oh my goodness. what a weekend. went to a black and white affair in Philly. Long drive, boring people, GORGEOUS dress that only reminded me that I am pudgy these days. We had fun. I ate for like 5 people. Seriously. When I drink, which I did quite a bit of, I eat. 3 servings of some kind of Pasta dish (buffet style) at the party. And then Boston Market (what kind of after-spot is THAT?) meatloaf meal with mac and cheese and spinach... oh wait... and green beans, and sweet potatoes, and mashed potatoes with gravy, and a cookie. At midnight. ha. and although I have been getting in the weight room to do my circuits in the afternoons, the whole get up at 630 in the morning with ayana to run for 30 minutes... TOTALLY is not happening.... NEEDS to, but is not. I am going to try it again this week, but if its not successful, I am going to have to seriously rethink the scheduling of my workouts!!!
and now today i have NO APPETITE at all. what the heck? I ate a couple preztels on the ride back from Philly along with half a green tea... but, I don't have a taste for anything.
and then Travis called me to see if I was back from Philly and tell me that we should "do something" because its such a nice day. I think that Travis is one of the reasons why I binge eat!!! He is so nice, and protective and kind and caring towards me. And fun to be around and trustworthy... BUT so ATTRACTIVE that I have developed a 'school-girl crush' on him.... He's not single. He's been in a relationship with his girl for 6 (yes six) years. So when he does things like say he wants to spend the day with me I am elated and CRUSHED at the same time... and if I wasn't going through this strange non-appetite thig today, I guarantee that I would be in the kitchen stuffing my face with SOMETHING... ANYTHING... jeesh
being a woman... SUCKS!!!
But... on the bright side, Friday I put on a pair of pants that I was forced to buy 3 weeks ago b/c none of my jeans were fitting. And now? Those jeans I bought are literally sliding off... lol. I love it.
Well, out with TRavis for a bit and then... I got invited to play some pick-up soccer, its a bit chilly... but I suppose I could bundle up a bit... and then I have a meeting with an investor... busy afternoon/evening.
and now today i have NO APPETITE at all. what the heck? I ate a couple preztels on the ride back from Philly along with half a green tea... but, I don't have a taste for anything.
and then Travis called me to see if I was back from Philly and tell me that we should "do something" because its such a nice day. I think that Travis is one of the reasons why I binge eat!!! He is so nice, and protective and kind and caring towards me. And fun to be around and trustworthy... BUT so ATTRACTIVE that I have developed a 'school-girl crush' on him.... He's not single. He's been in a relationship with his girl for 6 (yes six) years. So when he does things like say he wants to spend the day with me I am elated and CRUSHED at the same time... and if I wasn't going through this strange non-appetite thig today, I guarantee that I would be in the kitchen stuffing my face with SOMETHING... ANYTHING... jeesh
being a woman... SUCKS!!!
But... on the bright side, Friday I put on a pair of pants that I was forced to buy 3 weeks ago b/c none of my jeans were fitting. And now? Those jeans I bought are literally sliding off... lol. I love it.
Well, out with TRavis for a bit and then... I got invited to play some pick-up soccer, its a bit chilly... but I suppose I could bundle up a bit... and then I have a meeting with an investor... busy afternoon/evening.
