Sasse's Weight Loss Diary

M2M said:
It sounds like a good plan - and getting a good night's rest is sometimes worth not getting the work out!
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I agree M2M, had i worked out, I would have crashed today...mainly because i ended up having such a long one, i really needed that extra couple zzzZZZzzz's
Michelle :)
 
wishes said:
wow that show sounds like a pretty good hard hitting show.
Its funny how you see other people and think 'my god was i really that big?' or even 'shit i didnt realize how bad i was until now looking back'

You are doing awesomely! Keep up the good work!
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Hi there Wishes...It was very much an eye opening show for me to watch, quite powerful. It makes me realize how much i really need to pay attention to my emotions and feelings...so that i can be more proactive in fighting my binges, if at all possible. I just know that I CAN'T let myself ever get that out of control. It was almost overwhelming to see these people who are so large that they cant leave their own homes..and they got there because they suffer from the same disorder that i have. Thats a little scary. Their families enabled this by giving into the food demands, to make the person happy. Luckily i have people in my life that have agreed to help me anytime i need them. And of course I have all of you wonderful people to share my struggles with. Its all very healing.
Michelle :)
 
Hi there...I went to bed at 9 last night, LOL...and slept like a baby till 5am...I must have needed it...stress and sucha nd hte fresh air and walking...I found this great trail behing Fleetwood park, I never knew it really existed or that it was that big...I was huffin and puffin half way through, it was a great walk...So if you need motifvationt o go to the gym *early* LOL...think of me going to bootcamp at 6 am ... :D:D:D: LOL...Hope you have a good day!!!
 
brazenlysasse said:
make the person Luckily i have people in my life that have agreed to help me anytime i need them. And of course I have all of you wonderful people to share my struggles with. Its all very healing.
Michelle :)
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And now you've got me *evil cackle* here and in the flesh...LOL...seriosuly if I can help you do anyhtign along the way I will for sure, here or in person...
 
Oh my...that really was an evil cackle..lol ;)
Your offer to help me along the way is muchly appreciated. I offer the same back to you, here and in person. We need to figure out a time we can walk. Im at work right now, and have to run..lol, Man oh man, hows a girl supposed to chit chat if all they want me to do is work work work!!!
;) Michelle
 
brazenlysasse said:
It was almost overwhelming to see these people who are so large that they cant leave their own homes..and they got there because they suffer from the same disorder that i have. Thats a little scary. Their families enabled this by giving into the food demands, to make the person happy.
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Its true and so often seen how families enable these people. There was a documentary about some guy on tv. They kept saying how he was trying his hardest to loose weight. But then he would sit there and refuse the food they gave him and his wife would bring in chips burgers and other junk food. He was in a special facility because of his excess weight! I mean come on!
He ended up dieing before the doco was finished, he got an infection but because his body was so screwed and fat he couldnt fight it. They had to get firemen and a tarp to carry him to a truck to take him to hospital.

Very very sad.
I think his wife was happy that he died - she got the release from the life she was living.
 
That would be hard to deal with. You love the person, but you can't have your own life because you have to do everything for them. How sad would that be? And people can't want to live like that - having to have people bring them food and having such control over someone to make them bring you foods that you and they both know WILL kill you. Sigh. Not me for, no thank you. Never. I think I'd be ok with a loved one hating me if it meant I could sleep at night knowing I didn't help them get that way.
 
I saw that same show, it was very sad to see someone self induce suffering like that (though...i think we all do it, in different ways). I personally didnt feel she hated him, or was happy he was dead though. *just a different way of looking at it* because he was huge when the married. I dont believe they even consemated *spelling???* the union... they were not able too. I felt kind of sad for her when he died, because she always felt needed. She lived to care for him and his challanged sister. Sad, He disabled himself with food, and she disabled herself by enabling his disability. **Of course i could be totally wrong...lol...sometimes i think too much
Thank you for your input Wishes and txturtlegirl.
:) Michelle
 
Today was kinda ok for my menu plan. though we ended up taking the people we support out for fish and chips today...a huge weakness for this girl, let me tell ya..lol

Breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs
1/2 english muffing with 1 tsp butter
1 red pear
water

Lunch: 1 piece fish
coleslaw, split fries with my co-worker
1 diet coke and ice water

snack: spoon full of cookie dough (my co worker was making cookies..evil little woman!) lol
apple
water

Dinner
fish chowder, homeade
- chicken broth, onion, celery, mushrooms, cilantro, red snapper and prawns, 1/2 cup milk

1 roll

water
Now, i am going to crash into my bed
talk to you all soon.
Michelle :)
 
brazenlysasse said:
We need to figure out a time we can walk.
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Im good whenever you are, if you wanna do it figure out what works best for you and let me know, im pretty felxible and easy going, LOL...and it would be nice to walk with someone...

Also whenever you are ready for the Tae Bo tape, just let me know...and if you start doing it and liking it I have tons more:):):)
 
cinderelly said:
Gotta get you off page 4 girl!!! Just wanted to say good morning and wish you a good day!!!
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Thanks muchly!!!...hope you had a great day yourself. Ive had one hectic week. Im enjoying the fact that i have a moment to myself right now. I have managed to get myself a cold... Not too impressed, cuz i certainly did NOT ask for it! Havent done the gym enough this week, mainly cuz i just felt so crappy. But im am going tomorrow morning.. (late morning..lol)

Today my eating was kinda weird cuz im not feeling all that great, everything tastes odd.

Breakfast: cottage cheese, pear, tea with honey, water

2pm: 1/2 biscotti and non fat small latte, bottle of water

3pm: my usual friday treat of crab from the fish store..*though i couldnt taste it too much today..damn cold!*

5pm : piece of toast with honey, some olives, piece of goat cheddar...lol..I know...stange..

Later: ive made some split pea and ham soup in my slow cooker, will have a bowl of that and some more tea in a bit.

I made some ham and split pea soup, which i will have in a while
 
cinderelly said:
Heeheehee...lol, I get like that..sorry you got a cold...good for you for gymtomorrow...I signed up for boot camp tomorrow mornign as well...730am I must be crazzzy!!! Hope you sleep well and get some rest
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Ill be honest with you, it amazes me that you can raise your kids, work, and still...somehow..find the energy to go to boot camp...*at first when i read your note to me, i thought you said BOAT camp...lol..and i was thinking..why the hell would she be doing that at this time of year...lol
I sooo need rest.
I hope it all goes awesome,,...Im going to bed shortly, been dozing on the couch all night,, with two cats glued to me..lol
talk soon
Michelle:)
 
Thanks for dropping by my diary! It looks like you take a lot of care in what you eat and make sure it is good food. When you binge, what sorts of foods do you go for? I have noticed that I tend to get weird cravings because of my diabetes; also do you still keep pills around for emergencies? How often do you test?
:D
Thanks again, and I will be catching up on your thread over the next several days; there's so much to read here and so little time to do it in!
 
brazenlysasse said:
Ill be honest with you, it amazes me that you can raise your kids, work, and still...somehow..find the energy to go to boot camp...*at first when i read your note to me, i thought you said BOAT camp...lol..and i was thinking..why the hell would she be doing that at this time of year...lol
I sooo need rest.
I hope it all goes awesome,,...Im going to bed shortly, been dozing on the couch all night,, with two cats glued to me..lol
talk soon
Michelle:)
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No, hahaha...BOAT camp wouldnt be my thing, however, I wonder if it would be a good way to meet men:p

I made so many excuses for so looong about putting myself last and not taking care of myself but I am all my girls got...I want to be happier nad healthier and i am maintaining that...I am becoming me agian slowly and surely and it is a great feeling...plus you met one of my crew...my oldest isjust as stubborn and head strong and energetic...bouncing off the wall type...demanding and needy of lots of attention...they certaintly keep me on my toes...We should get together sometime withthe oldest as well...that is somethign else me with both my girls...even with 10 yrs apart, they fight and bicker constantly...

I will admit even though I would prefer to be in bed right now...boot camp burns off 500 cals and will have me set for the day, plus it is done and over in 30 mins...I however need to pop a bunch of pills as im sore everywhere...I did the Elkliptical last ngiht for 45mins...my inner thighs are burning and I went to Curves on Thursday and did it Boot Camp style so ya...Im working out harder and faster...

Anyways thanx for your compliment but i am just doing what I gotta do...I mean I am a single mom doesnt really leave me alot of time or energy or anything but it is how I use the little bit of time Ive got:):):) Plus im raising girls, I want them to see a healthy happy stable woman and how to maintain it...I am their role model and I need to fill those shoes!!! Plus most importantly I want them to be able to be free and ot love and such...for that to happen I need to deal with the x stress in a reasonable responsible way for my daughter to see that it isnt all bad...does that make sence...

Whoooa didi I ever ramble inhere, sorry...but i kinda feel like ive known you for a long time, like your one of my friends...plus your easy to talk to and that can be dngerous...LOL:eek: HAHAHA...enjoy your Saturday Michelle
 
Hey Qjay, thanks for stopping by my diary. I have to finish reading yours as well... along with a few others...lol..you are so right, not enough time iwth so much reading to do.
I am really trying to eat well now, but to be honest, i am a food addict/ binger so the cravings never really leave me. Im just getting better about not setting myself up to crash. When im in binge mode, im never full. So i could go to a drivethru 6 times in one day (i have done this in the past) and still be hungry. Then id have a food hangover for about 2 - 3 days. It was really terrible. I still have moments where i could eat a huge amount. Since i have been having a small amount of protein everytime i eat, my cravings have been cut by more than half. As soon as i get off that regime, i will craved pasta, bread, salty things...cheese..anything really. I dont tend to binge on celery though...lol. but i do like it..lol.
Yes i always keep pills around, just in case, as directed by my doctor. I have had blood sugar spikes. Like now, i have a flu, and my sugar is a little unstable, so im checking my blood 3 times a day. If i need the medication i will take it. I keep the tester with me at all times as well...so if i get an uneasy feeling i can make sure its not a sugar spike.
:) Ill stop yacking your eyes off now...lol
Michelle :)
 
hey Cerella,
I dont mind you chatting away, i feel like ive known you a long time as well. It feels good to be able to talk with someone who can relate. I couldnt go to the gym today, im just too sick. feeling really weak and feverish. Sooooo it is a stay at home, other than going to the pharmacy kinda day...lol. When i am better we will set up a walking day/evening. How late do you like to walk? my schedule is odd because i work 10hr shifts and then a few hours at my other job. Though, my weekends are free from work.
Everything you said about needing to be a good role modle for your kids made perfect sense, and they are lucky that you realize that, and care so much. Good for you, and them.
Talk soon
Michelle :)
 
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