The amazing shrinking woman (I hope!)

Haven't posted in my journal in a few days. Been spending too much time reading and commenting on others when I've had the time to be on the computer.

Monday I was really worried about staying on track food wise, but the minute I walked in and saw the reaction on my best friend's face it made it easy to behave all day. I LOVE how her jaw dropped to the floor when I walked in the door at the museum where we first met up. She said I looked great and that I was half the size that I was last time she saw me (not quite, but it was nice to hear anyway). It was rainy in the morning so we took our kids thru the state museum, then we played at a few parks till the kids were good and hungry. Then we got McDonalds and took it to the zoo for a picnic lunch. I had a kids chicken nugget happy meal with milk and apples, so was not too high on calories. I think my friend felt self concsious though with her super sized adult meal. She's 5 feet tall and has always been tiny, but the last couple of years she's put on a bit of weight around her tummy and hips. Not NEARLY as much as I did though!

We spent several hours at the zoo walking around. By the time the kids were tired and whiney we finally gave in and bought train tickets and snacks for everyone. So while we took the riding tour of the same stuff we had walked past the kids all ate cotton candy, frozen cokes, popcorn and ice cream. I don't usually allow my kids that much sugar, but since this was probably the only 'vacation' our family will have this year I let them splurge. I was so proud of myself that I did not even have a taste of ANYTHING!!! Just water - though not nearly enough through the day.

For supper we stuck with tradition and went to Denny's. I ordered grilled talapia with a side of green beans and a side of sliced tomatoes. My friend said that I made her feel like she should eat healthy too, so she ordered a salad, but with breaded chicken instead of grilled.

All in all it was an awesome day and I was well within my cals for the day - so on the way home I caved and had some soft Toll House chocolate chip cookies that the kids begged for on our way out of the city to head home.

Yesterday I did good food wise. I'm trying to add in a couple hundred more cals to see if that gets me losing again. I've been stuck around 154 for quite a while now it seems like. I lifted weights last night, then headed to bed. An hour later a huge storm system hit our area with tornado warnings and grapefruit sized hail in some areas. My husband is on the local volunteer fire department and they get stuck watching for bad weather (tornadoes and fires from lightening) so I was home alone with the kids. I was up till almost 2 am watching the weather channel to see what was coming yet. We actually got very lucky and didn't have much damage except to my garden and some of our trees. My mother and sister who live in a town 16 miles away from us have broken windows, wrecked siding on their houses, smashed car windows (not to mention the huge dents). There were even some people that had holes all the way thru their roof from the huge hail that came down. My alarm went off at 3:30 this morning. :( I was dragging all day long today. When I came home for lunch I took a nap instead of eating, then made a PB&J sandwhich to take with me and grabbed a V8 and some fruit to eat back at the office.

I was dragging all afternoon too. When I got home I would have loved to just crash, but I thought if I sat down I wouldn't be moving till morning. So I bit the bullet and went for my 2 mile run. The wind was crazy tonight. The first half of each mile was against the wind and I thought I'd never get to the end of those stretches. THen the 2nd half of each mile flew by because the wind was blowing me along. My calves and ankles are pretty sore now, but my knees don't feel all that bad since I haven't run in several days now. I'm hoping they just needed time to heal up.

So... Foods for today (supper is planned - haven't eaten yet)

Morning
1 McDonald's, Apple Dippers w/ low fat caramel dip 100
1/2 c Wheat Chex 90
1 c Milk, skim, fat-free 88
10 each nuts, almonds, ea 70
Total 348

Afternoon
2 Tbsp peanut butter, creamy smooth 190
2 tsp Jelly 19
2 ea Bread, whole wheat, slice 138
2 can, 5.5 oz V8, juice, vegetable cocktail, 100%, low sodium 70
1 nectarine 67
Total 484

Evening
2 c Spicy Taco Salad 305
10 Doritos, chips, nacho cheesier 127
2 Tbsp sour cream, regular 52
Total 484

Snack
1/4 c dry fruit 108
Total 108

Daily Total: 1424

Upping the calories a bit makes me a bit nervous, but we'll see if it helps or not. If I start to gain weight back, I can always go back down to where I was, right? Right!
 
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Hey Tigsy!

Doin' great hun! And way to surprise your friend! Gotta love them reactions!

Sounds like you had a wonderful time with the kids! And then a 2 mile run?!?!?!? Thats crazy! A day like that with the kids would have put me would have put me in bed by 8:00 pm! Way to go!

And your calories sound great! Don't be scared. You have proven you are in control! And thats what counts!

Have a great nite!
 
Congrats on your self control on your day out. I can eat healthily with no problem on normal days but on special days it's like there's this little voice in your head saying - go on, have some, you deserve it. When I do cave and have something I rarely enjoy it as much as I used to or as much as my healthy food.
Well done also on the run after being tired all day. It would have been so much easier to just relax :D
 
GAH!!! I'm tired and crabby at the moment! I had to work in the city today and got home late because I had a lot of grocery shopping to do after work. When I got home I sent the kids upstairs to start cleaning up because my mother and 2 of my nieces are coming to stay with us tomorrow and will be here thru the weekend. They are supposed to be camping out here in a tent, but I wanted them to clean up in case it rains and we end up having to throw down sleeping bags on the floor in their play room. They were supposed to get the toys picked up so I could vacuume and I was trying to get groceries put away, veggies washed and cut and straighten the kitchen up. I heard a lot of laughing and screaming, but didn't take the time to go check what was going on.

After a while the twins came downstairs with wet hair and bits of wet toilet paper stuck to them, and toothpaste all over their hands and arms. They said their older sisters had done it to them. So I finally went upstairs to check what was going on. I walked into the kids' bathroom to see that they had smeared toothpaste all over the walls, had a wet toilet paper fight with the 3 rolls that they had stuffed into the toilet, and had smeared half a tube of diaper ointment left over from when the twins were babies all over the mirrors! :flame: Boy was I PISSED!!! I mean what the hell were they thinking??!?!?!?!?

So now it's nearly midnight and the kids are in bed and the mess is finally all cleaned up. I should go to bed, but instead I'm sitting here having a small glass of wine and reading people's journals. I want to get up early tomorrow so I can finish my 'regular' house cleaning, provided that my spawn don't create another disaster like they did tonight. I hate to have my house a mess when my mother comes over. She says she doesn't care, that she's there to see me and not my house, but then she starts cleaning stuff instead of just sitting and visiting or relaxing. It kinda gets on my nerves. Especially since she doesn't clean as well as I do and I have to go back and redo it anyway.

Today work was great. I just closed out a big project for our biggest customer. The head of their department is VERY hard to please and has been known to go right to the top of our agency with his complaints. When I got in this morning I checked e-mail first thing and found an e-mail from him. At first I was expecting the worst, but instead he had e-mailed the CIO of my department, along with my division manager and my immediate supervisor telling them about how happy they were with the job that I did on this last project. I nearly fell over in shock! All day I've been getting e-mails and calls from higher ups in my department congradulating me on finally being able to please our toughest customer. It felt awesome to be recognized for the hard work I put in!

My coworkers and I went out to celebrate for lunch and they chose this pizza buffet place. At first I wasn't so sure going to a buffet was a good idea, but everyone has been commenting on my weight loss and I felt like they were all watching me to see how I ate and if I screwed up or something. I had salad and veggies, along with roasted chicken breast that I put BBQ sauce on. I found BBQ sauce actually makes a pretty good salad dressing!

Foods for today:

Morning
1 nectarine 67
1 Clif Bar, Builder's Bar 270
Total 337

Afternoon
1 oz chicken, breast, skinless, baked, 1 oz 48
1/4 c peas, green/sweet 30
1/2 c. cottage cheese, low-fat, 2% 101
1 Tbsp sauce, barbeque 12
1 c cucumber, sliced 16
1 Wendy's, side salad 60
Total 267

Evening
6 oz. Yoplait Original 99% Fat Free Yogurt, coffee flavored 170
1 each apple 72
1/2 c Lentil Stew 122
2 can, 5.5 oz V8, juice, vegetable cocktail, 100%, low sodium 70
Total 434

Snack
2 c coffee, brewed, prepared 8
8 tbsp Coffee Mate creamer, 10 calories 80
1 c Milk, skim, fat-free 88
1/2 bagel, whole wheat, medium 114
3 tsp cream cheese, regular, 1 tsp 51
Total 341

Daily total: 1379

Well, I have the day off tomorrow, but I better get to bed so I can get up tomorrow to finish my cleaning before my mother gets here.

'Night all!
 
Well that was a bad end to a great day. I hope that you get a good nights sleep and can enjoy your day off with your family tomorrow :)
 
Oh my!

I can imagine the overwhelming feeling into a bathroom like that. My breath is short just thinkin about it. :svengo:
Hope you are able to get over it quickly.

Looks like you are doing great food wise! Well done!

And great job at work! Gotta love those 'pat on the back' days!

Have a great visit with family and an even better weekend!
 
Shhh.... Did you hear that?

WOOOSH!!!!

I weighed myself and that lovely little scale of mine said 151.6!!!

:party:
 
W0W!!! Congrats on the WHOOOOOOOSH!!! Isn't that a great feeling?! Here's hoping for some more whoooshing on its way!

:hurray:
 
Well, I did pretty good food wise all weekend with my mother and nieces visiting (my mother has custody of them and is raising them - they even call her mom). Usually we snack all the time when we are together. I wanted our time together to NOT be about food, so I set up a water park of sorts outside for the kids with a wading pool, water ballons, hoses running all over with different types of lawn sprinklers hooked up. I put down a HUGE tarp and the kids used it for a slip and slide. I put up an awning for shade and set out some lawn chairs for the adults. We watched the kids play and sat with our feet in the water visiting with each other and NOT EATING (except at meals). And I didn't allow my mom to bring anything this weekend. I provided all the food and it was healthy stuff!

My entire family on my mom's side has a weight problem, with a large number of them being morbidly obese. There were only 3 people in my entire family on that side that I can think of who didn't have a weight problem. One is my cousin who is the genetic freak who is like a walking skeleton and eats everything in sight. He's been skinny his entire life. I don't know if his metabolism is that high to burn it all off or if he has a medical problem that makes it so high. One was another cousin who was thin and very pretty, but heavily into drugs. I think she did drugs instead of eating. Unfortunately, she paid the price. It ruined her health and her looks. She ended up suffering a heart attack last year and passed away at the sad age of 32. The last person is one of my sisters who is a physical therapist and is very into nutrition and fitness. And it shows! She looks great!

But everyone else is FAT, FAT, FAT! Many of them use genetics as an excuse for being overweight, but I've now come to realize that this isn't entirely true. Besides, all the kids start out skinny and healthy when their young, but by teens or adulthood they start packing on the pounds. When ever there is a family get together there is always food, and lots of it. They all sit around visiting and stuffing their faces with cookies, home made baked goods, chips, dips, etc. All high fat, high calorie stuff. And the portions! OH MY GOODNESS!!! When I think of how much I used to eat it shocks me - and many of them eat much more than I could! I can tell since I've been measuring my food my stomach has shrunk because there is no way I could eat that much in one sitting any more! It just wouldn't fit! Fruit isn't eaten unless it's baked into a pie or something like that. And vegetables on the menu? Forget it! It's all meat, potatoes, bread, gravy, cream sauces, etc.

I don't want my kids to learn those bad eating habits, so hopefully they won't struggle with their weight when they are adults. But gosh it's hard to stay away from all those yummy comfort foods I grew up on... I hope to enjoy them again some day (in moderation of course) but for now I think it's just best for me to stay away from the entirely. I'm not all that confident in my ability to control myself yet.

Someday though....
 
Very creative with the water park idea! I bet it was a blast!

And you are doing great! Keep it up!
 
Sounds like GREAT FUN Tigpuppy, can we come over and play in the waterpark!?!?!? Flumes has even got the right name for it!

Seriously though, well done on tightening the boundaries to a point where you were in control of the food situation and kept it healthy - I'm proud of you for coming up with a good solution to a problematic family situatioN!
 
Thanks Jjjay and Flumes! It was nice to see your comments tonight because I AM TICKED!!!! Weighed myself today and I was back up to 155! How the heck is that possible!!!?!?!?!? I think my stupid scale is screwing with me. Don't you have to eat 3500 calories to gain a pound of fat??? Well, I was just 151 the other day and I sure as heck didn't eat that many calories over the last couple of days!

How can my weight jump that much if I'm eating well? I know I didn't drink as much water this weekend as I should have, and today I can't seem to get enough. Am I retaining that much of the water I drank today???? I feel like I had to pee every half hour or so - so I didn't think I could be retaining that much of it. I made homemade pizza last night and the turkey pepperoni was pretty salty - so maybe that's causing it? I'm just irritated that it went up so much!

I have a lunch date with an old friend from high school who I haven't seen since last summer day after tomorrow. We used to have lunch at least once a month, but last fall she changed jobs and I broke my arm all in the same month and neither of us were able to get away for lunch and we just sort of fell out of the habit. Hopefully we can change that. I'm really looking forward to seeing her again after all this time. We've been thru a lot of shit together.

Thinking about my lunch date got me moving tonight to get my run in. We had a bad thunderstorm with heavy rain and hail, so I couldn't run outside. So for the first time I used the treadmill that was given to me. For some reason I tend to be VERY accident prone and I was kinda afraid to use it. I could just see me hurting myself on it or something in some freak treadmill accident. But it actually went very well! I ran 2 miles and was sweating buckets. My legs were killing me by the time I finished! Then I realized that I had the incline set up on it so I actually ran up hill the entire time and didn't realize it! It just seemed to go faster than when I run on the road and it was easier - maybe because it was a completely flat/smooth surface that didn't have rocks all over it waiting to make me stumble. Plus I cranked up my tunes and make the walls vibrate! While I ran the kids danced. :)

Anyway, for foods today I had:

Morning
1/2 bagel, whole wheat, medium 114
2 Tbsp cream cheese, regular 99
20 cherries, raw 100
1 c Milk, skim, fat-free 88
Total 401

Afternoon
1 c Lentil Stew (recipe) 244
1/4 cup pepper, green, red, or yellow, chopped 7
2 stalk celery, raw, stalk 40
1/2 c carrots, baby 26
Total 317

Evening
2 oz chicken, breast, skinless, grilled, 1 oz 96
1/2 cup celery, raw, chopped 10
1/2 cup rice, brown, long grain, cooked 108
1/4 cup onion, raw 15
1/2 c carrots, cooked 28
Total 257

Snack
1 1/2 c Milk, skim, fat-free 132
1 nectarine 67
Total 199

Daily Total: 1174

I know I should have eaten more calories today, but I just couldn't seem to fit them in. Unless I go grab a brownie or candy bar or something right about now, but I'm too tired to go find something to eat. So I think I'll just head to bed.

Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully my scale won't give me so much attitude in the morning!
 
Don't let it get you down about the weight gain. If you have been eating well then it can only be water retention or faulty scales.
Your neices must love to have you as an auntie. The water games sounded great fun.
 
Quick post before I go off to dreamland. I can hear my bed calling to me...

Taught an hour long archery class tonight to some 4-H kids, then came home and lifted weights for half an hour or so. Now I'm ready for some Z's!

Today's foods:

Morning
1 c Cheerios 90
1 c Milk, skim, fat-free 88
1/8 c Oceanspray, craisins 49
10 each nuts, almonds, ea 70
Total 297

Afternoon
1 c Lentil Stew 244
2 can, 5.5 oz V8, juice, vegetable cocktail, 100%, low sodium 70
5 crackers, wheat, Keebler Toasteds 80
Total 394

Evening
1 oz Kraft, cheese, American 110
1 bun, hamburger/hot dog 124
1 Tbsp Hunt, sauce, Manwich, bold 31
1/2 c carrots, baby 26
2 oz beef, ground, lean 158
Total 449

Snacks
1 banana banana 104
10 cherries, raw 50
1 c Milk, skim, fat-free 88
Total 242

Daily Total: 1382

I'm really trying hard to keep my calories closer to 1400 or so to see if that gets me losing again. And hoping like heck that the recent jump in weight is just water retention from salty foods. Scale was still a bit stubborn this morning and said 154.2, and tonight when I got home it said 153.8 - so at least it's going in the right direction.

Eycky - yes I am my niece's favorite Auntie. If something happens to my mother they want to come live with me (they don't know it but I am actually my mother's beneficiary and her will states that I am to get her life insurance money to be used to raise my nieces). That is my husband's worst fear - that my mother and I will go somewhere together and have an accident and he'll be left to raise 6 little girls by himself. They think it would be a dream come true to live on a farm. My daughters think living in town like they do would be the dream come true though! They always say how much they hate living on a farm. We always think the grass is greener on the other side of the fence I guess!

I better get off the computer now. I think the twins are up and I could have sworn that I just heard someone say 'fun' and 'sword fight' in the same sentence. I better go do the mom thing...

Night all!
 
It must be a relief to your mum to know that you are there for the girls incase anything happens to her. I have the same arrangement with my sister although my neice is now grown up but the twin boys are just turning 13. Lol at your husband. My husband is a bit like that about the boys.
 
My day started out not so good, but then turned out FREAKIN' AWESOME!!!

I was supposed to work in the city today and was running a bit late. About 7 miles from my house I saw a doe and fawn cross over the road in front of me. The grass was so tall that I barely saw the doe and didn't even see the fawn till it was out of the grass and on the road. I slammed on the brakes and they crossed just fine. I was just speeding up again when a 2nd fawn (a twin) popped up out of the grass and ran right in front of me. It bumped against my bumper and went under my tires. It's back was broke, but it was still alive. I felt horrible! It was 4:45 in the morning and I wasn't sure who to call or what to do. I tried to call my husband in case he had his cell phone by him on vibrate (which he sometimes does because he's hearing impaired) but he didn't pick up. So I drove all the way back home to get him up to follow me back to the fawn to put it out of it's misery. Needless to say I was very late for work this morning. :-(

At first I kept thinking about that poor baby deer and wondering if I could have done something to save it. I finally just had to give myself a mental shake and tell myself there's no point in rehashing it because what's done is done. It's in the past, so don't dwell on it any more!

So then I had a morning meeting get cancelled and one of my coworkers was complaining that his walking partner for morning break got called by her daycare to come get her kids, and he didn't want to walk alone. So I said I would go with him. He made a wise crack about whether I could keep up with him or not. Well, we hadn't gone very far when I noticed he wasn't chatting much any more because he was breathing too hard! And I was still breathing normal! HA! See who can keep up with who!

Then I had my lunch date with my best friend from high school. I wore a dress that I haven't worn in almost 10 years and it was very flattering to my new figure - fitted on top to show off my bust and thinner arms, cinched in at the waist to show how small it's gotten, and a long full skirt. She was shocked by how much I've changed since I last saw her. We had a nice long chat catching up on the news in each other's lives. We did way too much talking and not much eating though!

When I got back to the office as I walked past the secretary's desk she said "There's that new girl!" and I misunderstood thinking she was pointing out a new employee. I looked around and didn't see anyone, so asked her what new girl she was talking about. She just laughed and said I was the new girl because I looked like a whole different person lately!

My afternoon flew by and after work I went shopping for groceries. I had empty shopping bags to drop off for recycling and was trying to get them put into the container when 2 elderly gentlemen came in to the store and went to the motorized shopping carts that were parked near the recycle containers. I was listening to their conversation and the one was instructing the other on how to operate the motorized cart. The inexperienced one floored it in reverse right towards me and his friend yells "Watch it there Elmer! Yer gonna run over that skinny girl there standin' behind ya!" It took me a minute to realize he was talking about me! I don't think anyone has called me a skinny girl since high school! I tell you I could not keep the silly grin off my face for the rest of the time I was shopping!

After I got home and finished putting the groceries away I went to run on the treadmill because it was rainy outside again. I'm so proud of myself!!! I speed walked for 1 mile, ran for 2.8 miles, then walked for 1.2 miles!!! My legs were like jelly afterwards, but I was feeling GREAT!!! And boy was I sweating! Dripping all over the place - it was GROSS!!!

And THEN.... To top off my great day I stepped on my scale and it said 150.8!!! WOO HOO!!!! Auntie Flow just left and I've been avoiding really salty foods the last few days and have tried to eat more calories, drink more water and apparently it's WORKED! :hurray:

So my foods for today ended up looking like this:

Morning
1 nectarine 67
1 Bar Clif Builders Bar, Chocolate 270
Total 337

Afternoon
1 cup zucchini 38
1 tsp Wesson, oil, stir fry 42
1 Tbsp Kikkoman Stir Fry Sauce 20
1 c honeydew melon 54
1/2 c watermelon 25
1 cup Green Beans with Garlic 72
A couple of bites of some stir fried chicken and beef that didn't amount to much cuz it was gross.
Total 251

Evening
1 McDonald's, Apple Dippers w/ low fat caramel dip 100
1 McDonald's, side salad 60
2 c fruit smoothie 260
4 piece(s) McDonald's, Chicken McNuggets, 4 piece 190
1/2 pckt(s) McDonald's, hot mustard sauce 30
Total 640

Snacks
1/2 apple 36
1/8 c Oceanspray, craisins 49
1 c Milk, skim, fat-free 88
Total 173

Grand total for today: 1401

I started out in the obese category, made it to the overweight category, and by the weekend should now be considered within a normal weight range for a person of my age and height (115 to 150 lbs)! YAY!!!!
 
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heheheh so much to comment on today!!! Don't get caught up feeling guilty about the deer - you couldn't have done anything to change it or avoid it - some things are just meant to happen, however sad :(

Tigpuppy said:
So then I had a morning meeting get cancelled and one of my coworkers was complaining that his walking partner for morning break got called by her daycare to come get her kids, and he didn't want to walk alone. So I said I would go with him. He made a wise crack about whether I could keep up with him or not. Well, we hadn't gone very far when I noticed he wasn't chatting much any more because he was breathing too hard! And I was still breathing normal! HA! See who can keep up with who!
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I LOVE this hahahahaha you showed him!! I bet he won't wisecrack about you again in a hurry!

Tigpuppy said:
The inexperienced one floored it in reverse right towards me and his friend yells "Watch it there Elmer! Yer gonna run over that skinny girl there standin' behind ya!" It took me a minute to realize he was talking about me! I don't think anyone has called me a skinny girl since high school! I tell you I could not keep the silly grin off my face for the rest of the time I was shopping!
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YA SKINNY GIRL!!!! Elmer and Bob (I think of the "experienced" old man as Bob for some reason) think you are a skinny girl!!!! LOL Just the sort of thing to put a big old smile on your face for the rest of the week.. Ok, anytime you are feeling down about that scale going up a couple of lbs due to ToM or water retention, or you've had a crappy day at work, your mantra is ""Watch it there Elmer! Yer gonna run over that skinny girl there standin' behind ya!" !! Guarenteed to get you smiling again!

Tigpuppy said:
After I got home and finished putting the groceries away I went to run on the treadmill because it was rainy outside again. I'm so proud of myself!!! I speed walked for 1 mile, ran for 2.8 miles, then walked for 1.2 miles!!! My legs were like jelly afterwards, but I was feeling GREAT!!! And boy was I sweating! Dripping all over the place - it was GROSS!!!
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Fantastic going - 2.8mils is a heck of a way to run, nice job!
 
congrats on the weight loss :)
It is really distressing when you hit an animal. I've hit cats and birds but a baby deer must be really traumatic.:hug2:
LOL at being called skinny, that must be so great.:)
 
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