BLEH. I suck at this big time. Hah. I need a new plan....
Every time I see these skinny horseback riders I wish I was them. But I can never stick with my goal. I mean, exercising is great. That's not the hard part. I can't eat right. Like, no matter what.
And sometimes I don't have time to exercise because of all this school crap. So much to do. Then I love reading about horses... and I tend to get sucked in and I can't stop. Then at night, when I should be jogging, I sometimes talk with my friends on aim for, like, hours. /:
So. Here's what I'm going to TRY. I'm going to write down my restrictions/guidlines/whatever. Like, what I can't eat, how I should exercise.... blah, blah, blah.... But then you see there is another problemo I have. When I see food I want I just sorta eat it without thinking kind of. So I shall tie a string around my finger as a reminder.
But yuh know. I don't know how I can stick with this forever, yah know.... Wish we didn't live in a stupid subdivision.... if we lived in the country I could get out everyday. But nooooo, my dad refuses to move to his land... and WORSE, he puts us 60000 dollars in debt by buying some gay bull dozer he doesn't need! AHHHH. I love this. Hah. Get everything off my chest here. Whee.
If I lived at our land I could take Sargie to live with me. And I could ride him everyday. < 3333
Oh, if only, if only....
So anyways. I CAN DO THIS.
^^ Maybe I'll try the smaller meals thingie too. Thanks mucho.
ANYWAYS. Time for curl ups then bedddd. Night.