Renewing my sense of worth. Again.

What a rant missy!!:jump: hahah!!! ;)!! I appreciate that you take the time out to make people aware that making others feel less of themselves is not the appropriate way to change. We can only change through LOVE and KINDNESS and AWARENESS and help to one another through educating each other through our learnings. This all takes time...and you are right! You should only be around people who make you feel good about yourself, and I'm sure that sometimes people just get more competitive or something of that nature, and display it in wrong manners.

You are doing Fantastic though!! :party:!!! I am proud of you and I admire the fact that you can go to the gym in the middle of the night! AMAZING!! That's will power! Keep it up with the insane workouts!! :reddevil:!!! ;)!
 
I'm right there with ya... no one needs someone raining on their parade or belittling their choices. It's good to know that there are still people out there that speak their mind. And hey, now you're in the Biggest Loser Challenge with the rest of us! WELCOME!!!!!
 
I just adore every single ONE of you! All morning long, all I could think of was how big of a baby I sounded(it never comes out the way you want it to). I've had a few people pm me with their agreement in the situation, and that made me feel better :) Today sucked a little- not gonna lie- I just ate a bazillion cookies- but tomorrow, of course, is another day. A BETTER day. The biggest loser challenge starts, and I'm gonna try to get some major gym time in tomrrow night, even tho my shift gets over at 1230am, and hafta be BACK to work at 10am the next day(eww!). Regardless: If I let everything that makes me emotional trigger bad habits, I'll never get where I want to go, therefore- control on my part is neccessary, and a challenge is what I need! As well as all of you guys, of course :D
 
Feelin a LITTLE bit sick right now. :ack2: Quite possibly, AND more than likely the 3243049554 calories worth of cookies I ate. Ohhh sugar... how can I love something SO much that quite obviously hates me back?!! Also doesn't help that I have horrifying cramps right now. :( jeez... wheres the damn LOVE at already!

So I went to famous footwear after work today because the shoes that I DID have for work were getting old and worn anyway, but then my sisters cat PEED in one of them. Really? Wow... So apparently- all the shoe styles that are "in" right now are FUGLY. And I have huge feet. Grr. So I have these a-frickin-dorable RocketDogs, just little black things, not much to em, but damn do they hurt my feet after a day :( so the thought of having to wear them tomorrow already has my toes screaming at me! If my toes could have a sick day, they'd take it, fershur. Ugg. Hopefully I'll be ordering some online tomorrow. We'll see. I'm a poor person right now, ahhahaha...

FINALLY got to the gym at about 410am. Wayyyy later than I normally go, and yeah, there were a few people in there; no biggie, they ended up leaving pretty soon anyway, but shoot. I've got to at LEAST stick to the 1am time or something. For some reason my legs were a little stiff and sore today too... I haven't really done anything outta the ordinary, so its weird that I was having an issue.. And because of that, my cardio was crosstrainer: 65 minutes, 4.48miles. :blush5: compared to 4.6miles the night before, and 4.66miles 3nights ago, all on the same time, this was most definately NOT my most happenin gym sesh. I ALWAYS drink tons of water, so that can't be an issue. I dunno. I don't wanna overthink it :rolleyes:
Off to bed; work 330 to 1230am, then directly to the gym after that. PLUS, I still hafta watch last weeks BL, and tomorrow is a new one! Dang. Need to catch up on my tv again, lol....
 
Skippin the gym tonight! With the way my work schedule worked out, working out just won't work out right now. Hahahahaaaa... :rolleyes: gonna catch up on BL from last week; then to beddddd.
Had a good day today- calories right now track! Dealt with some crazies at work, but thats inevitable... Oh well.
Hoping for a great day tomorrow(without cramps, PLEASE god, no cramps!) and a terrific workout later tomorrow :)
 
Jess393 said:
Skippin the gym tonight! With the way my work schedule worked out, working out just won't work out right now. Hahahahaaaa... :rolleyes: gonna catch up on BL from last week; then to beddddd.
Had a good day today- calories right now track! Dealt with some crazies at work, but thats inevitable... Oh well.
Hoping for a great day tomorrow(without cramps, PLEASE god, no cramps!) and a terrific workout later tomorrow :)
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Hey Jess,
Sounds like your having a tough week, but being on the rag will do that to you. You must like sweets when you have your monthly. So do I, thus that one time my calories were past 2000....

but I thought I would stop in. I know I have been MIA, still walking, but going through withdrawals from a heavey anxiety medicine called klonopin. I guess it made me gain weight, because I am now down five to sixe pounds since last week. I know it effected your weight, but I didnt think it made you gain lol all good, works for me. Im glad its going ba bye...

but anyway, chicka you sound like you are still doing awesome, the cramps are shitty, but you are working through it and damn the hours you go the gym. Nice!! Keep it up!!

always
natalie jo :seeya:
 
Veronica said:
When on the crosstrainer tonight just keep thinking "Go Black Team!"
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Heck yeah! I thought about doing a little bit extra time, but by the end of the 65min on the crosstrainer, I was pooped :blush5: I did my triceps and got the hell out. lol.

Natsky said:
Hey Jess,
Sounds like your having a tough week, but being on the rag will do that to you. You must like sweets when you have your monthly. So do I, thus that one time my calories were past 2000....

but I thought I would stop in. I know I have been MIA, still walking, but going through withdrawals from a heavey anxiety medicine called klonopin. I guess it made me gain weight, because I am now down five to sixe pounds since last week. I know it effected your weight, but I didnt think it made you gain lol all good, works for me. Im glad its going ba bye...

but anyway, chicka you sound like you are still doing awesome, the cramps are shitty, but you are working through it and damn the hours you go the gym. Nice!! Keep it up!!

always
natalie jo :seeya:
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Cramps seem to be going away finally, thank god. And NO, I don't just crave the sweets now, lol, its ALWAYS. Uggh. I'm gonna start saying no to the sweets(or at least try to). I gave up pop and fast food like 5 years ago; as much fast food as I was eating(up to three/four times per DAY) you wouldn't think giving up another vice would be so hard! Its cool. I got this ;)
Great job on your success Nat, even tho that medication is having its downside on ya, at least theres an upside. There's ALWAYS an upside to life! Keep it up :D
 
I was SUCH an idiot this morning. OMGGGGGG. I get up and get ready for work, get there, go grab the grids for the day, and it says Jessie: 1pm-10pm. What. Realllly? My schedule said 10-7, so now I'm mad because a)coulda slept the hell in, and b) I didn't go to the gym last night because I had to be here so effing early! GRRR. So I come home, look at my schedule, and yeah. It DID say 1-10. I'm just dumb and can't read. Whatevv. Got a little nap in, looovvve nap time(why did I hate these when I was a kid?!) and then restarted my day at 1, lol. Work was long, but tomorrow will be better, as I'm the closing manager and when you're the closer, the shift is wonderfuller than ever, hahaha. Bought a few groceries when I got off- there are Creme brulee flavored rice cakes now, yummm!- and then passed out on the couch for a bit before I went to the gym.
Gym time: 65min crosstrainer- 4.6miles. MUCHHH better than Mondays miles at 4.48, so even tho I still felt like I was movin a little slower, I picked my time back up. Afterwards did 30 minutes of tricep and shoulder work.
Got some errands to run before work tomorrow, so I gotta get some sleep, but I will, of course, be back tomorrow to check on everyone :D
 
I hate when I get a schedule mixed up in my head like that! I've shown up at a client's house 4 hours early before then had to kill time at a coffee shop until they were home. It sucks!

Keep up the good work at the gym! And yeah, GO BLACK TEAM!
 
<--- a link for your alcohol calories. :)

I totally understand how you feel about the challenge and it looks like as of this morning everyone is out. Sucks cuz I was hoping for something to motivate me alittle more and have something to strive for. Oh well.
I live for nap time, especially when I work the 9:30am-10pm shift, I take an hour break from 2-3 and go home and nap and come back for 2nd shift. Everyone makes fun of me for it, but I'd be a crabby you-know-what if I didn't get my nap in. :)
Hope you have a great day!
 
Jess393 said:
I was SUCH an idiot this morning. OMGGGGGG. I get up and get ready for work, get there, go grab the grids for the day, and it says Jessie: 1pm-10pm. What. Realllly? My schedule said 10-7, so now I'm mad because a)coulda slept the hell in, and b) I didn't go to the gym last night because I had to be here so effing early! GRRR. So I come home, look at my schedule, and yeah. It DID say 1-10. I'm just dumb and can't read. Whatevv. Got a little nap in, looovvve nap time(why did I hate these when I was a kid?!) and then restarted my day at 1, lol. Work was long, but tomorrow will be better, as I'm the closing manager and when you're the closer, the shift is wonderfuller than ever, hahaha. Bought a few groceries when I got off- there are Creme brulee flavored rice cakes now, yummm!- and then passed out on the couch for a bit before I went to the gym.
Gym time: 65min crosstrainer- 4.6miles. MUCHHH better than Mondays miles at 4.48, so even tho I still felt like I was movin a little slower, I picked my time back up. Afterwards did 30 minutes of tricep and shoulder work.
Got some errands to run before work tomorrow, so I gotta get some sleep, but I will, of course, be back tomorrow to check on everyone :D
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Hey Jess,

We all get our wires screwed up sometimes. Sucks that you went in when you didnt have to, but cool on going home and taking a nice nap and going to the gym. Still working hard, your doing great ... Keep trecking ....

What are the weights that you are using like?

I dont go to a gym, too poor, and too far away with no car, and I never seem to get myself to go often, usually waste money, by quiting, even though paid year membership. So I am going to stick with outdoor activities. And I have weights here. Going to pick up two eight pounds weights and two ten pound weights next month and maybe a ankle weight that goes up to ten pounds. That will really get my heart going. plus swinging my arms up...

you trully inspire me hun .. your kick ass awesome!! Keep it up Jess.

and you probably wont be able to kick sweets out of your life forever and all time, but try to make it so you have a sweet once a week and get something small ... I bought a mint woopie pie, wierd, mint, but worth it. And before that hadnt had chocolate for a week to two. I am going to try to stretch it to two weeks ...

so just try to ween yourself off of it. but dont get candy bars, they are the worst... and dont by packages of cookies and packages of chocolate or anything, portion control. I know smaller items are more expensive, but you think of it this way, more money, but you lose weight even though you are having a little of the naughty food... you can still eat sweet, just in moderation. I only buy little things once in a while. Its all good. but we only make pizza once in a while too

keep trecking hun!!

You can do the portion sizes on the sweets ..take four weeks to adjust...its addicting ..it trully is ... but ... you can do it... dont expect you to cut out everything at once. I dont walk down the chocolate aisles anymore ..and I try very hard to ignore the front register candy bars. When my sugar is low after walking through the whole supercenter and its really low .. I get a vitamin water and than a peanut butter candy bar. I cant help it, when it goes low...theres a chance for a sugar coma .. u know


but anyway I am talking way too much about me ..ugh

I get so caught up ..
but seriously keep trecking... you can cut the sweets out ...just believe and just start doing things that will make it happen, think of the sweet as a long awaited treat... and I now am buying clothes to reward myself ... wont be buying shirts next month.. maybe one or two and one or two pairs of jeans... but If I dont fit in the smaller size, not buying the jeans ... the shirts. I need, two ... but the jeans, if it says I am not a size 24, not buying, just going to deal with the ratty tatty jeans and I only have three pairs and they are like ten years old, but I wont buy any higher... so you might want to reward ten pounds with a new shirt. I threw all my bigger shirts out and the ratty ones ..to make room for my reward shirts.. lol

Well keep trecking
your doing wicked awesome and sorry for posting so much about me, but I am actually trying to give you dieas ... so cut the sweet slowly and in moderation and reward yourself with a shirt or when you reach a lower pants size, by some pants, two or one, so you dont feel upset if they are suddenly loose ... well you would be happy, but you didnt waste money on a new wardrobe, you know

well ttylater
always
your friend
natalie jo :driving:
 
Veronica said:
Hmph....not on line last night? Late night at work? Working hard? Working out? Hardly working?

Go BLACK Team
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lollll. Yeah, worked till 1230am, came home and watched Nip/Tuck (looooove itttttt!) and then went to bed; worked at 10am this morning...
I've just decided that when I have those shifts those will be my nights off from the gym. Gonna get a KILLER workout in tonight tho!
 
Natsky said:
and you probably wont be able to kick sweets out of your life forever and all time, but try to make it so you have a sweet once a week and get something small ... I bought a mint woopie pie, wierd, mint, but worth it. And before that hadnt had chocolate for a week to two. I am going to try to stretch it to two weeks ...

so just try to ween yourself off of it. but dont get candy bars, they are the worst... and dont by packages of cookies and packages of chocolate or anything, portion control. I know smaller items are more expensive, but you think of it this way, more money, but you lose weight even though you are having a little of the naughty food... you can still eat sweet, just in moderation. I only buy little things once in a while. Its all good. but we only make pizza once in a while too
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Ohh I know.. its just so HARD! I've "been off" pop and fast food for five years. FIVE YEARS. Thats insane! To think of the fact that I can drive past wendys, taco bell, taco johns, mcdonalds, etc, and not even think about it, and then to think of the fact that I can't imagine a day without sugar... Its unbelievable. When you know you have the willpower to get rid of the junk, but then to not get rid of the most aweful downfall ever, ugggh. Frustrating. Gotta keep tryin and keep goin I guess :)
 
Um yeah. Todays workout= not so hardcore. It almost feels like I'm going BACKWARDS lately... my cardio seems like its getting harder to do. WTF? I've got noooo clue. ANyway: 65min, 4.6miles on the crosstrainer. 35min weights- bis and tris.
Also, stupid snow decided to show up. Wouldn't have been a HUGE deal, but I wore flipflops to work at the pool hall today BEFORE it started snowing, and by the time I left work the snow was pretty frickin deep. Dammit. Then my car got stuck-ish on the way to the gym. All in all? Coulda been a better day, lol.
Off to bed; 10-7 tomorrow. Not a bad shift. HOPEFULLY will get more of a decent workout in tomorrow night!
 
Jess393 said:
Um yeah. Todays workout= not so hardcore. It almost feels like I'm going BACKWARDS lately... my cardio seems like its getting harder to do. WTF? I've got noooo clue. ANyway: 65min, 4.6miles on the crosstrainer. 35min weights- bis and tris.
Also, stupid snow decided to show up. Wouldn't have been a HUGE deal, but I wore flipflops to work at the pool hall today BEFORE it started snowing, and by the time I left work the snow was pretty frickin deep. Dammit. Then my car got stuck-ish on the way to the gym. All in all? Coulda been a better day, lol.
Off to bed; 10-7 tomorrow. Not a bad shift. HOPEFULLY will get more of a decent workout in tomorrow night!
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You Actually wore flip flops to work! lmao ... its must have sucked coming out and having to trudge through the snow with flip flops ... oh my gawd. Well you are alive to tell the tale...

Your feet must have been dancing to the car...

You may feel like your going backward, but you might be working so hard that you might be running yourself ragged and should not do so raggedly a little bit. Like take a break one night .. or two and just rev it up on the other days ... I dont know, but I know when I do too much push I end up with wheels that arent running ... I just push too much and end up stopping short, smack into the wall, and stop doing everything ... thats what I do ... which is not a good way to do it... when actually it should be maybe five minutes less on the walking, maybe go intervales, one day walk and hour ..another day forty five minutes, one day have weights, another day skip the whole thing and than the next go all out.. if this makes any sense ... ugh .. I type like ...really bad ...but its my free write.. when I get to relax when I write. When I write a poem or in my book I am harder on what I am writing, because I want it just right, u know. So I go all bad grammar like on the boards lol ...and ellipses are very popular with me! lmao

but anyway ... try to figure out why you are feeling this way. Maybe its stress on body, stress on mind from work... maybe you need to cut down a little, or eat more because you are getting tired and losing more calories which means you may be getting even extra tired ... which can be a good thing ...but your caloric intake and the deficit should be ok .. I hope ... you dont want to barrel your way through, you want to take steps and stride for a weight loss that will stay off ...
keep trecking Jess
its good that you put this down....
I hope you keep writing even if you slip a little

ttylater
always
your friend
natalie jo :grouphug:
 
Today started out on a bad note, so I was ABSOLUTELY positive that the whole day was gone to hell... It snowed here again, but not as deep as last time, so no biggie right? No. I start my car at 930am, go to leave at 945, and its a little tough on my poor baby to get moving. But I move. I get to the dreaded hill, and that.was.the.end. I had to back down the damn hill AGAIN(like the fourth time this year!) and go home to get my other car, or "the tank" as I like to think of it, lol. So of course, I haven't driven the Monte Carlo in a coupla weeks, no snow, haven't needed to... annnnnd theres like a foot of snow I've gotta clean off of it, and 3493438535 inches of ice to scrape off all the windows. And of course the defrost and rear defrost don't quite do the job the way they useta, sooo yeah. So I get that done, its still 955- I don't live far from work, so I think okkk, I can DO this. maybe a minute late, but it'll be done! Efffff no. Even the tank couldn't handle this shitty powdery crap. Redic. I didn't clock in till 1010. I HATE being late. Hate it. grrr. Luckily the day got better, which is surprising, lol, and that was that. Foodwise- not bad. DID eat just over half of a piece of carrot cake- tho I can't lie, the piece wasn't small to begin with :rolleyes: Got off work at 715ish, didn't leave my house again till 3 am for the gym. Ahhhh. It was SOOO nice to sit there and watch tv in my cozy blanket and just chilllll yo.

Volunteered for a shift at the pool hall tomorrow- no biggie- its only 1pm to 6pm- so even tho its my only day off, the shift is so insignificant that it doesn't really even cut into it.

Gym tonight: no weights, just cardio. Crosstrainer: 100min, 7.17miles. So it equalled just over 13min per mile. Yeah, I was goin a little slow again tonight; but I'm still pretty happy with that number :)

Off to bed! Catch up with everyone tomorrow :)
 
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