The Time to Hesitate is Through!!

Lady Foodaholic

Lady Foodaholic

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Oh hey there... Well, here I am. Starting a weight loss journal. Yep... Not sure exactly how to go about *starting.* I start an awful lot of things, but only finish a fraction of them. I guess it might help to establish some goals/plans. I saw a thread on here with some questions I should address, so I'll just start with that!


How much weight do you want to lose?
As of yesterday the scale said I was 338.8 pounds. Yikes. I would love to return to being 150 pounds... So if my math is correct, I want to lose about 190 pounds. Wow, that's absolutely horrifying to think about at the moment. I think I'll tackle it in 50 pound increments...

What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
Wow... I don't really know. Obviously I would love to hit my goal tomorrow, but that's not going to happen. After I work on improving my choices and lifestyle for about a year, I think I'll have a better idea. Hopefully I will still be here then, and I will have a better grasp of when I might reach my target.

How do you want to accomplish your goal?
Calorie counting/restriction and some increased physical activity. I would like to get a kitchen scale so I can accurately weigh out foods, and I need to start eating at home more. I just need to be more active and make smart choices, so that's where I am going to start.

Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
No matter who is around to offer support, I need to make sure that I take on the role of being my biggest cheerleader. I tend to sit back and rely on other people to do things for me, or to help me get started... I need to stop that. I'm not 5 years old, and my husband is not my mommy. I need to grow up and support myself for once.

How realistic is your goal?
I think it's realistic. I'm 5'9" tall, and when I weighed 150 before that was about a size 10 most of the time. Occasionally I could wear an 8, other times a 12. I'm a size 28/30 right now, and I really want to return to being a size 12 because I feel like that is a healthy weight for me where I just look good!

When will you start?
The time to hesitate it through... So how about today? I'm not saying that I'm ready to take off with a bang, but I am certainly ready to start taking accountability for my food choices!


So there you have it. I've started a weight loss journal. I hope this is the beginning of a wonderful friendship, and I hope that I get to know some wonderful people out there that are sharing the same struggle... Because misery loves company! :waving:
 
Yay for starting a journal :) You have a long way to go but I think you'll be successful with the inspiration on this forum. Good luck!!
 
Good luck with your journey :) I wasn't sure how to start either but I found that writing food/exercise logs on here can help show you where you are going wrong and it's good to get feedback from others on the forum!

Anyway, good luck again! Hana xx
 
Oh thanks!

Thanks Sunshyne and Sunflower (I'm sensing a sunny theme...)!

I keep a real, old-fashioned, written with a pen, food jornal at home. I started it yesterday and bought new pens in many pretty colors so I could keep it interesting. Yay me! :coolgleamA:

I do that simply because my doctor put me on an 800 calorie a day diet, and when I write the details of that diet in a forum, everyone assumes they know better than my doctor and tell me to stop his orders... So I just won't write about what I'm doing, and that can all be avoided! :rolleyes:

I'll just use this place to write about my progress, how I am feeling, and hopefully pick up a supportive pal or two along the way.
 
Hi there, I'm amazing!

Oh hey diary!

So when I joined this site yesterday I posted a little bit about me in the Newcomers thread before I started this whole journal thing... I know there are 38944923765 sticky threads saying not to post the same thing in two locations, but I think this would be a good place to post all that "getting to know you" crap too:

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Hi everyone. My name is Bridget, and I am a total food addict.

I was a chubby kid, a chubby adolescent, and finally a chubby teenager. In high school I got sick of being totally self-conscious all the time. I went from being 5'9" and 200 pounds to 5'9" and 150 pounds in about six months. I was a size 10-12, and I looked great. I didn't think I looked good at the time, because I wanted to be a size zero like my friends, but when I see pictures of myself from then... I WISH I had appreciated that I was healthy and looked good at that time.

I stayed between 150 and 160 throughtout most of college. When I was 21 years old my "first love" and I broke up. I spiraled into a crazy depression where all I did was crawl out of bed occasionally to drive to McDonald's and buy 15-20 cheeseburgers, or to drive to Dunkin Donuts to buy a couple dozen eclairs. I didn't even change my clothes, brush my teeth, or shower on a regular basis for a while there. I gained a lot of weight in a SUPER short period of time.

Once I decided to start "acting" semi-normal again, I started dating. I used dates as a way to go to restaurants and just binge on as much as I could shove down my throat... And I can shove a LOT down my throat.

I started seeing one guy regularly, and we both just ate and ate and ate. The ammount of debt I racked up on credit cards for food is seriously amazing. I quit hanging out with anyone but him. He said I was beautiful, and wasn't fat... Which I wanted to hear/believe. I had quit looking in mirrors and was wearing sweat pants all the time, and by the time I did finally LOOK at myself - I was over 250 pounds.

I got married. I was the fat bride I had never wanted to be. I love my husband, but we're comfortable - and I just kept eating to fill the gaps in my life that I was miserable about. Now I'm here. I'm almost 28 years old, and I'm super close to weighing 340 pounds.

It has to stop somewhere. No one else is going to do it for me.

I hope I can get to know some cool people here, and have an extra support network to turn to when I feel like Ronald McDonald or the Burger King are my only friends.

Thanks for listening, and I'm really happy to be here.

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There, now I am more than a catchy screenname. I really want to be an open book so I can stop hiding. I hide things all the time, because if I don't think about them then they don't exist... Right? :banghead:

In other news, baby carrots are not a good substitute for potato chips. I don't care what I've been told, they suck. Blah. However, I didn't get to my glorious size on baby carrots, so maybe I should keep giving them a try...

Peace, love, and baby carrots,
Bridget
 
Briget, that was beautifully honest and genuine. Thank you so much for sharing :)

I put on a huge amount of weight in a short time too and mostly due to a bad relationship. At 27 you are SO young and in just a few years you can have the body (well, almost ;) ) that you had when you were in High School.

I hope you believe in yourself and I believe in you too <3

Good luck mate, and if you ever need anything then feel free to give me a PM :D

Hana xx
 
Hey Bridget! It sounds like we have some things in common! You're totally right about baby carrots suck and chips are delicious! However, one thing I do now when I'm struggling to choose healthy food over bad food is I ask myself "do i really need this? will eating these chips or this pint of ice cream benefit me?" I know the answer is no, but sometimes I just don't care so I wind up arguing with myself for about 15 minutes on whether I really want it or not. Usually I go with the healthy path.

It sounds like you're really motivated and determined. I'll check in on you! I'm really looking forward to your posts. I love your honesty.

Also, I'm a bit curious on what foods you are eating on an 800 calorie diet? I'm trying to stay on a low calorie plan too but I find it pretty hard!
 
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I obviously need a life...

Thanks for the kind words Heather and Hana!! :bigear:


Oh hey diary!

The day is half over, and I still haven't dragged myself out on a simple walk. I am SO lazy. The good thing is that I am totally controlling my food, but it would be awesome to build in some mild activity... It's raining now, so I feel like I now have my excuse to not bother trying to fit a walk in... I am a PRO at justifying. :banghead:

While I am staying on track with my food intake, that hasn't curbed the insane cravings that are attacking me.
- I want a stuffed crust, cheese lovers pizza.
- I want several dozen boneless wings with blue cheese.
- I want a satchel filled with McDonald's french fries.
- I want numerous quarts of shrimp lo mein.

::sigh:: :nopity:

Oh! And Heather, you had asked what kinds of food make up an 800 kcal/day diet? Basically I should eat 4-5 small meals throughout the day, and I should always make sure each meal includes some form of protein. I've found some really neat recipe tricks... Including one that actually made tofu edible!! I didn't think it was possible!!

I am on two months of 800 kcal/day before I am stepped up to 1000 kcal/day after that. I don't feel hungry at all, and I actually feel more awake than I used to! The only problem my diet hasn't cured is my love of procrastination and laziness!

I was reading through skinnywishes journal, and she has broken her weight loss into mini-goals. I definitely need to do that. 190 pounds as an ammount to lose all in one giant glob is just too gross and daunting. I'm going to put some thought into some timeframes for mini-goals, and then I'll write out my own goals so that I have yet another plan of action!

Oh plans. How I desperately hope I follow you!!

Peace, love, and desperation,
Bridget
 
lol omg u have a brilliant way with words! you are so honest and so funny! i think I will have to read your diary all the time now :D

Ok so 800 is low but the doc has you on a plan then we will assume he know what he is up to :) But serioussly - tofu edible?? dont beleive it!

we both have a pretty long way to go before we acheive skinny minny status so lets be in this together! I'll be your burger king/mcdonalds/whatever support group! :D There is a vacancy for mcdanalds and cadburys support here too if you fancy it!

We can def do this girl. Not saying it isnt going to be tough but it is very def possible :D

Keep up the good work (and get out for your walk!)

allie x
 
This goes hand in hand with the mini-goals. I see a lot of people out there that make a reward system when they achieve a goal weight. Seems like it helps keep them encouraged.
I kind of do this. I only have 2 rewards for myself so far though. When I hit 200 I'm gonna go buy some new clothes, and when I hit my final goal weight, I'm getting myself a tattoo that I've wanted for about 7 years now.

Also, don't stress yourself out on not working out. If you do it, thats great! But eating habits and nutrition contributes to about 80% of weight loss.. it's what I've read anyway. So even a change in how you eat can help you lose weight. I know women that lost weight just by eating better, no exercise. Being active is healthy though and I'm definitely not discouraging it!

I understand the cravings. I'm craving salt and vinegar chips, they are my weakness!
 
Mini-Goals and Rewards!!??!

Oh hey diary (for the last time today... I swear!),

So I have been having a ridiculously hard time staying focused on anything for too long this evening! I had thought I would take some time and create a meaningful plan for mini-goals and rewards, but instead I did one and then said, "Screw it, this is boring!"

I'm not too sure what a reasonable time frame is for losing weight... I know I've got more to lose so it will initially come off quick, so I'm not sure how to adjust for any of that. Any feedback is appreciated, but here's the plan I've created.


First Mini-Goal:
Weigh 299 pounds by May 24, 2010. (That's my 28th birthday!)

Second Mini-Goal:
Weigh 275 pounds by August 1, 2010.

Third Mini-Goal:
Weigh 250 pounds by October 1, 2010.

Forth Mini-Goal:
Weigh 225 pounds by December 1, 2010.

Fifth Mini-Goal:
Weigh 200 pounds by March 1, 2011.


I'd have to see how I am actually progressing through my goals to have any idea as to when I would like to be closing in on my goal weight of 150 pounds. As far as rewarding myself... It's really hard for me to think of rewards that aren't food related!! New clothes would be an awesome reward... Oooh, maybe and iPod when I get to 250 pounds! We'll have to see...

Peace, love, and short attention spans,
Bridget
 
Eeeeek! Eeeeek!!

Oh hey dear diary!!!

Guess what??? Since I initially weighed myself (for the first time in MONTHS) three days ago, I am down 8.6 pounds!!! AAUUGH!!! :sifone:

OK, before anyone tries to harsh my buzz:

A) I realize that when someone my size initially begins losing weight it's not actually FAT that I'm losing, just the excess glycogen my liver had been storing.
B) I realize that losing 2.87 pounds a day isn't going to continue for much longer, if it continues for any longer at all.
C) I know the movies made about the Twilight books are ridiculous, but I love them anyways because the books are amazing... Wait, I got off topic...

My point is: AWWWWWE!!! It feels so neat to be successful in the beginning! I want to bottle this feeling and spritz it on my wrists when I start feeling like I'm a failed waste of time and need a Big Mac...

Oh I think I might just actually get active today! :willy_nilly:
Today is a good day!

Peace, love, and losing the weight of a newborn in three days,
Bridget
 
You can do it!! I love your attitude! Good work so far - if I have learned anything from losing weight it's that dedication, motivation and consistency win the race! Once you start walking you will feel even better! How is your hunnie doing these days - getting on the wagon with you or is he the kind that could eat the crap and not gain? It makes it a lot easier when your support system is supportive and not sneaking bad food into the house!! Hope he is on board too! Keep it up!!!
 
Lady Foodaholic said:
I am down 8.6 pounds!!!

*snip*

losing the weight of a newborn in three days
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You totally did too! That's exactly, to the ounce, what my daughter weighed when she was born.

Even if it's just water weight, it's still weight that you were carrying before. Yes, it will start to slow down soon, but if you can make the healthier food a habit by then, you're gold. Keep it up! You CAN do this!
 
Family Support...

Oh thanks a ton mizzie and chubbygirl!! I am seriously loving this site, and how nice and supportive everyone is, and the knowledge everyone has to share... It's really a wonderful tool!

As far as my hubby goes... He's a big guy, he used to be bigger, but then he developed type II diabetes and peed out all of his sugars (totally wrecked his body too, I'm sure) for quite a while before he went to the doctor and got diagnosed. He dropped like 60 pounds in six weeks (peeing out sugars... is it wrong that I was jealous?) before he saw the doctor and got it under control. He's around 275 now, he should *ideally* be around 180 pounds. He's not an organization nut like me, so when we diet together we tend to butt heads because I want to make schedules and charts and have weigh ins on a regular basis... I'm not sure what he likes to do, but it's not that!

In summation: He is on board with losing weight, and getting more active... He's also a wee bit competitive, so I think if I really stick to this and do some kick ass work it might motivate him to really focus on his weight... Because he needs to. I don't want him to die of diabetes related complications in 10 years!!

Bah. :cry:

In other news... I went to my parents house today while my hubby was at work so I would stay busy and not have a chance to act on any cravings. My mom and I were looking through old photo albums and I seriously almost fell off of my seat. There are pictures from my 21st birthday, and I looked great! I was seriously a looker! Then there are pictures from my 22nd birthday, and at that point I had gained about 120 pounds. The difference 1 year made was scary. I don't look like the same person.

I would like to have me at age 21 back, please. Minus the lip and eyebrow rings, work would frown on that.

It's just crazy how fast I did this to myself... And even more crazy how long I have let it continue worsening! All this craziness has got to stop!!

Peace, love, and stopping the insanity,
Bridget
 
Wowowow!

Congrats on losing the 8.6lbs:party::party::party:

I know what you mean about gaining the weight fast. When I stopped being a vegetarian I got a stressful job conveniently located by a zillion fast food restaurants...I think I gained like 60lbs in one yr:svengo:

You are doing an awesome job! Keep up the good work and good luck to you and hubby!
 
Welcome to the site! And you are doing so fantastic!

I love that you set up completely obtainable weight loss goals, good job girl.

And I can totally relate on the husband issue. Mine wants to lose weight as well, but no way is he eating all the veggies and keeping track of stuff like I do, but he loses weight anyway, LoL. I hate boys.

(btw, good journal title, yay Doors quotes)
 
C) I know the movies made about the Twilight books are ridiculous, but I love them anyways because the books are amazing... Wait, I got off topic...
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We can no longer be friends.

*shuns*



(Seriously though, Edward Cullen is a sparkly faggot)


I know what you mean about putting it on so fast :( I don't remember being "average". Feels like one day I was skinny and the next..well, I'm the size I am now. Scary.
 
Oh thanks Kayshiz! Jim Morrison is my afterlife boyfriend... ::sigh:: Do you really think they're obtainable goals? I have NO idea how to plan for what realistic weight loss might be, so I am happy if I'm even in the ball park!! In addition, boys suck! It's so frickin easy for them to be *husky* and not face the daunting task of squeezing into clothing that was created by Lucifer... Ugh.

Xenon thank you for the support! Seriously the pictures I found are ASTOUNDING! I'll have to borrow them from my mom and scan them in so everyone can see what I did to myself in one years time!

Sunflower - One more unkind word about my vampire boyfriend and I will do whatever it takes to make it a law in England for rowing machines to be a mandatory part of the daily student experience. *strokes imaginary goatee in an evil manner*


In other news... The battery in my frickin scale has died!! I feel lost and alone, please - someone hold me!! I had grown accustomed to waking up, visiting the bathroom, stripping nekkid, and then standing upon it's unforgiving food-pads of justice... Where do I go from here?

To the store obviously, to buy a new CR2032 battery. :banghead:

Peace, love, and technology,
Bridget
 
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