Thanks Omega, angel and Little John. You're all absolutely right of course. I'm not competing with anyone. I am only responsible for challenging myself.
I think I look deceptively in shape/strong. I've been to classes with four different instructors and 3 of them have said, oh c'mon you can lift heavier weights than that. I correct them and say I haven't lifted in 2 years and do not want to injure myself. Not fun to have to specifically admit weakness in front of everyone at the beginning of class but.... I just have fun anyway!! I really do, with my little 2 & 3 pound weights.
I've also been lifting on my own at the gym. I haven't taken measurements in a bit but my size 6 clothes fit comfortably if not a bit loose. I was a size 8 before lifting. Curious to see how my body fat changed and what the scale says.
I still feel fat (as in not toned or strong). I think my head will take a while to catch up with my body. I also think I need to give my body some time & appreciate the changes I'm seeing.
I am eating well. Not well like King Henry VIII, but well as in clean. I haven't seen a processed carb or sugar since... I dunno when. They used to be part of every meal. I don't necessarily think those things are the devil. I'm sure they are fine in moderation. But they're trigger foods for me and until I learn moderation, I'd rather skip 'em and really savor more adult flavors/textures and nourish my body while I'm demanding it to do all this new stuff.
JJay, thanks so much for the warm welcome! We have fat & skinny hip hoppers in class.

Pretty much all of us look silly b/c the instructor is the only one who knows the choreography.