The cocoon of AnneMouse

my goal for the end of June is to be overweight, that is a bmi under 30, as opposed to technically obese.

I'll give it another week before I take new pictures, looking forward to seeing those changes :D
 
I started this journey 14 months ago on this forum, then became majorly interrupted with family trauma. All of my focus shifted away from myself leaving several kgs heavier than ever :(


Now a month after the last funeral and I'm able to start working on me again... (i'll admit I was worried I wouldn't find my login etc;) )


I was going to start a new journal rather than carry on here, but there isn't a lot of difference to make up, and I really did like the start that I had, still feel like I learned from it, internalized those changes, despite the "gap year"


I have a feeling like I'm just turning the page and continuing


I weigh now: 90.7kgs

I'd like to be 60kgs (at only 5' I could go further even, but I'll consider it once I'm there)


in the meantime I've been learning a lot more about exercise so I have a little more in my arsenal.
 
I'll post a new picture soon, something I've been dreading but I know I need to get around to it to do this properly, it's like the final "yeah, I sorta messed up, let's start again" admission
 
this.


this is why we take pictures, so we can see things with clearer eyes

I really didn't think I'd let it slip this much, I really thought I was closer to where we left off...





and I know I'm wearing less flattering garb than in the other pics, but still...ouch.



oh well, I guess these are now my new "before" pics, this really is a whole new journey
 
AIt is great that your not giving up, and having the new before pics will feel much better when you get to those after pics :)
 
thanx, and yeah that's pretty much what I'm thinking. I would be pretty demoralizing to make myself compare to the others when I'm a bit behind there.


I'm trying out http://www.myfitnesspal.com 's food diary thing (chose this one because they have an android app as well and seemed fairly simple to use) so I won't be listing my food here, but I am aiming at between 1250-1400 calories a day


so far I'm annoyed at how the search result are so commercial, like I want to enter "spaghetti, brown" and have to sift through cans and restaurant options and hunt down the generic, homemade version, but that I'm sure will improve with time as more of my choices are added to my list.


I absolutely love the message you get for logging a day; " if everyday were like this, you'd weigh___ in 5 weeks"


yesterday was roughly interrupted by an explosion at a transformer on my street, which left me rewiring the house, to accomodate the missing phase, I ended up skipping dinner because it was too late to eat once I was done(11pm) especially since I was up around 4 in the morning to take a long walk/run. so I ended up about 800 calories short between the run and food
 
almost 8pm and I haven't got to the workout part of today :/

I needed to put in around 15 hours of work today, I'm almost done. but didn't wake up early enough to get it in beforehand.


Just need 20 minutes and a cup of tea to call my own time, then I'll get up the momentum to do this.


Planning to do a routine which I've attempted 3 times before and haven't yet managed to finish, I'm hoping that the running I've been doing will help get my stamina up to a point where it becomes properly doable.


eating went really well today, everything stay considered and controlled, even went out for dinner and still have 210 calories allowed, tomorrow will be more difficult with a birthday barbecue, but expecting I'll be able to opt for clean proteins, it's just all the extra snacks and soda I'll need to watch closely.


for now, tea time. then a workout.
 
AI also don't track my food here, but I use the Australian version of the calorie king site because It has products apropriate to the Australian market and not a heap of brands which don't get sold here.

good luck with the birthday barbecue
 
If I struggle with the list I may try that one, I can't find one specific to South Africa, but yours may be closer.
 
opted to weigh myself quickly before heading out for that birthday, 89.0 which make a loss of 1.7 so far this week, really want to keep that for monday.


EDIT: I managed to keep my eating in control at the birthday, if all my guesstimations were correct I came out at just under 1400calories although I don't believe blue cheese could ever really be evil :p

(I opted for a smaller plate and loaded it with salad before any other food, ate it slowly so while everyone else was doing seconds I was still happily munching, then split my dessert with my fiance, giving him all the extra cream)
 
even though my weigh in day is officially only tomorrow, I climbed on the scale today to check how well I did yesterday, since I felt like I did really well.


and it shows 88.8! which is amazing, because it would mean I've basically lost 2kgs,


first week is awesome, and it's really obvious my body hasn"t seen me sneaking up on it yet, let's hope this lasts for a while.
 
Originally Posted by AnneMouse


even though my weigh in day is officially only tomorrow, I climbed on the scale today to check how well I did yesterday, since I felt like I did really well.



and it shows 88.8! which is amazing, because it would mean I've basically lost 2kgs,



first week is awesome, and it's really obvious my body hasn"t seen me sneaking up on it yet, let's hope this lasts for a while.

Congratulations!!! :hurray:
 
Originally Posted by Free


Congratulations!!! :hurray:

Thanks ^.^


My goals for this week:


get my water intake up, I would hate for the scale to be lying to me on water weight losses instead of real losses.

wean myself off of refined sugar, I still crave sugar in my tea- especially that first cup of coffee or tea in the morning

get to 86.9kgs (a loss of 1.9kgs for the week) I know it's a little steep, but hoping my body hasn't caught on yet.
 
I've updated my first post here to include that huge Q&A if anyone wants to read it for insight into my journey.

Wanted to put it somewhere where I can read over it more easily.
 
So far Monday is going great, I just conquered the workout I hadn't yet managed to finish(except the pushups, I think my bodyfat %is well over 50%, that's a lot to ask my poor weak arms). skipped that sugar vice in my morning tea and am nearly halfway through my water quota while having a lot of spare calories.


I feel so energised and confident, it's probably still from the high of yesterday. Wow, feel like I can conquer the world... or at least the part of it occupied by my excess body blubber :p
 
Monday's high saw 2 workouts beside a line-dancing class, needed a few extra calories (250-300) to recover.


As far as the weekly goals go:

water, I've had 3.5 litres, (not pushing myself, or I could strain my kidneys, just drinking whenever I'm thirsty, the extra workout sort of pushed it over the norm)

sugar, I haven't had and sugar in my tea, and I actually enjoyed my tea without it, but I did want and have 2 slices of banana bread at lunch, didn't have any other extra refined sugar.
 
made some homemade hummus today, yum! I like making it myself for 2 reasons, 1; you know exactly what's in it and can exclude the salt or any preservatives, 2; I like to make it chunky by just mashing it with a fork instead of using a food processor.


Had a nice surprise today while getting dressed, first while putting on my bra, I hooked it and it didn't feel tight, rehooked it on the smallest. my first thought was that something had happened to it like losing an elastic or seam, then I realised it 's actually just because I'm a little bit smaller than I'm used to. Then while tightening my belt( I used to use my belt to reign in the belly and hips, and am used to wearing it pretty tight) used the same notch as before but it felt like I was one larger. *boogies* I really wasn't expecting to get any tangible result there yet.


This is making me really keen for picture day next week


My family(Parents and brother) are coming back from Europe this weekend coming. They've been away for 3 months.


the good: a lot of the extra jobs I've had to do around here will become their issue again, like dealing with tenants, plumbing and generally everything, our home is something between suburb living and farm life, with 4.5 acres of lawn to mow, I'll be glad to get extra energy back to focus on myself again.


the bad: the kitchen will no longer be my own, there'll be more baking going on, and a family meal everyday which I may or may not even be able to measure, I'm not sure yet how I'm going to work around this, the thought did occur to me to just volunteer to cook for everyone everyday, but yeah, see above, I want that time.
 
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