Put that down, fatty!

AOhmygod, you are getting your managers job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your long hours and hard work haven't gone unnoticed. You never know, she might decide to extend her maternity leave as well after bubbas born.

Well done on the 3lbs loss. And stern eyes at the shite you got with your shopping >
 
That's what I'm hoping rainbow!!! Will have to kick butt and kiss ass until Jan to make sure they like me! Got some training next week to get me started but it's all being kept very hush-hush (hope no one from work has found my diary!!!) so I'm keeping quiet about it until I'm told officially by the owner! Still...SQUEEEE!!!


Weighed in high this morning--Think it was all the salt I had on my potatoes last night. Didn't do me much good and felt bloated all day today. Had a lovely shift with the baby I looked after. Did a 1.5 hour walk around a lake and through some woodland so got my exercise for the day for sure! He's adorable. Such a happy day.


Still got guests staying with us..Ate pretty bad last night but it could have been worse. Will be better today as having mushroom pasta for dinner.


Breakfast: 1 litre of water

Lunch: chicken bites (130) crisps (128)

Dinner: mushroom pasta with cheese and tomato sauce (885)

Snack: chocolate (330)


Exercise: 1.5 hour walk pushing a pram

Total: 1463
 
Life is rather hectic! Can see from your diary it's the same for you as well! Hope you're doing okay honey xx


Thanks for stopping by flumebot <3



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Being a bit of a sourpuss today. I woke up really late as I stayed up late last night to get me ready for my night shift tonight. So woke up at about 1:30pm. We have friends staying here until their new house is ready so they've been here a few days and we've not really done much stuff during the day. I was working all day yesterday and they did nothing all day then but today, when I have my night shift tonight and need to stay at home and rest, Conor is really pushing me to go see an Art Gallery and do shopping and stuff. Wish he'd have suggested doing this on another day where I'm not working a night shift. It's a new shift for me as well, takes 1.5 hours to get there instead of my usual 20 mis so I'm pretty stressed about it all anyway. Bleh. So now I'm getting dragged around all afternoon. Not what I had in mind for my day.


I ate far too much pasta last night but my weight is still the same, luckily. Will be very good today. Especially since I'm being dragged out without having had breakfast or lunch. Sigh.
 
Fooood.


Dinner: 1.5 cups penne pasta (430) pesto (86) mushrooms


Night shift food:

2 rolls (400)

port salut/ turkey ham (118)

string cheese/seeds (640)
 
Meh, all ma plans were ruiiiiined! Got half way to my shift on the train and then there was a fatality :)() at the station ahead so all the trains were cancelled so I couldn't get to work. The office paid for a taxi home which was nice though. So now I'm back! And hungry cause I had a small dinner at 5pm ish thinking I'd have actual dinner at work at about 3am. So now I have a bag full of food. And I'm HUNGRYYYY. And just got two bottles of wine.


Bad Sunflower.


In other, not diet related news. My goal for next week is to HAVE MOAR SEX. I'm being all fat and self-loathing all the time which has killed my sex drive for like the last month. Think I've had sex about 3 times in a month. That's not good and it's stressing me and Yank out. So yeah. Bring on ze hump.
 
ASome things can't be helped. Is the plan to stay up a bit later and eat as needed, or something?

And yes, more sex is always good :hurray:
 
I'm being all fat and self-loathing all the time which has killed my sex drive for like the last month.
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Last night i watched a tv show with one of our comediennes on a personal journey to find i don't know happiness? or someting. Anyway she admitted to these same sorts of feelings and said she found the whole buddhist and yoga thing helpful. I"m just starting out with a buddhist meditation group and I know it can be really helpful with that. Maybe you could look into it.


Self-loathing is so ruinous.


I can tell you a bit about how to stop the thoughts. One of the buddhists things is "right thinking" I used this and a couple of others for a while as a daily focus and found i could really do it. So in right thinking, what you need to do is when you notice your thoughts turning foul, you just STOP IT. And its not hard to do. You just catch yourself and rather than let them run on in the usual way, you just switch your attention to something else. I mean you do have the power to do that. But its not that you need to find something else you'd rather think of. You just tell yourself to stop thinking that stuff. And it works. You mind will go to other things. Whenever you have negative self talk come up, you do the same thing. IT reall works and its quite easy.


I hope you can move through this. The negative talk is so undermining. Its what makes it so hard for us to move forward.
 
Take it easy on yourself Sunny. Life is full of ruts....just gotta learn how to drive around the avoidables and drive thru the inevitables.


(I know this topic isn't my forte at the present time but my years of experience have come to the conclusion that you cannot go back in time to change anything. Change can only happen now or in the future.) Don't dwell on this past month, think about the next month.


Again, focus on your accomplishments, and don't trudge on the failure. You are an expert at giving us hope, determination and self-esteem....you just gotta focus those things on yourself a little now and then.


If I could give ya a wet wille to make ya smile I would....so cheer up :)


Hugs bud.
 
A[quote name="Sunflower" url="/t/37771/put-that-down-fatty/940#post_803917"]My goal for next week is to HAVE MOAR SEX. [/quote]

hahaha! That's a great goal! ....It does burn calories! ;)
 
Thanks guys--Was feeling a bit low last night. My drinkings getting bad again..Think it's cus we have company and that always puts me in drinking mode but I had 2 bottles of wine and 2 beers last night. Way over my calories for the day just on booze. Sigh.


My friend Mel that is staying with me is on a diet (she's slim anyway) and all she's eating a day is a banana for lunch and then a tiny portions of whatever we have for dinner. It can't be more than 900 calories a day and she's not snacking at all and part of me is so jealous that she can do that. But I know it's dumb to eat so little. Need to find a balance.


Well, today is a new day. And I'm going to get confident again. Spoke to Yank about ze humping and we've made a pack to have sex once a day/night for the next week even if neither of us are in the mood. We're going to get our spark back :p Still think he's the sexiest thing on the planet but it's hard to feel sexy when you feel like a fatty. So I need to work on changing my attitude and I need to get my ass back in the gym. As soon as Mel and Tom are gone I'm dragging my butt to the gym!!


Breakfast: one slice bread (95)

Lunch: one slice bread (95) turkey ham (30) small handful of grated cheese (78)
Dinner: 2 tiny chicken goujons (115) 2 potato skins with small amount of cheese (320) red pepper pasta, 2 slices garlic bread (798)
Snacks: 1 glass of wine (270)

Total: 1801
 
Hey you! I'm glad you're still here. Thought it was time I came back as the baby is almost 7 months. I don't get much free time as she doesn't nap long and goes to bed late. By the time I'm done the day I'm exhausted! All I can muster is watching my calories so far which is working. I know I'll need to add exercise eventually. My baby wants to be held most of the day and she's 16 lbs, so walking around with her all day is something! lol... I do try and put her down as often as possible as I don't want to 'spoil' her, but she doesn't want to stay down long. *sigh* It's been a long 7 months! lol
 
Sunflower! Glad to see you are still around girl! Not sure if you remember me, I sort of disappeared for nearly a year. I'm back now and so happy to see a familiar name. I was worried all the people I knew would have reached their goals (which would be good, don't get me wrong) and left.
 
Hi Sunflower, saw you posted me a quick comment on my thread so I thought I'd pop over and so the same.


I love that you are having more sex, great goal!! I had never done it until I was engaged but then ended up doing most every day for the past three months, though won't be able to for the next FOUR, so I'm a big fan! haha. It really does boost your self-confidence, I feel like. I always had a bad body image feeling so fat and gross, but just knowing that there's someone that likes to do things with me naked makes me feel better somehow, you know? :)


Looks like you are doing a great job overall, keep to it!!
 
Yayyy, Risty and Mizzie! Very glad to see you guys back xx


Jessica, thanks for posting! Glad I'm not the only one who feels this way! I agree completely, just need to work up the confidence to get downnnn! ;)


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Had a funny day yesterday. My Grama came down yesterday (she's in a hotel at the moment, I'm up at silly o'clock to meet her for coffee) and the first thing she did was pinch my hip and comment on how much weight I'd put on. "Someones put weight on." Sigh. Great. And another comment "If we had walked into this pub 8 months ago when you were skinny you would have turned all the heads in here."

Love how she sees sexual attraction and weight as linked like that. Made me feel like shit. Really brought me down yesterday. Especially as I'm seeing my other (more critical) grandparents in a week and a half for my 22nd birthday. I know they'll comment. And I know I'll get upset. Its like..I *know* I've put on weight, I don't need how fat I am thrown in my face when I've invited you down for a lovely day. As soon as she said I'd put on weight she suggested going to get a cheeseburger! And I said yes! WTF is wrong with me. Sigh.


Feeling pretty low.


Yesterdays food:

Breakfast: 2 slices of toast (196) marmite and butter (35)

Lunch: small cheeseburger (415)

Dinner: Bowl of beef stew with 2 new potatoes, carrots, beef and onions. (525)

Snacks: 1/2 a bottle of wine (413)


Total: 1584



Food today:


Breakfast: pom bears (97)
Lunch: WW meal (431)
Dinner:


Night Shift:
 
Wow, she really said that? Ouch! I hate when people feel the need to comment on things like that. I mean, you already know you put weight back on, you don't need people to point it out. Sorry that happened, I'm sure it hurt. *hugs*
 
Thanks Mizzie..It was pretty crappy :(


I'm eating really well today. Just over 500 calories and it's 7pm now. Go to work in about 2 hours where I'll be taking some cold pasta salad and string cheese and diet coke. Should be fine. Then tomorrow me and Yank are going to do a food shop :)
 
AHey Hana. Thanks for peeping in my diary. Sorry you gained all your weight back but I think you'll do fine since you have a lot of people who support you here :) How'd you like Portal 2? ( I THINK you're a Portal fan, right?) It's been a while since I've poked around these forums :D
 
Hey Sunkist,


Grammas can be like that....I think they think like kids do sometimes....and just say things without consequences.


I'm sure she loves ya like the dickens (whatever that means) and just wants the best for you...which in her mind is for you to be young, healthy, thin and sexy...while you still can.


It doesn't matter how big you are or how much weight you put back on....its all about your attitude. And as long as you keep trying, and don't beat yourself up to bad when you slip, you will feel better about yourself.


Hope you can treat it like water off a duck's back and get back to feeling good about yourself.


Hugs bud!
 
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