Tea Junkie

Feeling pretty good about today. For dinner I had two slices of whole meal toast with baked beans then had two chocolate digestives with my tea. I've got a Wispa Gold sitting next to me which my mum bought for me on Saturday and I've stopped myself eating it. Might let myself have it tomorrow as I'll be doing so much moving about.
Its weird but I feel like I'm more toned. Like I think my body feels more hard but the same kind of shape. I'm putting this down to all the walking but will see what I feel like in a week.
Its 20 past 8 and already feeling tired. I really think its two do with the reduced caffeine which is good. And I get up a lot earlier as a result as well. Been drinking loads of water as usual.
I'm tempted to weigh myself tomorrow as I've been good but because I'm on I'm worried it won't be accurate. Maybe I should just leave it until I'm positive I've had a loss so I won't be disappointed but that will be in a few weeks time when I come back from uni.
Moving into my new house tomorrow! Have so much stuff to move in. Gonna take a good couple of trips up and down the stairs. Then have to unpack it all. Also have to meet up with the ex and give our old stuff back so tomorrows gonna be a busy day! Then I'll be seeing old friends and settling in so hopefully it will be a busy week in general. I hate sitting still so I'm not complaining!

I already know breakfast tomorrow will be Porridge + Coffee.
I really wanna try my muesli so might have it for lunch tomorrow but keep thinking I should save it till I'm at uni.
Then might make my veggie soup for dinner. Dinner and lunch might interchange. If I do that it leaves room for my Wispa Gold :D

So thats a rough plan. Gonna snack on fruit in the morning before my lunch as I know I'll get peckish.

Off to have a bath then probably go to bed.
 
Wow been a while since I posted.
Quite alot happened. Moving into my house didnt go as planned but I stayed with a friend for a few days until we were finally allowed to move in. Been back at uni for about 2 weeks now but only actually had lectures this week. I live further away from uni now, about a 10-15 minute walk so this means a lot more walking which is always good. Plus the town center is right next to uni where I end up on most days so been doing loads more walking in general. Can feel my body slowing getting toned woop!
Gonna take my Wii Fit back to uni tomorrow so I can do some yoga and muscle exercises in the morning or during the day as at the moment I have a lot of free time. Been sticking to eating well too. I've had no choice but to live on basics this week as my student loan still hasn't come through - stupid system - but I've come home this weekend and had all my food shopping done. Last week I lived on porridge, tomatoes, beans, bread, cheese, cucumber and ham the majority of the time. Student Living!

Came home last night and had a chinese and quite a few biscuits after. Don't feel guilty though. I haven't overeaten in two weeks so this was a little treat from my parents.

Hope everyones doing well and hopefully I'll have time and internet to check in again soon.
 
Thought I would post one more time before I go back and become internetless again.
Yesterday wasn't amazing but could have been a lot worse. I got up early and went food shopping with my mum. Ended up walking around for about 2 hours. Food was porridge, leftover chinese and another bowl of porridge plus 4 hobnobs. I guess it was better than eating all the chinese in one go?
Anyways today will be porridge, roast dinner and that will probably be it. I have to stress my dads roast dinners a huuuge! So that will definitely be enough for the day.

Was gonna go on the Wii Fit a minute ago but forget the actual Wii is at uni so I will go on it when I get home tonight.

On a personal note. I'm really not sure what to do about my boyfriend at the moment. He has such a kind heart and would never be mean to anyone. I can't see us ever having an argument but I'm really not sure how I feel about him. He's really shy and I can be too so I thought after us being together a while things would get better and the conversation would flow more easily but it really doesn't. Its been 5 or 6 months and I feel like most of the time I have to drive the conversation and things haven't really changed that much since the beginning. I felt like breaking up with him a few months ago, then went off the idea but now I'm really considering it again.
I have a real problem with breaking up with people though. I was in my previous relationship for 2 and a half years and was unhappy for a while. Not because he was horrible but just because I didn't feel like I loved him for a long time. The only reason we broke up was because of uni and he couldn't handle it so it kind of gave me a reason to escape. But with this one I really don't know what to do. I'm thinking about waiting till the end of the month and if I still feel like this then I'll end it. I would do it now but its my birthday this week and I would feel terrible. Then I don't wanna do it straight after or it will look like I waited till right after it.
Also when I think of breaking up with guys I always feel guilty about the friends, family etc who I'll no longer be able to see and worry that they are gonna hate me. I have a real problem with hurting people especially when they haven't really done anything wrong.
I hate this! But from the way this is really stressing me out I think I will end it soon. If I was really meant to be with someone I wouldn't feel like this would I?

I don't think I was really ready to be in a relationship again. I still want some time to be single and not have to worry about anyone else.

Sorry to rant on here but I needed to let it out somewhere. I haven't told any of my friends yet but I think I will soon. It just helps to get it all out.
 
Feeling alot better about most things today, well the day has only just started but I'm pretty optimistic :)
I''ve started using my Wii fit again. Only really gonna do yoga and muscle exercises on it as I'm more focused on toning up but gonna spend at least 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week (or 7 if I'm not back home).
I had a huge binge over the weekend but it hasn't affected me too much. I haven't weighed myself but my body feels ok. Since I've been back I've been good. Every morning I have on coffee with my porridge now and that seems to help with the little problem I had before. Plus generally being more active like walking in to University everyday. My whole body seems back in working order.

It's my birthday in 3 days woohooo! I've made the theme Moulin Rouge (my fave film ever) and I ordered this yesterday. Should get here today :)


So basically Friday night will include a truck load of alcohol! And I want to go out for dinner with my close friends and boyfriend before hand but I know I won't overeat because I'll be drinking after - bad I know!
Then I'll go back home on Saturday and no doubt go out for a meal with the family and then Sunday I would love my roast dinner - haha I'll probably be too stuffed by then.

So hopefully its gonna be a good weekend. And hopefully by next week I will have my student loan once I post this letter today. Gonna go on the Wii once my breakfast has gone down then go into town and walk round the shops with a friend. Then gonna go to the cinema with the boyfriend later.

Ohhh yeah and if you didn't guess.
I have internet again!!!
Ciao!
 
Ok I'm officially not a teenager any more. Sad sad times.

Again had a massive binge over the weekend but it was my birthday week and I celebrated it with three different groups of people. Each of which included a meal. Not feeling guilty about it though it was my birthday.

Not going home for two weeks now so I'm not really gonna get a takeaway or anything which will help. When I'm being good I tend to stick between 1200-1300 calories which is generally most of the time when I'm at University. I usually eat lots of small low calorie meals because I love eating so it feels like I'm eating more ha.

Goals for the week
  • Go on the Wii for at least 30 minutes every day
  • Eat well for the whole week [1200-1300]
  • Don't drink to much

I'm kind of in a maintaing stage most of the time but gonna be extra good this week because of the weekend. I'm feeling really motivated right now. Had breakfast at 9 so gonna wait till 10 and then go on the Wii. Really gonna try hard too. Then I'll go have a shower, have some lunch, and walk to University for my lecture. I might even do some more Yoga when I get back before I have my dinner.

I can do this :)
 
Thank you!

Went out last night but drank nowhere near as much as a normally do.
And it was totally worth it! Danced all night so I'm sure that burned off any calories I drank, my legs were actually aching by the end of the night and my throat was sore where I was singing so much! Amazing night! :D:D:D

Food for yesterday was really good. Exercise too, did 40 minutes on the Wii then must of danced for at least 4 hours!!

Gonna do some more exercise in a bit but its that lovely time of the month and I have cramps, so waiting for the paracetamol to kick in. Then its right down to it!
 
Had a reasonably good day today.
Food was good, had roughly 1200 calories and did 40 minutes on the Wii :)
Haven't walked anywhere today. Got really bad cramps and my belly feels like a football. But will probably be seeing the boyfriend later and I'll have to walk into town then. I hate being on because it feels like all your hard work is pointless, but I know things will be back to normal in a few days.
 
Feeling pretty good today although a tiny bit tired. Forced myself to sleep in till 10 so taking a while to wake up. Belly's deflated quite a bit which is always good!
Had a bowl of porridge and a coffee just now.
Gonna go on the Wii in about 20 minutes, so if I spend 40 minutes on it I'll be finished by 1 and start preparing lunch. Might have a chicken and dumplings weight watchers meal.

Plan for the day is:
Porridge (235)
Chicken and Dumplings (240)
Bran flakes with yoghurt (230)
Beans with Chicken Dippers (415)
Muller Light Yoghurt (85)

Sounds good to me!
Gonna weigh myself on the Wii Friday morning most probably. Just to see how my progress is going. And I should be off by then so my body will be back to its normal state :)

I really think me living in the basement is helping me too! If I wanna go to the kitchen I have to walk up one flight of stairs. If I wanna go to the bathroom I have to go up two. So basically if I wanna do anything thats not in my room I have to walk up and down stairs which I'm sure is gonna have a big impact by the end of the year! Then if I need to go into town or uni which happens at least once everyday then thats 20 minutes of walking at the very least + combined with me making an effort on the Wii Fit!
Lets just hope it all adds up! I'm determined at the moment. Its not necessarily that I want to loose weight as I feel quite comfortable in my body if I'm having a good day. I just wanna be toned and healthy.
Been using Palmers Cocoa Butter regularly again. It smells amazing and is so good for your skin!
 
Ahh yesterday was so good until I had a mini fillet at the end of the night.
I wasn't even that hungry but my boyfriend bought it for me so I felt bad. Ahh well it made me more motivated to exercise today. Did 40 minutes on the Wii and walked into uni earlier so its all good. I should be off by tomorrow so might weigh myself when I get up in the morning.
Tomorrow its one of my best friends birthdays and we're going clubbing in London so it will involve drink again. Im more worried about the food though. She's bought loads of pizza's etc which I'll refuse but I'm always a bit embarrassed when I say no because most of them are bigger than me and probably find it abit snobby. Anyhoo!

I'm actually knackered!! Its only half 5 lol gonna make some dinner in a minute even though I'm not too hungry. But I don't like eating after 6. It used to be 5 just because I would get hungry so early.

So tonight will be a nice hot shower, movie, bed!

Food
Porridge (235)
Weightwatchers Spaghetti (305)
Bran Flakes + Yoghurt (265)
Beans on Toast (300)
Muller Light Yoghurt (100)

Will need to do some food shopping by Saturday so might make a list tonight or look for some recipes.
 
Wow yesterday was a strange one which ended up with me having a bowl of porridge, a bowl of bran flakes with yoghurt and then a few chocolate buttons. Basically it was my friends birthday and we started drinking really early and once I start drinking I'm not really hungry. It wont happen again, thats everyones birthday over for a few weeks few!
Anyway back home for a few days. Had my breakfast really late because I was out so had my usual porridge. Now making some veggie soup. Its weird I'm not really that hungry today. I've been doing well with my exercise this week too and I've even brought my Wii Fit home with me so I can carry on over the weekend :)
Feeling optimistic right now. Lets hope it stays that way!

Oh and thinking about weighing in tomorrow morning it should keep me motivated for the rest of the day.
I was just gonna have a small chocolate but then I thought what's better a moment of indulgence or a loss?
I wanna be really good this weekend!
 
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Did my 40 minutes woop! Nearly talked myself out of it.
Super bloated right now probably because I drank on an empty stomach last night ahh well.
Been good today and I'm excited about tomorrow. Its Sunday so roast dinner but gonna ask my dad to do a smaller portion and try not to have a sweet after or at least keep it under 200 calories
Also try and do an hour on the Wii :)

Gonna watch X Factor then have a nice hot bath then probably bed.
 
Weighed in this morning and....
117 again!
Woop!
I got on and off again just to check and its fluctuated between 116 and 117 before settling.
Yaaaay!
This exercise is actually making a difference, this has totally motivated me to carry on going. I've asked my dad to do me a smaller dinner today and I'm gonna work out extra hard. I normally have everything but might just ask for chicken, mash potato or roast potatoes and loads of veg with gravy of course :)
Its weird I'm hungry already and only had breakfast about an hour ago, might have one slice of wholemeal toast and then go do some exercise to take my mind off it.
 
Thank you! The last two are being very stubborn but I'm determined!!

I'm quite proud of myself so far today. Did my 40 minutes on the Wii Fit and gonna do at least another 20 minutes later. My dinner looked near enough the same as normal but I left two yorkshire puddings and a roast potato. Normally I finish the whole plate.
Then afterwards I had a cup of tea and a penguin biscuit. Normally after my dinner I think what the heck and binge on biscuits. At the moment my belly doesn't feel like its gonna explode!
I just hope I don't get hungry later. But at the moment I'm feeling strong!!
 
Weighed myself again this morning to check and still 117!
Glad yesterday hasn't sabotaged anything :) I'll never deny myself my roast dinner, been having it every Sunday probably my whole life.
Back to uni tonight, maybe going out haven't decided yet but if I do I won't drink alot - if at all.
Exercise will be my usual 40 minutes on the Wii. Should have the house to myself for a few hours today which will be nice.

No idea what to eat today. Wanna cook something but I cant find any recipes with the limited ingredients I have at the moment. Sure I can wip something up.
I'll no doubt be posting again in a few hours :)
 
I feel constantly hungry today!
So far I've had
Porridge (250)
A slice of wholemeal toast + peanut butter (130)
Small beef casserole (290)
Penguin Biscuit (110)

The rest of the day will be a bowl of bran flakes + yoghurt and a bowl of porridge
I wanna eat noooow!

I should do my exercise now but I feel so damn lazy. Its probably better if I eat later though.
Ok gonna get my ass into gear!! Off to do 40 minutes on the Wii then I'll let myself eat!
 
After my last post I did go on the Wii, then managed to wait another hour before eating anything :) even if I did eat a lot of porridge/cereal today I stayed within my rough calorie target.
Tomorrow will be a better day in terms of variety.
Rough Plan
Porridge + Coffee (235)
Weightwatchers Meal (300)
Bran Flakes and Yoghurt (280)
Beans on Toast (300)
Muller Light Yogurt (100)

Exercise
At least 20 minutes fast paced walking
At least 40 minutes Wii Fit

It will probably change but thats what I can think of right now. Won't have time to exercise before my lecture but I will after lunch.
Man am I tired today! Think its the clocks going back or something. Its only half 10 and I'm just about ready to drop - on the good side its stopped me going out which in turn stops me being tempted by alcohol. Plus I have a lecture at 10 tomorrow so it's not the best idea to go out clubbing!

I've decided that when I reach my target I'm gonna slowly increase my daily calorie target by maybe 100 a week? So 1300 for a week then 1400 till I get to 1600. After each week I'll weigh in just to check I'm not gaining. I'll probably start a new diary too :)
I'm excited to eat more calories!!
So close!!
 
Ok weighed in on the Wii this morning but I'm not gonna take it too seriously.
According to the balance board I've lost 3 pounds since last week but thats probably have something to do with my period etc. Plus I woke up really hungry this morning so I know my stomach was empty. I'm not complaining! But just not getting my hopes up even though at uni its probably a more accurate reading as its on a flat wooden floor.
So I'm assuming I'm 116.5/117 since when I weighed in at home it kept flashing before settling on 117.
Anyway its nearly lunchtime here, gonna put my lunch in the oven soon - a Weight Watchers Bolognese Bake - which will take about half hour to cook. Then gonna wait about an hour and do 40 minutes on the Wii.
I just remembered I brought couscous back with me this week so I'll be making some couscous salads this week yummy!

Hope everyones good :)
 
Yesterday was an odd one. I had the day off so spent most of the day studying in the living room. I was constantly hungry! But stayed within my calories, but then my friend cooked dinner for everyone and I felt terrible refusing, so I had a small plate of pasta bake.
I then went out drinking and pretty sure I had way to much sugar but I don't feel too bad.
I don't normally have cheat days but I'm gonna count yesterday as one, and I'm not annoyed because it was a really nice day :)
Anyways thats made me more motivated too. I was getting really bored with the Wii but its motivated me to do an hour today.
So goals for today which I WILL achieve
1200 calories
1 hour of exercise
Lots of water
Do some homework
Early night!

Got a good feeling about today so far, just hope I haven't done that much damage. Would be nice to be firmly 116 by Saturday or Sunday.
 
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