SunnyDee's Diary

sunnydee said:
I'm afraid because I'm less satisfied at this weight than I hoped to be. But at least I've come to accept the fact that I'm not fat anymore. I was talking to some friends today about weight related things, and I felt perfectly comfortable saying "I know I'm not fat, but I still want to lose a few pounds." I'm proud of myself for reaching that point. I was worried that I would never get there. I'm still planning on reassessing my goal when I get to 150. I'm considering going for 145, but I won't decide that yet.
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Yeah, it's really great to actually be able to call yoursefl slim--and mean it, and also realize that it is true! I've had another identity crisis (positive, though) lately myself! Look how you conquered your anxiety over if you could do it or not! Ye-ah!

sunnydee said:
So I said, enthusiastically, "Thank you very much!" When I got inside, I realized it was just a piece of yellow paper with his name and cell phone number. What the hell??? Men are too weird.
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HA HA HA!!! He must have been pleased at the reaction! Glad you enjoyed the show, and I know what you're talkin' bout! AT the Haiku d'etat concert I got a kiss on the cheek from my favorite Hip Hop artist ever!! but one of my other favs, who was there briefly, is a nerdy reclusive guy who hates everybody. he was looking at us disgustedly, even though I was wishing he would take a pic with me! He left early :(
 
2phat4fun said:
Funny yet very creepy. Glad to hear you enjoyed the concert. Have a great day, or night, what ever schedule you are on!
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It was very creepy. And since he dropped me off, he knows where I live. Haha

saturdaysaint said:
No..we're not weird..we're just plain ridiculous some times! I'd love to go see them sometime... I really dig their stuff... them and Bloc Party! I'm really really REALLY getting into Euro Rock...
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I'm sticking with the theory that you're all just weird. Heehee
You know what obscure band I really like? The Music. You probably haven't heard of them. They only had one sort-of-hit. They've got a really interesting sound. It's pretty dancy though, not rock.

Curvie Girlie said:
Yeah, it's really great to actually be able to call yoursefl slim--and mean it, and also realize that it is true! I've had another identity crisis (positive, though) lately myself! Look how you conquered your anxiety over if you could do it or not! Ye-ah!
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It really is a great feeling. :)

I've got the weekend off! Sweet. I just worked three nights shifts in a row. I'm tired. I'm going to be pretty bored during my time off though. My sis and bro-in-law are gone away for the weekend for their anniversary. But I'm pretty sure I'll cherish the quiet time so I can catch up on some sleep.
My sister's scale decided to stop working a couple of days ago. Well, the batteries stopped working. So I haven't been able to weigh myself. She has another one, but it's always 5-8 lbs lighter than the real weight. On Wednesday I was 148 on that scale. Haha. That was nice to see. But I'm probably actually still 154-155.
Boy, this night shift stuff is really screwing with my appetite. I'm hungry all the time! As I sit here right now, my stomach is audibly growling, despite the fact that I've eaten a bowl of cereal, a glass of cranberry juice, a banana, and a vanilla yogurt in the past 3 hours. And I didn't eat that all at once! It was spaced out, so I really don't understand why I'm so hungry. I've never had such an appetite in my life. I guess it's because I'm burning so many calories by being on my feet for 12 hrs at a time, but I'm not replacing the calories very well because it's hard to eat anything substantial overnight. When I worked day shifts last week, I didn't feel nearly as hungry. So I haven't really been working out much because I'm starting to get concerned about having too much of a calorie deficit. I feel fine with working out when I'm off for a couple of days, like this weekend. But I don't want to risk exercising when I'm working because I know I'll be too exhausted. Once I figure out this calorie thing and start feeling satisfied instead of starved, I'll be comfortable getting back into it. I'm going to have to watch my fat and protein more carefully. I'm probably not getting enough of those.
Anybody have any thoughts??
 
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oooh night shifts....that's gotta be tough. I know how hard it is to resist the temptation to not eat at funky times, keep up the good work!
 
I'm not sure if I mentioned this already, but I just said it in Kez's diary and realized I might not have said it here yet. Matt's going to come visit me during the second weekend in June! I was hoping that he'd get to come, but we didn't think it would work out because of our work schedules. But as it turns out, we both have that weekend off so he will be flying in. He hasn't booked his ticket yet, which is starting to make me nervous. He doesn't want to book it until he gets paid on Tuesday so that he doesn't have to put anything on his credit card that he can't pay off right that minute. Just our luck, the prices will have sky-rocketed by then... He's responsible with his money to a fault sometimes. (Responsible = miserly?) Well, he did just buy a computer, so I suppose it's understandable that he's being careful. I'm just a little eager for confirmation that he'll be coming.
Anyway, I'm rambling. That's what two glasses of wine does to me. Heehee.
 
Kaitie said:
oooh night shifts....that's gotta be tough. I know how hard it is to resist the temptation to not eat at funky times, keep up the good work!
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Yeah, it's tough because the shifts are 12 hours. But I'm really getting used to it! Thanks for stopping by to offer your support :D
 
Hey You!

I've been missing you - sorry I haven't read back but I am happy to hear that Matt will be able to visit! I'll keep my fingers crossed that the rates don't skyrocket between now and then!
 
Fingers, toes, legs, exceptionally long earlobes... cross whatever you can! Now that I've got my hopes up, it would be awful if he couldn't come visit.

Blah... I'm kind of feeling like crap today. My tummy is bloated and tender, but I'm not sure why. I'm really tired too. I'm going to go for a walk shortly. Maybe that will help a little. Hopefully it'll combat this unbelieveable boredom too! Oi...
 
Hi Sunny!

That's so great your man can come and visit you! I was in a relationship a few years ago where we had 6 months apart, while I was on my gap year, so I know how hard it can be! :hug2:
 
It's no fun, but we'll survive. I don't mind being away from him when it's only for a couple of weeks or so, but this 4 months thing is going to be pretty rough. But I know that sometimes a bit of time apart can be good, even though it doesn't feel that way at the time.

It was a lovely day today, so I went for a nice little walk. It made me feel better and helped to wake me up. I'm pretty sure I cancelled out any calories I burned though... I snacked on some corn chips earlier. Boredom's a bitch.
 
Hi Sunny! So glad your man gets to visit in June. You'll make it through the distance thing - believe ME! I was apart from my man for 2 years and we were separated by the atlantic ocean! It was VERY hard and we had our moments but it was an interesting experience (I say this now but didn't then!) because we learned a lot about ourselves. Actually my best friend and another friend of mine were in a shorter long-distance relationship for a year and they're getting married next weekend :) It's tough but you'll survive :)
 
Hey Dee,

Hope you survived the weekend alone. I have a horrible habit of snacking out of boredom, when I'm alone. Glad to hear Matt's going to be able to visit. My brother-in-law and his girlfriend are experiencing the same thing you are right now. He lives/works in Ontario and she lives in Calgary (but goes to school in Ontario). It's hard but they have been managing.

Take care!
 
hey you!!! night shifts and boredom can lead to a lot of snacking and feeling generally hungary,............be ware of the munchies.......I worked night shifts for 3 years and gained 55pounds:eek: ............yes beware!!!!
hope you kept busy and had fun sunnygirl!!!!
laters STAR

and yeah for june and Matt coming to see ya.........whoo hoo!!!!!
 
Hi everyone! I miss this place so much. I just don't get the time to get online at all. When I am home, my bro-in-law usually has something going on on the computer, so I can't use it. He's very anal about people using the computer when he has stuff to so on it. First off, because some of it is probably confidential work stuff, and secondly, because some of the programs he uses use a lot of RAM and he's scared something will crap out on him. Oh well. I can't believe it's less than a month and I'll be back home. It makes me sad, but at least I'll be back on here like a junkie again. ;)
I have to leave for work soon, so it's just a quick stop. I'm currently at 152.5. I got a stomach bug last week and went down to 148.2, but I've been working hard to recover from that and now I'm back to where I was before the sickness. I'll admit it was fun to see 148... lol But knowing it was all fluid loss and malnutrition was a turn-off. I didn't want to maintain any of the effects of a stomach flu, regardless of how pretty the number looked. A couple of days of guzzling juice and water and trying to eat a normal number of calories helped me recover quite nicely. I'm feeling 100% better now.
Well, time to take off. I'm off this weekend, so I'll try to get some valuable computer time. :) I miss you all!
 
YAY! It's the weekend! A real weekend where I don't have to work! I had almost forgotten such a thing existed. But it's a "turn-around weekend"... I've been working nights all week and now I have to turn around my sleep schedule for my day shifts next week. Oh well! I really have no worries right now because I'm just too damn excited that it's the weekend. We're having a little par-tay here tomorrow night and after my hectic week, crazy things are sure to happen. Maybe I'll drop you all an indecipherable line or two in the midst of my par-taying, for your reading pleasure. lol
Meanwhile... it's past my bedtime. I should have been asleep an hour ago. Freakin night shifts.
 
Hi Sunny!

I have to say I am soooo jealous, you got to see The Killers! Have fun with your par-tay this weekend and good luck with turning the sleep schedule around!

ann
 
sunnydee said:
I'm currently at 152.5. I got a stomach bug last week and went down to 148.2, but I've been working hard to recover from that and now I'm back to where I was before the sickness. I'll admit it was fun to see 148... lol But knowing it was all fluid loss and malnutrition was a turn-off. I didn't want to maintain any of the effects of a stomach flu, regardless of how pretty the number looked. A couple of days of guzzling juice and water and trying to eat a normal number of calories helped me recover quite nicely. I'm feeling 100% better now!
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Glad you're feeling better! Wow, you've been working so hard, Dee! I'm so amazed that you're switching up your sleeping schedules so effortlessly! I'd be a grumpy bunny if I did THAT! HAVE FUN PARTYING! Enjoy!!
 
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