Hi Tete

, well done on getting back to it, and reaching one-derland once more.
I invented a saying, which is 'It's better to have lost and gained, than never to have lost at all'. I think back to the amount of weight I have lost on diets... One time it was 60 pounds, another time 45... And at least 3 times I have lost 15 pounds... So that's a grand total of 150 pounds I lost. I think to myself, so what if I regained.. If I hadn't have lost that WHOPPING 150 pounds, I would be massively overweight right now. As it is I haven't been over a UK size 18, which is not so bad. 150 pounds more and I would probably be at least a UK size 30. Looking at it that way, regaining doesn't seem like such a faliure.
The first part is the hardest, now you've done that, there will be no stopping you, I just know it

I always admired your sensible attitude to dieting, you were always steady and consistant with your weight loss throughout the months, and seemed to have less of a daily/weekly yo-yo than a lot of people, and slowly but surely you got seriously hot! And you will do it again.
And, oh god, tell me about child stress. There was a stage when everytime my bf took the kids out I would spend the entire time worrying that he hadn't watched them properly and one had died. Every phone call that didn't get through, every minute they were late home seemed to reinforce that fact. My son has severe special needs as well and I worry so much about the way he is treated when I'm not there.... Its a horrible gnawing feeling in the pit of your stomach isn't it, and a lightheaded panic and fixation. I will probably be like you when they get older and more independant. I cannot even bear to think about when my daughter is old enough to walk to the local shop on her own, let alone have a night out, I will be terrified! So I haven't got any advice, but sending you hugs x
Your boys are gorgeous, and both them and their dates looked amazing on prom night, you must be so proud
1400 calories a day average is amazing, carry on kicking arse, I will be back to check on you soon
