Sophie's Diary--Holding Myself Accountable

Breakfast—two cups of coffee with skim milk and three tsp sugar (total), high-fiber cereal with fresh strawberries and milk
Lunch—corned beef sandwich with whole grain bread and mustard
Snack—carrots and two tbsp light caesar dressing
Dinner—flounder filet with mushrooms and low-fat sauce, baked cabbage with non-fat feta, Georgian green beans, one cup coffee with skim milk and one tsp sugar
Snack—one cranberry oatmeal cookie, 100-calorie bag of popcorn

Did 48 minutes on the elliptical, since I know tomorrow will be either low-exercise or a rest day, since I probably won't get home till around seven at the earliest, and I leave home before eight, so…yeah, not a good workout day. Today, however, was!

Natalie Jo, thanks for the wonderful encouragement!

Carrie, I'm very glad I can provide you with food porn. It's funny, I sometimes feel like the best I can do is shove a Lean Cuisine in my mouth some nights, but I do like to cook when I can, and I'd be sorry if I had to give that up to be healthy!
 
Sophie honey, I LOVE coming in here to read that you're pushing yourself to the point of accomplishment. I'm so uberly proud of you, chica.

What I especially enjoyed reading, was your music playlist while you workout. I just watched 'Sweeny Todd' today and found the songs quite enchanting. I was telling my mother how I'd enjoy the soundtrack. What I didn't say, was how easy I could find running to it's dark, melodical beats. I could listen to the whole story during my hour session if I wanted. It would make for something new anyway. Not to mention, Johnny Depp can really sing. Who knew, right?

You always put a smile on my face, honey. Keep this up. You're amazing!! (((Big Hugs)))
 
Hiya Sophie! Just wanted to offer congrats on the awesome elliptical time you did! Also wanted to just reiterate that your food record is just awesome. You just keep piling on healthy, delicious choices and I'm soooo impressed by them! Hoping that your long day today wasn't too bad!
 
Gah, forgot to post before bed.

Breakfast—two Kashi waffles, one spread with almond butter, one with two tsp blueberry preserves; half a grapefruit; one small turkey sausage; one cup coffee with one tsp sugar and skim milk
Snack—fiber bar
Lunch—leftover flounder with mushrooms and low-fat sauce, steamed artichoke heart with one tbsp light mayonnaise, fresh strawberries, one strawberry balsamic caramel chocopod, two cups coffee with one tsp sugar and crappy powdered creamer
Snack—half a nut bar (approx. 100 calories)
Snack—half a bagel and low-fat cream cheese
Dinner—roasted chicken with garlic walnut sauce, Georgian green beans, asparagus lightly sprayed with canola oil
Snack—hot milk with cinnamon and one tsp agave nectar

I really, really hate this week. I just wanted to apologize to all of you for not being around much, but I barely have any time off at all this week and might collapse from nervous exhaustion soon.

Rach, Heather, thank you both so much for your encouragement! Some days it really doesn't feel like I'm getting anything right, but I know that more is right than is wrong these days.
 
jw372 said:
Gah, forgot to post before bed.

Breakfast—two Kashi waffles, one spread with almond butter, one with two tsp blueberry preserves; half a grapefruit; one small turkey sausage; one cup coffee with one tsp sugar and skim milk
Snack—fiber bar
Lunch—leftover flounder with mushrooms and low-fat sauce, steamed artichoke heart with one tbsp light mayonnaise, fresh strawberries, one strawberry balsamic caramel chocopod, two cups coffee with one tsp sugar and crappy powdered creamer
Snack—half a nut bar (approx. 100 calories)
Snack—half a bagel and low-fat cream cheese
Dinner—roasted chicken with garlic walnut sauce, Georgian green beans, asparagus lightly sprayed with canola oil
Snack—hot milk with cinnamon and one tsp agave nectar

I really, really hate this week. I just wanted to apologize to all of you for not being around much, but I barely have any time off at all this week and might collapse from nervous exhaustion soon.

Rach, Heather, thank you both so much for your encouragement! Some days it really doesn't feel like I'm getting anything right, but I know that more is right than is wrong these days.
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Oh Sophie! Im sorry your not feeling well! You can do this hun!! Just relax, take a deep breath. I heard Yoga is really awesome. You might want to try it to destress. Talk to you later hun and hope you feel better soon!

**sending good vibes your way** :)

love yas
always
your friend
natalie jo :grouphug:
 
Again, forgot to post last night, owing to exhaustion:

Breakfast—two slices whole-grain toast, one topped with a poached egg, one spread with one tsp red currant jelly; one small turkey sausage; one quarter grapefruit; one cup coffee with one tsp sugar and skim milk
Lunch—southwest chicken wrap so filled with fat that I can feel it splurging out on my body as we speak, banana
Snack—protein bar
Dinner—baked cabbage with feta, small portion corned beef
Throughout the day—innumerable cups of coffee with small portions sugar and powdered creamer

I hate hate hate this week, and I hate that I didn't have time to make my lunch yesterday and had to buy that dreadful thing, and I hate that I've not had a single hour free to exercise, and I hate that I can't really hope for anything better today.

I know I'm not doing well, but I have to keep recording all of it or I'll fall off the deep end altogether and be found in a corner stuffing cookies and fried chicken in my face.

Natalie Jo, thanks for the suggestion. Really, though, the only thing that's going to help is just getting through this month, one day at a time.
 
You're exactly right, Soph. You have to take this one day at a time. It's all about the baby steps, hon.

So you've been doing bad this week? So what? It doesn't mean you've ruined the rest of your life. It's just a mindless four days. It means NOTHING in the long run provided you don't keep this up. And you won't, cause I know you and you're more determined than this.

Yes, it's a frustrating truth that you haven't done as good as you intended, but it's not a devestating one. This is merely a speedbump in our lives that we have to clamber over.

You'll do better, chica. I'll hold you to it, lol.

Big hugs and happy Wednsday!!
 
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Hope you're feeling better soon my dear, I'm sending good vibes your way!!! Hopefully the stress level in your life will come down soon. And you are doing WONDERFULLY. Don't let your food intake stress you even more. Do your best, take a hiatus from having your diet and exercise being a focus for this week and let yourself take care of everything else. And take a nice hot bath for the one that I missed this past weekend! I love what Invariant said and I want to second that. :)

Take good care of yourself!
 
Breakfast—one cup coffee with one tsp sugar and skim milk; two slices whole-grain toast, one topped with a poached egg, one spread with one tbsp nutella
Snack—maple brown sugar instant oatmeal
Lunch—sushi rolls
Snack—leftover sushi
Dinner—green beans with cranberries, romaine salad with baked salmon and light caesar dressing, sugar-free jello with raspberries
Snack—one cup hot milk with nutmeg and one tsp sugar

Today felt a bit better—not precisely an exemplary day, but not a day I feel specially ashamed of, either. I managed to do twenty minutes on the elliptical when I got home this evening. It was tough, but I did feel better when it was done, and I'm looking forward to a nice, long workout tomorrow, since I have the morning off (and also a house in desperate need of cleaning and a truly offensive amount of reading to do, but I'll balance it).

I have an absurdly expensive new dishcloth in the kitchen that says "DISHY" on it in various ornate fonts. I think I'm going to use it as a reminder of how healthy food makes me dishier every day!

Rach, it's wonderful to know that you have so much confidence in me. And you know, it does help. Today I was having the usual inner fight with myself about exercising, and I thought, "Think how much nicer it will be to post tonight if you can say you exercised at least SOME."

Heather, I did indeed take that hot bath you recommended! It made me feel a little more alive after another very long day.
 
Hi Sophie,
I'm sorry you've had a bad week so far, but yay for morning off. MMMM...Kashi waffles sound delicious. I LOVE Kashi everything, but I've never tried the waffles. Slight confession.... I think I may love it so much because of the commercials, LOL!!!! Who doesn't want to zipline across a forest and drink coconut water with the natives of some exotic country!!?? I DO!

Your bad day is better than me on my best...try to keep it in perspective. You are doing FABULOUS! KEEP IT UP GIRL!

Carrie

P.S- Thanks again for the food porn! LOL :smilielol5:
 
jw372 said:
Breakfast—one cup coffee with one tsp sugar and skim milk; two slices whole-grain toast, one topped with a poached egg, one spread with one tbsp nutella
Snack—maple brown sugar instant oatmeal
Lunch—sushi rolls
Snack—leftover sushi
Dinner—green beans with cranberries, romaine salad with baked salmon and light caesar dressing, sugar-free jello with raspberries
Snack—one cup hot milk with nutmeg and one tsp sugar

Today felt a bit better—not precisely an exemplary day, but not a day I feel specially ashamed of, either. I managed to do twenty minutes on the elliptical when I got home this evening. It was tough, but I did feel better when it was done, and I'm looking forward to a nice, long workout tomorrow, since I have the morning off (and also a house in desperate need of cleaning and a truly offensive amount of reading to do, but I'll balance it).

I have an absurdly expensive new dishcloth in the kitchen that says "DISHY" on it in various ornate fonts. I think I'm going to use it as a reminder of how healthy food makes me dishier every day!

Rach, it's wonderful to know that you have so much confidence in me. And you know, it does help. Today I was having the usual inner fight with myself about exercising, and I thought, "Think how much nicer it will be to post tonight if you can say you exercised at least SOME."

Heather, I did indeed take that hot bath you recommended! It made me feel a little more alive after another very long day.
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Awesome Sophie!! for getting on the elliptical!! and I love the sound of your dish cloth, and yes you are already becoming dishier I am sure!!
That cloth sounds awesome!

love yas
always
your friend
natalie jo:party:
 
Breakfast—rolled oats, oat bran, walnuts, various dried fruit, skim milk, half a grated apple; one cup coffee with skim milk and one tsp sugar
Snack—one small orange
Lunch—Amy's burrito with one tbsp. light sour cream and salsa, one light yoghurt
Snack—carrots, asparagus, goat cheese, three crackers, fresh pineapple (very little of each)
Snack—protein bar
Dinner—lots of Indian food

Fifty minutes on the elliptical! I'm so glad I had time to work out today—it makes me feel so much more contented and less stressed and worried about backsliding.

I should feel really terrible about dinner, and I partially do, but I was also tired, hungry, and in need of a really good dinner with a friend, which I got. So while I'm annoyed at having eaten a little too much, I also recognize that tonight was psychologically necessary to me.

Carrie, I've never seen the Kashi commercials (don't own a TV), but they do indeed sounds very fun! And I'm sure your best days are just as good as mine!

Natalie Jo, thank you! I really do love my dishcloth—I kind of want to also buy its mate, which says "DIRTY" ;) But as I mentioned, very expensive dishcloths. *sigh*
 
Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—half a cup of green juice, garlicky mushrooms in very low-fat sauce, two slices whole-grain toast, two cups coffee with skim milk and one tsp sugar
Lunch—very small portion leftover Indian food
Snack—one muffin, two cups coffee with sugar and powdered creamer
Snack—half a nut delight bar (100 calories)
Dinner—chicken breast stuffed with a little bit of chipotle blue cheese stuff; one hamburger bun; fat-free Pringles, two squares chocolate

Knowing that I'd have my friends' barbecue last night, I made myself do 25 minutes on the elliptical before school so that at least the day wouldn't be a complete loss (or, er…gain). My friends' famous inability to buy adequate provisions for a party truly helped me in not veering too far off track for the night, though.

And I'm proud to say that in spite of this very difficult week, I've still lost. This morning's weigh-in is somewhere between 268.8 and 270.8 (temperamental scale), so I decided to split the difference and call it 269.8 for the ticker. I'm so excited to see numbers in the 260s! I haven't seen those in…probably over five years. Maybe more—there was a big long chunk of time when I just refused to weigh myself. Anyway, yay!
 
jw372 said:
Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—half a cup of green juice, garlicky mushrooms in very low-fat sauce, two slices whole-grain toast, two cups coffee with skim milk and one tsp sugar
Lunch—very small portion leftover Indian food
Snack—one muffin, two cups coffee with sugar and powdered creamer
Snack—half a nut delight bar (100 calories)
Dinner—chicken breast stuffed with a little bit of chipotle blue cheese stuff; one hamburger bun; fat-free Pringles, two squares chocolate

Knowing that I'd have my friends' barbecue last night, I made myself do 25 minutes on the elliptical before school so that at least the day wouldn't be a complete loss (or, er…gain). My friends' famous inability to buy adequate provisions for a party truly helped me in not veering too far off track for the night, though.

And I'm proud to say that in spite of this very difficult week, I've still lost. This morning's weigh-in is somewhere between 268.8 and 270.8 (temperamental scale), so I decided to split the difference and call it 269.8 for the ticker. I'm so excited to see numbers in the 260s! I haven't seen those in…probably over five years. Maybe more—there was a big long chunk of time when I just refused to weigh myself. Anyway, yay!
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Congrats for being out of the 270s Sophie!! Your doing wicked awesome!! I am looking forward to being in the 260s lol 265 is my next goal!!

I love your determination!!
Keep trecking hun!!
love yas
your friend
always
natalie jo :auto::seeya:
 
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CONGRATS on getting into the 260's, Sophie! And just think - it was on the heels of a horrific week. You kept yourself in check as much as was possible without losing your sanity. I'm sooo impressed with your hard work. :) And glad that you were able to have some fun as well at the BBQ and out to dinner with your friend!
 
jw372 said:
Yesterday's record:
And I'm proud to say that in spite of this very difficult week, I've still lost. This morning's weigh-in is somewhere between 268.8 and 270.8 (temperamental scale), so I decided to split the difference and call it 269.8 for the ticker. I'm so excited to see numbers in the 260s! I haven't seen those in…probably over five years. Maybe more—there was a big long chunk of time when I just refused to weigh myself. Anyway, yay!
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CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!! I know what you mean about refusing to weigh myself. A year or so ago, I knew it was getting out of hand. Yet, I REFUSED to look at a scale. At one point, I even joined weight watchers, and I NEVER looked at my booklet. I only went to two meetings, but I would walk in, hand them my booklet that I had not glanced at, and take it back...without once taking a look at the number.

I guess the truth will set you free and all that jazz. Now that I know, even though the number sucks, at least I can take responsibility for it and try to improve.

Keep it up, girl!
 
Breakfast—one and a half cups green fruit juice
Snack—one tangerine, coffee with sugar and powdered creamer
Lunch—chicken salad pita, eggplant, baba ganouj, half a pita, two small squares baklava
Dinner—sweet potato fries, curried chicken breast, spinach
Snack—one cup coffee with skim milk and one tsp sugar, three Hershey's kisses

Natalie Jo, that's so cool that we're both moving along together. I'm sure you'll be at 265 before we know it!

Heather, you're a dear. It has been a hard week, but in a few more, it will be summer and I can just focus on taking care of myself.

Carrie, isn't it silly how a number seems so horrible, when knowing it doesn't change anything about what our bodies really are and how they work? But you're right—knowing means we're taking responsibility.
 
Breakfast—coconut rice with banana (I used light coconut milk), two cups coffee with skim milk and one tsp sugar
Lunch—spinach and feta pocket
Dinner—Russian tea, poppy roll, toast and caviar, dried apricots stuffed with walnut halves, one cookie

Did 42 minutes on the elliptical today. Oh, dear, time to go back to the week.
 
YEY, Sophie!! :hurray: Congrats on FINALLY getting into the 260's!! I'm so proud of you, chica. Look what rockin' out that elliptical is doing for you!!

I'm also glad your friend's barbecue didn't stray you too far off course. I know how tempting boards of food are. I love and hate friendly picnics. Everyone brings any and every kind of fattening salad you can think of, Macaroni, Potato, and Jello. It's crazy. I actually have to bite my fork in order to resist. The last time I ate Macaroni salad, it was three quarters of the tub, I'm not kidding. Odd cravings and I are intimate associates. LOL.

I do hope the beginning of your week starts off well, honey!! I can't wait to see that ticker reach 165!! Hey, you never know, maybe even by the end of the week, it'll surprise us!!
 
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