Taking Back Control (A Diary)

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AI decided I'm going to leave my debit card at home when I go to work, so that I stop buying stuff and wasting my lunch. For the last week I had been going to Mr. Sub or Tim Hortons, and I'm trying to save my money for my dental work. Plus after that I plan on paying off my credit card debt ($2000).

Today I had
Half a can of slim fast for 123 (gross, too, probably not going to drink it again)
1 Apple for 50
Carrots for 30
Salad for 35
2x ham stick for 90
1 cheese string for 60
Kitkat for 220
Ice cap for 150
I overdid it again and had the left over turkey, potatoes, ham and pie. Argh.

Total: 758 + god only knows

Today I did


Total: --

Day 18 - What food is your weakness?
Any food that's tasty lol. I love pizza, fries, gravy, chicken fingers, steak, hamburgers. Fast food is SO tasty. I actually don't care for chocolate unless I suddenly get a craving, same with candy. Pie I only have for holiday's, and I love pumpkin pie. I just love to eat haha.
 
APizza is my poison of choice, I could ( and have done it) eat a pizza every day. I still have a pizza every once in a while, so I don't lose it one day, and go on an eating frenzy.

I don't really like McDonalds, because I could eat 2 burgers, a big bag of fries and not feel full with it.

As for chocolate I am the same as you. Only have some when I get a craving for it, and in small doses, just to have that sweet taste in my mouth.

My biggest weakness though is cheese cakes....... I could eat an entire cheese cake in one sitting.
 
AOh lord, so could I. In fact...I have. Cheese cake is SO damn good. Argh now I want one lol.
 
Hey Loch


Just checking in, thanks again for all of the advice and thanks for turning me on to the 30 challenge thing I actually saw it here first and then in Irishprincess's diary.


I like your fitspiration picture it was weird for me too to choose one but honestly your picture is no more "unreal" than some of these photoshopped airbrushed models out there.


Hope you are having a lovely day

xxxx

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AHey Silash, thanks for stopping by. It feels good to help others, to keep them motivated, and there's nothing more I'd rather see than people reaching their goals. I know how hard it is, but all the hard work will pay off.

A little down on myself yesterday and today. Scale is saying I'm up by 4lb, probably because I ate so bad. I hope it goes down and I'm at least 226 again by Saturday. I plan on getting in more workouts from now on, and trying harder with my food.

Today I had
1 slice of pumpkin pie (last of it!) for 400
Lean cuisine for 300
Salad for 65
Donut for 250
3x ham sticks for 135
Frozen dinner, chicken in wine sauce for 170
Baked toast chip things for 90

Total: 1410

Today I did
Nothing...stupid holiday.

Total: --

Day 19 - When is your favourite body part to work on? Why?

Probably my arms. It just feels easier, or that I'm getting more out of it. Pushing/pulling exercises feel like they're working for me. I also wouldn't mind having more strength haha.
 
AToday I had
1 Apple for 50
Curves shake for 120
Lean Cuisine chicken for 300
Ice cap for 150
2x ham stick for 90
Pizza sub for 270
4x spring rolls for 220
8 Bread chip things for 90

Total: 1290

Today I did
Curves for 401
Walking for 280

Total: 681

Day 20 - What is your favourite form of cardio?
Probably walking. I can walk anywhere, at any time. An hour of walking, at a normal pace for me is about 280 calories burned. Walking is easy, unfortunately, it's hard to do in the winter and it's boring sometimes. I need new music haha.
 
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Originally Posted by Loch

A little down on myself yesterday and today. Scale is saying I'm up by 4lb, probably because I ate so bad. I hope it goes down and I'm at least 226 again by Saturday. I plan on getting in more workouts from now on, and trying harder with my food.[/quote]


Hey Loch :)


Don't be too hard on yourself. It's a lifestyle change, not a diet. Of course you're gonna eat poorly every now and then, just don't do it all the time :) That's all. It's better to just realize that those moments happen and move on without stressing about it too much. Stress never helps with anything!


4lb is not bad. I stepped on the scale this morning and saw 197! Although that's after being a little piggy on Sunday (as usual) and eating a lot of junk food. hehe


I've also contracted a bit of a cold and have been feeling like hell since Sunday night. I can't count how many Cepocal's, Advil, and Nyquil I've downed in the last 24 hours :(


Anyway, hang in there and keep doing what you're doing :) Your focus is immaculate!
 
AI hope that your not done eating for the day young lady....haha...I sounded like my mom!! lol....but I had a gain this week and it took all week to get rid of it but it finally went away this morning....so I am sure yours will too. Keep it up...you are doing great!!
 
AOh, no haha. I update my food list throughout the day. It's only 8:30 P.M. here :).

I'm sure the weight will go down. I'm probably retaining, plus I know I can't gain 4lb in 2 days xD I just need to give it a week or so for my weight to go down. In reality, I could have eaten a LOT worse.

Thanks for the replies ^_^.
 
AAw, Crym, that got me all teary eyed. Naturally I had just woken up, but still. It really touches my heart and boosts me up to see people posting something here. The fact that you read my entire journal is a compliment. Everyone keeps saying I'm level-headed about this, my focus is fantastic, I'm going to lose this weight for sure. There are so many days when I feel like giving up. Before I began this challenge I was about ready to leave the forum. Not many people were posting on my journal, I felt a little lonely, but I told myself giving up isn't an option. Giving up would include leaving the site, and I refuse, even if no one ever posts here again. Ah, I probably sound ridiculous. My point is that everyone keeps saying these things and for once I'm starting to believe it.

Thank you for all your kind words. You guys are my friends. We're all on the same quest to look fabulous, and we will, damn it.

Although, I'd really kill for a slice of cheesecake right about now...

Today I had
1 Apple for 50
Chicken Bacon Ranch sub for 310
Powerade drink for 100
6x spring role for 330
Bread chips for 100
Stew for 400

Total: 1290

Today I did
Curves group workout for 500
Walking for 280

Total: 780

Day 21 - What is your favourite resource for healthy living info?
Um, well, probably this site and Google. When I started my weight loss, I just sort of jumped in. I thought to myself, how can I lose weight and stick with it? For once, I went after my diet thinking, not just jumping in. I already know fast food = the devil. If something tastes good, chances are it's bad for you. Unless of course it was made low-fat! So, I just started on my own making the small changes. I began counting calories and the pounds started to come off. I rejoined this site, read other people's threads and gained tips from them. This site is so great, and informative. We all learn from each other, and there's no better way :).
 
A[quote name="Loch" url="/t/32050/taking-back-control-a-diary/120#post_809827"Thank you for all your kind words. You guys are my friends. We're all on the same quest to look fabulous, and we will, damn it. .[/quote]

YES YES WE ARE!!! on both things!! We are going to be a hot looking group...that we are!! :) :)
 
Yes, we're all friends here working toward the same goal :) It's definitely great having support from people that know and can relate to your feelings and insecurities when it comes to weight loss.


When I first started, I never really utilized any support other than from family members and lurking on websites like this. I didn't actually come out of my shell until I had lost over 150 pounds and decided to start posting here.


I suppose I'm a little regretful about that because I feel like I missed out on making so many connections over the first few months with people starting out on their own journeys.


But now, maybe I can make up for it a little by continuing to help and support anyone and everyone whenever I can as they progress :)
 
you are so sweet! and you are doing great!


about your day 21 answer I think that it makes such a difference to "go after the diet thinking" it's so important! I feel like 90% of the battle is mental - mostly the physical stuff is easy.
 
AHang in there buddy...I was all prepared yesterday to only eat 1200 too and went up to 1400....I understand that its still ok....just mentally sucks. :):):) So just do the best you can for the rest of the nite and start fresh tomorrow. :grouphug:
 
AThanks, Tete, every day is a new day :).

Today I had
Apple for 50
Curves shake for 120
Oatmeal for 260
Booster Juice for 400
2x ham stick for 90
Cheese string for 60
Soup for 150
Bread chips for 90

Total: 1220

Today I did
Curves for 386
Walking for 280

Total: 666

Day 23 - Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Well...yes. Everyone on TV, except a few rare cases, is at their ideal weight or look PERFECT. I grew up watching TV and movies a lot. I envied women who were slim, and fit. Children have a tendency to grow up seeing things as the norm, it's called "modeling", and seeing such gorgeous people in the media, it gets ingrained in your brain that that's how you should look. If you look at art, or statues from way back, women were fuller. The size of a woman depicted her wealth. If a woman was overweight, it meant she ate well, and that she would bare healthy children and have less of a danger giving birth. I imagine women weren't judged for their bodies as bad as they are now, because frivolous things like weight loss, plastic surgery, and perfection didn't plague every media communication outlet.

I want to look like these people...celebrities are, in a way, like Gods. They're rich, powerful, and beautiful. Yes there are heavier celeberties (more men than women), but they make up for it in talent and their charisma and confidence makes them beautiful. I don't have that...all I have is my ability to write, and even then, no one can see me for that. I have no confidence. I have to gain confidence by doing the hard work. I have to lose weight, and feel better about myself. I always feel that, if I don't look as good as the people on TV or in magazines, I'm never good enough for anything.

It's disturbing.

I feel sorry for future generations, this can only get worse.
 
Originally Posted by Loch

Your support is wonderful <3 thanks guys! These last two weeks have been wonky. I wanted October to be perfect, a month without failure, but I have to remember...I'm not perfect and weight loss isn't either.
Oh my GOD I'm horrible. I can't stop cheating. I need to stop buying food at work, but damn it, it's so hard not too. I then go overboard...I almost went to McDonalds today, instead, I went to Tim Hortons :). I'm already at my limit (although I can have up to 1500, I try to only have 1200), and it's not the end of the day yet :)
Today I had
Lean Cuisine chicken for 300
Chicken strip my coworker shared with me, probably 200
Pumpkin Spice muffin for 400
Chocolate chunk cookie for 200
Ice cap for 150
Chicken w/ sauce and cauliflower for 300
Total: 1550
Today I did
I was tired so I stayed home today.
Total: --
Day 22 - Quick! What are the 5 things you like best about yourself?
I like my ability to write, I like to think I'm a decent writer and that I may get published some day.
I like my eyes, people always comment on them, and I think they're pretty.
I like my artistic ability, I'm pretty good at designing graphics and manipulating things.
I like that, when I put my mind to something, I usually get it.
I like my ability to keep going, no matter how many times I fall. I've had many hardships, but we only live once, so there's no use in crying over spilt milk.
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Hi Loch :)


You're doing fine, don't worry. I understand completely where you're coming from about having trouble avoiding temptation while out and about. My roommate and I go shopping almost on a daily basis for misc things. We almost always stop by Giant or some other grocery store to see about maybe something for dinner. It's so dangerous when you're hungry to go shopping..


There's been a few times when I can't help but grab a bag of Tostitos Scoops with mild cheddar dip (one of my big weaknesses other than ben & jerrys). ugh, then I eat one.. then another.. then another. It gets to the point where I'm just like 'Well, I've already been bad, might as well just write this day off and start fresh tomorrow.'


It's so hard to stop sometimes. All the will power in the world doesn't help in those moments it seems.


But it's a life style change :) Just have to remind yourself of that. You're allowed to have bad stuff, as long as you remember your ultimate goal and get back on it as soon as you can :)


Oh, and I like your responses to the '5 Things' :p I agree with all of them :)
 
AKeep hanging on loch you are doing great. This week I almost fell of the wagon ( well I kinda did), and almost gave up completely, but I came to this forum and saw people in the before and after, and told myself " you can do this", and I got back on track. I had a bad week in eating as well, but I kept on working out and still came up with a 1kg loss.

We all have our breaking points, but we have each other to lean on, and keep moving forward.
 
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