SoSel's Diary

Yesterday's food is way embaressing, but here goes!

BF- 1 cup Lucky Charms (dry- no milk), coffee
L- 1/2 pizza, which was about 500 cals (can you believe my son ate the other half!? He's 3!)
S- 100 cal snack pack, 3 cookies, tortilla chips, spinach con queso dip
D- spaghetti noodles, turkey meat with nature's seasoning, and milk/cream of mushroom soup (in a casserole), canned carrots
DS- ice cream (and a lot of it, about 500 cals of it)

I had set out to do better yesterday. Today I have done better. I need to remember my goal. I need to keep my drive in focus. I can't even exercize right now b/c I'm so burned. The least I can do is eat right!
 
Use tea bags to take out hte burn - as a child like when I was old enough to take care of myself and such - I use ot get burnt retty badly b/c we spent alot of time at the pool - whenI got burnt badly my granny would mke tea and save the tea bags - it removes all of the heat and soothes it

As for taking care of you - ya hta tis hte hardest thing Ive verdone or tried to do howver - I know if I had a hubby I would make sure he was helping too...just my two cents but Ive raised my girls alone so I knwo when I find a man he will need to be helpful and willing ot step up to the plate for all of us...
 
SoSel said:
My mom constantly tells me that I have to take care of me so I can take care of my family. But when and how? My hubby felt bad when I told him why I got so burned. He bought Ben and Jerry's for us to share, fed me (cheesy but cute), and we talked (which we never do b/c we either fight or he's on the cell phone talking). It was so normal and reassuring. ::sighs:: Nice.
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It is hard when your children are little. I never got the hang of it. I think it is fantastic the way that you are (mostly) doing a great job of doing both.

I'm glad you had some nice time after so much stress.

SoSel said:

I put sunscreen everywhere except my chest... it got overlooked. So where I had the sunscreen is doing great. I actually bronzed a little. (I have some Native American blood... my great-grandmother was 1/2 blooded.) But my chest is severely burned, red and puffy. It scares me. I have a Grandma with skin cancer. I just got so busy taking care of the family... Next time it won't be like that.
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Yep. That has to be the way forward.

SoSel said:
Yesterday's food is way embaressing, but here goes!

BF- 1 cup Lucky Charms (dry- no milk), coffee
L- 1/2 pizza, which was about 500 cals (can you believe my son ate the other half!? He's 3!)
S- 100 cal snack pack, 3 cookies, tortilla chips, spinach con queso dip
D- spaghetti noodles, turkey meat with nature's seasoning, and milk/cream of mushroom soup (in a casserole), canned carrots
DS- ice cream (and a lot of it, about 500 cals of it)

I had set out to do better yesterday. Today I have done better. I need to remember my goal. I need to keep my drive in focus. I can't even exercize right now b/c I'm so burned. The least I can do is eat right!
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Great turn around. :) That's the bit that makes all the difference. :)
 
Hey good lookin - what have you got cookin - somethgn healthy of course - LOL - jsut wnated to drop in and say hey !!!
 
Mmmkay... what I ate yesterday was...

BF- slim fast optima shake and muffin bar, coffee, milk, Splenda
L- lean cuisine bbq chicken pizza
S- 2 tbsp peanuts, handful of Pringles, & I forgot, but I chose to eat a few small portions of things for variety
D-black eyed peas and sausage, 2 oatmeal Jiffy muffins
DS- 140 cal ice cream sandwhich (they're miniature and I found them at Bi-Lo)

I guess I had a good day yesterday. I sure did have an awesome dream last night! I dreamed that my thighs were smaller. And that's a problem area for me. So I woke up and HAD to look. They're still there, but I can't wait for my dreams to come true, you know? I rarely ever dream about seeing myself thin. I hope last night was a glimpse into the the future. :)
 
ouch! i know the feeling of a burnt chest all too well... darn tanning beds! :D

hope you are getting better and having a great day!
 
Still too sunburned to go to Curves. I should be fine by Monday. I'm beginning to think I should have gone to a doctor. This truly sucks. And it looks like no sunburn I have ever had. For days it was kinda purple. It's kinda healed a little, but my skin is red. It doesn't match b/c the rest of me is bronzed.

Yesterday
BF- lucky charms, milk, coffee, splenda
L- pizza
S- 100 cal cookie snack pack
D- one baked chicken thigh with bbq sauce, no skin, vegetable medly
D- protein/fiber bar 150 cals... very yummy and I'm always low on protein

And I got some drama to report. November of '05 my bro-in-law died. My best friend at the time started out being truly supportive. He held me while I cried (this guy is gay, so it's not like my hubby would be jealous), was by my side every second he wasn't working, had to be the man in my life b/c my hubby snapped at that point, and is slowly coming back to himself still. Ok, so my best friend walked out of my life... no, he ran, right before Christmas of '05. And now he wants to be buddy-buddy again. He broke my heart. He hurt my kids. He was at my son's birth b/c my hubby was in Iraq! My daughter idolized this guy. We thought he had a heart of gold. But in the end, he was jerk. So I dunno what to do. Should I be nice? I'm always nice. I'm always getting hurt.

That's my drama.
 
Sounds like you have/had sun poisoning - been there done that -didn't want to wear a tshirt... iv'e gone to the doctor for it - and the only thing they really do is give an antihistimine and not much else...

those sunburns can have long term effects on your skin - really watch your skin for changes - in future years...

Sorry for your current drama - sucks people act like that sometimes.. but i suppose they have their reasons... :(
 
Well my friend = I have my own drama and never seem to handle it right so Im not saying anything there...sorry...

I hope your sun burn gets better soon - it sounds yuck!!!

I drink the slim fast optima shakes as well what one do you drink - I have one for breaky every day...but I didnt like the muffin bars...lol

You are a tropper and whatever choices you make will be the right ones - it is so hard I find with matters of the heart and such - like when you cared or cared or still care ya know - obviosuly look at my constant messy dance with my x - lol...

I think your dream was a preminition...your thighs will get smaller it is just a matter of time...
 
That dream was definitely a premonition.

I'm sorry about your chest. That sounds truly bad. Basically at present it is a burn like other burns. I would put some effort in to making sure it doesn't become infected. It may be worth seeing a doctor even now - sometimes a dressing is useful once the blisters start to break open.

I don't know enough to say what you should do about your old friend. I still miss some of mine that I lost contact with years ago and would be glad to see again. I'm very cautious about my children's happiness though.
 
cinderelly said:


I drink the slim fast optima shakes as well what one do you drink - I have one for breaky every day...but I didnt like the muffin bars...lol
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I have french vanilla and some chocolate one. I mix my own in the morning b/c I think it's cheaper, although more aggravating. And I can't use the whole scoop b/c it won't mix... no matter what I do. Ridiculous.

I love the muffin bars. Or, rather, I really love the chocolate chip and banana-something ones. They are the best. :) Funny thing is, with Slim-Fast, I can't stand thos chocolately snack bars. They're yucky to me. So I was excited by muffin bars.
 
No news on the run-away friend. I posted a blog about it on myspace. I know he will read it and probably already has. He can draw his own conclusions. I didn't say it was about him, I didn't mention my kids, I left it generic. If his guilty conscience leads him to realize it's him, then fine. My ex probably thinks it's about him, lol!

My sunburn is getting better. Finally! I think it was sun poisoning, Mal. I had it on my feet as a kid (who puts sunscreen on their feet!? I do now!). Torturous. Thankfully I didn't blister. My hubby is a medic, though, so he could have taken care of it. He spent 15 months in Iraq, so I know he's seen some nasty burns. Or if not, I'd be at the doctor. I feel a lot lot better today. Looking foward to putting mini-me (my son looks soooo much like me as a kid!) in a stroller and going for a walk.

Oh yeah, the thigh dream... it brings a smile to my face still. After my first pregnancy, I gave up on ever being thin again. Ugh. I was so immature. Time to make up time wasted. Glad I have you guys and gals to help!
 
I'm kinda hung-over. I'm not physically sick, but my mind is groggy and I can't get going.

I smile just thinking about the good times last night. :) It was inspiring, in an odd way. Now I feel the desire to lose weight again. The urge to let nothing hold me back. To find the Selena under all this chub. To realize my potential. To embrace life and be myself. I'm so sick of being scared of my weight and hiding in the corners. I don't want to wear another push-up bra so my breasts look bigger than my belly. I felt like a drunk slob last night (after the fact, that is) with all my cleavage and baby belly fat. And I vowed to change that. I want to look hot in a t-shirt and blue jeans. No more pretending. Work work work! After I sober up.

Hehe.
 
You got it girl!

Isn't funny where we find our committment sometimes!
:)

You can MAKE it happen!
 
you go girl :D i'm so glad when people have epiphanies like that and discover their motivation :D
i'm sobering up too lol :D well, girls gotta have fun hehe
 
So, yeah, I never actually sobered up yesterday. I don't ever get physically sick (a few exceptions when I was younger), but my mind couldn't get on the right track. My sister-in-law picked my kids up around 3 and within the hour I was sipping an amaretto sour. I felt better after that. So I had 3 drinks last night, slept 12 hours, and feel much better, just tired. My kids are home now so I'm flying straight today. I did a lot of drunk typing last night (not drunk, just not thinking straight) typing that I'm kinda regretting, but what the hell. It's not like I have much of a life. Played guitar, took a long bath, talked to my neighbor man, that kinda thing. It was nice.

Lemme try to think what I ate yesterday, for the fun of it...

BF- coffee, Splenda, milk
L- healthy choice meal
S- umm...
D- lean cuisine meal, snack mix

Then the 3 drinks I had, which probably canceled out all the food I didn't eat... I wasn't hungry then and I'm not really hungry today. Alcohol makes me swell though, so I weighed 193 this morning. ::shakes head::
 
Alcohol is a bunch of empty calories...

I know...I consumed a few myself last night too ;)
 
I'm sober now! Yeah!

Last night was a helluva night emotionally, but that's a whole 'nother drama.

Lemme see what I ate...

BF- slim fast optima muffin bar, coffee, splenda, milk
L- healthy choice meal
S- I'm sure I had something. Like chips. I need to write this stuff down...
D- taquitos which gave me horrible heart burn

I was having a bad day yesterday, so I didn't eat right or act right or anything. I'm finally feeling like myself again.

I've been really drained, so I'm going to change things up again. And I got this weight-loss goal I want to make. I was 193 this morning. I don't want the numbers to keep going up. I need to get back into walking and the fruit/veggie thing. Only I can make this happen. If I lost 25 lbs this year like I did last year I'd be 165 (from 190). And that's almost scary for me. I haven't seem that number in so long. Wow...
 
I'm going to be melodramatic, so bear with me.

My world has just been flipped upside-down. My husband found out today that he has been assigned to Germany. We leave in January. I'm terrified inside. I have always been frightened of change. I can't imagine living anywhere but the South (as in SC, GA, LA, NA- you get the point). I'm such a small-town, kinda red-necky girl. I don't know what to do. I'm blindly following my husband and our relationship is rocky at best. But I love him and I cried and I told him I would go with him and he cried... (a run-on was the only way to explain that)

Advice is welcome.
 
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