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I know what you mean; I got back from my run all excited only to find I couldn't find the diaries :eek: And at first the entire site looked unfamiliar so I was afraid it might have been taken over by another thingy without adopting the forum as well. The things our brains get up to when life doesn't happen exactly as expected...
 
Hahah, LaMa, it's almost like when the wifi in your flat stops working...The world crumbles hahah...Having said that, I am soo looking forward to not spending my days in front of my laptop.

Pouring it down here today but it was nice having a lie in just listening to the rain. Gotta go to work soon though so will have to get myself all water proof.

Yesterday I did very little work which AGAIN triggered stress eating, so today I'm determined NOT to procrastinate so that I don't feel so stressed and don't feel like I need to eat EVERYTHING. I have this beast of an assignment I need to start working on again and it's HARD so I'm putting it off, but the longer I leave it, the more stressed I'm going to get about it so I just need to START it!!! Sounds so simple, doesn't it.

I did a bit of a HIIT workout + strength training + 6k run yesterday but my heart wasn't it in...coz I had wasted so much time during the day and was feeling frustrated ....seriously, I need to STOP wasting time...

As much as I'm excited about all my travels in the next 6 months I'm also excited to stay somewhere for a bit longer next year so that I can: a) buy a set of PowerBlock dumbbells haha b) start training for a marathon.

Here's to a productive and stress eating free Saturday!!!!
 
Haha, Delsid, your posts always crack me up - it's like I am watching myself in the mirror...girl, when I was at school (and I loved my school years, all of it - high school, undergrad, masters programs, etc.) I WAS THE QUEEN OF PROCRASTINATION...and I too would eat my way through assignments, except that I wouldn't be freaking out...I am very chill with assignments, papers, tests...and usually leave stuff to last minute because I work well (AND BETTER) under pressure...I would start prepping WEEKS in advance for a project/paper and yet the ideas would only flow...3-2 days before the thing was due, I would pull all nighters and would literally finish proof-reading/editing stuff minutes before going to class, Lol...I would snack SOOOOO MUCH during those days...again, I am only saved that more than half of my snacks are on the healthy spectrum.

Wishing you the best of luck on getting things done...you are almost there sister!! ;-) Plus, good job on the work-out, even on discouraging days it's still important to squeeze that healthy stamina in.

Re. your training for a marathon...I once did a marathon as part of my job, we were one of the major non-profit for that year...I too thought "Oh boy, I have to train"...so two months prior I hit the gym 4x a week and would do 7 miles and twice during the first month I did 12 miles, and after that first month I hit my all time low with my stomach issues (I had to stop EVERYTHING, and started doing a treatment for h-pillory bacteria)...I was so sick I didn't train AT ALL the last month...I thought to myself "I can't give up, I already did all this fundraising for the marathon, I have so many people looking up to me, it's my dream to do a marathon and I am doing this for the kids and my family and for myself"...and so I decided to just go and do it and see what would come out of it...no training, have NEVER DONE any 20 something miles and being so sick the month before...I just knew that I had to try and give my best and whatever happened I would have been proud of my efforts...my goal was to just finish, if possible then in under 6hrs (I did in 5:51hrs)...but the moral of my story is...sometimes we can find excuses, sometimes we can procrastinate, sometimes WE REALLY MAY HAVE REASONABLE ISSUES THAT ARISE...but if in that moment you have an opportunity, then FEAR AND ALL...JUST DO IT (very nike of me, hahaha). I am positive you will find your way thru whatever comes next...and no matter the results we will be here to cheer you up and pull for you!!

Xoxoxx - wishing you an AWESOME weekend!
 
ARGGHHHH this struggle with my own head is driving me insane. I know giving up is not an option but man, why does my mind need to be so screwed up.

I did soooo well during the day today.... packed a super balanced healthy lunch + dinner and it was all going well. Then, on my way home I stupidly went into this bakery where they do the most amazing little cakes...I'd wanted to buy this one particular kind for a long time, but you can't buy one, you need to buy a pack of three. So I resisted. Until today. On the bright side I ate one of them and gave the other two to a lady in my local fruit shop (I didn't want to bin them as they really ARE divine :D) ...on the COMPLETELY dark side I came home and ate ridiculous amounts of fruit (and when I say ridiculous I mean it....) + obscene amounts of peanut butter (the jar is empty and I'm not buying any more for now!!! ) ...fruit is better than cake, sure, but that's not the point. SERIOUSLY what is wrong with me. Can someone unf*ck my brain pleaseeeee. Coz it's like I'm saying 'ha, ok, you didn't want to binge on cake, well you're going to binge on other stuff anyway, coz you SUCK'. I'm soooo fed up and frustrated. The more I analyse this stuff the more I want to sort it out. HOW though????
 
If I could give you a helpful answer to that question I´d be a zillionaire. Half the folks from countries which think they´re better than the rest are overweight and at least half of those know your struggle. Good job only eating the one cakelette and otherwise eating nutritious things. Yes it still sucks to have binged but the things you binged on at least don´t give your body the kind of instantaneous boost which keeps the vicious circle going. You can do this, even it´s a struggle and every baby step seems more like a flagellum-sweep on some days.
 
LaMa! How about we crack this and become zillionaires? I really wouldn't mind :D

Today I woke up and it was a conscious decision: I can either continue feeling shitty or I can have a better day. And so I did. I did a workout first thing (normally I can't do any exercise before breakfast coz I'm too hungry...not when I stuff my face at night though...), had breakfast, then went for lunch for a friend's birthday and stopped eating when I was full (win!) . Then had an ok afternoon and evening food wise.

CaliGirl said:
.I am very chill with assignments, papers, tests...and usually leave stuff to last minute because I work well (AND BETTER) under pressure...
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I'm a re-writer :D I draft and re-draft and re-draft so need A LOT of time and tight deadlines are really not for me! I panic and freeze.

CaliGirl said:
but if in that moment you have an opportunity, then FEAR AND ALL...JUST DO IT (very nike of me, hahaha). I am positive you will find your way thru whatever comes next...and no matter the results we will be here to cheer you up and pull for you!!
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THANK YOU!!!! I am planning on niking it big time :D

Btw, amazing determination with the marathon! And I think running is such a mental game...the body usually really CAN do much more than what we think. Having said that, training can make the actual marathon day a lot less painful :D
 
Delsid said:
Today I woke up and it was a conscious decision: I can either continue feeling shitty or I can have a better day. And so I did. I did a workout first thing (normally I can't do any exercise before breakfast coz I'm too hungry...not when I stuff my face at night though...), had breakfast, then went for lunch for a friend's birthday and stopped eating when I was full (win!) .
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Oh, Delsid- well done honey. It is our choice, but sometimes making the best choice is hard. Let's all just do it :D Nike- goddess of victory. I didn't know that. I like it! xoxo
 
So I AM doing it :D jumped on the no processed sugar bandwagon CaliGirl and LaMa are on. I'm on day 3 :D I'm leaving for Indo on June 14th and wanna feel the best I can when leaving here coz travel always seems to throw me. There's something about airports, they make me want to eat eeeeeveeerything, so I don't want that to happen (as I'm gonna be spending a lot of time in airports over the next six months!) ....and I think 3 weeks is a manageable chunk of time, who knows it might make me want to carry on :D

All my favourite fruits are in season: watermelon, pineapple, cantaloupe and I've been eating too much of these, not quite Raw til 4 quantities but something along those lines. So gotta be a bit more vigilant there. Yesterday my body felt like a combination of fructose and caffeine :D

Last night I went for a walk along the canal behind my apartment. It's really pretty, it's a part of the old town - the way this place used to look like before all the high rises and shopping malls. It was soo peaceful and I felt so happy coz I got to watch the locals: some were gambling, some were chilling in a tea house, some were having band practice (the song below on the saxophone :D)

 
Oh I came across this quote yesterday:

'It feels good setting goals. Achieving them feels better'

OH YEAH :D
 
:D Yeah it does, but achieving is a bit harder. However: setting goals again and again without achieving them makes you lose the positive feeling of setting goals in the first place so let´s try getting things done occasionally :p Welcome to the sugar-free life!
 
Hahaha :p Let's hope I achieve this 3 weeks sugar free goal.

I think the hardest part about goals for me is remembering all the time that I've set them...
 
That is so true! I can't count how many times in the past week I *almost* took or bought sweet crap, unthinkingly. Imagining each of those times as 500 kcal saved is pretty motivating :p Funny how that would not have been the case if I'd been "allowed" to have it.
 
Good for you! How's the no processed sugar thing going? Keeping it up?

During the last week's of my partner's life and shortly after her death a few weeks ago, I got addicted to sugar and started eating a chocolate bar every day. That plus sugary drinks and refined carbs from breads and pastas are just so many empty calories and a lot of strain on the liver and metabolic system. I thought I needed the energy and the "pick me up" from the sugar and chocolate, but since I cut them out my energy levels have improved and I've been dropping on the scale!

Life is better without sugar. I thought I would miss it, but I don't. You can get your energy from protein and healthy fats and fruits and still feel good :)
 
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How's the no processed sugar thing going? Keeping it up?
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Nope, just blown it :/ at least it was on 99% cocoa chocolate with a teaspoon of honey. Still though. Maybe I should have kept it quiet...Who knows what works with this BRAIN?!

Had some baked beans today too and they tasted like a freaking dessert, packed with sugar.

ATE loads today though, snacking all day... eating away my stress (exam NEXT Wednesday *biting nails*).

Ok, so today was a screw up, I'll try again tomorrow.
 
Today was not a screw-up, 99% cocoa chocolate has less sugar than those beans and from what I can tell it´s normal to be more hungry if you´re cutting out the sugar calories. That´s a big chunk of your daily calories you suddenly have to repurpose. Keep at it!
 
I wouldn't worry about today! Like LaMa said, it's probably not as bad as you're thinking. Hope you have a great day tomorrow! :)
 
Exactly. :iagree: with all of the above. Have a good day, eat well, fit in a walk or something in between study & move on sweets xo
 
Thanks LaMa, Jen (nice to see you on here again :) ) and Cate. That's the plan: to have a better day today.
 
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