Smarty's Diary for Sweating

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Hey all
Oh boy, here's the list:



1/2 coffee cake with chocolate chips
4 hot dogs with ketchup
2 small pieces steak (8 oz or less total)
3 and 1/2 pieces asparagus
1 bagel, toasted, half with cream cheese, half with peanut butter
8 brownies, yes I ate the entire pan
2 - 3 cups milk (maybe 28 oz -32 oz total)
32 oz homemade ice tea
20 oz water

I finally, finally felt full after eating the bagel. I just couldn't, couldn't stop eating today.

I woke up earlier than usual in the past few days, 11am rather than 12 or later but need to be getting up back at 7 or earlier so I can feel "ok".

xo Ash :waving::biggrinjester: :piggy: :hat: :reddevil:
SONGS OF THE DAY: I gotta feeling by Black eyed peas; Don't Trust Me by 3Oh3
 
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Breakfast:
4 oz coffee with some cream and sugar
1/2 english muffin with peanut butter
1/2 english muffin with cream cheese
2 cups of fresh fruit
4 celery halves with peanut butter

Snack: Whole bag of popcorn and a diet coke at the Movies
(This is It - Michael Jackson - - it wasn't that good, don't bother spending the money).

Dinner:
Ceasar Salad, croutons, cheese, no dressing
8 slices of pepperoni pizza with red bell peppers
1/2 beer - Pilsner Urquell Lager
1 diet cola - 16 oz
1 DRUMSTICK Ice Cream cone
3-5 cookies,small
1 big sugar cookie with mnms in it
5 pieces of Pineapple, fresh fruit


Huh, since I ate at 11 am and 5 pm (with a snack at 2pm) theres not really a three meal plan for today. Bad. But I feel sated. I think its because my doctor changed my meds. I am hungrier, thus eating more earlier in the day, thus staying sated longer. Does that make sense?

Ash

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My New Meds

I can't tell if I like the effect of these medicines yet.
10/23 - present :
Effexor XR 75 mg
ZYprexa 5 mg

10/22 and past year:
Luvox CR in various doese, mostly staying at 150 mg
Yaz

I've been instructed to go off Yax since it can cause suicidul thoughts and impulses particularly in combintatino with depression drugs.

I was told by my dermatologist not to keep switching off and on my brith control so I dont know what to do. For now I havent transferred my refills to m y new pharmacy.

Ashley

NOVEMBER 1, 2009
 
Hey M , thanks!
Yeah I think that they're a big boost to my healthy appetite in the morning.
Also I noticed I could substitute an English muffin with peanut butter for a bag of popcorn, which to me seems much healthier.

On the PSYCH side of things, my mom's friend left today which means my Mopm and I can work on our relatonship, so that's a plus too. :coolgleamA:
Bye for now! :angelsad2:
Ash
 
Hey M , thanks!
Yeah I think that they're a big boost to my healthy appetite in the morning.
Also I noticed I could substitute an English muffin with peanut butter for a bag of popcorn, which to me seems much healthier.

On the PSYCH side of things, my mom's friend left today which means my Mopm and I can work on our relatonship, so that's a plus too. :coolgleamA: And I have about 100 pages left in Empire Falls. It's getting good, there's one more mystery left that hasn't been revealed, so there's some suspense left for the end... ooh yeah.
Bye for now! :angelsad2:
Ash
 
Today I ate

English Muffin with peanut butter and cream cheese
English Muffin with Tuna Fish(1 can)
Popcorn ( 1 bag)
Venti Mocha with whipped cream
Marble Pound cake x 2






Top 5 Fiction Books of All Time:
1. Empire Falls - - Russo
2. High Fidelity - -Hornby
3. Magical Thinking - -Burroughs
4. Me Talk Pretty One Day -Sedaris
5. The Happy Isles of Oceania -Thereoux

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Top Ten: (to be continued)
6. The Appeal - -Grisham
7. Anna Karenina - -Tolstoy
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20 pages left in EMPIRE FALLS.
 
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Ok the eating has gotten out of control. I am eating faster than I can breathe it seems like. I'm gasping for breath and feeling pain in my gut but my brain is not registering "full".

I am binge eating every chance I get, which is pretty much all day until my stomach hurts. My Dr. from Penn. says that its' because of the Zyprexa and I can stop taking it if I want to, so I will. He said that it causes weight gain, a lot, as a side effect. The other pill on the other hand causes weight loss but gives you some anxiety and trouble sleeping, potentially. Why were they giving me these two together ? To balance it out? Anyway, I will still take the Effexor, which is the antidepressent. I forget what the other pill is for. Bipolar disorder which I dont have.

I wish I was not on any medications and have a sneaking suspiciion that I might not need it if I get the right counseling, which is really hard to find, esp. when you need your insurance to cover it.

I am really P.O.'d at my Mom today for being disrespectful to me just about an hour agao.

However, I made a new friend today at the dog park and she has a dog too, so hopefully that will grow into a friendship. I really want some friends and need a job badly. I applied for a job today at a Tennis shop, I have some retail exp. so they might take me. No word back from Urban yet.:willy_nilly:
 
Sorry to hear about the side effects with your meds - it would be great to find the right help instead of these bad trials you are going through. I made some friends from some of the previous jobs I had and now working with all men - at least 10 years older than me I am finding it really hard to make new friends. Thankfully because I am back in my home town I have reconnected with some friends from high school. I hope you find a new job with people your age that have some similar interests as you - it always makes work easier when you enjoy who you work with.
Have a good weekend.
 
Hey CB -
thanks for checking in .
Yeah I know, the word "trial" definitely hits it on the head.
Oh well, my mom said at least depression is recognized these days,
when she was our age it wasn't.

Today was ok, this morning I finally went to go get my underarms waxed
and my eyebrows too. I got a free five minute massage beforehand and all this for $30 ! A good deal, huh?! I was SoooOOOoooOOOooo Relaxed when I came out of there, I felt so happy and blissed. BLIZT. ~!~ I remember walking down the street in the sunshine thinking I'm clean and fresh and if all the angry unhappy people in the world were simply given a manipedi or waxing job once a week, there would be no wars. Just to have someone hold your head - and the power of touch - of relenting and letting someone else take care of you, pamper you, for just a short while, being able to LET GO and LET GOD or whatever it is they say at AA. Felt SO good. I suddenly understood why women are so devoted to grooming. It's not just about LOOKING your best. Its about connecting and feeling good, being caressed when you get your HAIR shampooed at the Hairdressers, getting a free back massage, having someone delicately turn you head as the warm wax is dripped against your brow. It felt nice. Of course it stung too, but I actually didnt mind it too much. She put soothing aloe on after so it didnt sting for long. Ahhh, this is the life.

:svengo:


I also got my cellphone replaced tonight finally, so that relieves a lot of stress off my shoulders.
Breakfast was Venti Capucino from Starbucks plus a marble pound cake (bad decadent girl!~)
Lunch was grapes, Subway sandwich - turkey, cheese, cucumbers, onions, peppers, lettuce
:party:
Dinner at THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY woot!
Pasta alfredo with chicken.
1/2 cheesecake - red velvet cake plus cheesecake with icing.
Snack: OrangeJuice
 
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YEAH. Better NOW.

:driving: Oh YEAH!

I'm losing the weight I gained from that stupid pill!!! (ZYPREXA 5mg)
This next bit is probably TMI for most people (sorry in advance) -
Shittang bricks, and feeling great. Been eating a lot of Fiber - whole grain waffles and fresh fruit in the morning seem to be helping me out.

My moods are also much more even like this:

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which is very good and very awesome. My mom and I can go a whole day with no disagreement. It happened yesterday. Today we had a small blowup because of the dog jumping on her bed. OOp.s

I am going to go sit in the hot tub as soon as this episode of CSI is over, but for now I just wanted to say that since the past two and a half days that I've only been on the EFFEXOR 75 mg alone, life is better. Normal. Even-keel. Just what I wanted needed. Good. Better.

:smash: Also, good news yesterday - we passed a Health Care Bill in the house. Yeah, Nancy Pelosi.

I gained weight up to 170 pounds on the COMBINATION of the two pills ZYPREXA and EFFEXOR. Minus the ZYPREXA I lost it all the way back down to 165. Thank god. MY thighs are drubbing up against each other which is gross and uncomfortable. A few more pounds 5-7 lbs and that will stop happening. I just need to get up earlier and do some more walking.

XO xo Ashley
 
So glad you are feeling better! Sounds like you had a good weekend. I need some of that pampering you were talking about - especially a new hair do! Glad the scale is coming back down - keep the walking up this week! Oh and isn't fiber awesome! I know what you mean about feeling all backed up and then the relief! Keep it up Ashley - hope you have a great week.
 
Hey CB thanks for checking in again :D

Today was a good day. Like I sadi before, the Effexor Medicine is working pretty well for me, although I have a little trouble getting to sleep on time so I'm going to see if they'll lower it just a tad.

Anyhow, I just got back from the Beach. I went running, down along the Ocean, and went as far as the White Lifeguard station, which is the 5th one down, I dont know how far that is in miles, because I think the way the beach curves at the ocean, it takes longer to run along the ocean than on the hardpacked sand path that most of the joggers take before you head out to the street. When I go on that, I can go to about the tenth one down and then walk back. I jogged halfway back, and walked halfway back. Birds I saw today: SEAGULLS; SANDPIPERS; PELICANS! Nice. They are beautiful and quiet birds. I also love little finches that hop around when you go out to eat in places like DC, I dont know if they are down here, too, havent seen any, but then I dont eat out much in Miami.

Last night I BINGED, but since my sleep cycle is off, I dont think I had many more calories than a three meal day would bring. PRobably not the RIGHT kind of calories: French toast with syrup, cheesecake, and Doritoes are not exactly A Champions Dinner but oh well. I just read something about binging...oh right, the Glamour Dec 2009 issue has an article with Padma Lakshmi and she says treat BINGING like VEGAS: What happened at the party stays at the party. So if you overindulge, forget about it and MOVE ON. DONT GIVE IN TO GUILT!!!

Anyhow, this is what yesterday looked like:

WEIGHT: 164.

(Down another one and a half pounds from the day before- RELIEF. Usually I worry about losing weight so fast but I know its from that pill - and going off it, I lost the weight I had gained. Now, I'm about where I was before I started taking it, so my next weight loss will be from exercise and nutritiion and water. )

Breakfast - some fruit and a coffee
LUnch - tuna fish, lettuce and bread.
Dinner - Chicken soup, eggs with a bagel and cream cheese, carrotcake

Binge - French toast and syrup, cheesecake, doritoes

Today was a lot of pineapple, some coffee, a marble pound cake piece,
cheesecake slice, some grape juice, some orange juice, popcorn and I really relally want pizza and a soda for dinner so my mom said maybe we'll go to Pizza Rustica and get just one slice, but then we have to stop. She says we cant eat like that and is all ready to go back to her Body Sculpting class ! I think my mom is cool for working out. Her legs are way skiinner thna mine, she doesnt have my fat latin butt and chunky thighs. Yech.

ANyway, back to positive thinking, there is a water arobics class on Saturday, I'm going to do it, I always like the pace of those classes - its not too hard, but you DO feel it. I'd love to teach water aerobics one day when I'm in better shape and have more stamina!

XO Ash
 
I want to try water aerobics too. I seen a class at the gym tonight starts at 5:30pm and it's called Navy Seals - says it's an advanced class so I'm not sure I'm ready since I have never tried any of the other easier classes. Might need to work my way to the advanced and start with the beginner classes. Let me know how it goes. Take care.:waving:
 
Navy Seals sounds hot. :D

I will girlie, don't worry! Its on Saturday, so check back after then.

Lotsa drama, nothing new.

Trying to move on.

Can't keep a food journal today, burger king, the best kind of king, today and other junk.
 
My friend is coming down for my birthday next weekend.

I didnt make water aerobics this week.

Breakfast:
Chocolate bar and Diet coke

Lunch;
Pizza - two slices with pepperoni (DiGiorno)

Dinner:

Sushi - Alaska roll (6 pieces) with soy sauce and wasabi
Alaska roll has cucumber, avocado, rice, seaweed and salmon

Desert:
2 slices of Sara Lee strawberry cheesecake
 
Sweat4health25 said:
My friend is coming down for my birthday next weekend.

I didnt make water aerobics this week.

Breakfast:
Chocolate bar and Diet coke

Lunch;
Pizza - two slices with pepperoni (DiGiorno)

Dinner:

Sushi - Alaska roll (6 pieces) with soy sauce and wasabi
Alaska roll has cucumber, avocado, rice, seaweed and salmon

Desert:
2 slices of Sara Lee strawberry cheesecake
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That's awesome your friend is coming for your birthday! Happy early birthday!
I didn't make it to water aerobics either - maybe this week?
That food log looks horrible but delicious - I don't think the candy bar for breakfast put you in the best direction for the day.
 
I dont think the candy bar ...put you in the best direction
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Lol, so true. I usually eat fruit for breakfast or a bagel !

Today I ate a whole apple and a whole orange. Not bad, huh?

Thanks, I'm excited for my bday. Almost halfway to 60 he he. Uh oh.

Anyways, I got my legs waxed today, after waiting a long time and letting the hair grow long. I dont know if thats the reason it hurt so much, but I kept thinking why on earth do women willingly submit to this? It hurtssss!!!!!! Eyebrows and underarms, okay that is only a small part and doesnt hurt so bad, but your legs?! YOWIE. It hurts, ladies, a LOT. I feel bad for hairy guys who wax their backs lol!!! That has got to be super duper painful. I hope it was worth the pain. My mom says my legs wont show hair for a month, which would be really nice. Right now they are covered with tiny red dots - irritated. I have to find some hydrocortisone cream. Anyways, here's my food log:

Breakfast - orange, apple
Snack - coffee, muffin
Lunch - SUBWAY - turkey cheese, veggies: lettuce, tomato, peppers, cucumber
Drink - splash of grapefruit juice in 16 0z of Water
Dinner - ???

Ash

Ps: PYSCH. My mood stil seems pretty even. I am still mad about some things but dont feel the need to have a big blowup every time I think about them, like before. I think the Luvox was not good for me in terms of Mood Swings, it made me super sensitive all the time. The new pill Effexor seems better. I am going to do a program at a hospital in Boston for two weeks and they will do a pysch. evaluation on me and tell me if my medicine is right for me and the right dose or not. I also have been taking UNISOM Sleep Melts and they work great for getting to bed at night. I slept about 7 1/2 hours the past few nights so they are good, they dont make you groggy in the morning either. Its over the counter in the drugstore along with other sleep aids. After a month without it, I have decided to continue the Yaz birth control (mine is the generic, Ocella) because it keeps my skin clear, and it turns out that the rumours about it are not true- I was worried that Yaz makes you think suicidal thoughts, but that was just a myth, according to my doctor and my pharmacist.
 
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Sounds like things are going good for you. Starting the day with an apple and orange is way better than that chocolate bar - keep it up!
I've never been able to afford to get my legs waxed but it would be nice to not worry about them for a month. I always forget to shave and remember in the most embarrasing times - like at the doctor or after my fitness assessment - I didn't know he was going to get so close to me and take measurements and everything and noticed later how scary my leg hair was.
Is your friend coming this weekend? What day is your birthday? Do you have anything special planned?
 
:driving: Hi feeling good today, thanks for checking in, CB .
Yes, tonight my mom and I are making a Carrot Cake and Icing from...Scratch!
We've never done that before, but I talked her into it and bought all the ingredients. & Hopefully it will be tasty. My friend flies in tomorrow morning and we will go out tomorrow night.

I am eating a little better too, still noshing on the popcorn though.

Subway sandwich again today, some soda, and a piece of blueberry muffin.

Dinner will be ...???

PSYCH.: Skipped meds yesterday, felt tired and dranied and terrible. The good news on the flip side though is that I started them right up again this morning and feel good already. Usually takes longer for you to start feeling good again if you skip so that's definitely a plus. I cleaned my car this morning, after walking the dog on the beach with my mom, and got some grocery shopping done, so I feel like I did a lot even before noon, which boosted my energy level too.
 
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