The Start of Something Good - Catie's Diary

hows the hand catie? I have missed a bit being away and such but just checking to see how your journey is going.

Oh my team made it to the finals we play this sunday! Exciting!

hope your doing well and looking forward to hearing if you made that 181 goal??
 
So I haven't written in way too long. Things have been busy, but everything is going okay. I woke up today and am 180. I am pretty excited. 35 pounds. I feel like I've accomplished something but have so much more to go.

I am feeling better about myself - have a new found confidence (it's not all it could be- but much better than it was a few months ago). I feel so much better about myself.

I am running in a 5k on December 8 (Toys for Tots)... I am so nervous. I'm running with my sister (who is an amazing cross country runner).. My goal is to run the whole way. lol.. I can run three miles but it is usually flat. I am kicking up the training this week - i will be running outside so it doesn't kill me (as opposed to running in the gym). It's Alabama - not too cold.

Tomorrow is going to be a struggle. The big Iron Bowl game (AUburn vs. Alabama football)... It is a huge deal (football in the south-- craziness). I am going and will attend the parties afterwards but really need to stay away from the alcohol , especially beer and mixed drinks! I don't really drink much - but it is difficult when literally everyone else is around you and you want to join the party too! Anyway- hopefully it will be fine.

Hope everyone is doing well!
 
So i'm still 180. Kinda getting frustrated because I am trying harder than ever to lose this weight and it seems to be going so slowly! I did an hour of cardio (5.3 miles) at the gym yesterday and lifted weights - and just went for a 2 mile run today. I think Ill go to the gym later too.

I seem to always get kind of diapointed/frustrated with myself at some point throughout each week. I woke up today mad at myself for ever getting as heavy as I was - and frustrated that it is so hard to lose it. I'm just wanting to feel good about myself and I don't yet - don't get me wrong I feel better than I did before but still not the slightest bit satisfied. I know I am my own worst critic and everything but its just like :(

Hopefully tomorrow will be a good optimistic day
Hope all of you are doing well
 
So today is a great day because I am officially 179... I was elated to see that number on the scale today.

Anyways- things are good. I had my wrist thingy earlier and it's sore but I'm good. I won't be able to use it for a few weeks which is fine- there are plenty of other exercises to do.

Hope all of you are well. I'll write more later
 
Hope your wrist is still doing good. I'm sure you are busy with school like I am, my first final is Dec 11th...then the 13th and 20th. Not to mention a factum due on Tuesday (97 hours away, not that I count).

Heh,

Michael
 
Mal- thanks girl! Excitement = a great thing haha... And more the reason to be excited -- I've lost another pound so I'm 177... Yay! Hope you are doing well :)

Michael- thanks for the nice little note. The wrist is doing well. I've got to start doing some resistance work with my arms so I don't slack with them... School is crazy busy. I have five finals. The last is on the 14th. Good luck with yours!
 
177!! Your kickin bootie!!! Way to go Catie! Hope your finals go well tahts one thing i dont miss about college haha. I'll chat up with you more later, got some pressing work papers to take care of.

Oh hey my team won out in the playoffs and we are proud owners of a T-shirt ha-ha but at least we didnt crap out like normal this time!!
 
:smilielol5: Wow you are rolling by the 170's
your doing so awesome!We are so close in weight right now and simalar
realastic goals to,so there is NO stopping now,time to go all the way!
Keep up the gr8 work,tammy:seeya:
 
Thank you guys so much for the encouragement! I'm still stuck at 177, but it definetely made my day to read both of your sweet little comments (thanks Tammy and Travis!)
 
So tomorrow is the big day for me.... I am running in toys for tots (a 5k) so think about me at 10 am central! haha... I know I can run the whole time (which is my goal - speed will come later) and my little sister (who is a great cross country runner) is running with me which is really sweet. I am nervous and excited. I am getitng my ipod all ready with great songs to run to... Corny yes- but I have to have music when I run.

I am still 177. I'm thinking i might be 176 tomorrow- and 175 will be a huge deal because it's 40 pounds! eek! It is so crazy how much I've changed confidence wise. I mean, don't get me wrong, I have a LOT more weight to loose, but I'm now doing things with so much more confidence and ease than I ever thought possible (in the last 3+ years).

As I mentioned before, I live in Alabama. I live in a small town with a BIG college (and it's not Tuscaloosa - so you can probably figure it out).. It's really safe here which is nice. The other night, for the first time ever in my life, I ran from my apartment to around downtown. I wasn't insecure. I felt good, kept a good pace, and wasn't paraniod about people judging me. This is a very big improvement from how I felt about myself a few months ago. I mean I wouldn't even go to the track when other people were there! It was pathetic.

I went out last night - which was probably a horrible decision because finals start Saturday but whatever haha... Had a great time.... And felt good about myself. I'm kinda sorta "talking" to this guy - so we'll see where that goes. I actually met him about a month ago - but yeah... Things are starting to work out. I got invited to freaking Cancun for spring break so I would love to go there and be like 135! OMG! So exciting... Have to stay motivated.

This is embarassing but a somewhat common problem - urgh- stretch marks. I have some on my stomach. Sometimes when I look in the mirror I get so mad at myself because I feel like I ruined my body. My sweet little sister (against my will at first) talked to my dad about it. When she told me I was ready to kill her until I let her finish... Once I get to my goal weight, he will pay for laser surgery or whatever I need to remove them. I am so lucky. I just have to get down there - to the 130's or 140's and it'll happen. I feel so blessed that he'll do that.

Anyway- thought I'd post something uplifting because I'm often negative sounding in these. Thanks for reading.

Oh- does anyone know any arm weights/exercises that I can do without using my wrist? I have to keep this brace on for 4 more weeks! Thanks :)
 
So I did it - the 5k (3.1 miles)... Ran the whole way. I'm not going to lie- the third mile sucked pretty bad. I thought I was going much faster than I was (ha- go figure) but finished in 34:23- appx 11:15/miles pace. I wish I could have gone faster but am glad I ran the whole time.

Had excellent veggies for lunch with tomato soup. Hopefully I'll see 175 very soon!
 
So I'm a little down today (wish the scale was down but it's not)... One of those fat days - blah.... I don't really feel like writing much, but tomorrow I'm gonna start documenting (hard core) the foods I eat. Hope everyone is well.
 
hey way to go on that run. Dont worry about the time the important thing is you ran the whole way! Keep it up! you gotta be so proud of yourself!
 
Thanks Travis :)! You are right - I am proud of myself for doing that..
Unfortunately I have a gross cold right now so my exercise is not all that it could be. I just got back from a 20 minute run followed by a 15 minute walk. It was nice. I found myself yawning the whole time - that's not a great sign. But hey, it is finals week. And I do have three tomorrow. Yuck.

I weighed in at 176 today- so ready to be 175. I'm hoping tomorrow could be the big 40 day. That'd be really nice. I had a pretty good talk with my incredibly fit cross country running little sister today (she's 18- so not really that little).. We are built differently. She is really small framed and is a very healthy 120 lb girl with a petite frame. She is planning a summer trip for us (before she goes off to school) for the summer to like Mexico or Miami or something. She's like "you will be wearning a baithing suit the whole time"...

Sadly, it has been three summers since I wore a two piece . Yeah that's kind of scary. I don't remember if I wrote this in an earlier post or not, but my parents are going to pay for some sort of surgery (which ever the plastic surgeon says is best/least expensive) for these stretch marks to go away. I hope I can look good in a baithing suit by next June. If i lost 40 more pounds I'd be 135 and I think that's a pretty good goal. It is so crazy to think that I'm halfway there. That makes me a little bit happy.

So did I tell you guys that I can't have my beloved diet coke anymore? No more caffeine -a nd such a horrible week to start with it being finals and all. But actually i think it will be best for me in the long run. I've been drinking a shi* ton of water lately and have been feeling better (but not less tired lol)... Anyway, hopefully I can ween myself off the diet coke pretty easily.

Hope all of you are doing great. Keep me updated :)
 
Catie your awesome! Your doing well i ahve no doubt by next summer your gonna be rocking a swimsuit! I can't myself remeber the last itme i went to the beach and took my shirt off it would be awesome if i was comfortable enough to do so but I dont and won't for a while!

But anwyay your doing awesome i love hearing about it so keep it up! I'll check in soon!
 
You're doing such a great job Catie! I can't wait until I'm able to run three miles like you!

Good thing you're running around in tiger town and not Tuscaloosa - it's getting very, very dangerous in that city. Or at least it was last time I was down there. I'm hoping to get back down to T-town this weekend to see my friends from UA. :D

Good luck with your finals!
 
So.... drumroll.... freaking 174! So excited! I've lost 41 pounds. I am so inspired that I am off to the gym.. I'll write more later!
 
So I'm up a pound - to 175... urgh... I know why too - I've just not cared the last few days. I don't know what's going on with me.. I kinda got REALLY upset about the whole guy thing (which is in my other thread - blame it on the weight).. That situation is now a lot more complicated and worse than described in the thread and it really got to me. There are no specifics or explanatioins or anything -- it just truly upset me. Normally i would hope that that would be more motivation to keep going and lose more weight but instead it's like i'm taking that situation and been like screw it - not in a give up sort of way, but in a i care less about my HEALTHY self now way. make sense? of course hopefully recognizing that will help me to overcome that feeling and not be ridiculous to go backwards after losing this much weight.

On a brighter note, i babysat today and had to carry a 29 pound 2 year old when he got tired of walking and i thought my arm was going to fall off after like 3 minutes lol... he was so heavy. that would be like me, running with 30 extra pounds- - so much harder.. good comparision i thought.

anyway- i'lm gonna try to do well and be strong and get through this.
thanks for reading
 
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