Starting Over

bikinibound said:
Here are the promised boobie soapings. :drool5: :drool5:

Ah, that was so good, I need a cig. :sifone:

What are these mommy issues?? Is she a perfectionist who's impossible to please and always finding fault? :(

I also think you're great just as you are. I love you dearly, or else I wouldn't soap up your boobs every damn week. ;) Well, yes I would, b/c you're hot. :D :grouphug:

Congrats on being down to 167. I predict a loss again by Friday. :)
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Ahhhh! That was great!

My mother and I are opposites so naturally we clash. We are doing much better lately though. I think I may have gotten through to her that I will never be the person she wants me to be and that she'll just have to accept that. She is very prissy and quiet around people and conforms to whoever is around because she is uncomfortable being herself. I hate that for her but I can't change it. It's who she is. She doesn't like that I am ballsy and ambitious and do everything differently. I also base my beliefs and values on what I choose, not one someone tells me to believe, which you find alot of here in the bible belt. I hate it when people shove religion down their kids throats. My mom's mother did that and my mother has tried to with me. She about had a seizure when I told her I didn't believe the bible was entirely "God's word", it was written and translated by MEN. I am spiritual and believe in god and am content to be a good person who raises my children to be good people, but will not force my kids to feel a certain way.

I get frustrated with my mother because nothing I do is ever good enough. I have always been a damn hard worker, was the top of my class in high school and college, friggin homecoming queen (fucking hated it), all-star player in basketball, track and softball, I have obtained a successful career at a very young age and have an amazing husband and a beautiful family. And she still can't say she's proud of me. All she can point out is what she views as flaws. She has always focused on what she wants rather than what I want. She just recently found out that I can draw and paint. I've done it my whole life and she just now noticed. She walked into my house and noticed a painting in Bella's room and commented on how much she liked it. She didn't believe me when I told her I painted it and accused me of lying. Sean had to convince her that is was my piece. Grrr!

Anyways, there's a short venting of my frustrations with my mother. I love her more than anything in the world and I know she is a product of her shitty mother so it's hard for me to stay upset at her. She's a wonderful grandmother to my daughter and SS. I have given up trying to make her proud though, it will never happen.
 
I'm sorry that your mom is like that. That has to be tough to deal with. My gran is a bit like that. I suspect she is like that b/c she feels that she herself isn't good enough, and it makes her feel better to make other people feel bad about themselves. I'm sure it's all subconciously done. The good thing is that you haven't let her stop you from having a happy and successful life.

I can't believe you were the homecoming queen! I'm so damn jealous! :biggrinjester: Seriously--that says a lot about how your classmates thought of you--very highly. :)

Here's an extra boobie soaping--just b/c I feel like it. Multiple orgasms are our right as women. :biggrinjester:
 
bikinibound said:
I'm sorry that your mom is like that. That has to be tough to deal with. My gran is a bit like that. I suspect she is like that b/c she feels that she herself isn't good enough, and it makes her feel better to make other people feel bad about themselves. I'm sure it's all subconciously done. The good thing is that you haven't let her stop you from having a happy and successful life.

I can't believe you were the homecoming queen! I'm so damn jealous! :biggrinjester: Seriously--that says a lot about how your classmates thought of you--very highly. :)

Here's an extra boobie soaping--just b/c I feel like it. Multiple orgasms are our right as women. :biggrinjester:
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I know that's why she does it, I think that's why it doesn't bother me as much anymore. My mother feels she didn't do things in life she wanted to, and admits she's a bit jealous that I'm doing what I set out to do. She is also very controlling of my brothers because they both let her, but I do what I feel is right and what I want no matter what. I've always been the black sheep and I like it that way.

The HC queen thing was horrible. I was very popular in school and had tons of friends but I was very much against cliques and "popularity". I hated it. I was friends with EVERYBODY and was the furthest thing from a snob, just ask Krystal. This is what got me elected. What's funny is that I begged the school principal to let me give it to the next person because I didn't want to wear a damn dress and walk out in front of the whole school. I felt that the whole HC queen thing just segregated the students even more by putting "one person" on a pedestal and made the others feel worse. I HATED every second of it. I even wore the same dress I wore to prom and fixed my own hair and makeup. It drove my mother crazy because she wanted to go "all out". I only regret now that I kept her from enjoying that part of having a daughter. I know now that I have Bella that it could've been more fun for her.
 
Scale still saying 167.2 today. I doubt I'll hit 165 by tomorrow but definitely back to 166 at least. I got in another hour and a half last night. I had an amazing run around the lake and made really good time. I then did my weight training at home then relaxed with 30 minutes of yoga. Calories were at 1390 yesterday. I had a yummy dinner of chicken cordon bleu (340 calories) and steamed green beans. I then had a snack of Activia yogurt with Kashi Go Lean granola (200 calories) before bed.
 
Yup, I had my share of problems with mom. She certainly never even tried to control me, she knows better than that! LOL But you're mom sounds like she doesn't give up so easily.

Good job on your run, that sounds so nice to run near a lake, you lucky thing.
 
Blancita said:
Yup, I had my share of problems with mom. She certainly never even tried to control me, she knows better than that! LOL But you're mom sounds like she doesn't give up so easily.

Good job on your run, that sounds so nice to run near a lake, you lucky thing.
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She's finally giving up, thank goodness. She says seeing me as a mother is starting to open her eyes as to what kind of person I am, a good one. She'll come around eventually.

The lake is beautiful this time of year and there's always a breeze coming off it. The mosquitos are a bitch though.
 
No exercise on Friday or Saturday.:( Today I was super busy running around with the baby shopping. We came home for her nap and I ended up falling asleep for 2.5 hours as well. I just didn't feel great today. Calories were at 1800 today and around the same for friday and saturday. Tonight I was feeling pretty crummy but felt guilty for no exercise so I went for a quick 2 mile run around the neighborhood. I ended up feeling great afterwards and managed to get a full body weight training session in and some yoga for a total of 70 minutes. I am keeping up with the green tea challenge and should have no problem for the rest of the week as well. I love green tea and drink it often anyways. Kimberly is going to have to make these challenges a little harder! LMAO!

I am retaining fluid ALOT right now due to eating Mexican on friday and Tex Mex on saturday. Bleh! NOt enough water either. Today I am chugging water and will be back to my usual 100+ ounces/day tomorrow.
 
Bleh! Home with PINK EYE today. I think my daughter brought it home form daycare on her hands and now I look like I've been punched in the eye.

Calories for Tuesday: 1470 - no exercise

I am at 160 minutes for the week and I hope to get another 90 minutes in tonight and then get what's left for the challenge in tomorrow night. The scale was down half a pound today so I am hoping for a 1.5-2.0 lb loss this week.

Happy TLD!
 
AmyRB said:
Bleh! Home with PINK EYE today. I think my daughter brought it home form daycare on her hands and now I look like I've been punched in the eye.

Calories for Tuesday: 1470 - no exercise

I am at 160 minutes for the week and I hope to get another 90 minutes in tonight and then get what's left for the challenge in tomorrow night. The scale was down half a pound today so I am hoping for a 1.5-2.0 lb loss this week.

Happy TLD!
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Hmm.. will I catch your pink eye from giving you a boobie soaping?? :biggrinjester: Sorry that you've got that to deal with. I'll make the boobie soaping extra special today. :D

1.5-2lbs in fantastic! I hope it comes to fruition. :grouphug:
 
AmyRB said:
Bleh! Home with PINK EYE today. I think my daughter brought it home form daycare on her hands and now I look like I've been punched in the eye.
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Eeeks! Pink eye? Oh no..... does Bella have it also or are you the only one walking around like you got a shiner? Poor you. Take care of yourself, honey.

-Sheryl
 
Nope, Bella and Sean don't have it. I'm not exactly sure where I got it, maybe from the cart at Wal-Mart. It's a little better today but still looks like a shiner. At least it's not as swollen as it was.

The scale read 165.0 today!! That's a 1.2 lb loss since last friday and I hope to get it to 2lbs by tomorrow. Tonight is my last chance workout so I plan to rock the hell out if it!
 
Wow, you understate things so the way you just casually dropped that WHAMMY about losing 1.2 since last week! I'm so happy the weight is finally budging.
 
Me to girlie! I know I've lost something, not sure what yet. I know because the belt I wear is now down another notch this week, OH YEAH! I don't want to jinx my weigh in, so I didn't get on the scale to take a peek. LOL LOL I think we will do just fine this week, THANK GOSH! I was sweating it last week, because I thought we were out, or at least Kimberly told me by mistake we were, HAHAHAHAHA I was like phewwwww another shot! I sent you a message.
Later gator
Kim
 
Blancita said:
Wow, you understate things so the way you just casually dropped that WHAMMY about losing 1.2 since last week! I'm so happy the weight is finally budging.
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Thank you!!! You have NO IDEA how relieved I am to see the scale FINALLY dropping. I've lost 8lbs since the beginning of this Amazing Race challenge Which is when I started this new thyroid medication. The weight is coming off slowly but I'll friggin take it!

Who says hormones don't play into weight loss? Ha!
 
That is an awful lot of weight Amy! And yeah, it seems with the thyroid issue, no amount of lowering your calories ever more would've made a bit of difference. Fortunately I'm not tired or losing my hair so I dont believe I have this issue.
 
Miss Ladybug said:
Me to girlie! I know I've lost something, not sure what yet. I know because the belt I wear is now down another notch this week, OH YEAH! I don't want to jinx my weigh in, so I didn't get on the scale to take a peek. LOL LOL I think we will do just fine this week, THANK GOSH! I was sweating it last week, because I thought we were out, or at least Kimberly told me by mistake we were, HAHAHAHAHA I was like phewwwww another shot! I sent you a message.
Later gator
Kim
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Yeah I can tell that my clothes are looser too. Doesn't it feel great!?! I think we have this challenge in the bag if we all keep working our asses off like we have been.
 
AmyRB said:
Yeah I can tell that my clothes are looser too. Doesn't it feel great!?! I think we have this challenge in the bag if we all keep working our asses off like we have been.
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Man it would be great to finally win a challenge! I think it's just a fact that I need to keep my calorie intake below 1500, as that seems to be the only way I ever lose. On that note, it's almost time for my protein shake. MMMMM
 
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