Scared of the scale

Hey everyone. I just got back from a mini vacation went to Boston and Chicago to go and see some friends. Was there for past 4 days. I had a lot fun and took a break from working out and eating right. I'm hoping that this will help to get me out of the plateau that I've found myself in. I'm still at 174lbs and haven't gained or lost a pound. Aside from the exercising and such,
I've got round 2 of my interview coming up this Thursday. I've got my fingers crossed and I'm hoping that I'll finally be employed.

Well, my summer challenge is almost over, and I'll put up new pics to show you guys my progress. I didn't quite make it to my goal of 160 but I'm still happy with the progress that I've made. So much so, that I've bought myself a lot of new outfits..especially stuff that show off the arms and legs. The parts I'm most proud of because they were the ones that I really considered to be my problem areas. Well, in September, I'm going to do another challenge and I hope to lose 6lbs in 6 weeks. Just in time for my friend's beach themed wedding that'll be held in California this October. I've got my eye on this particular dress and I promised it to myself as a gift if I make my 6lb goal.

Breakfast
Special K red berries
1 orange

Lunch
Tuna sandwich
1 grape bunch
2 mango slices
 
I've become that kid

You know the type, the one that's always getting hurt. You probably encountered a kid like that in elementary or junior high school. I used to laugh at them and curse the luck that they had because it seemed as though they couldn't be injury free for more than 5 minutes. Alas, I've become one of those kids. Last night, I rebroke the pinky toe that I had broken 2 weeks before. Couldn't do anything about it as the injury occurred late in the evening. So I took a few tylenols and hoped that the pain would subside. Well it hasn't, and I won't be able to go to the doctor's office until Friday. Way to go, I broke my toe a day before my huge 2nd interview. You know, I read an article once that said people that are extremely accident prone are going through some kind of psychological thing. I'm beginning to think this may be the case with me.

This whole broken toe thing is not only putting a damper on my interview, but on the big plans I had for this weekend. My friend, Dugz that's been staying with us since June is scheduled to leave on Saturday. I had planned a huge going away party for her that included all of my other friends. We were going to go and drink, and party like the rock stars we aspire to be...unfortunately, I think it would be a bit awkward to see someone hobbling around trying to live it up. Oh well, I'm hoping that once I see the doctor he'll give me a shot or something to help numb the pain. Aside from the broken toe, I got in a much needed work out. Being that I can't do any real cardio because my standing ability has been hampered, I opted to do a lot of weight and resistance training on my arms and legs. Just focusing a lot of the workout on things that wouldn't require the use of my toes. I feel good but sore. I think I'll continue with this workout routine until I get a clean bill of health from my doctor.

Breakfast
Nothing (over slept)


Lunch
Nothing (I was still sleeping)

Dinner
Cup of Noodles (not the most health conscious choice)

As you can see, I didn't have such a great nutritional meal plan today. The 2 Tylenol P.m.'s I took yesterday put me in a semi-coma. I didn't wake up until 4:45 today so roughly 15 minutes ago. I'll try and make up for the low calories by loading up on some fruits, vegetables and yogurt. Alright then, I'm going to go and get all of my interview stuff ready for tomorrow.
 
Hey funky,
glad to see you're back!

Ouchie on the toe breaking. :(
I didn't think there was much they could do for a broken pinkie toe except strap it to another toe.

- Sunny
 
Hey funky,
glad to see you're back!

Ouchie on the toe breaking. :(
I didn't think there was much they could do for a broken pinkie toe except strap it to another toe.

- Sunny

Yeah, that's what the doctor did. He tapped my pinky to my fourth toe and I've been making due with that as of late. It feels weird because I can only wear flip-flops anything else rubbing up against the toe feels like torture even flats.
 
Time to be creative

So having this broken toe has forced me to get creative with a lot of my work out routines. Right now, I can't do a lot of heavy cardio so I've been opting to do lots and lots of weight training. I work out with the weights every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Then rest during the remaining weeks. I'm still at 174, but I've stopped obsessing about the plateau. It was driving me crazy and had more pending things to worry about instead of a crazy number on the scale. So as of now, while I wait for my toe to heal, I'm focused on maintaining my current 174lbs. I'm eating around 1600 -1700 calories a day down from the 1950 I was consuming when I was working out heavily. I'm glad that my lack of regular exercise hasn't hindered my weight loss efforts in the slightest and I think that the break from all of the strenuous exercise will be just what my body needs in order to break the plateau. I have new pics from my journey from 180 to 174. Unfortunately they're only face pics, but from them, I can really see a major difference. They'll be posted up tonight.

Update on the interview, I did really well with the ACS interview. Made it past all the rounds and got to take the drug test. Now I just have to wait 2 weeks for them to verify my references and then they'll call and tell me if they want to hire me or not. I have another interview with Bank of America on Friday. Super nervous because this is the job that I really want. Will have to take an exam to test my computer skills so I've been brushing up on my Microsoft Office Skills. The only part of the exam I'm actually worried about is the one requiring the use of Excel. Haven't used that thing in the longest and I'm hella rusty. So I've been obsessively reading the book and going online to watch tutorials. Hopefully all of this studying will pay off and I can add Bank of America to the list of potential employers.

A bit of good news. I was visiting a friend and she happened to have a digital scale in her room. I hoped on the thing and it read 182. I didn't panic as I had to account for the clothing and the fact that it was late in the day and I had eaten a lot. What made me happy was the fact that my friend was in total disbelief about my weight. She refused to believe that I weighed as much as her scale said I did. She was like, this thing must be broken because you don't look like you're anywhere near 180. Gloat moment for me...Well this little exchange had me thinking that I'm going to not aim for a target weight of 152. If my friend already thought that I weighed at the most 150lbs, then I would hate to see what I'd actually look like at 152. So I'm going to lean towards a happy and healthy median of 160lbs. That way I can be long, lean and healthy without looking skeletal.
 
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Prepping

So, I've gotten back to the gym and am feeling really good. Worked out yesterday for about an hour. My toe is still healing and wearing shoes still hurts, but all and all, it was a good workout. I've been prepping my body for Ramadan, the Muslim month in which we fast. It's going to be difficult because I'm essentially starving myself for the better part of the day. I've got it figured out, basically I'm waking up really early in the morning and gorging on a bunch of healthy foods. Working out will have to be saved for the evening as I'll be wiped out from not eating. Hopefully this'll work out well.

Breakfast
Vanilla Yogurt
1 peach
1 pack of Quaker Granola

Lunch
1 Tuna Sandwich on whole wheat

Snack
1 bowl special K cereal w/ whole milk (haha it's my only real splurge)

Dinner
Turkey burger on whole wheat
0.4 cups of yellow sweet corn
8 spears of broccoli
 
Wow, it's been a long time since I've been on this thing. I wish I could say that everything has been smooth sailing but then I'd be lying. Unfortunately, I ended up falling off of the exercise and healthy eating band wagon, and I began doing the whole "I have an office job" eating. Therefore, I ended up gaining 10 pounds. I went from 175 to 185. I have to admit that the reason I stopped writing in my diary is because I was ashamed of having gained back some of the weight that I had worked so hard to lose. But here I am giving it another try. I've currently lost 5lbs and I'm working on meeting more realistic weight loss goals. I think when I first started trying to lose weight, I did so to fit into this vanity size and see this magic number on the scale. I lost focus as to why I had originally wanted to lose weight in the first place; which is probably why I attempted to wittle myself down to 145lbs. It might not sound bad, but I think that being 5'10 and having a large frame, I would end up looking pretty crazy at 145. Now I'm not going to sit here and lie and say that I still am not trying to see a magic number, but I think my motivations have changed. I want to feel better and look better in clothes. This time around, I'm not going to aim to fit into a particular dress size, but I do want to have all of my flabby bits become not so flabby. Wish me luck.
 
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