Sophies diary

Hey there sorry you are having a hard time of it, exams are pretty taxing all round and with food issues going on aswell must make it even worse. I hope you stay healthy and happy, and best of luck with your exams :)
 
Sophie335 said:
i have this really weird thing with guys where i only want them when they dont want me... and as soon as they fall for me then im not really interested any more. and then they move on and then i regret it all.
just a bit of a perfectionist!
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I don't know if it's really that weird. I know that I had guy friends that were interested in me when I was your age, and I wasn't interested in them romantically, but I didn't want them to date anyone else either. LOL. I guess it's normal. Hell who knows.

Hope those exams go well for you.

I went on autopilot for my presentation, and I honestly could tell you one or 2 things about the entire 7 minute presentation that I gave. Ha. .. one being the timer going off when my time was up. hehehehe
 
Hi Sophie. Congratulations on your race result. You do put an enormous amount in to all the activities you're involved in and deserve such great pay offs!!

I'm sorry to hear that eating is hard for you right now. You have been doing so well. I hope your awareness of what has happened helps you limit the damage and that you feel on top of things really soon.

Are exams nearly over?
 
Hey, I'm sorry about the eating disorder thing. I know you had mentioned it before I just didn't think it was the same thing bothering you. I don't know why I thought that, I mean I struggle with my eating so bad just in a different way and I think about it a lot, so I can't even imagine how yours plays a part of your life. I'm sure it's a struggle, but you're doing so great I know you'll be just fine!

Good luck on your exams, I hope that once those are over that it may help with your eating/stress.
 
Sophie335 said:
the trigger is my dad
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same here.... pm me when things dun go well k? I've learnt to handle it alot better. I had a long entry abt him in my diary before... i am sure there are ppl here who love you and will encourage you should that trigger comes.

its impt to be nice to yourself too! u deserve all the love u can give yourself! hehe.... i like to pat myself on the back sometimes. ha just to remind moi that everything will be ok.

u take french? can teach us a word or two then! hehe....
 
Hi Sophie!
Good luck for you exam tomorrow! (it was this Thursday, wasn't it?). And I know the feeling of being interested in somebody and loosing the interest totally when the other one shows some interest in you. Been there, done that.. I think my reaction has something to do with fear of success, actually... :)
Julie
 
Don't worry sophie baby your behavior with your exes is normal. we all sometimes want what we can't have...it only shows you like challenges in your life. one day a true challenge will come along, and when you end up with him he will end up challenging you even more. the thing is to keep the other side a bit second guessing. you probably feel like its over when they completely surrender themselves. which only means you prefer someone who is mentally strong and knows what he wants. but you'll figure those things on your own :D
as for your eating. i'm just like juli, afraid of success. well at least i was afraid. i'm letting of that fear because i want to know new Lena, Lena that was shaped by rough times but Lena that is not defined by those things. don't let yourself be defined by your eating habits, be defined as sophie the runner, or sophie the scientist, or sophie what ever you want sophie to be. it will take some time but you'll do it because you're already doing it.
 
Hey Sophie:) Just dropping in to say hello. I did not get to read back on you diary, so I hope everything is going well. Have a great day!
 
Sophie335 said:
go for it! :)
i ran in the west mids champs today came 2nd for 16-18 years girlies
hope you are all okay - i havent been by for a while xx
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AWSOME!!! Well we rock, don't we?!?!:cool:

Sophie335 said:
thanks cinders huni :)
hiya risty. well my problem is the actually eating part. i had an eating disorder a couple of years back and although i have recovered i know that it will always be in the back of my mind haunting me. somedays its is fine and even for months it can be ok but then something triggers me.
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Sorry about this. I have an eating disorder, too--I binge eat, sometimes for days on end--and in the old days, weeks on end: ( And I also have triggers--like partying. It's really not so different from you, just I guess the opposite effect. Acutally, I can't say that either--but I can say, I feel for you and will support you as best I can:)
 
Hey I jumped the gun--ah fathers!! Mine's D-E-A-D, but I have my stepdad, who is super-cool and probably one of the best people I know. My biological father was obese. We both loved to hike, and loved to eat. he was an active obese person. Hmmmm, well maybe he was just very overweight. I can't remember. Well, I see his traits come up in me (not just physical) and it's kind of hard to rise above my parent's shortcomings (not to mention my own, grumble)

Take care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
hi guys :jump:
long time no see!
hope you are all okay
ive not been on here for a week or two cos of exams. im half way there now . only got 4 left to do.
my weight has dropped to 117lbs and im maintaining that quite nicely without much effort at all.
speak to you al very soon
xxx
 
Hey, good job on the weight loss and the exams done thus far! Good luck on the rest of your exams! I'm sure you'll do great :D
 
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