Tamara's Weightloss Journey!

Tamara....

I didn't know you dropped by my diary days ago! I've been keeping in tune with yours...keep it up. I gotta give it to you for still posting.

Damn, being 250 on the scale with clothes means you're in the 240s! weigh yourself!!!

good luck!
 
Trader joe's ginger carrot oat bran muffin... good and so filling!

1/4c dark chocolate covered almonds... to die for, omg!

Lean cuisine sweedish meatballs... tasty.

Small soft serve cone @ work... addicted... :p

Breaded chicken wraps (more like folded in 1/2 cus theres so much stuff in them!) and a vitamin water... delicious and filling!
- 2 trader joes flour whole wheat tortillas.
- 2 trader joes breaded chicken breast tenders.
- 1oz kraft natural cheddar made w/ 2% milk.
- 1 tbsp in ea. of roasted garlic hummus.
- red peppers.
- cucumber.
- tomatoes.
- romaine lettuce.

Medium banana.

34.5 WW points.
1730 calories.
1606mg of sodium... how did that happen? :smilielol5:
54.39g of fat.
22.1g of fiber.

Water: 6 glasses.

Another awesome day... *sings*... "...and another one bites the dust!"... :rotflmao:
 
8/28:
Chocolate covered almonds and a banana.

Margherita chicken healthy choice cafe steamers.

Hot dog and broccoli @ work.

V8 splash.

Breaded chicken, mashed potatoes with cheese, peas and a root beer.

Banana.

1750 calories. 1562mg sodium. 50.28g fat. 22.2g fiber. 35 WW points.


8/29:
1/2 banana, fruit cup, chocolate covered almonds.

Asian style healthy choice cafe steamers.

Hot dog w/ fries and ranch dressing @ work.

Soft serve vanilla cone @ work.

Chili cheese turkey burger w/o bread, peas and corn on the cob.

Root beer.

1987 calories. 1982mg sodium. 86.12g fat. 20g fiber. 40.5 WW points.

When I put my food in, I forgot I had fries @ work, so it jumped up in calories and fat... but I'm not devastated over today, it's ok, I'll do better on fat tomorrow, but sodium was amazing... :p ... calories are 87 over where I would like it to be, but that's acceptable I think. I still think I'm going strong!

Weigh in coming soon!! :D ... waiting for TOM to be over...
 
I need to stop eating crap at work... I mean, I know I don't eat the supermelts, or the other real crap we have there, but the hot dog has 15g of fat in it, alone, by itself... then the fries have 10g of fat, alone. And that's one of the healthier options? :ack2:

So... I'm going to try to only eat fruits and veggies at work (like my broccoli w/o butter and a banana, or a apple and a side salad no croutons/no cheese), so I can save the fat and calorie allowance for an ok dinner, of say, some protein/dairy and veggies.

Still on TOM, really sucks, currently weighing in @ 255lbs.... blah. I'm 3 weeks behind on this, and there's no way I'm going to be 240lbs by my birthday, I can't lose 10-12lbs in 2 1/2 weeks... :( .. I totally suck!! ... and our anniversary is in 3 days, and we're suppose to go out to dinner on Tuesday.... to celebrate... I really feel helpless on this "healthy lifestyle change"....
 
Yeah, like that happened... ^

Special K w/ 1/3c milk, chocolate covered almonds.

Side of fries w/ ranch @ work.

1/2 turkey supermelt with broccoli @ work.

Soft serve ice cream cone @ work.

(I'm horrible!!!!!)

Chicken & noodles compleats.

1/2 can of root beer.

Molten mini caramel cake.

38.5WW points. 1833 calories. 2877mg sodium. 73.8g fat. 14.4g fiber.

Too much fat, not enough fiber, and sodium is higher than I would like to see it....
Mid TOM, I always eat lots of sweets....
...and I didn't drink enough water...ugh!!
 
Turkey and bacon club style sandwich no cheese or mayo w/ lettuce and tomato and cheddar & sour cream chips and 1/2 large banana.

1/4c chocolate covered almonds.

Lean cuisine steak/cheddar/mushroom panini.

Soft serve ice cream cone.

Healthy choice asian inspired cafe steamers.

1/4c chocolate covered almonds.

36 ww points. 1729 calories. 65.22g fat. 16.8g fiber. 2386mg sodium.

Probably not enough water...

Tomorrow we are going out to dinner to celebrate our 8th anniversary.... and I know it's going to be a disaster food wise... so to sort of off set it, I'm only eating dinner tomorrow.... because I know I'm going to eat my daily calories in like one sitting.... and... yeah... olive garden here I come! :blush5:
 
Olive garden wasn't good enough to be worth it, but, oh well.

Weigh in 254.2lbs.

I need to drink tons of water today.

So far I've eaten like 1/8 c chocolate covered almonds and a chicken & noodles hormel compleats (they aren't very good for having almost 1000mg of sodium!)...

When I have the rest of my serving of chocolate covered almonds, I'll be at 470 calories.

I plan on having soft serve @ mcdonalds because I'm craving it so bad.

So that will be 620 calories.

By the end of today, what I have figured out so far....

Tuna sandwich on hearty roll and a banana for dinner.

2 small apples and a banana at work.

1317 calories total.

I may or may not add something to that, but if I don't, oh well.

I already bought my camera which was suppose to be my "I'm 250lbs!!!" gift.

I'm such a b--ch to myself.

I feel like I can't f--king do this anymore.

I feel so stuck! Maybe I've hit a plateau? I haven't seen any real loss on the scale lately, but I have been on my period and that 2 week hiatus, then olive garden... so, we'll see, if the scale doesn't budge by my birthday, then, yeah, that's what it is.

At this point, I just want to be 250lbs by my birthday... *sigh*...

...I def need to exercise, but... how do I get motivated to do that?...
 
Hey Tamara! You gotta hop back on that elliptical!!! Once you start, you know you feel better about yourself....it'll all be good after a few minutes and a few days of exercise!

I made a new journal btw, cause I needed a damn new start. A realistic one...shit, I was living WAY too controlled. I need some room to move! hahaha...

Lift your head up girl, think about the upside. =)
 
Thanks so much for stopping by, I was starting to feel unsupported, if you get what I mean, lol.

Today did not turn out at all like above stated... here's what I ate:

1/8c chocolate covered almonds.
Chicken & noodles hormel compleats.
Turkey club no mayo and fries w/ ranch to dip them in @ work.
Mini pb cup.
Mcdonalds deluxe cheese burger (suppose to be no mayo, but guess what?), a few french fries.
3 scoops of apple pie alamode ice cream w/ caramel, almonds, walnuts, and resse's pieces.

Old habits really die hard...

I honestly am at a point where I don't care anymore, I just want to curl up in a little ball and cry myself to sleep.

I feel like sh-t. I look like sh-t. I am sh-t!

I feel like a worthless fat piece of sh-t that has no willpower whatsof-ckingever!

I'm so f-cking depressed right now.

What makes me think I deserve to be skinny?
 
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Sigh* Tamara, I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL..+ the feeling of feeling like SHIT cause some guy leaves me...EUGH!!!

If I can feel better, SO CAN YOU. YOU deserve to be happy, and if happiness is skinny for you, then by all means. ANYTHING is possible! I realllllly believe it.

Good luck with everyone hun, I totally know what you mean by unsupport...and then I think it's something about ME that pushes people away...eugh. But let's both look at the upside of things!!
 
Omg I'm so glad you stopped by again! Thank you so much for your support! It means so much to me!!! :)

Yeah, today went a bit better, I mean I'm not 100% back on track, but today looks pretty damn good!

I woke up @ 2:30pm and had:
Banana and 1/4c chocolate covered almonds (I'm addicted... but, almonds are good for me...and dark chocolate I guess is good for me too... sparingly... but, I love them, and they fill me up for a long time usually, so, yeah... enough said).

2 hours later I started drinking a 32oz raspberry iced tea (that lasted me literally all night at work!)...

4 hours later (6 hours after my 1st meal, yeah, I can't believe that lasted in my stomach for so long!!) I had a:
Hot dog on whole wheat w/ fries no salt and 1/4 serv ranch to dip (not the best, but considering what I had eaten, it was honestly a good decision, I think).

5 hours later @ 1:30am I had (my nights and days are messed up cus I work late at nights, so 1:30am can be compared to waking up @ 8:30am and eating dinner @ 7:30pm... same thing, to me, because of how my schedule looks, and I go to bed @ like 5am, so, yeah):
Hormel chicken marinara compleats and a piece of texas toast.

I've drank 3 glasses of water, becuase I forgot to drink water while I was at work, and I have 5 glasses measured in to a water bottle that I am going to force myself to drink as much of as possible to get my water to 8 glasses, if possible.

I doubt I will eat anything else tonight(because of all the water, lol!), but if I do it will be a banana.

33.5 ww points.
1581 calories.
1381mg sodium.
59.70g fat.
17.5g fiber.

Doing better.

Now if only I could clean the house a bit more to jump on my elliptical...

There's clean laundry hanging on it, lol.
 
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I realized that I don't need to be so STRICT with myself to get to the finish line, so I HOPE you realize you don't have to some bodybuilder-robot to lose weight...

Please be happy while making those healthier choices! =)
 
Thank you! I will try!!

Breakfast: Glazed Doughnut.

Lunch: Turkey on roll w/ tomato and a banana.

Snack: Mini pb cup.

Drink: Red tea, pomegranate passion fruit.

Snack?: French fries w/ ranch and broccoli.

Dinner: Ultimate ham and cheese hot pocket with 1c broccoli, 1/2 corn on cob, salad w/ 1/2 cucumber, 1/2 tomato, some red pepper, 2tbsp light ranch dressing mixed in on a bed of romaine lettuce with 1tbsp real bacon bits on top.... one word: yummy!

1646 calories.
Fats a little high, fibers a little low.
Sodium is a little under 2400mg.

I'll try to get some more water in also.
 
9/6:
Turkey/hummus/tomato/lettuce whole wheat wrap.
Salad w/ chicken/cheese/lettuce/saltines/ranch/peppers/onions.
Healthy choice salisbury steak meal w/ garlic bread.
150 cal molten chocolate cake w/ 1/2c maple walnut ice cream.
Red ice tea.
1612 calories.


9/7:
Sandwich on roll w/ lettuce/tomato/turkey/bacon/sand. spread.
Salad w/ chicken/cheese/lettuce/tomato/ranch/saltines/peppers/onions.
2 serv chicken florentine (pasta w/ chicken, alfredo sauce and spinach) w/ 1/2 piece garlic bread.
Red ice tea.
Large apple and string cheese.
1738 calories.
 
Weighed in today @ 251.4lbs!!!

That's the lowest the scale has been!!

I should definately be 250lbs by my birthday next Wednesday!! :D
 
Today I ate:

D'angelo's small roast beef and cheddar on wheat.
Dairy queen small chocolate dipped cone.
2 mexican style chicken and cheese lean pockets.
Banana and fiber plus dark chocolate almond bar.
Apple? If I get hungry again.

1805 calories.
Fat is 65.75g.
Fiber is 27.2g.
Sod is 2793mg.
37WW points.

Need some more water, but considering I wasn't home all day (running errands), I consider today a really good day, especially because of my weigh in earlier today!:D
 
Hey I've just skimmed through your dairy. It looks like you are really on track right now :) Keep it up & I bet you can make it to your Birthday goal!
 
Well, first of all advance Happy Birthday, and congratulations. Your Birthday is getting nearer and I am sure that you are really determined to do what you have started.
 
Thank you both so much!! :D

My original birthday goal was 240, but, I didn't do too well for two weeks in August, so, if I'm 250, I'll definitely be happy with that! Since I haven't been 250 since, well, probably since I was 15.

This morning I weighed in at 251.2!!! :hurray:

Here's what I ate today:

1996 calories.

2 Special K Waffles.
1/4c lower calorie syrup (...was way too must, could hardly eat the waffles... less next time!! I don't know what I was thinking!!)
2 morningstar veggie sausage... all I can say is I hate the texture and can't see myself eating them after this box... yuck.
a banana

Fiber plus dark chocolate almond bar (Try these! :D).

Red tea.

Salad: Chicken/lettuce/peppers/ranch/cheese/onions/4 saltines (used as crouton replacement).

Club style sandwich: 3 slices of organic 14 grain wheat bread/cheese spread/turkey/pepperjack cheese/lettuce/tomato/peppers and 100 calorie pack of pringles.

Vitalicious vita brownie (These are a much buy!! No, they aren't paying me, lol, these are just amazing!!! 100 cal, 6g fiber, 1.5g fat!) vitalicious.com if you can't find them in your natural foods section in your local supermarket!) and 1/2 cup of maple walnut ice cream.

So ok, you might be thinking I'm crazy... all the sweets I'm eating... and omg, my calories jumped up drastically... here's the thing...

I know that if I don't eat what I want, I will fail. So I just have to find healthier alternatives of the things I love, and/or eat smaller portions of them (say, 1/2 a serving to 2 servings, depending on what it is).

You have to eat to lose weight.

My weight was at a standstill for almost 2 weeks (besides the 2 weeks I wasn't eating right).

My weight has never been at a standstill when losing weight.

Most people would eat less calories...

I started eating more.

The pound difference from last week to this week is 4lbs... that beats trying for almost 2 weeks and the scale not budging!

I'm going to stick to this as long as it keeps working.

So my new target calories is 1800-2000 calories, which is where it should have stayed in the first place, instead of 1500-1800 calories.

If I eat 2000 calories a day I will still be in a 571 calorie deficiency from my 2571 calories to maintain my weight, and I just really need to get back on my elliptical (for more than 3 days in a row...)... using my elliptical and doing a small amount of weight training makes me feel better afterward... but during I feel crappy, lol.

Still need to drink more water.

Wow, I didn't mean to write a book!! :p
 
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