Silver Sonnet's Lines to Losing

Keep up the good work. Your food is looking better already. You have the right idea making sure you eat properly and i know you will reach your goal soon. I hope you are having a good day!!
 
OMG! I almost LOST all of you!

I found this site while I was on the coast, so it has never been saved on my computer here at home. I didn't remember the name of the site, and I was panicing. Finally I did a search on google for my user name and found my way back--WHEW!

I had another epiphany during the drive home today (five hours). I was discussing, AGAIN, what I was going to cook for all the people who will be around this week. My hubby said, "You know, you've been talking about this for three days now. I think you are obsessing about the food a bit too much; these people are coming to see YOU, not to eat your food."

First I got mad that he would suggest I was obsessing, and then I thought, Oh, please don't make me give up THINKING about food, too--and I knew he was right.

Food has basically taken over my life. Years ago, when I lived in California, I owned a catering company. I dated men in the food industry. When I came back home, I worked in resturants. I collect cookbooks and read them like romance novels. I make endless menu plans, shopping lists, eating plans. I have several partially-written cookbooks stored on my computer.

Eating to lose weight takes a certain amount of time and effort, especially since I cook real food rather than using convience foods, but I HAVE to break the hold food has on my mind. I'm still looking for a hobby. IN the meantime, this diary is helping fill up my time :)

Food:

No breakfast (I HAVE to stop doing that!)

Lunch: Taco Bell bean burrito

Snack on the road: 90-calorie 1.5 grams fat cereal bar--too sweet for my taste

Supper: SMALL hamburger made with super lean (4% fat) ground meat, a very thin slice of cheddar and half a whole wheat bun. I put a dab of ranch dressing (lower cal than mayo), mustard, bbq sauce, tomato and some frech spinach leaves. Had a salad with spray vinegrette, of all things. I did NOT have the mac and cheese :D

I have calories left, but there's no food in the hous, so I'll save them until tomorrow.
 
I'm glad your still here!! Your husband is right people are there to see you and the food is irrelevant. Well done with your food you are doing great. I hope you are having a good weekend!!
 
So glad to see you found us! Lol! :D I had the same problem once when my bookmarked pages somehow got deleted. :rolleyes: I eventually typed in "weight loss forum" on the yahoo page and this was one that showed up, thankfully. :D I completely understand the food obsession thing. For a while there, I would wake up every day and wonder what I was going to eat for the day. Or there would be something in the house that I really wanted, and I would be planning the day before that I would eat that the next day for lunch. It was strange. But sometimes when you "obsess" about it, it shows that you are in control and not just blindly cooking and eating whatever happens to be around. Just a thought. ;)
 
SO GLAD your here! I too have a slight food obsession. It's hard not to when you are trying so hard to not eat it :rolleyes: ! Kind of one of those murphys law things. You have done so incredibly well that it's a hard thing to let go of. You just keep up the good work and know that we are here to help and support you no matter if you are obsessing or not :D !
 
Hypo, yes, exactly--since I started really losing weight, I've just not dealt with food much, so this week was a big deal: I have to feed people, stay within my calorie range while giving non-dieters enough to eat, AND do it all within my budget. I think it deserved a bit of obsession!

Still, RIichard DID have a point,and that point has helped me see the next big step in my weight loss journey.

Today is my birthday, and we went to my favorite Mexican resturant for lunch. I had thought about it in advance and decided to order the lunch special fajitas. My daughter offered to split a lunch-size order, so it really wasn't too bad. AND I only ate two tortilla chips and NO cheese dip.

And my sweet, supportive family didn't tell the waiters that it was my birthday, so they didn't bring me the free dessert :)

All in all, it was a good day. No idea what my calories are (I had one tiny piece of a personal size pizza for "supper") but I'm sure I was at least close to my 1200 calories.

One last thing: I'm NOT abandoning all of you even though I'm not visiting diaries while life is so crazy. I'll be back on track no later than a week from Monday when my company goes home. I'll be in your diaries keeping an eye on all of you soon.
 
Oh, I'm SO upset! I'm away from my usual Weight Watchers meeting, so I got online, found a meeting just down the road, and went to weigh in tonight--and NO ONE showed up! No sign, no ANYTHING. So I have no idea what my weight has done.

That sucks :(
 
Don't you just hate it when that happens! I went to a thing once (wasn't a weigh in meeting) where they said you didn't have to sign up or anything, just show up. We got there and waited about 1 hour. No one showed up! When we called about it the next day, they said that the woman leading it didn't realize anyone was going to be there! :mad: Idiots!! :rolleyes: Anyway, I ramble on too much. Are you still interested in a buddy? I think I posted a possible match for you in there. (Sorry, my memory isn't the best thing in the world. :eek: )
EDIT: Oops! You've already seen it! Sorry!
 
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Hi there! Just checking up on you to see how things are going. That's too bad about the WW meeting- but at least now when you weigh in next week the numbers should be TWICE as impressive!
 
Hypo, don't be silly--you don't ramble at all!

I thought of that, Val, but I really, REALLY need the accountability that the public weigh in provides. Yesterday, I went out for Japanese and ate Almond Chicken and chicken and veggie tempura--nothing low-cal about that :eek:

Then my son had an emergency apendectomy, so this morning, on the almost two-hour drive to the hospital, I had a small pack of SnackWell cookies. Lunch was Cracker Barrel: a grilled pork chop, carrots, turnip greens and two cornbread muffins. (Jerry had been released from the hospital and was fine, so we were "celebrating.")

When I got home this evening, I had TWO sugar-free, low-fat Eskimo pies and three, I think, handfuls of dry-roasted, unsalted peanuts. I also had three or four "tastes" of the red beans I'm cooking for tomorrow--all in all, the worst eating day I've had in three full weeks.

But I'm getting back on track tomorrow. If not, you guys know what to do ;)
 
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Isn't funny how we use food to "celebrate". Everything we do seems to center around food. Why don't we all exercise, or play horseshoes, or kickbox to celebrate? Just a thought:p! Change comes from within and is then pushed outward, so I guess if we really wanted to play horseshoes to celebrate we would have to start that ourselves, right? Okay I am rambling on about things that make no sense!
One day of bad eating in 3 weeks..are you serious?! I would not worry, just be super dillegent the next few days so it doesn't become a habit (yes, I am speaking from experience here!). We are here for you and cheering you on every step of the way!
 
Yes, Hypo, it's the habit I'm worried about. Food tends to be pretty much the only habit I have. For the past three weeks, I've done well at breaking the habit, and I'm terrified that I wo'nt be able to get a grip on it again after the last day or two.

BUT today is a new day, and it WILL be a good day! I'm working on my coffee now, and I'll have breakfast as soon as I get my plan in place for the day.

You're right, too, about how we choose to celebrate. As I keep saying, I have to come up with things to do that DON'T revolve around food.
 
Hey there buddy- Don't worry about the slip-up last night. I highly doubt you ate enough to do any damage and I'm sure you'll have no problem getting back on track today. (I'll be checking in on you later to give you a good kick in the butt if you don't ;))

Thanks for the advice in my diary too- you had some really good ideas.
 
Hi Silver. I have finally gotten to your diary. I admire your resolve with all the festivities around you. Happy Belated Birthday. You are doing great. Isn't if funny how we get mad at our spouses for saying things we already know to be true? Keep up the good work.
 
Oh, ya'll, I'm in SO much trouble. I've been eating pretty much everything in sight for--three days?--now. I ate junk food at my daughter's house: Cheese Nips, I remember, and "dirt cake," a pudding, whipped cream and oreo thing my friend Andy made. We've eaten out all over town; yesterday I ate tortillia chips, cheese dip, refried beans and a (lunch-sized) order of fajaitas. It's been crazy. I've just been watching myself stuff my face and feeling powerless to stop it.

I was supposed to go back to the coast today where I just don't have access to as much "bad" food, but the waterpump in my car went out yesterday and the parts won't be in until Tuesday, so I'm here for a few more days--AND I will miss my usual Weight Watchers meeting again. I cried when I realized that because I'm beginning to think I just can not stop eating as long as I am here.

Today, after a pancake breakfast with bacon AND sausage, two handfulls of peanuts and a sugar-free Eskimo pie, I FINALLY got back to Fitday and recorded my food. By 1 pm I'd eated 857 calories--and hadn't have any official lunch. Also today, all my company went home AND I got back here to post. I feel better, more centered and less out of control, but I'm not at all happy with myself right now.

I'm going to drink a ton of water (haven't been doing THAT, either) and eat a light supper. I'm going to record everything both here and at Fitday, and I AM going to get back in control of what I do.

I'm just feeling so discouraged because I had gotten used to eating well, and now I have to do it all over again. And I'm so afraid of what the scale will say when I finally get back to my meeting.

This is SO important to me. I WANT to eat right and lose weight so I can be healthy and enjoy my life. Why, then, do I keep letting myself DO this?
 
I understand how you feel, I haven't been doing so great this weekend either. I've always said that the weekends are the hardest part when you are trying to eat better and exercise- being away from your normal routine is hard. The important thing is that you finally forced yourself to face what you had eaten so far today, and decided to take action to make the rest of the day count for you. I am big on Mondays- Mondays are always a great day to renew your goal towards bettering yourself.

As far as having to start all over- you should keep in mind how frustrated you feel right now, possibly even disgusted... and the next time you feel yourself slipping or about to make a poor decision, keep in mind how hopeless you feel afterwards and ask yourself if it's really worth it. I have faith in you- you will get back on track, and you will see some progress the next time you are able to make it to your WW meeting. Believe in yourself- you have people here rooting for you:)
 
Hi there Silver Sonnet :)

It's time to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move on. What's done is behind you (no, don't LOOK there!) Take each meal or snack as a chance to start fresh.

Look at your goals! You CAN do this and take back contol!!
You're here and posting, that's a great start :D
 
Whatever you do, don't give up! Just put this little setback behind you and keep going. You can do this! :D

Sorry to hear your son had to have an emergency appendectomy. :( Is he doing ok? My hubby had to have one about 10 years ago. He was put in the hospital for pains but they realized him a few days later and said nothing was wrong. Yeah, right! A few months later, he started hurting really bad again and had to be rushed to the emergency room. :rolleyes:
 
Commit!

Come on, chickie! Commit. Commit yourself to your goal. You can do this. Every meal is a choice. Every snack matters. You are out of your element and under stress, but now is the time you call on your strength of character. How bad do you want this? If you want it bad enough, you can make the tough choices and PUT DOWN THOSE CHEESE NIPS!

(Enough tough love? :) )
 
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