Starting over...AGAIN. *Emily's Diary*

hey everybody, well all is goin okay, dad is doin great, hes putting on weight (which is a great thing) he was 230 before he went to VA and when he came home he was 140 and now hes back to around 155-160. :) Lat time I weighed (two days ago) I was 282. So, I havent done as bad as I thought. I have been working my butt off! But the money is nice :) Havent been dieting AT ALL tho!!! Need to get back, its just hard in the winter time for some reason, if anyone has any tips, id love to hear them!

I also hope the November challenge went good!!!! I am so excited, gettin ready to go look at the board. Hope to talk to u all soon!!!

~Emily.
 
Well everybody, I have some bad news....I just broke up with my boyfriend of two years. Love makes people so blind. and I do love him, and I want to be with him...but he lies over stuff so small, like stuff that is just ridiculous...I dont know....i have been debating on it for a while, ever since he first lied to me over something in June of 2005. It has messed with me ever since and he just tells me to get over it sometimes cause its in the past and its no big deal. Other times he cant stop apologizing. At least he didnt cheat on me tho. ITs like, I swear he has some kinda problem with lying....I dont know. I just cant talk to any of my friends cause they really arent that great of friends. and my brother and dad wont know what to say, and probably wont care, and i know my other bros and sisters wont care, they hate me. So I thought I would vent in my journal. I will probably feel like crap later for ever posting this, cause I dont want anybody to think bad about him...but enough is enough I guess. He has had numerous chances to prove himself and did exactly what he said he wouldnt...every time....he even admits he did the opposite of what he said he would, but still says im stupid and a b**** for breakin up with him. And I know reading this its probably like yall are thinking "You need to leave this loser" But...i dunno...long story...just first love, first all that other crap....Just feelin pretty bad right now....but the whole point of me writing this is cause I want to change my name from TravandEm11804 to something else, anybody know how to??? Even if I have to create another account. Let me kno, please, thanks!

~Emily.
 
Ack girl - you deserve better! My X (who was my first everything too) lied left and right about the smallest stupidest things. It didn't matter how much I told him that it hurt me, he still did it. Don't put up with it because little lies turn into big lies. There's so much more out there, people who will love and respect you for just being the strong woman that you are.

*hugs* Feel better! :)

I think you're probably going to have to just create a new account. Maybe PM Mal? Good Luck!!
 
thanks peq...i dunno what im doin, i know i will end up right back with him, we usually break up for a few days and then back together, i HATE people that have relationships like that. I dunno, and I can tell he really loves me...(I kno that sounds stupid) its just i think he lies cause hes scared i will get mad...i dunno...and i dont get mad about what he does, just the fact he lies...i dunno...we will see I guess. :)
 
hi's, i just wanted 2 let you know that you did the right thing...a relationship needs 2 b built on trust, and liars are not to be trusted! you can make it on your own, I know it's been a long time, but you can! plus...now that your independent, you can focus on your own goals like excersizing and food...ect... =-) your gunna have time 2 turn in2 more of a hottie and then he'll b sooo sorry he didn't shape up!

p.s.-a relationship shouldnt b about fixin the guy, as i'm sure u know =-)
 
you have to do what's right for you - -not what works for someone else... you have to look out for yourself first because ya know what - if you dont - -no one else will... Good for you for doing what's right for you...

you're young and adorable... there's plenty of fish in the sea waiting for you...
 
Thanks yall, its just kinda hard...I do love him, I really do, and he has always told me if he makes me unhappy to find someone that does make me happy, but trust me, there arent any other guys out there...I guess I dont need a boyfriend, but its nice to have a companion to talk to, which me and him will still be good friends.

I also think that if we stay broke up for a while, IF I get back with him, maybe he will change? What do yall think, I am only 17, so I aint experienced, im sure yall have experienced bad relationships, so...I know I want him to change, but that doesnt mean he will. Let me know please, my friends arent very supportive....so yall are pretty much my good friends. I appreciate all of this support! Thanks! *hugs*

~Emily
 
definitely go with my earlier post...

my advice is that you have basically given him an opportunity to change-his change should be done on his own, if he does it "for you" then he will blame you if for just that!

if he ends up changing on his own and proves it to you, then he is worth getting back together with...if not....then i'd suggest no
 
Thanks. I am going to give him another chance, but its going to be a while. We have been broke up for ...um...3 days i think...or 4. Thats like a record, lol, we will see though, ttyl, thanks again. Want to hear other opinions too :) Thanks.

~Emily
 
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