After reading through other diaries on here I decided this would probably be what I need to keep me accountable and maybe get some motivation.
First off here is my little introduction thread
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/showthread.php?t=4047
I know exactly what to do to lose weight but can't seem to do it and stick with it. I amaze myself at how lazy I can be. I only have 14 hours of work a week so other than that I'm a sahm. I do have a 2 year old and he keeps me busy but there is so much free time to exercise and do I do it...well of course not.
I want to lose weight for so many reasons superficial or not. I mean who doesn't want to be thin and sexy, healthy and playful. I'm so sick of dragging myself out of bed in the morning after sleeping 8 hours, not being able to run around at the park and play with my children for more than 5 min, or having rolls bulge out everywhere. Coming on here and admitting all these things to so many people that might read this is horrifying but I take comfort in the fact that all of you are having the same struggle in some way or another and working together to better yourselves.
It doesn't help that my husband is so loving he could care less if I weighed 100 pounds or 300. He is happy and loves me no matter what. Well thats wonderful but am I happy, do I like how I feel and what I see? Definately not. He is also mr perfect body it drives me nuts. I know its crazy, of course I want him to be healthy and happy but...it just makes me feel worse about myself.
I'm not into depriving myself because I know I will binge and eat everything in the house if I do.
So heres my starting goals
1. Exercise everyday no matter if its only a 15 min walk
2. Watch my portion size
That is enough for now I know I've always quit when I've set strick limits. This time I will succeed.
Anyway I know this is my diary but this rant is enough for now. thanks to everyone who read.
Oh and btw I started my "diet" 15 May so its going to be 6 weeks and I've only lost 3 pounds.
I know I need to step it up a notch but I'm so scared of giving up, I've done so, many times in the past.
First off here is my little introduction thread
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/showthread.php?t=4047
I know exactly what to do to lose weight but can't seem to do it and stick with it. I amaze myself at how lazy I can be. I only have 14 hours of work a week so other than that I'm a sahm. I do have a 2 year old and he keeps me busy but there is so much free time to exercise and do I do it...well of course not.
I want to lose weight for so many reasons superficial or not. I mean who doesn't want to be thin and sexy, healthy and playful. I'm so sick of dragging myself out of bed in the morning after sleeping 8 hours, not being able to run around at the park and play with my children for more than 5 min, or having rolls bulge out everywhere. Coming on here and admitting all these things to so many people that might read this is horrifying but I take comfort in the fact that all of you are having the same struggle in some way or another and working together to better yourselves.
It doesn't help that my husband is so loving he could care less if I weighed 100 pounds or 300. He is happy and loves me no matter what. Well thats wonderful but am I happy, do I like how I feel and what I see? Definately not. He is also mr perfect body it drives me nuts. I know its crazy, of course I want him to be healthy and happy but...it just makes me feel worse about myself.
I'm not into depriving myself because I know I will binge and eat everything in the house if I do.
So heres my starting goals
1. Exercise everyday no matter if its only a 15 min walk
2. Watch my portion size
That is enough for now I know I've always quit when I've set strick limits. This time I will succeed.
Anyway I know this is my diary but this rant is enough for now. thanks to everyone who read.
Oh and btw I started my "diet" 15 May so its going to be 6 weeks and I've only lost 3 pounds.