The Start of Something Good - Catie's Diary

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catiew21

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I am so in love with the idea of a diary! I know I will gain lots of insight reading everyone else's. You all are already an inspiration.

This is so difficult to write about. I am embarassed, but will go ahead and get it out. I gained seventy pounds in the last 3 years! When I left for college in August 2004, I weighed 144 pounds. In July 2007 I was up to 215 - the most I've ever weighed. I started my weight loss journey after a horribe no-baithing suit wearing week at the beach and have been pretty determined since.

Today, I weigh 194. I have been exercising almost every day. Last Saturday, I ran with my sister in a 2 mile race for breast cancer awareness. I was so proud- I ran all but 20 seconds. I have found that exercising curbs my apetite.

Today has been an okay eating day. I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast (something I usually don't eat but know I should), 1/2 a sloppy joe and salad for lunch, and two weight watcher chocolate dessert things. I am such a sucker for anything sweet. Like last night, I was doing great until I bought the dad gum 50 cent gummy bears at the gas station.

I worked out twice today- did five miles on the elliptical at the gym and then ran and walked a mile and a half outside. I will have dinner soon. I really need to stay away from the chocolate tonight.

Hope all of you had a great day!
 
Sounds like we have had similar experiences! The joys of college! Unfortunately I am still in college.... why, God only knows. Congrats on the run! I have been working on getting back into my exercise regime after being sick for a couple weeks!

Congrats on the loss so far and welcome. Hopefully you like the site!
 
awsome work

Wow already running 2 miles awsome. I think you will meet your goals no probablem with work and determination like that nice ...
 
We all have similar embarrassing stories, I imagine. Don't feel that you're the only one who is aghast at how much weight you've gained. Plus, that almost always happens at college (that's why they call it the "freshman fifty").

It sounds like you have a good plan to lose weight with a sensible diet and exercise. I think the key is just being patient, remembering that it took you 3 years to gain that much and it will take time to get it off -- but far less than 3 years, I'm sure.

I find that getting impatient and losing willpower is my biggest enemy. That's why this forum will be helpful, I think. We can all help each other to keep perspective :)
 
So today was a good day in that I lost a pound - 193. I hate to be gloomy- but today kinda sucked emotionally.... Not even the time it should, ya know? Granted I had a somewhat stressful day with school- a midterm. I probably did a bad job by not eating breakfast or lunch (had some crackers) then ate a Jimmy John's veggiterian for dinner and binged out on freaking gummy worms. My mom took me shopping for a new pair of jeans- and I am down a size so that's good - back in 12's. So I should be happy right? Instaed my happiness turned to frustration when I look in the mirror and see how dad gum far i have to go. I just am not feeling good about myself today.

ENOUGH OF THE PITY PARTY THOUGH! I am going to go running in a little bit and that will make me feel better. I know I'll have these days, but it sure feels good to vent. Thanks for listening :)
 
Today was a MUCH better day. 192 - this week has been amazing. 3 pounds in 3 days. I ate well today too. No gummies (yet) haha and hopefully not at all tonight.

Last night I went on a mile run after writing my gloomy post and imediately felt better- isn't that crazy how exercise can clear your mind? I got a good night's rest - and I read somewhere that rest is key in weight loss - so that was good. I was productive, had lots of energy. I ate a turkey sandwich and carrots for lunch and had a portion of chicken cassarole for dinner. Also - this sounds crazy but you know that lemon flavoring you buy in a yellow tube thingy from the grocery store? I've been putting it in my water and it is DELICIOUS! I can now drink water each day- no excuses...

I also lifted arm weights at the gym and did the elliptical for 40 minutes- 3.5 miles/502 calories. I feel much better.

I hope all of you had a great day!
 
catiew21 said:
Today was a MUCH better day. 192 - this week has been amazing. 3 pounds in 3 days. I ate well today too. No gummies (yet) haha and hopefully not at all tonight.

Last night I went on a mile run after writing my gloomy post and imediately felt better- isn't that crazy how exercise can clear your mind? I got a good night's rest - and I read somewhere that rest is key in weight loss - so that was good. I was productive, had lots of energy. I ate a turkey sandwich and carrots for lunch and had a portion of chicken cassarole for dinner. Also - this sounds crazy but you know that lemon flavoring you buy in a yellow tube thingy from the grocery store? I've been putting it in my water and it is DELICIOUS! I can now drink water each day- no excuses...

I also lifted arm weights at the gym and did the elliptical for 40 minutes- 3.5 miles/502 calories. I feel much better.

I hope all of you had a great day!
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Hello...
I saw you post on somelses thread and figured I would pop into your diary. You sound like you are really motivated and doing awesome ..a size 12! I am already jealous ..lmao ..for me ..thats the lowest I would go lol but my figure is different probably .. I have an hourglass figure so when I hit 160 .. I will have reached my goal ... its awesome that you have gotten so far!

keep up the good work hun!

always
natalie jo :jump:
 
Today is a good day.. I am offically 190 - down 25 pounds! And I didn't even work out yesterday - how crazy is that! I just ate really well. I am excited but still have a long ways to go.

I dont know - but I am wondering if some of you can relate. Today, I am seeing an exboyfriend. This ex boyfriend dated me when I weighed about 145-150. He saw me this summer at 215 :( - and I told him i'd been losing some weight. It's kind of intimidating because we dated in high school when we were both athletes. Now, he is a football player at Georgia Tech. So, obviously, he is in near perfect condition/shape. Why does that intimidate me so much? He doesn't say anything mean or what not (he's actually really nice about stuff like this)- I just want to look good ya know? Does that sound totally stupid? I'm wondering if I should cancel seeing him today - until I lose more weight. I know there is something wrong with me for saying that. Key word EX boyfriend - so why should I care so much? Why do I care what he thinks about my weight? Ahh I'm obsessing about it.

Anyway- i plan to work out before I go to Atlanta today. That should make me feel more confident. Hope all of you are having a good weekend!
 
catiew21 said:
Today is a good day.. I am offically 190 - down 25 pounds! And I didn't even work out yesterday - how crazy is that! I just ate really well. I am excited but still have a long ways to go.

I dont know - but I am wondering if some of you can relate. Today, I am seeing an exboyfriend. This ex boyfriend dated me when I weighed about 145-150. He saw me this summer at 215 :( - and I told him i'd been losing some weight. It's kind of intimidating because we dated in high school when we were both athletes. Now, he is a football player at Georgia Tech. So, obviously, he is in near perfect condition/shape. Why does that intimidate me so much? He doesn't say anything mean or what not (he's actually really nice about stuff like this)- I just want to look good ya know? Does that sound totally stupid? I'm wondering if I should cancel seeing him today - until I lose more weight. I know there is something wrong with me for saying that. Key word EX boyfriend - so why should I care so much? Why do I care what he thinks about my weight? Ahh I'm obsessing about it.

Anyway- i plan to work out before I go to Atlanta today. That should make me feel more confident. Hope all of you are having a good weekend!
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Maybe ..because you were both athletes before and now you are not in top condition and he is in top condition ...you feel inferior to him ...and you don't want to give that impression .. I don't know really ..just a guess ..because I feel like that and thats why I didn't go to my reunion ..

but anyway I wish you the best on your meeting ...

keept trecking hun
congrats on the weight loss!

always
natalie jo :jump:
 
Wtg

I really enjoyed readin your weightloss journal/diary I wish I would of written 1 when I started. I think you are definitley heading in the right direction and you are very pretty. Keep up the good work and I will keep checking your journal occasionally. By the way, Thanks for the compliment on my thread.
 
nataliejo said:
Maybe ..because you were both athletes before and now you are not in top condition and he is in top condition ...you feel inferior to him ...and you don't want to give that impression

YOU ARE TOTALLY RIGHT! That is it. I think I'm gonna see him though- confidence is everything (i'm hoping). I just went out and got a cute shirt that is flattering so that's good. I'll let you guys know how it goes! Thanks so much.
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bail8gent said:
I really enjoyed readin your weightloss journal/diary I wish I would of written 1 when I started. I think you are definitley heading in the right direction and you are very pretty. Keep up the good work and I will keep checking your journal occasionally. By the way, Thanks for the compliment on my thread.
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Thank you so much! Your nice words just lifted my mood! You should still start a diary! Thanks again :)
 
So..I saw him! And it went well... actually more than well. I am so happy Iwent.

I had a GREAT eating day yesterday! YAY! I'm off to the gym pretty soon and burn off the starbucks coffee i had this morning. WHOOPS! I'll give more of an update later. Thanks for all the encouragement everyone:)
 
I am in the 180's - and so excited about it. I weighed myself, after not weighing since Saturday morning (very a-typical of me) and I am 187. I lost 7 pounds in the last 8 days. I am pretty pumped.

I am consuming about 1000 calories a day. I have actually slacked and not worked out since Thurday- so I am definetely going to do that today. I am feeling much better about myself - and once I hit the 30 pound mark I am going to post before/middle pictures. Also, I've been trying to do better w/ the breakfast thing. I had good breakfasts both days this weekend so I'm sure that had something to do with the 3 pounds in the last 2 days that I lost.

I am so motivated - what a good week. I am not getting my hopes up for losing that much each week though- as I know that it will be more and more difficult to lose the close I get to my goal.

I know this sounds kinda stupid- but I can't really decide on a goal. Of course 150 sounds amazing right now, but I don't think I would be completely satisfied with that (for me). I weighed 140-150 in high school when I was very fit , so maybe 140. BUt then I wonder if 135 would be better. I just want to be as healthy and happy as possible. Maybe I should ask my doctor or something. IDK.

ANyway- hope everyone is having a fabulous Monday!
 
So, forgive me for being a bit of a pessmist today. I was up a pound after I so thought I'd be down one. I know, life will go on, but it just kinda sucked.

I am scared that I'm losing motivation (a little bit).. I worked out yesterday and today and just didn't feel motivated/enthused and definetely felt lathargic. I have not eaten that well today either :(.. I know my mood- which is a little sad- is interfering with my goal so hopefully by noticing that I will have the willpower to stop the interference.

Anway- I really need more energy working out. I have not been eating very much meat or carbs - I wonder if that has anything to do with it.

Hmm... Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day
 
catiew21 said:
So, forgive me for being a bit of a pessmist today. I was up a pound after I so thought I'd be down one. I know, life will go on, but it just kinda sucked.

I am scared that I'm losing motivation (a little bit).. I worked out yesterday and today and just didn't feel motivated/enthused and definetely felt lathargic. I have not eaten that well today either :(.. I know my mood- which is a little sad- is interfering with my goal so hopefully by noticing that I will have the willpower to stop the interference.

Anway- I really need more energy working out. I have not been eating very much meat or carbs - I wonder if that has anything to do with it.

Hmm... Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day
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Hun ..
your body might be going into starvation mode..
You should be taking in at least 1200 calories...

and you are being lethargic and discouraged, because you are not eating very well ... you need to eat more and good carbs are good .. like whole wheat pasta ..that is good ..you need sustenance for movement ..to get the most weight off you need to eat some too ..and that 1000 calorie a day diet seems way too little ..


187 pounds * 12 = 2,244 calories. To stay the same weight you would need to take in 2,244 calories


so maybe go down to 2000 calories or 1500 calories and you will gain at first, because you pretty much have starved yourself off 1000 calories and you will burn when you exercise and have energy when you take those calories in..

I did the same thing you are doing, unintentionally ...
I just drank three fruit shakes a day with milk and powder. I lost sixty pounds in three months and ended up in the hospital on the edge of death. I am telling you 1000 calories barely hits the area of calories you should be taking in ... you may gain the weight you took off back ..depends on how long you have been eating and surviving on 1000 calories ...but your body is in starvation mode and will pack some pounds back ..on ..to keep at the rate that you are going ..you would have to starve yourself

and That is not good ..
because there are many complications to losing weight that way ..
you can become not able to have a baby
sugar diabetic ..too low of sugar
lose your psyche .. or mind
doing brain disfunctions
so much ...
I did a exploration paper on it ...because I was anorexic/ bulimic ...
and than I gained seventy to eighty pounds back

just bring you calories up slowly and keep exercising ...
watch what you eat
and best wishes hun
keep writing
I shall visit your diary often

best wishes hun
love yas
take care
always
natalie jo :hug2:
 
Wow! Natalie Jo - thank you so much for your thoughtful response. I really appreciate it. I think you right- actually I know you are right. I need to up my caloric intake to atleast 1200-1500 per day. I actually ate better yesterday and today I was 189 when i got on the scale - so i'm guessing i gained a few just from eating what was supossed to (like you said).

It is just so hard for me to eat sometimes, as stupid as that sounds. I am SOO paranoid about gaining weight and it feels good in a way to know that I have control over food - unlike the past. I can't believe you went through all of that. I am so sorry that happened - and am glad you are healthy now.

Again, I really appreciate your response and take it very seriously. Thank you so much.
 
So today should be a pretty good day.. In 30 minutes I am meeting with a personal trainer at the gym (who happens to be an old friend- so no charge!) to develop an appropriate weight lifting plan for me. I know I've got to get on these weights...

I am eating better/more! I am trying for 1200 each day. So far, I've had a dannon activia yogurt, glass of skim milk, and a banana. I will eat lunch when I get back from the gym. I am kind of nervous about it - but I just need to get over it because it's good for me...

Anyway - I am walking tomorrow in a breast cancer awareness walk (my mom was diagnosed last week :( - but thank goodness they caught it early) - so that will be good. Then, my mom and I are going for massages tomorrow afternoon.

I am trying to stay positive and upbeat- and definetely want to be 170 by Christmas. We'll see.
 
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