seanbush:the diary (or) how i changed my life

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seanbush

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- How much weight do you want to lose?
about 60 pounds give or take.... i haven't been that weight since i was a child so i'm hoping i can do it
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
nov. 2nd i started..... by july 18th i'll hit my goal..... 32 weeks
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
diet (low cal.) and lots of exercise
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
eveeryone seems supportive so far....nobody is as disciplined as i am when i want something
-- How realistic is your goal?
very.....i can do this and you can't stop me....

-- When will you start?
nov. 2nd 2010 - goal met....yay!

What is your current height and weight? 235 on nov. 2nd
If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 160-180
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 195
Why do you want to lose weight? health/vanity
Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? naw....it's for me....
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? nothing really... i'm free and clear to do this now..
Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? i have made myself lazy and unfit eating junk that i thought tasted good and drinking booze and soda allllll the time
What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? only water (maybe some milk and juice) bringing my calorie count down and cutting the junk...oh and running and biking
Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? i did but it was unintentional...
Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? done
Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?i do but i'm always looking for better foods
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? not often since i started... once in a week
What are your three favorite foods? pizza,potatoes,steak.....ughhhh....
What are your three favorite restaurants? no faves really
If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? i would take care of it
Do you eat when you are not hungry? nope
Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? sometimes
Do you hide your food or eat in secret? no
Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? sometimes
Do you eat as a reward? no
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? maybe...
What do you normally eat for a meal? nothing good.... i was on a fast food diet for a long time up until now... i put and end to it...
What type of snacks do you eat? ice cream/popcorn....ect....
In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? running/walking/jogging with nike plus for iphone.... it's awesome
Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home? home....
What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? running/swimming/bikeing
What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? my kids....my health... my mile time
Do you have rewards for certain goals? no but i should.... good plan...

never trust a browser they will always eat your longest most important posts. this was 5 times longer but now i lack the time to re-write it...gotta run (literally)

ok.
HI!
my name is sean and i'm overweight
"hi sean!"

i'm doing this for a few reasons
1.for my health
2.for my appearance
3. for my 2 toddler boys (one of whom is disabled and eats through a feeding tube 100%) :nopity: ….i don't want to have to tell them why all the nice people are pointing and making fun while assign why daddy isn't in the water with all the other manatees….

my weight has gone up and down all my life but i've never actively tried to lose weight before and now i NEED to…. sooooo….

STATS:
seanbush
weight:235
height:6' 3"
2 sons ages 2 and 4
1 hectic life

i decided that i needed to change this after the last few months have been the worst of my life. i'd been in a downward spiral for a long time….depressed…single (but still living with my boys mother) and just not happy all together… so now i've decided that it's time for a change…

this week i've made some changes that i'm going to follow through with no matter what…

starting tuesday i dropped sodas all together and picked up a bottle of VPX Meltdown (as recommended to me by a few friends) and threw out all the junk that was ruining my diet. and no more fast food. oh and i've gone all water (A LOT of water plus some 1% milk and OJ) and the meltdown keeps my energy up and curbs my cravings…in fact i have to tell myself it's time to eat…

i went shopping….. for good stuff

for the last week i've been alternating running/jogging (finally using the nike+ app)and intervals (16 miles this week already)

so……………i started nov. 1st at 235.0lbs
and
so today nov. 6th i weighed in at 227.6lbs

and that is where i am now…trying to do my best with having my boys half the time and my job delving mail…i'm going to update this once a week with pics if i can get that figured out. i know i'm going to get killed for wanting to take supplements because i know i should do it on my own…. but it's going for me and even if it's just mental… i don't care…
 
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You mean 235lbs, right? Because losing 100lbs in a week is MENTAL, haha.

Remember the healthy limit on losing weight is 2-3lbs a week AT THE MOST. If you over exceed this, you may encouter very unhealthy problems.
 
haha...yeah i meant 235 as a start.... i can't believe i let myself get to this point...i can't imagine what i would look like at 335 and i really don't want to know.

i'm not trying to overdo anything and i'm trying to limit it by keeping my calories low but safe for losing that amount but every time i step on the scale it seems to be a little lower. i def. don't want to go to fast because i don't want to have skin issues...i have stretch marks from when i was younger and heavier so i don't want to have any complications.

-sean-
 
started some strength training tonight for the nights that i'm not running.... going to prob. run 5-6 days and strength train 2-3 if i can work it out. (see what i did there...) anyway.... my arms are in bad shape. doing these lifts with 10lb dumbbells i'm folding like a little girl. i know it'll take time to build but i just feel like i should already have at least some strength in my arms...although i never do push ups or pull ups i am going to have to start....and for that i need the power in my arms... i'm going to be super sore in the morning. push push push.....
 
that big leap in lbs from 227.6 to 224.5 went back up to 225.2 this morning when i weighed myself.
i'll admit that i took sunday off. But i started to do strength training. and i didn't run to give myself a day.

i did 3.10 miles tonight and took one of these redline supps. that i was sent.... it's cold outside but with the running and the thermo. in the pill i didn't feel it after about 2. min. lets see what tomorrow brings.
 
even though i know i should only do once a week i'm weighing myself at the same time every morning after i hit the bathroom so it'll be somewhat accurate. same time/no clothes/good scale/checked 3 times to make sure it's right.... i just want to keep a good log of and progress or failed days so i can analyze what i did wrong. i have OCD about organization and i need to do this for me. sorry
-sean-
 
Weighing more on Tuesday than you did on Monday isn't a failed day and isn't a reflection on how bad you did on Tuesday. Your weight will fluctuate a fair bit day to do (even hour to hour depending on what you eat and drink). So don't punish yourself or feel bad if your weight gets more on one day after another.

Only really take note week by week.
 
i know and thanks for the encouragement. it's something to keep me motivated really and i don't feel bad when the scale says i went back up a lb. or two. every day that i eat well and don't go back to drinking soda or booze is a good day... i'm less concerned about what the scale says actually and more concerned about overall appearance in the end. so it's not that i'm punishing myself really i'm just trying to keep myself in check.
-sean-
 
Whatever floats your boat. I can't say I'm much different. There's a set of scales at the gym which I go on everytime I go in. Habit rather than anything.

As long as you just take note on a weekly level it's OK. I think.
 
ohhhhhhhhh.... today was great...
well until i went to dinner with the family at a little place we like to call CHILIS!
okay... so it wasn't horrible i guess.... i have been doing so we this entire week and it's the first time i even looked at a high cal food since i started... i stuck with water and had some fries and what they call chicken crispers... this is a tradition for my family... but it's gotta change and i know that. i told them that this is my last fried meal (at least for a long time) so i got home and did and extra 2 miles on top of my 3 and then i'm going to do another cardio routine with bells here in a little while... hopefully i can equalize the damage i did and sweat it out before it affects me....i'm pretty sure it doesn't work like that but whatever....i'm back on track now and nothing is going to stop me... i actually didn't even eat half the plate where i would have finished the whole thing before so i do feel like i've made a change for the better...
 
Oh God...Chilis. When I first started my new regime, I could have shot someone in the face for some Chicken Crispers and their garlic mashed potatoes. (Well not literally of course). There will be a time for that later though, hehe.

You have a ton of stuff going on and I think its awesome you've decided to improve your life and your boys' by taking a step in the right direction. "Nothing going to stop me..." damn right, I feel the same way. Lets punch a hole through this damn wall like we're Juggernaut.
 
i would prefer to just throw exploding cards at the situation but it seems that knocking down wall would be a bit more fitting....


shot somebody in the face = NSFW...lol
 
alright.....
FRIDAY!!!! nov. 12th
i had some setbacks this week... there was the chilis thing....and then a couple days ago i was really down (read: depressed) and had myself some ice cream and 2 coke zeros that day... i could feel it the next day... i was a lot more tired then on my plan. so i'm back on the wagon and my friday weight is

223.7lbs

compared to nov. 2nd:

235.0lbs

i'm keeping a journal of my foods.. i'm not going to imput that but it's staying at between 1100-1500 a day (except for those 2 days i'm sure where it didn't go over 2000 anyway) and at my current size and height the calculator says i need about 2500 to maintain... so i should be right on track to lose at least that 2-3 i have calculated... if i can stay on this diet. i like drinking water instead of soda... and when i had that coke zero.... i just tasted super sweet like candy... i'm not having cravings except for carbs (breads mainly) but i'm keeping that in check..

does anyone suggest something other than processed white bread for sandwhiches?

-sean-
 
saturday november 13th 2010-

did my first run over 7 miles today in 1:15:00
i feel great.. i don't know why some people hate cardio...i love it
-sean-
 
sunday november 14th 2010-

did about 8 miles today all together and joined another site that i can track my calories with.... it's not good... i've been way under the past week.. esspecially with all the running i've been doing... i'm going to try to eat more (well that feels funny typing) and get some more raw veggies in my diet....

and i found something to train for...
it's called.......
WARRIOR DASH
google it and you can find it... or it's a dot com if you just want to do that....
it looks really fun and like 4 of my friends want to go now also.. so now i have something to train for. i've never been much of the athletic type (shit...sometimes i stop running to break it down because a really good song comes on and i just can't help but dance) .... but this just sounds really fun...
-sean-
 
Thank you for admitting that one of the reasons you decided to lose weight was for vanity!
I was starting to feel like the only one.
I have obvious health issues that I'm correcting by losing the weight that I've lost (and will hopefully continue to lose), but I can't lie even a little -- I'm a 21-year-old girl trying to look good enough to NOT look gross when I go out dancing, because big or small, you put a few drinks in me and I will undoubtedly start dancing.

I feel like I may have even STARTED losing weight for reasons of vanity, as I knew how poor my self-image was, and I gotta tell you... it's working like a charm.
I've been getting more compliments than I have my entire life long, and am eating it up the way I used to plow through bags of Doritos. This attention?

Much... much more delicious :)

Best of luck to you; kudos on additionally making changes for your little boys!
 
^^ I'm another one loosing weight for vanity reasons! Well, in part anyway! Yes, I'd love a healthy body--But I'd like a sexy one too!

Hope you're still kicking butt--Warrior Dash looks awesome!
 
SoCoSideshow said:
Thank you for admitting that one of the reasons you decided to lose weight was for vanity!
I was starting to feel like the only one.
I have obvious health issues that I'm correcting by losing the weight that I've lost (and will hopefully continue to lose), but I can't lie even a little -- I'm a 21-year-old girl trying to look good enough to NOT look gross when I go out dancing, because big or small, you put a few drinks in me and I will undoubtedly start dancing.

I feel like I may have even STARTED losing weight for reasons of vanity, as I knew how poor my self-image was, and I gotta tell you... it's working like a charm.
I've been getting more compliments than I have my entire life long, and am eating it up the way I used to plow through bags of Doritos. This attention?

Much... much more delicious :)

Best of luck to you; kudos on additionally making changes for your little boys!
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i'll admit it.....a big reason i'm doing this is because i'm single now and i want to be attractive... for myself... and i love dancing... been going out to indie clubs since i was 18... i love all kinds of music...
 
Sunflower said:
^^ I'm another one loosing weight for vanity reasons! Well, in part anyway! Yes, I'd love a healthy body--But I'd like a sexy one too!

Hope you're still kicking butt--Warrior Dash looks awesome!
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yeah... first thing i'm going to do when i get my sexy new body is post pics on facebook and tag my ex's...and wait for the hate mail to pour in... i'm excited about warrior dash.... if nothing else i'll have fun and get to dress up and look ridiculous.....

p.s i'm still kicking ass...
 
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