The man they call Sirant

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Sirant, congratulations on your 247! I liked your youtube video, and you are right: It's gonna be okay. I think you should copy a trick from your friend Tom. Based on what I saw in the video, you also need an updated avatar. The guy in the video looks much different than your current photo.

P.S. Maybe this will give you an excuse to go shopping....... because your blue tee-shirt is also too big!

Thanks for the kind words. I think, like Tom, I am beyond worrying excessively over that arbitrary little machine on the floor I step on... I suppose I should update the avatar to. As for the teeshirts.....

I am going to make a new video because my daughter and I almost pee'd our pants laughing so hard the other day. We had the floor fan on and I walked right in front, so it was blowing up my shirt.... Boom! Instant Belly!!! The air puffed the shirt EXACTLY out to what my old belly was!!! It was hillarious! Turn off the fan, skinny, turn on the fan, BIG round belly!!! We must have looked ridiculous standing there turning the fan off and on laughing like crazy! Watch for that video next!

As for the clothes..... I hear ya! My wife is throwing away old clothes daily in the hopes I will soon run low enough on clothing that I have no choice but to go shopping. But, I am staying true to my first goal fo 240. That point on the ticker is not my final weight, thats simply when I go buy some new clothes!!! 7 pounds to go (actually probably 6 now)!!! I figure at the end of May it is time to go shopping! And finally, FINALLY I dont need to go here:

The Fat People Store - No really! Thats what it is called!

sirant
 
I tried to explain to them it really isnt a nice sign....

OMG, "The Fat People's Store' - no "Big and Tall" for them!

However, I gotta say one thing for that store, it may be puny (kind of ironic that you could only fit 2-3 BIG people in it at a time and the change rooms.... oy!) but the clothes are fantastic!! Designer labels and truly cool, funky clothes!!! I never saw any of these wonderful clothes back home, EVER!!!! Funny that in :eh: with a population nearing the 70% overweight rate we are so limited in the types of clothes we can wear. However, the drawback is you pay 10X the amount for those clothes here that you would in the "normal" stores in China. But, as I said, now I don't need to shop there anymore, and in fact, they probably dont have anything in my size..... Yay!!!!

sirant
 
destined to win!

Wow.

I am perplexed and perhaps even a bit bewildered. Now normally when you see those things in a weight loss forum it is usually followed by "Why isn't this working?" or "I work out like crazy and eat 500 calories a day but can't lose weight!" This time however, it is the exact opposite! I don't know how or why I am losing as much weight as I am, not that I will complain mind you. I wrote yesterday in Tom's journal that my scale said 246 yesterday, but I was too sceptical to change my ticker quite yet. I was honestly worried I was beginning a plateau and was fully ready to scorn the scale gods!!

After that really nasty sickness, my weight jumped up a lot. Luckily by the end of that week I was able to get back to where I started. All good. However in the big picture that set back my goal by an extra week. Not a big deal, but not fantastic news either. I figured if I hit 245 this week, as per the 2 pound a week challenege, I would be happy enough. However, here it is wednesday and the scale tells me 244.4! I am under my expected weight and have no doubt in the next 2 days I will be in the 243 range! Thats 4 frickin pounds in a week!! Certainly not biggest loser type numbers, but I feel just as thrilled and excited! According to fit day that keeps me exactly on track with my original goal of 2 pounds a week to reach my main goal by my birthday! And as you can see from my ticker, I am 1-2 weeks away from my first huge goal and NEW CLOTHES!!! God, what a feeling!

So what is going on? What secret to success am I employing that is having such kick ass results? To be honest I have been lazier than usual in some regards. I havent been recording all my daily meals in fitday, but really, I am in such a good pattern now I dont need to. I know how many calories I eat, because I eat the same foods everyday. I havent been weight training as much at all. I still do yoga, but sporadically. The only constant in my exercise regime is running, at least 5 days a week. Thats got to be the key!

I am a bit concerned though because it is getting hotter and hotter. Yesterday I ran home and it was around 30-31 degrees outside. I keep myself well watered and always stick to shady areas, but what will I do when it gets to 35-40 degrees? I guess I will cross that road when I get to it. But for now it appears I am unstoppable! I honestly believe running is making THE difference this time. I had to endure sore knees, calves, quads, thighs, lower back, etc, but it was all part of the process. Who ever said life would be easy? Paris Hilton not included...

I was really quite concerned that that little bout of sickness could be the precursor to another rotten plateau. But maybe Tom is really on to something. Maybe the scale gods are impressed with my efforts above and beyond anything I have ever done before. I am listening to Shannon Noll right now. The song is Shine, and I think it is my song for sure. I think this part of the song really sums up how I am feeling now:

This is the time,
This is the day that we've been waiting for,
All the world will stop to watch you shine.

This is the time,
This is the day that we've been waiting for,
All the world believes that you will shine.

And if you fall,
And if you fall,
And if you trust and,
Yes it will come true.

I really like Shannon Nolls music. He was a winner of Aussie Idol and his song Lift is the theme song for Aussies biggest loser, which is how I heard him in the first place. His songs are very inspirational and even though he is a skinny little dude, his songs seem to relate perfectly to the struggles I and many of us here are going through. Very motivational. When I listen to his music I believe my dreams can come true.

And you know what? They really are coming true for me everyone. I have no real explanation, no magic pill, no ideas as to why now is my time. But everyone out there, I want you all to know, this can be your time too. Trust yourself, believe in yourself, and you too can shine! If I can do it absolutely anyone can! It will hurt at first, but the joy that follows is SOOO worth it! Heh, look at me, its like I am done already. Truth be told I am not there yet, but I have so much positive energy and recent success that I have already made it in my mind, now the belly is just catching up.

For the first time in my life I believe in myself. And I believe in each and every one of you too. Let's shine together!

sirant
 
What a great post, Sirant. And you know what? Despite all our joking about the scale gods, you're working hard at this. Like you say, you run every day, you watch what you eat -- so the pieces are falling into place. And in the process, you're inspiring all of us to continue our struggle as well.
 
go go sirant - well done on the loss. You gained weight when sick? how did ya do that? eating or just maybe water retention?
I have a cold and suddenly put on 3lb overnight .. i was wondering if it was related to the cold :/
 
Funny you should ask.....

go go sirant - well done on the loss. You gained weight when sick? how did ya do that? eating or just maybe water retention?
I have a cold and suddenly put on 3lb overnight .. i was wondering if it was related to the cold :/

Water retention? Eating?

I think not, though of course thats what I would typically think. *warning gross material ahead* It was actually a bacterial stomach infection, that without getting into details, would move anything I put in one end as a solid, violently out the other end 20 minutes later..... So I cant believe anything I was eating was in there long enough to add a calories and after the first day it got to a point I was purposefully avoiding food to also avoid the unpleasant reaction of it after.

Not sure where the pounds came from, but thankfully they are all gone now. I wonder if the body just starts conserving everything possible, including water, because it knows you are sick..... Probably...

sirant
 
Good stuff!

Wow Sirant, look at you! Way to go. You will get me running again. Tomorrow.

I don't know what it is about this time. I honestly have been the biggest anti-running and jogging advocate on the planet for so many years. But in light of all these incredible success stories of people that took that step (literally) and started running, I simply had to give it a go myself. I know not everyone can run or jog, but by golly, if you can, do!

sirant
 
Not sure where the pounds came from, but thankfully they are all gone now. I wonder if the body just starts conserving everything possible, including water, because it knows you are sick..... Probably...

sirant
yeah that was my theory on it anyway. I got my fingers crossed lol :)
 
Sometimes it hurts to do it.....

Sometimes I think the Buddhists have it right when they forsake worldy possessions. Life would just be so much easier then, if more boring. (unless of course seeking enlightenment and such) But, since I am not a devout buddhist, I do rather get attached to my worldy goods. Clothing is no exception. This weekend was a big one for changes to my wardrobe. I haven't gone shopping or anything fun like that, in fact I did the opposite and began "Cleaning out my Closet" Fat clothes Bye-Bye! What a task!

In some ways fun to try on all those clothes (some old and some never worn) and seeing just how HUGE they are on me now. And as much as they were expensive, or nice looking (when I was big enough to fit them) or functional, the time has come for them to go. The hardest items are the ones that have some meaning or significance, like the cool hawaiian shirts, actually from hawaii, the band teeshirts and nice clothes I used to think were sexy and the functional clothes that werent bulging out making me look ridiculous. Now however they are all so big that I look silly in them, far from sexy.

I made a literal mountain of clothes, some of them almost new, that were to be taken away. It literally weighed as much weight as I have lost now! Some my wife will use as rags and other things in the future, others will be donated to some of my larger friends and some will just go to recycling. So many of those clothes meant a lot to me and it was hard to see them go.

However, on the flip side, now ALL those shirts and pants that were FAR too tight on me in the past, which I kept in the "hopes" I could somday fit them are now DAMN good looking and make me look better than ever! Shirts my wife bought off racks here in China that she really liked, even though she knew they were too small by far, fit me now like a glove! And looking damn good too! So even though it was hard to see some of the old clothes go, it was damn nice to wear the "new" old clothes too. Plus, as my wife pointed out every time I looked longingly at a giant piece of clothing, now that I am getting close to regular sizes, I will easily be able to find all new and exciting clothes, off the rack, that fit me. Even here in China.

And guess what? As you can see on the ticker, I have 3 pounds to go till my first HUGE goal. 240 isnt my final goal (at least not at this point) but it does represent the time I go out and buy some NEW CLOTHES that are going to fit me properly. Its kind of funny really. I could probably hold out with my current clothes until I am at my big goal, but my wife is DYING to get me out shopping. So I promised her we would go when I hit 240. And what a coincidence, I will hit that goal on the same weekend I get paid..... ;)

Other than that, a rather uneventful weekend here. Starting friday night (1 hour before the end of work of course) we got hit with a killer of a lighting storm! I seriously wish I had had my camera for that one. Last year I got footage of massive lightning storms here and actual lighting strikes on a 7 story building 2X in the 2 weeks. Utterly amazing. Do a search on Youtube for sirant if you want to see the videos. But sadly I didn't have the camera with me on friday, so I didn't get new footage.

However, the rain was a godsend! It has been getting very hot here. When the heat index (combination of heat and humidity) gets up above 32 degrees it is really not reccomended to do much in the way of hard physical exercise, ie. running. I ran home on weds night last week at 32 degrees and suffered a little heat exhaustion for my troubles afterwords. Friday the heat index was 38 degrees celcius.... Ouch! But then comes this massive rain, with huge winds and sweet cooler air! The temperature dropped in minutes! Bingo!

In the past I would have dreaded such a day, since the busses would be full, literally impossible to get a taxi, traffic jams for hours and even if you walked you were guaranteed to be soaked, even with an umbrella.

No freakin problem anymore.

Now that I run home daily, I pack running shoes, socks, shorts and a teeshirt with me to the office. 5 minutes before the end of day I lock my office and change into my running clothes. Now I can run no problem! I bought a special back pack with a rain jacket (for the back pack, not me) so I can pack away all the important bits I need to keep dry, and it is business as usual. I don't bother with an umbrella, since my work clothes and electronics are safely packed away and since I am going to be running in a sub tropic climate, I will be soaked with sweat by the end of my run anyways. A BIG added bonus is the facts the sidewalks are 90% emptier than on regular days. I don't mind the crowded sidewalks so much though, as it turns an otherwise ordinary run into a video game of dodging and weaving.

People of course look at me like I am on fire or have 3 heads, but thats fine. Running in the rain definitely has its advantages. I also went for a run on Sunday, which turned into my longest run ever. Once again, because it was overcast and had been raining all day, the parks were empty and I had a wonderful run. All the flowers are once again blooming, the trees are filling up with Lychee, mangos, jack fruit (watch out for those, bigger than coconuts by FAR... could be deadly!) and all manner of other fruits. The air smells absolutely amazing! I could not imagine walking into a nicer smelling incense or perfume shop. After taking 15 minutes to get into the zone with my run, I was unstoppable. 8.5 km slid past like nobodies business. What a feeling!

It is truly amazing the things I am seeing now that I have taking up running and fitness in general. After 3 years in this city I always saw the trees and flowers, but usually from a bus or taxi. I never paid enough attention to know when they were flowering, budding or actually making fruit. Those things just kind of happened with me none-the-wiser. But now, I am seeing the whole process, beginning to end.

I saw the trees when the new leaves were just beginning to bud. Then I saw the small flowers forming followed closely by the park staff releasing millions of bees to start pollinating. The I saw the bees go and the flowers wilt, now to be replaced by fruits and other flowers of all kinds. My current run takes me through a Lychee forrest where I can see for the first time baby Lychees, the size of my finger tip, growing at the ends of millions of little branches. It is awe inspiring. Soon I will witness the other end, after the harvest of the fruit, when the park staff wil cut the trees back, almost to the stump, to promote rich new growth for the next growing season. Then it will all begin again. I feel like a botany student on a field trip.

And as crazy as I look, running out there in the rain, it is really for the best. Soon it will get so hot I will have no choice but to change my daily runs to daily walks, except a few times a week I suppose where I can go very early or to a gym. But after running in these gorgeous parks now for months, I dont think any stinky treadmill anywhere is going to cut it. Smiling at people looking at me like a madman, dodging through pedestrian traffic and enjoying the sights and smells of a thriving ecosystem could never be replaced by a wall in front of a treadmill. Oh well. I will look forward to the rainy days. Even today is going to be great, since it is only 23 degrees and I can finally go for my lunch walk outside again, instead of the same old mall. I may get rained on, and I may get wet, but so be it. I wonder if the security guards who see me everyday in the mall will miss me.... ;)

As the saying goes "Into every life a little rain must fall" If it means having gorgeous parks all to myself, fruits and flowers blooming and blossoming every step and fresh clean and exotic smells blowing in the winds as I run by, I hope it rains every damn day this summer.

Raining used to be an excuse not to get off my ass and get moving. Now it has become the opposite. My ass, and all the related muscles and areas around it, thank you.

sirant
 
Sirant, have I told you how much I love reading your journal? :) Really, it is like I am hovering there above you, flying through the lychee forest, laughing at all the stares you get from incredulous passers by.

What a coincidence -- I went through the closet clean-out, just as you did, about 3 weeks ago, when I hit 237. My pants were literally falling off me, and my old belt didn't have any notches left to hold them up. I gave away four giant garbage bags full of clothes. And like you, I had a bunch of smaller clothes that I never could wear before, but now fit me quite well. It's a great feeling, isn't it?

I am in the middle of Round 4 ( I don't call them plateaus anymore. These are rounds, just like in a boxing match ). I'm quite confident I will win this round before the middle of June. I even have a shot at dropping below 230 for my birthday in July -- now THAT would be something! To celebrate, I'm going to have my wife sneak into the gym and take hundreds of pics of me doing my workout.

I hope one day I get to meet your wife. She sounds like a real honey, and I bet she and Marlene would get along famously.
 
any new pics of u in chinese collar? hehe..... u r doing so well, it's really inspirational reading your diary.
Being a chinese myself, I can say it's a stunt to wear those clothing off the rack. The sizes are smaller than elsewhere. excluding indonesia.
 
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any new pics of u in chinese collar? hehe..... u r doing so well, it's really inspirational reading your diary.
Being a chinese myself, I can say it's a stunt to wear those clothing off the rack. The sizes are smaller than elsewhere. excluding indonesia.

As a matter of fact I do have pics of me in a Li collar. In december I had a business suit made, specifically with the chinese collar. However, sadly now that suit is WAY WAY WAY too big and I cant wear it anymore. Soon enough I will get a new one, as I really like the style. Its funny. I work with 500 Chinese accountants and 99.9% wear the traditional western suit, I was the only one wearing the Li collar. So all the Chinese guys wore western suits and the one white guy wore the Chinese one.

But yeah, to go into any store I want, ESPECIALLY here, and pick something off the rack is going to be an amazing feeling.

sirant
 
wow thats amazing that you are so close to your goal. Good on you man!

Whats the chinese collar like? got pics?
 
Ask and you will receive....

wow thats amazing that you are so close to your goal. Good on you man!

Whats the chinese collar like? got pics?

Well, I do have a picture of me wearing it back around December. It kind of frightens me to think now that it was one of those clothing items where I "could" do up the buttons, as long as I didn't bend over or move or sit down or anything silly like that..... You can see how "puffed" out and round the belly was, making this suit a "just fit" piece of clothing... Now I absolutely swim in the sucker and it is pretty much un-wearable, at least by me. I will take a photo tonight of me wearing the same jacket for reference.



sirant
 
Ha.... i LOL at my desk reading your photo caption abt eating a basketball!:rotflmao:
those kids are cute. always amazes me how red their cheeks can be!

u in those old baggy jeans look amazing! i like those kinda pics. big difference!
 
waiting for the weight...

What a long and crazy road it has been when I think about all the things I have learned (the hard way), done and accomplished in 4 short months of REALLY trying this time. Have a look:

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Had you told me 5 months ago I could actually make such life altering chenages in JUST 4 month I would have scoffed and said you were full of something. I ''knew" back then it was going to be too hard and damn near impossible to lose even 5% of my body weight, which was the minimum reccomended for me to have a better lifestyle. I really could not even imagine seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

But I tried.

And after an initial great success, I hit a wall that almost finished me again. That plateau was a rough one, because fueled by my recent success in losing 20 pounds, I worked extra hard and beat the crap out of myself trying to break that plateau.... All to no avail. It was during that time that I started becoming more active here in WLF. I started learning, absorbing and changing... I learned about fitday and the absolute importance of learning how to eat properly, like eating enough of the right foods to not feel hungry, but also actually LOSE weight! I learned about HIIT, Steady state cardio, BMI, the basal metabolic rate and so many other tools, tips and tricks. And I saw all of you, trying just as hard as I was, some succeeding, some falling into the same traps I fell into in the past. I used your encouragements and arguments to push myself that much further. Then, based on so many fantastic succes stories built on a common theme, I learned to run. Since then, as you can see on the graph above, it has been all down hill.

I am not at my goal yet, truth be told I still have 20-40 more pounds to go before I am truly happy. But my first goal, as you can see on the ticker below will be hit this weekend. Which is also pay weekend. Which means it is reward time. No pizzas, no wild parties and exuberant socializing. My reward is going to be a couple new oufits, bought in China, OFF THE RACK BABY!!!! I can feel my eyes misting up ust think about it. I have had trouble buying clothes since I was a pre-teen, and I know the pain involved in saying things like "Are you sure these jeans only come in boot cut?" and "No, those are not a ^%$^#*ing parachute or ten you assholes!" Since coming to China I have had even less shooping opportunities, often relying on shopping at "The Fat People Store" or having clothes made. Or near then end, when I had ballooned up to my biggest here I got care packages from Canada which instead of holding yummy western treats we can't get here, was instead shirts and clothing for work. How sad.

But those sad days are over. Ran into an old friend last night who looked at me 3 times before realizing who I was. He soundly congratulated me on my hard work. I told him I still had a long way to go, and was still techinically a fat guy. He was shocked and said that though I may have a little belly going on now, I was by no means "fat" The ladies he was with very quickly joined in to support this opinion. I must say if my body wasn't fat last night, my head sure as hell was! I think I was at serious risk of blowing away in the wind like a balloon, or worse yet exploding for over inflated ego. What a damn fine feeling!

Its funny though that I still dont see the differences myself. I notice the clothes of course (even now unbuncing the clothes I JUST had tailored) and I know I can run and do more exercise than ever in my life, and I even enjoy said exercise. But the mirror still says "hey fatso!" Oh well. The mirror can be an asshole all it wants. I know in my heart that my journey is going to be 100% successful and I have already made myself and those who love me proud.

And for that, this weekend I spend money! Though truth be told it will still be somewhat conservative. I am not at my overall goal yet, so I dont want to blow the whole wad on clothes that will be loose again in 2-3 months. But I will certainly buy some. I earned it.

This week has been hot, getting up into the 40C range. Too hot for running really, but has that stopped me? Hell no!! Luckily it has been POURING rain with massive thunderstorms all week. So I strip down to my shorts and teeshirt, put all the valuables in my backpack (with its own raincoat), wait an extra hour or so after work for it to cool down a bit, then hit the road! People REALLY look at you funny when you run in the rain, but who cares? Its refreshing, and there is so much less pedestrian traffic that it becomes nothing more than a typical run with less people to dodge. I would rather have people think me crazy than think me lazy!

So after all this hard work I hit 242.1 this morning, so close to 241 (my 2 pounds for the week) that I not only know I will reach the 2 pounds for the weeks 2 pound challenge, but I figure by saturday I will be at 240 and ready to shop! Tonight is of course thursday night, which means no running, just some hardcore soaking and steaming at the sauna. What an amazing thing. Having 7 hot tubs of varying temperatures means there is always a water jet at just the right location to work out every ache and pain. After a couple hours of working over the knees, thighs, quads and ankles, fridays run always feels like I have been running all my life. What a feeling!

So yeah, here I am, a litle more than 4 months after pushing myself like never before, and actually enjoying it! I have lost now 55 pounds and have achieved a weight I havent seen in probably 20 years. The light at the end of the tunnel is no longer a distant dream, a spec in the distance. Now its a place just around the corner, about 2 blocks down and to the right. Spitting distance as we say. I look so forward to not just getting there sooner than later, but in seeing all of you come around that corner too!

Keep working everyone. Trust me, if the laziest nerd in the universe can do it, so can each and every one of you. I have faith in all of you!


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Reading your post brings tears to my eyes. Seriously I think there should be a reality tv show for this forum! There are so many outstanding people like you who bring inspiration and motivation through your journey. Thanks for being one of them.

Hehe I get my pay tmr and am goin shopping too! Somehow though i am heavier than 4 months ago, the clothes are a better fit. Happy shopping!

240.... let us know when sat comes!:)
 
Its funny though that I still dont see the differences myself. I notice the clothes of course (even now unbuncing the clothes I JUST had tailored) and I know I can run and do more exercise than ever in my life, and I even enjoy said exercise. But the mirror still says "hey fatso!" Oh well. The mirror can be an asshole all it wants. I know in my heart that my journey is going to be 100% successful and I have already made myself and those who love me proud.

God, you don't know how much that describes me too.

Congratulations to you. You have worked so hard for this. I know you still have a ways to go, but there's absolutely no doubt in my mind you'll get there. You're an inspiration to all of us on WLF.
 
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