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Well, I didn't get to the gym but hubby and I took the kids for a 4mile walk this afternoon. It was hovering around 1C so we're taking advantage of the good weather! And another pleasant surprise, I dropped down to 219.8lbs!!! I'm in the 210s instead of the 220s!!! It's kinda awesome. DietBet has REALLY helped me stay on track and incorporate junk food instead of just tacking it on. There's wiggle room but not much so it's "do I really want this?" and the answer is usually no.

I'll pass along the b-day wishes! He had a wonderful day of doing absolutely nothing in the evening with his PS4 and ice cream - exactly what he wanted.

Anyways, time for date night! Bye bye.
 
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I think I'm more emotionally and phsyically exhausted than I've felt in a long time - like beyond wiped into just ready to break down and sob. I have been working with our church to start a domestic violence awareness forum in April and basically, I'm running the thing which is incredible. I've also met someone who is being hurt by her husband and we've been working to make sure she gets out safely. I am trying so hard to keep it together but she is leaving on Sunday and will be safe. This is just so much intervention and planning - I'm trying not to get to excited but I am, I'm also nervous and just proud of her bravery. But It's still draining.

Add vaccines yesterday for the kiddos, trying to get to the gym, trying to eat right, trying to do a project for the pregnancy resource centre, trying to be a good wife and mom and trying to juggle everything, I finally am at a point where I'm doing everything I can to keep things going without dropping a ball.

I'm sitting at 221.4 which is okay - it's higher than my 219 but that was right after gym, no food in tummy weight so that's okay. Now to do some knitting and drink some coffee and try to keep it together.
 
Keeping my fingers tightly crossed for the lady in question making it out safely and the abuser not being any the wiser until she is. Can absolutely understand this is emotionally draining for you but kudos for taking it on.
 
I don't think I could do what you're doing Sam as I get too emotionally involved with people's problems. Huge kudos to you hon. Don't forget to look after yourself xoxo
 
Can relate to how you're feeling - taking on our people's problems is incredibly draining. My colleagues have responded by becoming quite hard people but I prefer to be a bit softer and still feel all the shitty stuff. Makes me remember that I hurt because I care and I care because I want to help <3
 
Thank you guys - after a good night's sleep and it getting closer to Sunday (the day she's moving), it's getting more draining but better - I'm adapting. Still on edge, still tired, still moody but I'm taking today to destress, knit, pray, and just spend time watching 'This is Us' and not much else.

I plan to get to the gym tomorrow evening - this week hubby works 12-9 so haven't got to the gym apart from Monday but that's okay. I'll survive. Next week, my goal is 5x at the gym...time to get back on track.
 
If you´re going to keep doing this (which I hope won´t be necessary, but who am I kidding?) please make sure you have someone to process your own feelings and fears with. We need good people like you and we need them to get damaged from doing the right thing.
 
Thanks LaMa. I'm actually going to be taking a break after this - I have 2 kids under 2 and I'm a tad bit overwhelmed. I mentally CAN'T do it often. Unfortuately, it will happen again someday. I'm living in a town with one of the highest unemployment rates, highest drop out rates, highest teen pregnancy rates and highest reported sexual assault rates. Then, we are about double the national average on domestic violence.

Yep. That's my city. I am going to be speaking with someone and I'm planning on taking some counselling courses to see get a better handle on how I need to process this before I take on another situation.
 
Hey everyone!

My friend got out safely! The police were involved to keep the peace but he was very good about staying out of the way while the men got her stuff. It was scary, exhausting, and we ALL needed a break after but I'm so glad!

I'm down to 219.4lbs too so through all this craziness - I'm losing weight. My weight loss and trying to be healthier is still a priority.

In picture one, I'm at 227.4lbs - it was the starting weight of my diet bet. In the next one, 219.4lbs - 8lbs GONE! I still have 1.1lbs to go in 6 days but I'm working my butt off for this (literally).

Apart from that, I went to bed at 6pm yesterday to get some extra sleep. I got up at 10pm, back to bed at 11 and rested. I was done and needed it!

Hope everyone is doing well! :D View attachment 24315
 
View attachment 24316 Anyone trying to lose weight - DO THIS! Take photos because crap! I'm doing a lot better than I thought. Even if it's not all the same outfit or angle - having a few photos here and there of what you're doing helps!
 
You are doing really well Sam. You're right. I hardly have any photos of me before I lost weight. I was too ashamed. I should be proud! Well done Sam!
 
Thanks :) I'm really happy with the change so far - I'm feeling more like 'me' again. I am glad I took the time after having kids to not worry about the weight but by October, it was time for the gym and some lifestyle changes. :)

I still have a long way to go but seeing the progression really gives me a lot of hope that I can do it!
 
*sigh* I'm getting my alone time today - Hubby is taking the kiddos up to his parents for the afternoon and they're having supper up there. I've planned a gym date with a friend who's showing me the weight machine circuit (her boyfriend is new to the gym too so I'm not alone in this, thank goodness) and then, tea, TV and cleaning the house by myself!!!! :D This is an exciting day!

My first diet bet is up in 2 days, 10 hrs aprox. I need to be hitting 218.3 to have lost 4% of my body weight the past 4 weeks. I'm sitting at 218.8lbs. URGH! It may be an extreme couple of days to drop some water weight (nothing dangerous) but I am NOT losing! I'm also fighting PMS which usually brings my weight up by 5+ lbs so...wish me luck! I'll need it. BUT if I can get through the next couple of days, that'll be a really awesome success...

and if I didn't win, I've still lost 8.4lbs (aprox) this month. That's including prepping for the April Forum, getting someone safe from a dangerous relationship, my son's second birthday, my husband's birthday,the Superbowl and breaking through a plateau after losing weight consistently for three months. I'll take it!

I don't think I'll do another dietbet like this - it's a bit stressful towards the end and while some people thrive on that, I don't as much anymore. I like the 6 month idea because it's less weight each month and I'm developing more healthy planning for the future.

Anyways, back to parenting! Happy Sunday, everyone!
 
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