AI need to motivate myself.
So my weight has been in the 15x for a very long time now. I am hovering right around 155, which is where I have always gotten stuck the last two times in my life that I have tried to lose weight. It's like my body just doesn't want to budge from here!! I will dip down a couple lbs and then jump up a few, but it always comes back to a stable 155.
So this is the time. This time will be different. I am determined to stay on track this time. I am definitely not as strict as I was before, when I was going from the low 17x to 16x, but I have noticed changes that happen without thinking of them... like my portions are smaller, no more second and third plates. I don't bake as much, even though baking is fun, but I don't do it because I know I don't need it. I am still using my scale for some things like cereal, fruit, meat and pasta. I feel fuller sooner, except for those occasional cravings. But even when I do have the craving, I'm better at using my mind to control my actions... no more powerless binging or overeating. When I do have dessert, I make sure to split it with someone, or just take a couple bites of theirs. Or if someone is having something like frenchfries or chips, I have just a couple and get myself a healthy alternative. I look at the menu at restaurants and plan what I am going to get ahead of time, so that I'm not swayed by other people's choices. I am physically active almost every day, and on the days that I'm not I make a conscious effort to curb my calorie intake. The only thing I drink besides water is skim milk or coffee with a little cream. SOMETIMES a diet soda, like from subway or at a restaurant. Never regular sodas, never juice, no smoothies or starbucks drinks. I save money by not buying that crap too.
People always talk about how they can't live without sugary drinks like soda or whatever, and I'm not saying that I don't like them, because the fizziness is refreshing, but I mean really, how weak are people, that they "can't live without it" even if drinking that poison all the time could be the cause of their deaths? Diabetes, heart problems etc. And I always like to think... What would Chesty Puller say to me? What would other heros of the past say to me if they saw me destroying my body by being oveweright and sedentary? It is so shameful! If I keep living the life of a sedentary person and don't get off my butt to sweat a bit, how shameful is that? People have done away with the feeling of shame for their actions... it's "acceptable" to eat yourself into a fit of sickness and go to Cheesecake Factory and eat 5,000 calories in one sitting. It's acceptable to sit around and never exercise, for various made-up reasons... "I'm not good at it" or "It's hard and it hurts me". Who said you have ot be GOOD at exercise? Since when is there a skillset for walking around? And YES, exercise is hard... that's why it's good for you! Your body will hurt and ache. Chances are, your knees and ankles hurt because you're moving them, and they're like a rusty machine. Just because your body aches doesn't mean it's bad for you.
I know there are some very very overweight people on this website, and the fact that you're making an effort is amazing. I feel bad, but I think i am a "fatist". People who can't walk under their own power, or people who eat garbage all day long, I understand to some point it is hard to put the unhealthy food down and go for a walk, but I just can't understand how people like that live with themselves. You can't even have a normal job or relationships. And then the people that entertain this kind of lifestyle, the "feeders", are so disgusting. It's like making a circus act out of a peron's life. It's essentially the same as telling someone they're fat and gross until they starve themselves to death. It's the samem concept.
Rant over.
