Ok so just found out i have not been shortlisted of a job i really wanted so now im quite upset and disappointed and angry with myself
I rang for feedback and was told there were 186 applications for the 2 jobs but still didnt make me feel better
Right now i just want to go the shop and buy some chocolate buttons and some cookies from Millies cookies (my total fave which has just opened in town used be be 20 miles to the nearest so never the temptation)
I have changed my dinner plan so i feel a little better
Chips (par boiled then sprayed with fry light and overn cooked) they are free foods on the diet but still chips!!! with chicken and veg
Just making sure i dont go the shops or i will comfort eat then get angry at myself again
I feel for you. This spring I was rejected for the job I have coveted since I first experienced it as a student. I am a teacher and did a practical in a class and fell in love with the program...that was 6 years ago...then the job opened up this spring and I applied.
What made it worse was that I was one of only 2 that they interviewed, and they chose her.
It made me question all my perceived inadaquacies and mentally torture myself for weeks.
I eventually did end up with a new job...but it still feels like a consolation prize.
So, I am sorry you are going through all of this now. I know how you feel and it sucks.
Hi im back
Just been on 2 week holiday to South Wales, It was so nice loads of countryside farms so lots of green. went on the beach on days out was soooo nice just to get away from everything got a tam as well yes we had a sunny week at the end of all those floods!
Well weigh in is tomorrow eeeekkkk!!!
But i have just had a peek and its not too bad! only 5lb on and it is the end of the day im in my pj's and had dinner so may not be too much going on tomorrow...fingers crossed
Well not long got in to will be unpacking in a bit and i will catch up with everyones latest as soon as i can
Sarah x
Eh, it's vacation, what can you do? We almost all gain when we leave our normal routine. I hope you had a great holiday and can get back in the swing of things quickly!
Toady has been an ok day for me today nothing too bad and all within my slimming world diet which i am following for advice more than anything
I have just realised i have to be up for work in 7 hours YUK horrible to start on an early when i just got back form hols
But its good really i know i eat better on an early and i have just ironed my uniform AND my gym kit and thats packed ready to go in the morning so after my shift i will be home about 3.15 well in the gym 3.15 i think if i go home i wont go the gym
The plan is to go there tue and wed from work as well and i am off friday but getting a carpet fitted so if i can get a time i may do a workout dvd (dont fancy doing the DVD and they turn up I will look a right mess!!)
So today is good so far
I had my b'fast and resisted extra toast in work
i had my lunch and resisted chocolates and biscuits
I have also been the gym on my way home
I wasnt sure if i was going to go or not i am really tired 1st ewarly start in over a week nearly killed me but driving home gym kit in boot i decided to get myslef into gear and go if i dont no one will go for me
so i did 10mins walking up hill 10 mins running on flat on the treadmill
and 15 mins on bike up and down hills
Heart rate was about 110 walking 150 rinning 130 bike so all good for fat loss
going to do some weights at home from my dvd as i dont really know what im doing unless someone is telling me and i dont want to draw more attention to myself in the gym (i glow a lovely shade of red!!!!)
So gammon jacket potato and peas for dinner tonight really looking forward to it bit hungry now i have been the gym!
Not sure if i can make the gym tomorrow wont be finishing work till 4 then got carpet fitters coming after 5 (no real time just after 5) so depends when they go and when i get something to eat
Well its been a while since i posted i think its been 10 days!!!
My head has been a bit messed up really
I found out i had a job interview for the job i really want, so i stressed about that for a week. Had the most disastrous interview in the world, so binged a bit over the 4 days i have eaten
1 mars bar
2 chocolate chip muffin
3 small bags of chocolate buttons
I brought small bars of chocolate not the giant bars so i feel good in that respect but still mad about the fact i did it
I went looking for a dress for my graduation ball and seen about 5 i like but when i tried them on i felt fat ugly and really down.
I was in one shop found a lovely dress was about to pick it up and i heard 2 girls (about 15 years old) who were looking at a dress a few away from me say size 16 whos that fat and laugh.
I know they were engrossed in their shopping and didnt notice me but i just wanted to cry I felt really bad then so gave up and went home
Hope the next shopping trip is more productive!!!!!
I tried a new meal saturday night rice noodles with chicken peppers onions bean sprouts and soy sauce in theory everything is nice and should of been nice but no something went wrong and im not sure what!!! so i will be trying that again with a propper recipe not one i made up!!!!
Well after my really bad week i am determined to loose a dress size for my grad ball!
I have another job interview on the 30th Aug so hope this one goes better!!!
Oh and i had a loss this week YAY
and decided that every 0.2 counts so thats how im measuring from now on!
Don't listen to little girls...lol Size 16 is a good dress size, but if you feel you need to go down one more ..than do so...
I believe you can do it!
Great on losing those ozs ...
I have been counting oz myself .. I am now at 293.6 ...not bad ..seeing as I had gained to about 298. something ...so I have almost lost all the weight I had gained ... over the past two months ..one more pounds to go and I will have reached my first goal ...
second goal is 280 ..lol long goal for me ...but well worth it ..
I hope your days go better!
Its ok to binge once in a blue moon ...your doing way better than I did On my last binge ...you got right back up! Right back on the band wagon!
Hope the recipe goes better than it did before hun ..
Well im back and this time my head is in the right place and its going to stay there,
i have read advice thats been given and i have started my list
on it i have
* eat breakfast
* no fizzy drinks
* no bread
* have 3 pieces of friut a day
* excerise x3 a week at least 45 mins cardio each time
So thats the start i think i will buid on it as time goes on but its good for a start.
I have my dress for my ball and just need shoes and a bag im so excited my other half hired his tux last night so i really cant wait
just wanted to drop into your diary to say hello. I was wondering how that "list" went. I read a few pages of your journal and believe me, I can relate with you starting at 210. (I started end of March/ beginning of April.) You'll get there, girlie... it's just takes patience, doing your research, and getting your bum out there to "move." You're going to be graduating soon also, eh? Congrats with that... Wishing you all the best, "Rah."
I have been half doing the list working to it slowly i know as soon as i ban something i crave it so slowly does it but today MON 24th is the day i am starting properly.
Starting a new weightloss ticker and the plannign of meals begins.
Hubby as been very good and has said that he will join me and eat whatever i eat he thinks that a eating healthy cant harm him either so thats that.
We went shopping the other day and everytime i picked something up that was "bad" he took it out or asked if i really needed it which i didnt so he is always coming food shopping with me from now on!
Thanks NJ i have been putting a slice of lemon in the water of a morning i remember reading pages and pages about it in your diary!!
I have started a 9-5 mon-fri job in an office while i amn waiting for a nursing job to come up so i think thats going to help me lots i will have breakfast before i go out andtake a sandwich/salad with me with fruit for breaks then its only dinner when i get home which i will of planned already.
Going the gym will be easier as well i will go 3 times a week 2 during the week and 1 at weekend im really looking forward to this i am so ready.
so i guess i should do my aims etc
Well at the mo i am 203.8lb (1lb down on last week)
i think i want to be about 140lb but will see when im down there 140 may not be right for me
So by xmas i want to be about 170-180 (175) thats 28lb/2stone thats working on 2lb a week.
i want to be at my target weight in may 2008
It all sounds so far away but i guess there are no quick fixes
I am thinking of joining a slimming club as well then i know i will work as i dont want to be the one putting on weight competition with myself really will keep you posted on that one
Oh and i forgot to add we are taking the dog to the beach today as we are both off work
so i am going to put on the sports bra so i can run and mess round without worrying about bouncing all over the place
Little changes can make a big difference!
My head is really in the right place for this
