Been MIA bc 1st, my dental app. last Friday was a nightmare!
*screams in horror!*
My gentle and sweet female dentist was booked up, so the other doc treated me..
NEVER again!
Once they gave me the shots to deaden areas, I don't think they waited long enough bc I felt the drill when he started working!
I almost flew out of the chair.
I felt him shoot more meds in me which hurt.
He was very rough and banged around the tools all over my mouth.
*grrrrrrrrrrrrr*
THEN, he cut/split my bottom lip with a tool!
The whole visit was a nightmare.
I was in pain that night and thru the weekend.
My lip was super swollen and then blisters formed where the cut was.
It's still messed up!
The swelling has gone down now and I'm usin' medicated lip balm to try and heal the blisters.
On Monday, the pain with my teeth was still there and I told the office I wanted the female dentist to look at the work and my teeth.
The other guy did not complete the dern work!
He didn't do the facial to teeth and he did sloppy work she had to fix.
This work week was hard as well! (Missed Mon. of course.)
Cory and Dave both have a nasty cold, so I'm trying to nurse them to.
I'm hoping I won't get it bc I've been taking airborne and the antibiotic for teeth..
So, I hope that will be enough prevention so I don't get their colds! *yuck*
My OCD is always Super Bad when we are sick - I have been a cleaning freak! I think I used half a bottle of lysol wipes yesterday on the mouse/computer area, nobs on faucets, door nobs, etc..
I just 'think' I see the germs everywhere!
My hands are raw as well from all the hand washin'.
Thank goodness I'm off on Friday's and thru weekend!
I need major rest..lol..
I still have to make out grocery list and get to the store though.
I hope to be able to pick up some healthy choices.
I'm sure gonna try and make them fit into the budget!
In Other News...
Bills will suck up my Jan. 25th check, but we are hoping with my Feb. 10th check we can go to the Y and get a good plan that will fit our budget!
*fingers crossed*
The whole family will go and I think it will bring us all closer.
Cory has really been difficult lately and even mean.
I know it's just a phase and the 'teen' thing.
Still hurts though and causes arguements! lol
I'm watchin' the BL of course and I'm also really enjoying Diet Tribe on Lifetime.
Anyone watchin' these?
I'm hoping next week will be the week I can make the choice to work out no matter how I feel.
This week was just too hard with the dentist and pain.
Funny, I was just at the dentist this morning! No cavities, but the tech hurt my gums with her scraper, and I got chastised for not flossing enough. I feel guilty I know it's important! I'm gonna!
That's so shitty! Your poor lip Hope it all feels better soon, and you can afford good food, and Cory and H get well soon!
Cory is just being flooded with testosterone. If you can remind yourself, "it's the testosterone talking, not Cory" maybe you'll have an easier time of it
Geez! When I said you deserved some pampering, a trip to Brutal Brutus the dentist was NOT what I had in mind. I hate going to the dentist, so you have my sympathy.
I will take your spring/fall weather! You can have my 4-7 inches of snow we're meant to get tomorrow and 0 degree temps we've had the last few days in exchange. Deal or no deal?
My lip is still messed up bc that is a bad area to try and heal.
Everytime I get close, brushing or eating opens it all back up again.
I have full lips anyway, so with them swollen it looks like I've had injections..HAHAHAHA!
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Poor Dave and Cory are havin' major coughing fits today.
Even though it doesn't sound good, it is a sign that the congestion is trying to get out so they can recover.
I wish I had a chemical suit to wear though!
I made the grocery list out yesterday and downloaded coupons to my Kroger + card..I also have clipped coupons from the paper.
I hope to stock us up and do well today at the store.
I'm only able to shop at Kroger when they have good coupons.
Ther web site is so awesome bc they have 2 coupon sites on-line for you to use and place on your shopper's card.
Then, they have on-line store coupons that you print out as well.
When the sales ads/coupons are not for what I need, I'm stuck with horrible Wal*Mart!
I'm super excited though bc FINALLY a Super Target is bein' built 5 mins from us!
It'll open in Feb!
I'll NEVER have to step foot in Wal*Mart again!
I'll be able to buy healthy foods this time bc of all the coupons/sales.
This will help the lbs. come off a lil faster for the next few weeks.
I agree with BB, You are def ALOT stronger than you think OR give yourself credit for
For starteers if you werent strong and gave into your bad upbriging and so on, then you would be raising Corey the same as you were brought upa dn guess what you arent!
You are an excellent mom and wife and there is alot to be seen and said when seeing how a mother raises her children and cares for her loved ones (including the clients you care for
Your New Years post was amazing...make the time you need to work on yourself and it will all come into place.
Ive been wanting to work on my spiritual side and explore it more for aloooong time.Been promising my mom I would pick it up and do it but never had the time.Since the beginning of December I have been giving myself an hour a day for meditationa dn I have started doing Yoga ALOT...asnd I am feeling so great and so in tune with myself.I am for once in a looong time honestly happy agian, with myself most importantly but at peace with where my life has me.
Anyway, you can and will accomplish whatever you set your compassion kind very BIG caring heart too.
After all sweets, I dunno anyone who deserves it more
Im always here and your always in my thoughts, y aknow where to find meIf ya need me
LMBO..No store today..I'll go tomorrow..
Dave and Cory have kept me on my toes..
It has taken me forever to catch up in all the diaries bc I have to stop 'n start..lol
I have them drugged up pretty good right now and may have some peace for a few..
I have stuff to make soup anyway and that will be great for us all.
(especially them!)
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Thanks so much cinderelly! *smoochies!*
I'm doing really good right now with the construction on the inside.
The latest bible study is helping me a GREAT DEAL..
You may like these points, so I'll share.
Many of you may for that matter.
Promise * Problems * Provision/Peace
10 ways to shorten your stay with/in problems:
(By John Hagee - Can watch on TBN and DayStar)
1) Take responsibility for your actions.
2) Be willing to work for what you want.
3) Don't waste time fighting what you cannot change.
4) When you are wrong, admit it and take the consequences.
5) You will extend your time in the problem by nursing a grudge & refusing forgiveness. ( This can also mean with yourself - not just to others.)
6) Be generous to those that need your help. "Giver's Gain."
7) Let your mouth be ruled by the law of kindness.
8) Refuse to have Pity Parties. (LMBO!!! *Lord help me!* He is really gonna have to help me with this issue!)
9) Listen.....Really Listen
10) Be a peacemaker.. (foot note: anger management!
*Lord help me again!*)
I'm taking notes from the sermons. It's a series of sermons and they are just great! I can't wait to hear the new one on Monday!
These have spoke to me so much bc for years and years I have been at the bottom of the mountain going round and round.
Never climbing up.
"Staying in the problem(s)"
I'm climbing the mountain now and day by day I'll get stronger and rewarded for my hard work.
The other big thing for me to master is HOW TO ACT/BE WHILE IN A PROBLEM!
I truly feel that the Lord has a sense of humor while trying to teach us things.
We just have to keep repeating until we get through it correctly.
Re: anger - I was so proud of myself the other morning on the way to work bc I could have had a pure hate fest and cuss attack at a ding-dong driver talking on his cell phone!
He pulled out of a yield curve and crossed 3 lanes of road w/o looking and I almost hit him! (I was doing the SPL at 40 mph)
That would have been a horrible wreck!
I honked my horn once I saw he was about to come in my lane and then just bit my tongue!
I then said, thank you Lord for protecting me AND please correct that driver when you get a chance!
Sorry to hear about the rough go at the dentist... I can't believe he split your lip open with one of his tools? Thats crazy. I do sympathize with the drill and needing more novacaine... I had that issue a couple of years ago when I went in for my crown...
Sorry to hear about Cory and the meanness. Being from a family of guys I will tell you it shall pass. He's just at that darn age. You'll both get through it and things will be fine.
Glad to hear that your really enjoying the church services you've been attending. I think it's great. It seems like it's really helping you take a look at certain aspects in your life and giving you a new way to approach them. I think you know that a lot of bad situations can feel totally different on how you approach and react to them if your in the right "frame of mind".
I think your going to have a great year. Keep up the positive attitude and getting in the "you time". You deserve it.
Thanks. My poor lip is still trying to get well..lol
Glad to hear this is a phase w/Cory..lol..
I'm really tryin' to understand what he's going through and compensate..BUT, I/We can't be walked on either and he knows we are the BOSS..
It's been going well for about a week now with no issues, so I hope it stays that way for a while. lol
Thanks so much for your support and kind words sweetie.
It'll be time for me to leave soon.
I hate leaving Cory and Dave sick though.
Cory is out of school today of course for MLK Day.
I cannot stand the fact I will not be home tomorrow to watch all the coverage LIVE re: President Obama!
I'll have to dvr it.
No chance of watchin' it at Ms. Mary's bc she only watches Turner Classic Movies..lol
I'm too busy over there anyway..It's all I can do to get my lunch down.
I was able to get healthy choices at the store yesterday and we are stocked up for around 2 weeks..
I hope to get in an exercise routine this week.
I may have some challenges bc wouldn't ya know it's time for
Man, this visitor has worn out his welcome!
As much as I love TCM, I'd rather watch the innauguration tomorrow--and plan to schedule it into my day if it all possible..lol.
Great job getting healthy food at the supermarket. That's great news that the supertarget is coming to town.
Hope Cory and Dave get better soon! If you are that freaked out by their cold germs, I would love to see you in my aunt's filthy house--there you really would want a bio-hazard suit!
Since you're on a positive kick, take a lesson from Monty Python and "always look on the bright side of life."
Cory is pretty much well and hubby is almost well. That dern cough is still bothering him, but at least it's not as bad as it was.
I'm not sure if I'll have a good weigh-in Tues. bc of
I may just wait until Thursday/Friday to weigh in when he'll be gone..LMBO.
Plus, I have only had 'work-type exercise.'
I'm eating well but as stated earlier, I'm mostly working on 'me/inside' right now.
I have a lot of garbage to clean out and bible study/prayer is really helping.
My next study is over the Fruit of the Spirit which is very, very important.
I'll be using this on-line tool along with my bible:
I'm hoping once my Feb. 10th check comes the 'exercise' issues will come to an end bc I really think we'll be able to get a good plan at the Y.
This week I'm gonna try real hard to stop at the park w/pond on the way home each day and walk..
I'm tired and my feet hurt but maybe as long as I head right to the park and get it over I'll feel better and be glad I did.
If that can become a routine, I then can work on hopping on the exercise bike as well after dinner.
I have goals/plans...I just have to put forth the 'want to and effort!'
I have no idea why this is so difficult for me?
Maybe as I learn more and fix more about me the answers will come.
I may be holding myself back on purpose?
I have to get to the bottom of that.
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I'm sad today is my last day off..lol
I really dread going to work now..
I'm just a maid and waitress that is UNDER-PAID!
This In-Home care is not for me after all...
I wish I had the money to take the courses I need to work in a hospital!
It's driving me crazy I cannot do what I want. *GRRRRRRRR*
The agency has been a PAIN as well.
They are such jerks and they have so many stupid rules.
I have to stick it out though bc we need the money.
I'm hoping once Super Target is almost built/ready to open here they will have a lot of open positions.
If so, I will apply and if hired I'll leave the In Home Care.
I need more hours and better pay in order to help us and have extra to save for the courses I need.
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In Other News:
My lil Chrisy is not doing well. She is more than likely about to drop out of college and come home.
She even mentioned she wants to get Jaxon back..
I think that's just "depression" talk.
I hope she is not really gonna try and do that!
#1 Jose and Jenna have had him home since Dec. 4th.
It would tear their hearts out to go through a court battle.
#2 I don't know if Chrisy would have any hope anyway bc she has no money for court and she signed the adoptive papers of course.
This will just hurt her more bc of wanting him back and then bein' told NO, It's Not Possible.
I have just been a wreck over all this.
I can no longer visit the blog for him (at this time) bc the new pics just tear me up for days.
He looks so much like MaeMae and he's just a living doll!
Here are the last ones I saw and grabbed...
I wish so much I could hold and kiss him!
He's almost 2 mo. old already!
Anyway, I'll keep you guys posted..
Please pray for my MaeMae to have peace and closure.
I better get off here now and get some cleaning/laundry done..
My thoughts and wishes are with you and your family as always Stacy... You have more than your share of emotional crises to deal with... but you are such a genuinely sweet person, I see nothing but happy endings (even if the road to get to them is a little rocky).
**HUGS** **HUGS**
On a side note... Go Steelers!!! I'll pull for the AFC team almost every time, as long as they aren't the Jets.
Wow, you just can't seem to win for losing here huh? Damn that sucks about the job... I'm interested in hearing the details, but it sounds like a crappy deal to me.
I hope the ice storm does not do to you what the one we had earlier this year did to us. Here's hoping you weather all of your storms in the next few days here, both the literal and metaphoric ones.
Whelp, the ice-storm is over and everything is melting.
MISD was closed of course today and Cory was happy..lol..
RE: My job:
You guys know I have not been happy the past month with the family anyway.
I have been taken advantage of and have been treated like a maid, servant, and waitress.
The agency are real jerks as well. They don't give a flip about the Caregivers.
Arriving at my shift Monday and walking into the conditions I did just sent me over the edge.
I'll try to make this as short as possible, so I'll be leaving out A LOT of other details that have been going on for a while bc this would just end up as a novel, but you guys will get the point..lol
1) The family does not care about Mary. She should be in a nursing home but they of course don't want her money being spent that way.
When she passes they want every dime, otherwise they would place her somewhere nice where she could get the care she deserves and needs.
2) Mary became stubborn re: her shower, hair washing, changing of clothes/depends out of the blue. I told the family about this and mentioned many a time she was in MUCH NEED of hygiene care!
When they did nothing I called the agency so they could talk to the family.
I'm sorry, this is elderly neglect!!
Her last bath/hair washing was on 1/3/09!!!!!!!
Nothing changed, but now the family was treating me like crap!
I arrived Monday (after the family being there Fri-Sun) with Mary still in horrible condition. Still no bath or anything. She was still in the same dirty clothes she was in Thursday when I left my shift as well.
Her odor was even more terrible.
Her bathroom had dried poop/urine everywhere as well as PJ's from Fri-Sun that had poop and urine all over them.
Her toliet had not been flushed since I was gone either...
The entire back of the house smelt like a sewer!
3) The dog must not have been let out bc she pooped all over the place and you could tell it was piled up from Fri-Sun..
4) The kitchen was a nightmare from the family to.
I did the best I could to try and take control and get everything cleaned up before my shift was over.
Mary still would not let me clean her up or anything.
It was payday so I had to drive all the way to Richardson to get my check.
Talk about a long day!!!
Once there I explained in full detail what all was going on and that they needed to deal with it so Mary could get help and I also said I wanted a new family.
They agreed.
THEN, the agency mentioned I needed to continue to work there until they could find a replacement!!??
I said, "No-Way...That is not fair to me. That will be a VERY uncomfortable situation since the family is always in/out during my shift. PLUS, it is not fair for me to have to deal with all the things that are going on as far as me being taken advantage of!
Another thing, in this day in time that is not SAFE. You'll contact the family letting them know why service is changing and this will piss them off. Why on earth do you want me to be in this sticky situation?"
They said that was just how it was gonna be - I said NO it wasn't, so they fired me.
This could not have happened at a worse time for us.
Dave's hours have not picked up yet, and as a matter of fact, they called and told him not to come in 'tonight' bc the lines are not running.
(he works for a printing co.)
On Feb. 10th I'll have my last check with only 6 days on it.
I have to go back up there to get that check and turn in my badge.
I don't even want to look at those idiots!
Sorry to hear about how things are working out. You did the right thing though. If you didn't put your foot down, where the hell would the buck stop? Mary's family should be ashamed of themselves... I think it's common though. I am a firm believer in Karma though, and everything comes back to those in the end. Poor Mary.
Keep your chin up. You'll get thru this, I promise
*yuck*
I think I used half a bottle of lysol wipes yesterday on the mouse/computer area, nobs on faucets, door nobs, etc.. 
I have them drugged up pretty good right now and may have some peace for a few..
Feb. 1st Baby, Super Bowl Time! 
Sam is ON POINT!
