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Rox2
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Thanks for stopping in, pal!! You're always so sweet...and I know how darn busy you are, too!
My weightloss isn't going that great. I'm stuck at 139 right now! But I'mm trying not to be discouraged...and I have lots to distract me. lol!
I managed to do my workout dvd yesterday, but didn't do anything today!! Bad me!
But things are so hectic! We're in the middle of doing some major work on our house right now. Walls and ceilings are down and dust is everywhere. It's crazy and SO messy! And we have this Romanian guy helping us with the work. He's living in our house, so things are a bit crowded....
And now my husband is away on a short trip...which is great- but it also leaves me with all the work here at home.
And did I mention that it's a two-week school holiday right now, so my four kids are all home? They're all helping with the work, of course.. but still....
busy busy busy!!!!!
Tigpuppy
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Oh the joys of home improvement! We used to live in a tiny 2 bedroom farmhouse and after we had our first baby I told hubby this is NOT going to work (the home office was also the nursery), especially if we plan to have more kids! He said but the family that first built it raised 5 kids in it. I just laughed at him and told him no way in hell am I going to do that!
So we started looking for a house that we could move onto our farm over a new basement. Lots of people had 2 story farmhouses for sale to be moved because everyone's kids all moved away and these elderly farmers moved into town when they retired. They rent their land out and many wanted to get rid of their old houses. But then our realtor said oh you just have to come see this one house that just came on the market - it's got SO MUCH character. Even though I know you are looking for a home to move, you still should just come see! So we did.
And fell in love. It was a HUGE 2 story house in a town on the other end of the county and was built by a rich banker back when the town was first established. It was the very first building in the town to have running water in it and had 9 ft ceilings with all this beautiful old crown molding, maple hardwood floors (under several layers of carpeting), beveled lead glass windows, and PLENTY of room! We decided on the spot that we wanted it, and if we could arrange to have it moved, we would take it.
Well, turns out that the home qualified as a historical landmark, but no one was willing to fill out the paperwork and register it, and the current owner wasn't willing to maintain it. The city couldn't afford to either. The owner said if it didn't sell, they would tear it down. So after a big stink for nothing the city finally gave us permission to move it.
We spent the next 4 years tearing down an old mechanics shop, ripping out trees to prepare the site for a new basement to be dug, moved the house, and remodeled it ourselves - updating all the plumbing, electrical, and heating in it. We gutted the kitchen and bathrooms and put all new insulation and fixtures in, tore down some walls, put up others to create a more open floor plan while still keeping the style of the original house. I would work 8 hour days in the office, then put in a couple of hours at the new house right after work, go home for a late supper, then go back and work a few more hours at the house. I was getting maybe 4 hours of sleep a night and some nights I didn't sleep at all because I would rent equipment like floor sanders, etc. when I got off work at night, would work all night, then return the equipment the next morning before I went to work. I completely refinished the hardwood floors all by myself. Oh yea - did I mention that right in the middle of that 4 years I got pregnant and we had our 2nd child?
Even though we weren't 100% finished remodeling we moved in when our 2nd baby was 2 years old. Everyone said it was too much house for us and couldn't figure out what we'd do with all that space. Then along came the twins - we don't have quite so much space any more!
There are STILL hundreds of remodeling projects left to finish in the house. I figure I might be completely done with everything by the time I retire. Maybe.
Good luck with your remodeling projects!
So we started looking for a house that we could move onto our farm over a new basement. Lots of people had 2 story farmhouses for sale to be moved because everyone's kids all moved away and these elderly farmers moved into town when they retired. They rent their land out and many wanted to get rid of their old houses. But then our realtor said oh you just have to come see this one house that just came on the market - it's got SO MUCH character. Even though I know you are looking for a home to move, you still should just come see! So we did.
And fell in love. It was a HUGE 2 story house in a town on the other end of the county and was built by a rich banker back when the town was first established. It was the very first building in the town to have running water in it and had 9 ft ceilings with all this beautiful old crown molding, maple hardwood floors (under several layers of carpeting), beveled lead glass windows, and PLENTY of room! We decided on the spot that we wanted it, and if we could arrange to have it moved, we would take it.
Well, turns out that the home qualified as a historical landmark, but no one was willing to fill out the paperwork and register it, and the current owner wasn't willing to maintain it. The city couldn't afford to either. The owner said if it didn't sell, they would tear it down. So after a big stink for nothing the city finally gave us permission to move it.
We spent the next 4 years tearing down an old mechanics shop, ripping out trees to prepare the site for a new basement to be dug, moved the house, and remodeled it ourselves - updating all the plumbing, electrical, and heating in it. We gutted the kitchen and bathrooms and put all new insulation and fixtures in, tore down some walls, put up others to create a more open floor plan while still keeping the style of the original house. I would work 8 hour days in the office, then put in a couple of hours at the new house right after work, go home for a late supper, then go back and work a few more hours at the house. I was getting maybe 4 hours of sleep a night and some nights I didn't sleep at all because I would rent equipment like floor sanders, etc. when I got off work at night, would work all night, then return the equipment the next morning before I went to work. I completely refinished the hardwood floors all by myself. Oh yea - did I mention that right in the middle of that 4 years I got pregnant and we had our 2nd child?
Even though we weren't 100% finished remodeling we moved in when our 2nd baby was 2 years old. Everyone said it was too much house for us and couldn't figure out what we'd do with all that space. Then along came the twins - we don't have quite so much space any more!
There are STILL hundreds of remodeling projects left to finish in the house. I figure I might be completely done with everything by the time I retire. Maybe.
Good luck with your remodeling projects!
Rox2
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Well...I'm back and I intend to stick around!
The holiday here was pretty crazy- but the kids are finally back in school and the room remodelling is done. It was quite a mess and a lot of work, but the room looks great and is quite a lot bigger now- just right for teenaged twin girls! Maybe I'll post a few pics later, if anyone wants to see...
But the main reason i need to get back on the board regularly is to help keep me on track for my final weightloss. The last few weeks, I've been eating at the top of my calorie allowance for maintenance...which is fun, believe me. But two days ago, I decided that I needed to get my head back into the "weightloss space".
Tuesday, I ate a total of 950 calories and went for a walk. It was too low, calorie-wise, but I was trying to keep myself busy and distracted and apparently forgot to eat!
Yesterday, I did a bit better and ended up with a total of 1240 well-balanced calories.
Today, it's 8am. So far, I've had some coffee with skim milk. I'd love to go out for a walk, but it's raining cats and dogs! So, I'll probably go do my shred dvd.
So, the eating seems to be back on track! I haven't weighed myself since I re-started....and I probably won't until Monday. I hate is SO bad when I eat "perfectly" and still don't lose weight. It absolutely makes me crazy!
I hope the weekend will go well. I'll be taking the train to Avignon with my eldest daughter to check out the university there. (She's 17 and shopping around for a school with a good art restoration program) So, we'll be at restaurants for three meals. And when we get home on sunday, we're invited for lunch at a friend's house. So, i'll be facing lots of tempting food.
On the other hand, I think i'll resist pretty easily...I do SO love all my pretty new clothes and feeling so confident about myself!
As for my emotional/romantic/sexual life... it's all still super-complicated, of course! Things with Hot Boyfriend are going great, but we can't see each other very often. For the next two weeks, his elderly parents are visiting him and he won't be able to see me for the next two weekends...
Things with my sex club pal are difficult. He's fun, but so possessive- which kind of defeats the whole point of being at a swingers' club! I'm glad he thinks I'm so great, but I really don't want to be controlled, owned or obliged in any way to any man right now. (Which is probabaly many peoples' definition of "slut", but so be it)
I've also been asked out by a new guy...someone who tried to pick me up at the supermarket! He's perfectly nice and seems to be crushing on me, big-time. I probably should stay away from him, as he appears to be pretty romantic and would probably be quite shocked by me if he really knew me. So far, we've just had coffee together...and I suppose things should stop at that....
Hot Neighbor has been out of town the last few weeks. I don't know if we'll be getting together again or not...
The husband? Well, after the 3rd time I got home at 4am on a Sunday morning, he finally realized that I am probably sleeping with other men. Duh. The odd thing is, he said that after I come home from being with other men, he'd like to make love with me. And yes, this is freaking me out!
Told you it was complicated.....
The holiday here was pretty crazy- but the kids are finally back in school and the room remodelling is done. It was quite a mess and a lot of work, but the room looks great and is quite a lot bigger now- just right for teenaged twin girls! Maybe I'll post a few pics later, if anyone wants to see...
But the main reason i need to get back on the board regularly is to help keep me on track for my final weightloss. The last few weeks, I've been eating at the top of my calorie allowance for maintenance...which is fun, believe me. But two days ago, I decided that I needed to get my head back into the "weightloss space".
Tuesday, I ate a total of 950 calories and went for a walk. It was too low, calorie-wise, but I was trying to keep myself busy and distracted and apparently forgot to eat!
Yesterday, I did a bit better and ended up with a total of 1240 well-balanced calories.
Today, it's 8am. So far, I've had some coffee with skim milk. I'd love to go out for a walk, but it's raining cats and dogs! So, I'll probably go do my shred dvd.
So, the eating seems to be back on track! I haven't weighed myself since I re-started....and I probably won't until Monday. I hate is SO bad when I eat "perfectly" and still don't lose weight. It absolutely makes me crazy!
I hope the weekend will go well. I'll be taking the train to Avignon with my eldest daughter to check out the university there. (She's 17 and shopping around for a school with a good art restoration program) So, we'll be at restaurants for three meals. And when we get home on sunday, we're invited for lunch at a friend's house. So, i'll be facing lots of tempting food.
On the other hand, I think i'll resist pretty easily...I do SO love all my pretty new clothes and feeling so confident about myself!
As for my emotional/romantic/sexual life... it's all still super-complicated, of course! Things with Hot Boyfriend are going great, but we can't see each other very often. For the next two weeks, his elderly parents are visiting him and he won't be able to see me for the next two weekends...
Things with my sex club pal are difficult. He's fun, but so possessive- which kind of defeats the whole point of being at a swingers' club! I'm glad he thinks I'm so great, but I really don't want to be controlled, owned or obliged in any way to any man right now. (Which is probabaly many peoples' definition of "slut", but so be it)
I've also been asked out by a new guy...someone who tried to pick me up at the supermarket! He's perfectly nice and seems to be crushing on me, big-time. I probably should stay away from him, as he appears to be pretty romantic and would probably be quite shocked by me if he really knew me. So far, we've just had coffee together...and I suppose things should stop at that....
Hot Neighbor has been out of town the last few weeks. I don't know if we'll be getting together again or not...
The husband? Well, after the 3rd time I got home at 4am on a Sunday morning, he finally realized that I am probably sleeping with other men. Duh. The odd thing is, he said that after I come home from being with other men, he'd like to make love with me. And yes, this is freaking me out!
Told you it was complicated.....
Rox2
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Hey! I almost forgot! I wanted to share photos from the music recital I sang in a couple of weeks ago!
I study vocal performance at a music conservatory and we had our first big recital on Feb 25. The theme was "Carnival in Venice" and we all needed fancy costumes. I had an old red party dress I'd bought at a vintage clothing store about 25 years ago. I thought it might be perfect, so i tried it on again. It fit nearly perfectly...it was just a little too big in the waist and chest areas. I took it in a bit and it was great!
I found the wig at a costume shop and was ready to go!
The show went great and I even managed to get through my solo piece pretty well! A friend filmed me performing it at the dress rehearsal. She's giving me a copy tonight and if it's not too awful, I'll post it, too...
At any rate, I felt that I looked pretty cool!
I study vocal performance at a music conservatory and we had our first big recital on Feb 25. The theme was "Carnival in Venice" and we all needed fancy costumes. I had an old red party dress I'd bought at a vintage clothing store about 25 years ago. I thought it might be perfect, so i tried it on again. It fit nearly perfectly...it was just a little too big in the waist and chest areas. I took it in a bit and it was great!
I found the wig at a costume shop and was ready to go!
The show went great and I even managed to get through my solo piece pretty well! A friend filmed me performing it at the dress rehearsal. She's giving me a copy tonight and if it's not too awful, I'll post it, too...
At any rate, I felt that I looked pretty cool!
Tigpuppy
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Congrats on doing so well at your recital! I LOVE the pictures! You look really great!
Boy, you weren't kidding when you said your love/sex life is complicated. I have to agree - it's kind of weird that your husband wants you after you come home from what he believes is a lover's tryst. Have you given in or is it just too creepy for you to go thru with?
I would love to see some before/after pictures of your remodelling project! I bet it feels so good to be done with that...
Looking forward to seeing you on a bit more often as we cheer you to the finish line of your weight loss journey! GO ROX!!!
Boy, you weren't kidding when you said your love/sex life is complicated. I have to agree - it's kind of weird that your husband wants you after you come home from what he believes is a lover's tryst. Have you given in or is it just too creepy for you to go thru with?
I would love to see some before/after pictures of your remodelling project! I bet it feels so good to be done with that...
Looking forward to seeing you on a bit more often as we cheer you to the finish line of your weight loss journey! GO ROX!!!
Rox2
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Thanks so much! I had a great time at the recital and I'm looking forward to performing more in the future!
As for my love life...it's crazy, that's for sure. I'm not letting my husband touch me , though...I'm SO over him. I'm sleeping on the couch now and wondering how the heck to get rid of him. He's refusing a divorce, or even a separation!
Gah!
My eating is going great lately...but not so much the exercise. But i do what i can....
Calories today are at 440 and it's already 5:30pm. i guess i'll have a super-nice dinner. I'm was planning on a veggie burger and green beans, but maybe I'll get a bit more fancy...
I haven't weighed myself, as it's my TOM. No point it weighing in until it's over...
I spent last weekend in the adorable town of Avignon in the south of France. I had some fabulous sushi there. What a treat!
That's about it for now. I don't plan on seeing any of my guys this weekend...what with the TOM and all that. And frankly, I can use a rest! lol!
We have houseguests arriving on Friday, though. So I won't be able to sleep on the couch foàr a week while they're here. i'm not sure what i'll do....
As for my love life...it's crazy, that's for sure. I'm not letting my husband touch me , though...I'm SO over him. I'm sleeping on the couch now and wondering how the heck to get rid of him. He's refusing a divorce, or even a separation!
Gah!
My eating is going great lately...but not so much the exercise. But i do what i can....
Calories today are at 440 and it's already 5:30pm. i guess i'll have a super-nice dinner. I'm was planning on a veggie burger and green beans, but maybe I'll get a bit more fancy...
I haven't weighed myself, as it's my TOM. No point it weighing in until it's over...
I spent last weekend in the adorable town of Avignon in the south of France. I had some fabulous sushi there. What a treat!
That's about it for now. I don't plan on seeing any of my guys this weekend...what with the TOM and all that. And frankly, I can use a rest! lol!
We have houseguests arriving on Friday, though. So I won't be able to sleep on the couch foàr a week while they're here. i'm not sure what i'll do....
Penguinita
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Hey Rox my God you're life has changed so much!!! I wish I would pop in here more often. I'm glad you've been having fun and keep on having fun! You suffered enough so I'm so happy you're pursuing happiness. The pictures are so cool!!! It must be a work out being in a concert, I assume because of all the intensity it requires.
As for weight loss we're at the last lap I think, we're at the point that all we have to do is "put in the little details". I wish to get there fast but I know I'll get there regardless of how long it takes.
As for weight loss we're at the last lap I think, we're at the point that all we have to do is "put in the little details". I wish to get there fast but I know I'll get there regardless of how long it takes.
Tigpuppy
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Poor Rox - exhausted from all that sexercise! LOL! 
Sorry to hear your husband is being such a jerk about leaving and giving you a divorce. I hope your couch is a comfy one! I assume your kids realize now that things are not all the best between you and their dad? How are they handling it?
I wouldn't worry too much about the exercise - I think that 90% of weight loss is more about how we eat than how many minutes or hours of exercise we get.
Have fun with your guests this week and hope you can get some decent sleeping arrangements made while they are there!
Sorry to hear your husband is being such a jerk about leaving and giving you a divorce. I hope your couch is a comfy one! I assume your kids realize now that things are not all the best between you and their dad? How are they handling it?
I wouldn't worry too much about the exercise - I think that 90% of weight loss is more about how we eat than how many minutes or hours of exercise we get.
Have fun with your guests this week and hope you can get some decent sleeping arrangements made while they are there!
Verobc1
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Hey Rox
How about telling the house guest husband snore too much so you use the couch in order to get decent sleep!,,,Unless your guest is using the couch I guess that would make it a little to crowded! You have come so far already in your weightloss....you know you can make it happen...the last 20 to 30 lb are the hardess to lose apparently! I know you can do it.....Too bad you can't just change the locks on the house in order to get rid of the husband...I really hope that situaltion gets better it can't be fun....at least you get to have a great life on the side!!! Take Care!
How about telling the house guest husband snore too much so you use the couch in order to get decent sleep!,,,Unless your guest is using the couch I guess that would make it a little to crowded! You have come so far already in your weightloss....you know you can make it happen...the last 20 to 30 lb are the hardess to lose apparently! I know you can do it.....Too bad you can't just change the locks on the house in order to get rid of the husband...I really hope that situaltion gets better it can't be fun....at least you get to have a great life on the side!!! Take Care!
healthyjess
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Hey Rox,
The photos from your recital are great! I think it's just so awesome to see how confident you are now.
Have a good rest lol
The photos from your recital are great! I think it's just so awesome to see how confident you are now.
Have a good rest lol
Rox2
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Thanks for all the messages and support. It really cheered me up last night when i checked in here and read them all. I was definitely down and feeling discouraged.
The last few days with my husband have been worse than usual. He's been depressed and hard to live with and on Thurday, he finally told me that he's upset because his girlfriend is engaged to be married. Yup. He won't give me a divorce or even separation, but he's still completely wrapped up in his girlfriend. I really dion't get it. i really don't.
At any rate, I've been kind of frustrated and outright angry, even.
Add to that my TOM, and I found myself on Thursday eating everything in sight. It's the first time in a year I've had such a bad day, food-wise. And then i did the same thing on friday! I was SO mad at myself and discouraged when I came upstairs to go to bed yesterday. And then I checked out my diary here and found the messages from so many really nice people who believe in me. thanks! You guys saved me from what could have been a HUGE backslide!! You helped me get up this morning and go back to life as usual, eating right and keeping my mind on my goals!
I guess I'm also a bit frustrated by the fact that I'm not going out this weekend. I miss my guys!
BTW- As for the sleeping arrangements around here- we don't have a guest room, so our guests are sleeping on the sofa bed in the living room. Sharing a bedroom with my husband is NOT fun for me....but I'm a bit stuck right now. This is really all so stupid....
Calories? Right!
Tuesday I was at 1130 for the day. Wednesday was 1140. Thursday and Friday were... OMG! But today I'm at 530 calories and it's 5:30pm. I think I'll manage just fine!
Thanks again!!!!
The last few days with my husband have been worse than usual. He's been depressed and hard to live with and on Thurday, he finally told me that he's upset because his girlfriend is engaged to be married. Yup. He won't give me a divorce or even separation, but he's still completely wrapped up in his girlfriend. I really dion't get it. i really don't.
At any rate, I've been kind of frustrated and outright angry, even.
Add to that my TOM, and I found myself on Thursday eating everything in sight. It's the first time in a year I've had such a bad day, food-wise. And then i did the same thing on friday! I was SO mad at myself and discouraged when I came upstairs to go to bed yesterday. And then I checked out my diary here and found the messages from so many really nice people who believe in me. thanks! You guys saved me from what could have been a HUGE backslide!! You helped me get up this morning and go back to life as usual, eating right and keeping my mind on my goals!
I guess I'm also a bit frustrated by the fact that I'm not going out this weekend. I miss my guys!
BTW- As for the sleeping arrangements around here- we don't have a guest room, so our guests are sleeping on the sofa bed in the living room. Sharing a bedroom with my husband is NOT fun for me....but I'm a bit stuck right now. This is really all so stupid....
Calories? Right!
Tuesday I was at 1130 for the day. Wednesday was 1140. Thursday and Friday were... OMG! But today I'm at 530 calories and it's 5:30pm. I think I'll manage just fine!
Thanks again!!!!
venyov
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Hi Rox!
It looks like you barely eat. If you are looking for permanent weight loss result you should balance your body. An other thing, whatever you do, do it for yourself, Rox!
Love your body and give it the best of you. Stop examining your weight every day. It's stressful. Just follow your picture, the one which you got in your mind and you will be surprised. It's all about the attitude. Everything else is easy.
Good luck!
It looks like you barely eat. If you are looking for permanent weight loss result you should balance your body. An other thing, whatever you do, do it for yourself, Rox!
Love your body and give it the best of you. Stop examining your weight every day. It's stressful. Just follow your picture, the one which you got in your mind and you will be surprised. It's all about the attitude. Everything else is easy.
Good luck!
Rox2
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I've been busy.... but doing pretty well, all things considered!
My daily calories have been coming in at about 1100 to 1300 per day. Yesterday I was kind of low...but that's better than slipping out of control!
I haven't weighed myself yet..and don't know if i will anytime soon. It's just too frustrating to be eating "perfectly" and not see the scale move. In my current state, i'm afraid bad numbers may result in binging...I'd prefer to diet like a good girl and just tell myself that I'm doing good.
I've been busy with family stuff and haven't had any fun for the last three weeks or so! Crazy!
Luckily, Hot Boyfriend has a day off tomorrow and wants to spend it with me.
Plus, my swinger club friend wants to go out tomorrow night...but I'm not sure if I'm up for it. It might be too much, even for me! lol!
At any rate, I'm hanging in there, trying to keep it all together......
My daily calories have been coming in at about 1100 to 1300 per day. Yesterday I was kind of low...but that's better than slipping out of control!
I haven't weighed myself yet..and don't know if i will anytime soon. It's just too frustrating to be eating "perfectly" and not see the scale move. In my current state, i'm afraid bad numbers may result in binging...I'd prefer to diet like a good girl and just tell myself that I'm doing good.
I've been busy with family stuff and haven't had any fun for the last three weeks or so! Crazy!
Luckily, Hot Boyfriend has a day off tomorrow and wants to spend it with me.
Plus, my swinger club friend wants to go out tomorrow night...but I'm not sure if I'm up for it. It might be too much, even for me! lol!
At any rate, I'm hanging in there, trying to keep it all together......
Verobc1
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Hey Rox
I think you are doing amazing with all the stress around you! I am thinking your husband likes having some controle over your life...that is the only reason I can't think of not agreeing to a least a seperation. Mabee he finnaly realised what was in front of him all these years. Either way keep doing what makes you happy, I am a strong beleiver that good things happen to good people! Take Care, forget last weeks bad days, it happend can't be change no poin dwelling on it right! I am trying to forget the last month lol!
I think you are doing amazing with all the stress around you! I am thinking your husband likes having some controle over your life...that is the only reason I can't think of not agreeing to a least a seperation. Mabee he finnaly realised what was in front of him all these years. Either way keep doing what makes you happy, I am a strong beleiver that good things happen to good people! Take Care, forget last weeks bad days, it happend can't be change no poin dwelling on it right! I am trying to forget the last month lol!
Alta818
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Hi Rox, baby!! ! I missed you!!!! So glad to hear you caught yourself out of those spiraling negative binges. Those can be the worst. Good thing you haven't had those in over a year! Amazing. Your pics are HOT!!! You look adorable! Love that you can sing. You have some pipes on you, I bet. Do you have any videos uploaded on youtube? I'd love to listen!
As far as the hubby. Damn. Isn't it just ridiculous? Sounds like he is just trying to find a grass that's greener, yet that grass he found has already found even greener grass than him! That's gotta be a bummer. At the very least, YOU have found enough logic to not put all your eggs in one basket after such a long relationship. I mean, what's the point of that right? ...To put all the eggs in one basket... It's almost like stepping on the same brown grass we are standing on, and then realizing we jumped to even browner grass that had the resemblence of green. haha. If you feel me!
...If you keep hopping around, you are never there long enough to notice that their grass is brown too,...AND you leave thinking that it's green! Can't get better than that. Fun times.! (men being the grass, of course..., or in your husband's view-women being the grass-the browness comes from all the shit that all relationships go through. give it time.)
Glad you are ON TRACK THOUGH! Even if you don't have anything to do for a weekend, grab a cup of wine, lock the door to the bathroom, a book, and a BUBBLE bath if you can. Wine and dine you!! ...But, for some reason, I have a feeling that you don't stay home weekends much, afterall.! The night always calls it's creatures out to play! 
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! I missed you!!!! So glad to hear you caught yourself out of those spiraling negative binges. Those can be the worst. Good thing you haven't had those in over a year! Amazing. Your pics are HOT!!! You look adorable! Love that you can sing. You have some pipes on you, I bet. Do you have any videos uploaded on youtube? I'd love to listen!As far as the hubby. Damn. Isn't it just ridiculous? Sounds like he is just trying to find a grass that's greener, yet that grass he found has already found even greener grass than him! That's gotta be a bummer. At the very least, YOU have found enough logic to not put all your eggs in one basket after such a long relationship. I mean, what's the point of that right? ...To put all the eggs in one basket... It's almost like stepping on the same brown grass we are standing on, and then realizing we jumped to even browner grass that had the resemblence of green. haha. If you feel me!
...If you keep hopping around, you are never there long enough to notice that their grass is brown too,...AND you leave thinking that it's green! Can't get better than that. Fun times.
! (men being the grass, of course..., or in your husband's view-women being the grass-the browness comes from all the shit that all relationships go through. give it time.)Glad you are ON TRACK THOUGH! Even if you don't have anything to do for a weekend, grab a cup of wine, lock the door to the bathroom, a book, and a BUBBLE bath if you can. Wine and dine you!! ...But, for some reason, I have a feeling that you don't stay home weekends much, afterall.
! The night always calls it's creatures out to play! !
Rox2
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Lol, Alta! You always make me smile!
I'm doing just fine....keeping the grass green and well-trimmed, so to speak!
I just saw my Hot Boyfriend on Sunday afternoon and major fun was had!
And this coming Thursday? Well- major craziness in store. i'm going to the sxingers club without my swinger pal. It's a bit of a long story..but the upshot is that he's really too into me and now he's JEALOUS! Can you believe it? He's married and a swinger, but doesn't want any other men f***ing me.
Unbelievable!
Anyway, I'm going on Thurday and I'm invited to hang out with the owner (a very hot and nice guy from Cameroon who is crushing on me!) and watch the evening from there. It's a special night at the club and I'm curious to see it...but way too scared to participate. It involves one woman and a large number of gentlemen. If you see my meaning. *ahem*
As for my eating?
I am up and down, with lower and higher calorie days. So, i'm staying steady, weight-wise. I'd meant to try to lose more...but I'm just not there mentally, i guess. But i'm enjoying where I'm at! On Saturday I was out shopping and had a great time trying on clothes. There was one cute dress that they only had in a size 12 and a size 6. Even I could see that the 12 was too big for me, but I was sure that the six would be too tiny. But I tried it on and it fit perfectly. It was even a bit loose!!!!!!
Squee!!!!!!
And honestly...at nearly 5 feet 7inches and 45 years old, I don't feel a burning need to be a size 4!
I didn't buy the dress, but I did buy a cute denim mini dress. I got it in a size 8 because I wanted it a bit roomy and comfy for summer wear. So cute!
I LOVE shopping!!!!!!
I'm doing just fine....keeping the grass green and well-trimmed, so to speak!
I just saw my Hot Boyfriend on Sunday afternoon and major fun was had!
And this coming Thursday? Well- major craziness in store. i'm going to the sxingers club without my swinger pal. It's a bit of a long story..but the upshot is that he's really too into me and now he's JEALOUS! Can you believe it? He's married and a swinger, but doesn't want any other men f***ing me.
Unbelievable!
Anyway, I'm going on Thurday and I'm invited to hang out with the owner (a very hot and nice guy from Cameroon who is crushing on me!) and watch the evening from there. It's a special night at the club and I'm curious to see it...but way too scared to participate. It involves one woman and a large number of gentlemen. If you see my meaning. *ahem*
As for my eating?
I am up and down, with lower and higher calorie days. So, i'm staying steady, weight-wise. I'd meant to try to lose more...but I'm just not there mentally, i guess. But i'm enjoying where I'm at! On Saturday I was out shopping and had a great time trying on clothes. There was one cute dress that they only had in a size 12 and a size 6. Even I could see that the 12 was too big for me, but I was sure that the six would be too tiny. But I tried it on and it fit perfectly. It was even a bit loose!!!!!!
Squee!!!!!!
And honestly...at nearly 5 feet 7inches and 45 years old, I don't feel a burning need to be a size 4!
I didn't buy the dress, but I did buy a cute denim mini dress. I got it in a size 8 because I wanted it a bit roomy and comfy for summer wear. So cute!
I LOVE shopping!!!!!!
Penguinita
New member
OMG congrats on the size six!!! What an accomplishment, I think I'll throw a party when I get there. Or go to a show, but it has to be celebrated!!!
Your life is definatley keeping you busy!! Just remember to eat healty and at this point you could even stop counting calories.
Your life is definatley keeping you busy!! Just remember to eat healty and at this point you could even stop counting calories.
Rox2
New member
When that day comes and you throw a party, Pen- I'll be there...at least in spirit!
And you're right...maintaining is good enough right now. It seems to be all I can handle, so that's what i'll concentrate on. My original goal was 144 and I'm below that and I feel good about it! So, today I'm trying not counting calories, but just being mindful. I usually write down what i eat on a post it and keep track through the day- but I'll try not doing that today and see how it goes.
It's past 8 am and so far I've had two cups of coffee with skim milk. I couldn't decide what to have for breakfast and kind of gave up on it. Too much thinking involved. lol!
Also- below I put up a picture one of my girls took of me on Friday night before we went to go see (which was SO cool!!!) I LOVE my plaid spring coat- size small!- that I found in a thrift shop for next to nothing!
And you're right...maintaining is good enough right now. It seems to be all I can handle, so that's what i'll concentrate on. My original goal was 144 and I'm below that and I feel good about it! So, today I'm trying not counting calories, but just being mindful. I usually write down what i eat on a post it and keep track through the day- but I'll try not doing that today and see how it goes.
It's past 8 am and so far I've had two cups of coffee with skim milk. I couldn't decide what to have for breakfast and kind of gave up on it. Too much thinking involved. lol!
Also- below I put up a picture one of my girls took of me on Friday night before we went to go see (which was SO cool!!!) I LOVE my plaid spring coat- size small!- that I found in a thrift shop for next to nothing!