"That which does not kill us makes us stronger" - Elle's diary

Okay so I cleaned and re arranged the spare room in my house. It was a pain in my arse. Moving furniture, vacuuming, dusting and sorting through boxes of junk. Did that from 12-2.


So I'm sitting on my bed on the good old laptop and all it's all super sunny and warm out and then all of a sudden it gets REALLY dark outside. Then it sounded like someone fell on my roof. Then I saw a massive flash outside my window. Yeah... crazy storm. Now it's down pouring ridiculous amounts.

Can we say "Rochester weather sucks" ?

I guess going to the lake isn't gonna happen today. :/ Even if it clears up I don't want to smell wet dog and get the car all muddy. Guess I'll be doing an exercise dvd instead.

Hope everyone is having a great afternoon!!

xoxo
 
Originally posted by Boam46

You shouldn't tell Kimberly this .... he'll be in her harem before you know it!

She knows me too well....:rotflmao: Don't have a latin hottie in the harem :rotflmao: :rotflmao: yet, either...:jump:

Elle, that McD's sucks ass...lol And Sheryl, you are, as usual fackin' hilarious.
 
I think rearranging and cleaning is definately a form of exercise...probably my least favorite form!
 
bikinibound said:
She knows me too well....:rotflmao: Don't have a latin hottie in the harem :rotflmao: :rotflmao: yet, either...:jump:

Elle, that McD's sucks ass...lol And Sheryl, you are, as usual fackin' hilarious.
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lol if only he needed to lose weight then he'd be on here... He'd jump on that opportunity to join your harem in a second.

:] I'm SO over McD's.
 
So today it seems like I have to force myself to eat. I just feel really full. :[ I started eating a bowl of salad (1 cup salad, 2 tbsp dressing, 5 grape tomatoes) and got about half way through it I felt so full that I was going to pop. I had to throw the rest of it out. Even as I sit here now I just feel so full. I haven't even nearly fulfilled my calorie intake for the day. I'm only at around 600 so far and it's 6.30. :[ I feel grody. I'm in an icky mood I guess cause of it.

Hope everyone had a great day!
xoxo
 
Hi Elle,

Don't sweat it... its one day where you weren't hungry. Tomorrow is a new day. It may still be that Evil McD in your system. You can't change howyou feel today so look too tomorrow. I hope your feeling much better then.

::HUGS::
~Jenna
 
I never feel like eating as much when it is hot out. I just want to drink liquids and food makes me naseous just looking at it.
 
Thanks Jenna & Amber. :)
After I got off of here I was sitting with the bf watching tv. I ended up getting a bit hungry so I ate a cabbage roll. I still felt stuffed while I was eating it but on the other hand I was hungry. It was a weird feeling. That was 210 calories so it put my calories up a bit. After eating I exercised a bit while the bf made fun of me for not wanting to work out in front of him. lol. Drank some water (I drank almost a gallon and a half of water today!) and then decided I was tired. Ended up going to bed at like 9.30 which is crazy early for me.

Now I remember why I never go to bed any sooner than 10... I wake up almost exactly 5 hours after I fall asleep. Woke up at 2.30 and tried to get back to sleep but it seems impossible. So I came on here and decided to see what I missed out on while I was sleeping and to check the good old email.

Well I'm gonna see if I can try and get back to sleep now. Sorry for my debbie downer post earlier. You all are awesome :hug2:

xoxo
 
So I couldn't get back to sleep. :/

I was thinking while I was awake (oh my god, a first! lol) and I don't think that I would look good at 125. I think I'd probably look a little sickly. I think I want to make my goal 135. Once I get to 135, if I decide to go lower, I will.

I can't wait until I can actually buy regular clothes again, none of those silly plus sizes that I've been stuck in. I'll be excited to be able to go shopping with my girlfriends and actually buy something without being embarrassed. It'll be awesome to go to Bamboozle in '08 and actually do my job there without feeling so self conscious. I'll be able to go out in public without having a horrible anxiety attack. I can't wait to actually be healthy!

I am so dead set on reaching my goal and nothing will get in my way.

I stepped on the scale when I woke up and it's back down to 202.5. yay!

I think I'm going to post before pictures on here in a few days. I know they won't be at my original starting weight but I was way too scared. Still kind of am but oh well. If everyone else has been so amazingly strong to post theirs, I might as well post mine too.

Okay, I'm starting to get tired (thank you, simply sleep!) so I'm gonna go get a few hours in seeing as how I got very little sleep last night.

Hope everyone is doing awesomely!!
love you all!
xoxo
 
Morning, lil mama...

Hey girl,

after reading your last post, you seem really determined to lose weight.. which is fackin' awesome. (NOTE: I use the word "fackin'" on Elle's diary, because I don't want to taint it like a certain person I know... no names or anything, but it rhymes with binikibound.... LMAO) I hear you with not wanting to make a goal weight too low. I was thinking 140 would be a good "see where I'm at point" before going any lower. I have no intention of being "skinny" whatsoever. I like having curves and muscles. :D Anyways, you're going to get there, doll. Just don't lose faith in yourself and you'll achieve ALL your goals.

As for posting pictures, do what makes you feel comfortable. I pesonally think it's a great motivator to get my ass in gear. What I do is I post one of my "Dayuuuummm Sheryl.. rocking a HUGE ass" pix as my screen saver, so whenever I'm fackin' around and vegging, that bad boy pops up and it automatically gets me off my ass. lol Hell, I got a bunch of "fat me" pix lying around the house: like 4 on the fridge, 1 next to my bed, 1 on my food journal (I keep a sparkspeople journal online and a on hand food diary). Well, wishing you a great day as usual, Elle.

-Sheryl
 
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Hey Elle~
I know what you mean about the 5 hours of sleep thing. :sleeping: I use to suffer from that real bad when I did my old job. More so because if I slept for more than 5-6 hours I couldn't move in the morning from my back hurting so much.
Now though I feel like I need to get like 8-9 hours or I can't function. Which I guess is more "normal".
Glad you got back down to the 202. :jump: I know how much that bugged you.
Bet you anything you just didn't feel hungry because that McD's made you gain. Now that you are back where you were things will fall into place for you.
Keep up the good work and determination.
I was watching a movie last night (Disturbia, VERY good movie) and kept seeing the main girl character (of course she is like almost 20 years younger than me) and thinking how nice it will be to smaller.
I always get anxiety on Sunday mornings when I have to get all dressed up for church. I don't own alot of really nice dressy clothes, because like everything they make looks not nearly as nice on me as it did on the rack.
I would like to actually be able to shop from the clearance rack where all the cute clothes are and are on sale!! I know that we will both make it!!!
If you post pics of yourself I will post me that way you won't have to feel like your the only one out there at the time. Just let me know when.
Well wishing you lots of luck today!!!!
Man I can't just respond a little bit, you should see how much I talk in real life!!!!!!!:rotflmao:
Bellaryna
 
Definately good to have a reasonable goal! For years, my goal was 120. Especially since I am only 5'1. Then I had a body comp. analysis done and found out my lean body mass (muscles, bones and organs only) is 129 pounds. Meaning if I had 0% body fat, 129 is the lowest I could weigh without cutting off a limb. This taught me that the height and weight charts are kind of dumb, because they do not take individual bodies into consideration. I now know that 140-150 would be a GREAT weight for me to be at for my health.
 
AmbaLove said:
Definately good to have a reasonable goal! For years, my goal was 120. Especially since I am only 5'1. Then I had a body comp. analysis done and found out my lean body mass (muscles, bones and organs only) is 129 pounds. Meaning if I had 0% body fat, 129 is the lowest I could weigh without cutting off a limb. This taught me that the height and weight charts are kind of dumb, because they do not take individual bodies into consideration. I now know that 140-150 would be a GREAT weight for me to be at for my health.
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Yea those charts are really stupid... my goal is 135 and the charts tell me that I would still be overweight! I know I'm short but I don't want to be a stick figure.

You are soo determined elle. I can't wait to be able to just go shopping and not worry if a store has my size. I just want to be able to go in look around and find things in my size!
 
Boam46 said:
Yea those charts are really stupid... my goal is 135 and the charts tell me that I would still be overweight! I know I'm short but I don't want to be a stick figure.
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I completely agree with you both, Amber and Jenna. Let's see, I'm still considered obese according to its standards and until I reach 154, I'll be overweight. WTF is that? Bullshite, that's what it is. It just lumps everything together and comes up with a half assed "category." It seems fat and muscle are in the same boat. I'm supposed to be 112 lbs if I want to be "healthy/ fit." Bugger that... at 112 lbs I'll be nothing but skin and boney booty. EEwwwww

-Sheryl
 
First let me start off by saying that you girls are all so amazing!!! You all are so helpful and such an inspiration to me. :hug2:

I can definitely agree with you Sheryl. I don't want to be a stick, I'll always have bigger hips and that's fine by me. I just want to be healthy and be able to look in the mirror without wanting to vomit all over the place. :] Instead of having fat me pics all over I have ones of when I was skinny. It helps me think that even though this might be hard right now, once it's all over I'll be so much more happy and content with myself.

Thanks so much bellaryna! :[ about your back. Does it feel better now that you're not in that same position at work anymore? The getting dressed up thing is a horrible subject for me. lol. When I used to go to church It would be a freakin 2 hour ordeal for me to get ready. lol. finally I broke down and decided to sew my own skirts. I also cannot wait to be able to buy cute clothes that look cute on the rack. Once we get there, those clothes will look bangin' on us... even better than they looked on the rack!

I so agree Amber. I haven't found one good weight chart yet, they all seem to be ridiculous so I'm just ignoring them. That body comp analysis sounds pretty cool, did you get it done at your doctor or something?

Screw the weight charts Jenna. :] I checked mine (I'm 5'5") and it said that 120-138 for me is good, but anything over that is overweight. I think once we all reach our goals we should all gather and go shopping. A group of super sexy ladies that will make every man in a 5 mile radius turn their head. lol.
 
ellebelle said:
Screw the weight charts Jenna. :] I checked mine (I'm 5'5") and it said that 120-138 for me is good, but anything over that is overweight. I think once we all reach our goals we should all gather and go shopping. A group of super sexy ladies that will make every man in a 5 mile radius turn their head. lol.
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We'll all be Hot Bizznatch's!!!! Buying awesome cloths off the friggin racks without thinking about it... soooo sounds good to me!
 
I got it at my dieticians office. They hook you up to electrodes and send current through your body and it prints out a lean body mass and body fat percentage.
 
AmbaLove said:
I got it at my dieticians office. They hook you up to electrodes and send current through your body and it prints out a lean body mass and body fat percentage.
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I wonder if I could find somewhere to do this... I'd just like to know LOL
 
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