slow and steady I can do this and I will

lazyone

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After reading through other diaries on here I decided this would probably be what I need to keep me accountable and maybe get some motivation.
First off here is my little introduction thread
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/showthread.php?t=4047

I know exactly what to do to lose weight but can't seem to do it and stick with it. I amaze myself at how lazy I can be. I only have 14 hours of work a week so other than that I'm a sahm. I do have a 2 year old and he keeps me busy but there is so much free time to exercise and do I do it...well of course not. :rolleyes:
I want to lose weight for so many reasons superficial or not. I mean who doesn't want to be thin and sexy, healthy and playful. I'm so sick of dragging myself out of bed in the morning after sleeping 8 hours, not being able to run around at the park and play with my children for more than 5 min, or having rolls bulge out everywhere. Coming on here and admitting all these things to so many people that might read this is horrifying but I take comfort in the fact that all of you are having the same struggle in some way or another and working together to better yourselves.
It doesn't help that my husband is so loving he could care less if I weighed 100 pounds or 300. He is happy and loves me no matter what. Well thats wonderful but am I happy, do I like how I feel and what I see? Definately not. He is also mr perfect body it drives me nuts. I know its crazy, of course I want him to be healthy and happy but...it just makes me feel worse about myself. :confused:
I'm not into depriving myself because I know I will binge and eat everything in the house if I do.
So heres my starting goals
1. Exercise everyday no matter if its only a 15 min walk
2. Watch my portion size

That is enough for now I know I've always quit when I've set strick limits. This time I will succeed.

Anyway I know this is my diary but this rant is enough for now. thanks to everyone who read. :)

Oh and btw I started my "diet" 15 May so its going to be 6 weeks and I've only lost 3 pounds. :( I know I need to step it up a notch but I'm so scared of giving up, I've done so, many times in the past.
 
Hi and Welcome to the forum :D

I think you hit the nail on the head when you said this weight loss is for YOU! Not for your husband who loves you no matter what - but for YOU - there is no better reason!

You will stick with it because you have a goal, and you're determined to meet it!

I too, hate feeling deprived in any way, and I would go nuts on a specific diet. I started losing 1 pound a week doing what you're doing, just watching my portions and a little extra excercising.

After coming to this forum, I've started counting calories a bit (I had previously said I would NEVER do that) ;) and the weight is coming off much easier and I don't feel deprived. I eat what I want and count up the calories - my idea of cheating, is having a day where I eat 1800+ That hasn't happened yet.

I eat my normal foods, more often (I eat something about every two hours to ward off *hunger) I just eat less food every day.

You CAN do this - the fact that you're here says you want to make it work!
Starting a journal here and having your goals in front of you is a great way to start!!
 
Just a quick addition

My Stats

age-25

Height-5'4

Highest weight-180 (almost as much as my highest pregnant weight)

Current weight- 173


My Goals

Christmas- 140

Ok sons nap time, gotta get exercising!
 
Hi, lazyone! You've taken the first step on your journey ... coming here. We're all on the same journey, so we'll help keep you positive. I know it can be hard to stay focused and motivated, so jump on the forum here if you need help (or just want to brag a bit with some good news). You can do this for YOU! Keep us posted, and we'll be here to help.
 
Ok I guess I should own up to how much I've eaten today. I've read a lot of other diaries and I eat so much more than most of you out there :( . I really want to be able to live with these changes though. I can't stand my stomach cramping up and growling because I'm starving. My husband is out of town so meals are easy but I am more bored and lonely (so greatful for this board this is the perfect weekend for me to get into this) in my time at home. So I really have to be careful this weekend, he comes back Monday!

So this is my count from fitday which I've been following for over a month but mainly just to see how much I am eating. When I started out I was easily getting over 2200 a day so it seems today is a pretty good day.

Breakfast
Croissant- 450
apple- 81
grapes- 57
Lunch
lean cuisine-290
banana-109
Dinner
lean cuisine-390
fat free milk-60
Snacks
quakes-60
pineapple-70
fat free chocolate milk- 140
Almost forgot water- about 6 cups so far going for 2 more in the next hours before bed

So my total for today is 1707. I ate 4 servings of fruit and 2 of veggies so I'm very happy with that. :) Also when I just have to have some chocolate I usually try to talk myself into the chocolate milk. Its good for me and tastes really good too.

Oh and I can't forget the most important part. I did a 35 min cardio circuit training vid today during my sons nap instead of taking a nap. :p
 
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Welcome, Alicia. I can totally relate to your issues. I'm doing much better with exercise this week. Been to the gym 3 times, had a long walk and did an exercise video, but it is not enough. I have chosen the same strategy as you which is smaller portions and exercise everyday. We can do it with the support that we get here and working hard. I know we can....we only fail if we don't try everyday to do our best. Everyday won't be great, but hopefully with more good days than bad the progress will be positive. Nice to meet you. Good Luck.
 
Hi Alicia -

Good job on exercising today!! Just replace the croissant with a low carb bagel - a quarter of the calories, probably fill you up more and it is usually high in protein. Don't forget your protein!

Epi
 
Hi Alicia!

I especially like your goal of exercising every day, even if it's only for 15 minutes. Personally, exercise is my biggest downfall...I'd much rather go on a diet than break a sweat! :p Typically, I put off exercise all day, and then say "oh well I only have twenty minutes before I have to ____, and that's not long enough to work out!" So I think I'm going to borrow your goal and make an effort to squeeze in a little extra physical activity every day, even if it is only for 15 minutes! I figure something is better than nothing, right? ;)

Good luck with your goals!
 
Alicia, It sounds like a really good day! I think replacing the croissant with a bagel would be a teriffic alternative.

Not counting excercise, if you ate 1576 calories a day, based on your weight, you should be able to lose 1 pound a week. With excercise, that loss would definitely increase!

Keep up the hard work!!

:D
 
Ok well I guess since I haven't been up that long I haven't had much happen yet.
However I weighed in this morning at 168, the bad thing is it was my first weight without clothes on so I lost a little less than it seems. I have no idea why I was weighing with my clothes on, I would never have the same thing on :rolleyes:
Well I'm really happy I have made it under 170! :D Woohoo go me! Its probably more like 8 pounds lost but more than a pound a week is good for me. Its only coming up on 6 weeks (tomorrow) since I started and I really haven't been cutting my calories as much as I should. ;)

So today I'm going to attempt to get in a decent 30 min exercise or atleast my goal 15.
Try to eat around 1500 cal instead of my average of 1700 like I've been getting.
Also I have some carpet shampooing and house work to do so thats a good couple hours I won't be sitting on my butt.

One bad thing is its raining today but I'm not letting it give me an excuse for laziness.
 
It sounds like you've got really realist goals - and the best thing - A PLAN!!

Have a great day, and ignore the rain!
:D
 
I think when I get ready to start an exercise routine. I'm going to go to walmart or the mall or another large store - set my phone timer to 15-20 minutes, and just walk all over the store (ignoring what is in the windows lol or on the shelves or the 'sale' signs).

With things to look at as you wizz by in your sneakers - or funny ppl to laugh to yourself about (no one does that!!!) - hopefully the time will fly by!

I weigh myself at home with just panties/bra (sexy image eh? oy) - but when I go to the doctor each week, I try to wear similar weight of clothing or the same clothing. I'm sure they think that I have nothing else in my closet. lol

Congrats! A pound a week is awesome, with your meal plan and exercise - you're gonna lose in no time!
 
Thanks so much everyone! :D I really appreciate all the wonderful encouragement and advice.
Well so far I've cleaned up and shampooed the carpet so now I'm sitting here unable to exercise on a wet floor. I guess I will be heading to the mall when my little one wakes up, since exercise is usually right now during nap time lol. Thanks for the suggestion. Hopefully I won't look like a crazy woman practically flying through the mall :p. Of course its not like I know those people.
Time to go eat something for lunch. Oh I was wondering how horrible is it for me to be eating frozen lean cuisines so often? Its practically my lunch everyday and sometimes dinner too lol. I need to learn how to eat real food, learn how to cook better or something. :rolleyes:

Thanks to everyone who read my nonsense. :p
 
you're doing good already I don't know about the lean cuisine. I know I have them for dinner at least 3 days a week.

Keep up the goood work
 
I was eating the lean cuisine before I started on my new plan. I liked them. You get a good amount of protein, the right ones are low in carbs and calories and some are lower in cholesterol. But they don't fit into my plan now :-(
 
Rock on Alicia !!

Glad you didn't get caught up in a radical plan like what I'm doing because honestly at the end of my diet rainbow, I'll need a plan more like what you're doing to keep myself trim when I start to eat a lil bit more.

This is what I love about this forum, seeing different methods, approaches and plans and when I can use it later on down the road.

I'm rooting for ya !!
 
Hi Alicia (I'm so glad I don't have to call you lazyone anymore:D )

I am so glad they have put us together as buddies, because we are very similar. I have had countless attempts at losing weight, and each time, I go off the rails. It is going to be our job to keep each other on the straight and narrow!!

Plus, I seem to eat more than other people on this forum aswell, but i think we should remember that everyone is different. If it is working for you (and ... wow ... with a 9lb loss it definitely is), then that is all that matters. And if eating healthy convenience meals is what you need to do for it to fit in with your life, then so be it. Better a lean cuisine meal that a McD meal!!!!

What are your temptations? What makes you break your diet? What do you need by way of support and motivation?

Talk to you soon. Your buddy, Mrs Bear :)
 
Ok well today was a good day for food and a not so good day for everything else. Last night I had a very hard time sleeping due to some personal problems. I would like to say relationship problems but its more of a jealous, no self esteem, need to see a shrink type problems. :p
Being tired most of the day. I didn't exercise (except for a little not so fast 20min walk through the mall getting stuck behind the 1000 people that seemed to be in the way no matter what :rolleyes: ).

On to a more positive note
I did great eating today.
Breakfast-
banana-109
sunriser-300 cal(i just cant seem to force myself not to eat an egg cheese some type of croisant or muffin...)
fat free milk-60
lunch
lean cuisine- 240
milk-60
apple-81
dinner
lean cuisine-260
snacks
mixed fruit-50
granola bar-120 I know it should probably be a protein bar but thats not what I wanted
water of course- 5 cups :( but have enough time to get a couple more down

So total of 1280! Compared to my usual 1700cal days thats amazing.

The hubby comes back from his trip tomorrow. Him being around is where everything with food falls apart. He wants chips or cookies etc etc. This is where my binges come from. When he gets something out and sits there for 10 min just crammin them in of course I join in. :rolleyes: I really have to either not buy things like that, fit a portion in every once in awhile and stick to it, or just come on here when he gets it out :p. I really don't know what I should do, I know if its not in the house I won't eat it. My lazyness is good for something...I won't run out just to get something to binge on, only binge if its there. Also cooking :( I have to find some good healthy things I can make or itll be back to cheesy everything :rolleyes:

To my buddy :) , answers to your ?s um I don't have any specific temptations. Its mainly if its in the house and I have an emotional or boredom thing going on I binge. If its not available, like today I so wouldve ate a brownie or 2 or 3and we have a box of mix in the cabinet, but since theyre not made I'm not going to make them and then eat them all. If my hubby wants to eat fast food I have the hardest time saying look I need to eat at one of these places they have better choices or at a restaurant telling myself you don't go out everynight its not so bad that you have what you want. With food I really know what to eat, how much to eat, how I can avoid most binges (keep it out of the house) and all that and just the fact I have to come on here and say I ate this and this today is keeping me from eating too much. Now with my husband in town I'm sure this will probably change.
As for exercise....I just can't stand it. I know that the exercise I've been doing 3x a week for a month is making me feel better, not as tired after a full nights sleep not gasping for air walking up one flight of steps. However, I have been through all of this so many times and of course it never fails eventually I quit. Once the exercise goes for some reason eating less follows. I've never had any sort of support any other times except my husbands willingness to watch the kids whenever I need to exercise.
I really don't know what I'm looking for yet but you all are so wonderful with the motivation. Thanks to you all who actually made it through this. :p

Now that I'm done writing my book :D I'll be off.
 
awww - it sounds like you had a good day over all! 20 minutes is STILL 20 minutes! We need to get you a little horn that you can blow at ppl when they get in your way!

I'm telling you egg beaters! Ham & Cheese or Chives. YUMMY! Put those on a low carb bagel and you're set!

My relationship issue is that he supports what I'm doing, and will make good restaurant choices and will even make good 'snacking' choices. But his QUANTITY with the snack makes it unhealthy, and even though he chooses restaurants that have things that I can get to stay on my meal plan, he will order the big gourmet cheeseburger with fries, or a giant steak with a baked potato with the works of course. It's so annoying! And, he needs to lose some weight too.

Have a good day tomorrow!
 
Oh, I can relate to the men in our house eating, and eating, and eating!

I went to the store today, and my dear sweet, clueless man says "could you PLEASE bring home some chips?"

Fine, I bought them, but I will NOT eat them ;)
 
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