool as a cucumber and freaking out. We've had some pretty major catastophies (a bunch of invitations got lost in the mail) and a lot of minor ones (the bridesmaid dresses do not match my bouquets AT ALL so I have to redo them) but I am SO close to being done with everything. I am so excited to be married, but I am so over this wedding. I'm sure it'll be lovely. But I am almost beyond caring at this point.

I'm having severe body image issues the last couple of days. I went out to dinner with a couple of my bridesmaids over the weekend and I ate a lot more than I normally do, and foods that I normally don't eat. Onion rings, ice cream, not at all in my meal plans. And while I was eating it I literally felt like I was back to being as big as I used to be. I felt like everyone could see how big I had been, simply because I had eaten so much. So when I got up to the bathroom, I was shocked at what I looked like, and I was convinced the mirror was wrong. My face should not be that skinny. My waist should be 4 inches wider. My coat should not be so loose. I worried that I was back to lying to myself about my size and that I'm not really 30 lbs smaller. Last night I had the same sort of bewilderment when I looked in the mirror when I was getting ready for bed. I don't trust my eyes because I spent so much time being so much larger and really just never realizing it. Even if I do think I look smaller, how do I know I really am? It's so confusing. Ugh.

I don't want this to be a negative Nancy post, because other than my psyche being a little off, things are good. I'm down to 174.9 and I'm still pretty sure my guess for my wedding weight (174) will be right. I don't see me losing too much more this week. Especially considering I'm making things the girls love all week so that I can keep them happy and not stressed out from all of the craziness that's going on.

Chicken fingers, clementines, and corn for dinner. Nothing fancy, but tasty and there will be no crying from the little people that they hate what I made. Bonus.
 
Married!!!!!!

Dudes and dudettes, I am now officially a Mrs! Our wedding was on Saturday and it was utterly fantastic. My bridesmaids were fantastic and took care of everything, so I didn't have to stress. Even when the bottom of my dress got covered in mud I was totally cool about it. We then found out my dress was fake taffeta, which meant it was totally washable with dishsoap. Me being cheap TOTALLY paid off.

I totally cried during my vows, and my stoic husband totally cried too. We have a video of the ceremony and you can see me shaking my head at him saying he can't cry too while he was reading his vows. It was hard enough to keep myself from totally losing it (which didn't really work, I cried during most of the ceremony) but seeing him crying was so much worse. BUT! It was a beautiful ceremony. I tried to eat all the yummy food while I was there, but nothing tasted good. I found out the next morning that I had been coming down with a sinus infection which totally makes sense, as my sense of taste is pretty much shot.

I'm now in the middle of my two week vacation, and other than being sick it's going fantastically. We're a bit snowed in right now, but we're loving it. My only concern is the amount of leftover pie. I've had pie at least twice a day since Saturday. On the plus side, I'm not eating much pie, and I'm not eating much OTHER than pie, so I'm down to 174.3, which totally makes my prediction of my wedding weight spot on.

I have one photo to share with you from the wedding. It's crappy iPhone quality but one of my favorite pictures of me and my sister ever.
 
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