Project Rox

I haven't been posting on my diary because I have lacked motivation. I sort of had a vague goal of losing a bit more weight, but didn't really make a plan.

That said, I did manage to really boost my exercise over the past two months. I've been doing at least 45 minutes a day six days a week. Mostly it's been jillian Michaels dvds- which are really pretty intense and quite effective. In fact, i'm feeling so fit that I want to take it up a level and really try to hone my body a bit more.


So- now I have a plan. Yesterday I downloaded all the P90X dvds. I'm going to do the full three month program faithfully and see where it gets me.

here are a couple of "before pics" taken a few days ago...





As you can see, for a 46 year old mom of four who used to be obese, I look pretty ok. Favorite thing: I have a muscled back and NO rolls of backfat! yay!! But there is definitely room to become way more awesome

So- I'm going to give this my best shot - which is probably going to be a good one- right? ! If I lost 82 lbs, there's no reason I can't get super-shredded. The diet and recipes might be a bit tricky, as I'm cooking for six people, but I'll manage.

I'm going to be away this weekend, and I'll definitely exercise (jogging and some mat work)- but probably not the P90X. I'm start that for reals on Monday. But today I'm planning on doing the first workout, just to get a feel for what I'm getting into. I might have to back down into a Power 90, but I thought I'd try the hardcore version first. I am reasonably confident in my skills....

I'll write again soon and report back.
 
My first day of P90X is a GO! I managed the upper body workout pretty well. There were TONS of push up and pull-ups, but I did my best and went hard. A lot of the push ups I had to do on my knees...but that will change over time.


The 16 minute ab workout after that was lots easier for me. I could do 25 perfect reps of nearly every exercise, so that felt awesome!


The eating schedule is very do-able. I'm doing the portion plan and it feels great so far. It's a 1600 calorie plan and it's more than I'm used to eating. Wonderful!!

I'm usually at 1300 or so (and not losing weight- just maintaining:))

But I'm trusting that upping my calories and really following the fitness program will help me get the look I want. I know people (like Alta, for example) that have gotten really good results, so...


We have two German exchange students arriving tomorrow to stay for one week. It will be a bit tricky juggling everything, but I'll manage...


At least my stupid husband is in Italy for the week, so I've got a bit of peace at home... and I'm hoping to see a lot of Nick. Things between us are going really well. And now I've even got him interested in starting to exercise! I'm so happy to be a good influence on my beloved!
 
Second day is going GREAT! I loved the "Plyometics" workout. I managed to do the whole thing with no extra stops and only had to do modifiers during two excercises!! My dvd workouts (Jillian Michaels!) have really gotten me even more fit than I realised. this is definitely the workout plan for me. Im SO excited.


The food is going well. I'm slowly raing my calories. It turns out that I've been eating far too little (1300 or so per day) and I really need to increase to at least 1600 and possibly more!


Well- I'd better get going. I need to shower and start getting ready for the Germans to show up!
 
Today was the third day of my awesome P90X adventure. I loved the shoulder and biceps workout. And i killed the abs again.

Eating is going great. I'm SO motivated!


On the other hand...I'm coming down with a cold and starting to feel kind of awful tonight. I really hope I can fight this bug off so that I can keep giving my workouts 100%.
 
AYou rock! :D I wish I could workout like crazy, never thought I would actually miss it!

You need to take D-vitamin and tea with organic honey to avoid that bug. ;)
 
Thanks, sweetie. But you just keep going nice and gently for the moment! You'll be able to exercise again in a few months...if your bf will take care of the baby, that is! Make sure you get enough "me" time after the little one comes!


As for this cold...i fell pretty dreadful right now. I've been eating an orange every day, but i hadn't thought of d-vitamin. I've also been drinking lots of herbal tea. I'm allowed a tiny bit of organic honey in my diet, if I want it. I guess I should give it a try... I'd do just about anything to avoid getting really sick. I want to keep my workouts strong and intense!!


Today's calorie count is 1402 excellent calories: 40 percent protein and only healthy, non-processed foods. I don't see HOW I can even be sick... it seems unfair!
 
ASure my bf will look after the little one when I will do my daily workouts! ;) He has already promised, and Im sure I will need that time for myself! I dont want to lock up myself and the baby inside the house. Nonono. And I can also make long walks with the baby in the stroller, so excited. :) When baby will be born it is beautiful spring time over here, sun will be shining after dark winter.

One orange in a day wont keep that flu away! You should also eat berries or something where you would get lots of vitamins! I drink every morning my "super smoothie" including berries, quark, chia seeds and a drop of organic honey! I havent had flu for MONTHS. I dont remember when I had it last time. And D-vitamin is also a good help.. You should read more from the internet. But 5-10ug is not enough if you take that.

Sometimes the bug is the kind which just comes, you cant avoid it. But if its partly cos of stress or something like that, you can do tricks to make it go away. Its all about immune system too.. And with good, healthy food you can make it stronger. :)

xo
 
Thanks so much, E.! It's lovely getting good advice from a medical professional for free.


And I'm so glad your bf has promised to be a good father to baby and a good partner to you. They will benefit from the one on one time and you will be a happier woman! here are still far too many men who think of caring for their own children as "babysitting". It's really crazy and I'm glad your bf isn't one of those types.


As for me, I spent a rough night, feeling sick and having trouble breathing. I've taken a cold/flu medicine today to dry out my nose a bit so I can at least get through today's workout. It's lower body today, plus abs.


Nick came over yesterday at lunchtime, just for an hour. We're lucky that he runs his own business and has some flexibility in his schedule. Of course, when emergencies come up, it all falls on him, so that's the downside.

When we're together, Nick and I talk about everything under the sun. It seems like there's so much to say...but we avoid one subject: our future. I know that we belong together, but I have a bunch of very expensive teenagers to think of and a crazy husband who will lose his mind and blow them all off if I try to divorce him. And Nick has a tiny baby girl to think of.... I don't really see how this is all going to work out.

On the other hand, ever since his daughter was born he's been talking to me about raising her bilingually. I have been giving him advice, passing on books, etc. Finally, last week he told me he'd started and then said it was to prepare her for future changes in her life....and then he gave me a strange, sort of testing look. Then he said something about her speaking English with ME....I can't recall exactly what he said, as my brain started to scramble a bit. He was definitely envisioning me in Marion's life and cautiously checking out my response.

You'd think I'd be over the moon...but i'm really a bit freaked out. Nick and I have this exciting relationship that (even after one and a half years of seeing each other at least once a week and often more) is full of adrenaline and passion. Thinking of any kind of real life with Nick is strange. Mostly nice, but strange. I'm definitely not sure about getting into helping raise a small child again. I'm just now getting free from my own beloved-yet-constraining kids....

So, I'll keep dodging the question for now. I keep really busy so that I don't have to think too much a about that kind of thing. Classes at the conservatory have started again. I go there four days per week. Not for all day- just about five hours per week total. But it's a good way to get out of the house and see friends.

I have three students taking private English classes from me.

And P90x takes up a lot of my time. Betwen the funny diet and all the sports, it's very mind-occupying....


I feel pretty rotten. hope i make it through my workout:)
 
My cold is absolutely ROTTEN! I feel really dreadful!

That said, I've managed to do my P90X workouts anyway:Angel_anim: I really enjoyed the Kenpo yesterday...and I know I'll like it even better when i'm feeling 100% again.

Today was just the stretching workout, so I did that this morning.


The eating is going ok. I seem to get up to 1350 calories or so and then give out. I just can't face eating any more. I'm supposed to be at 1600. I guess I'll have to try to edge up very slowly over time. iIve been at 1200 for so long that it feels odd to eat more. But I know it does me good to have more calories- I was really putting my metabolism in starvation mode before. So- no more of that!


I hope to see Nick again tomorrow.... so I'd better get myself well before then so that I can enjoy myself!
 
My cold hung on for two weeks, but I only missed ONE workout! Yay me! And I even made up for that by skipping my rest day. So, i'm still completely on track with my P90X experience.


SO- I'm starting on week four now, which is the Recovery week. No weight training...just lots of yoga, plyometrics, core work, etc. Should be fun, as I can really kick the butt of those workouts. in contrast, I struggle with the workouts that consist of lots of push-ups and pull-ups. I'm making lots of progress, but it's still not as fun and satisfying as being able to master fully the various moves.

My pull-up bar is my worst enemy and my most useful friend....


Eating is going great. I'm kind of enjoying the structure of it. The freedom of straight calorie counting has always worked for me and kept me able to stay on track month after month. But doing three months of more controlled diet is quite interesting i wouldn't want to live this way forever, but it's ok for 90 days....


I'm REALLy seeing results! I've lost only one pound during the last three weeks, but my body is SO different. My bodyfat is down by THREE percent and it mostly came off my hips and thighs- which are my big (lol!) problem area My pants are all loose and it looks like I'll have to buy me some size eights and sixes soon! I already had to buy a pair of size small yoga pants because my old ones were falling off during my workouts! I even had to get the "slim hip" cut!


Nick is making me a bit crazy. I last saw him on September 27- nearly two weeks ago. That was a Thu_rsday. I sent him an sms on Monday inviting him to come over and see me and got no response. i had no news from him until that wednesday night. He wrote an email that read as follows:

Hello my love!
I hope you're OK and your weekend was nice ?
Mine was OK, we went to see my parents one last time with Marion, my father was really moved when we left on monday (even though, as a real Mossi, he tried to hide it). I'll do my best to send them regularly som pix of Marion, and videochat with them on Skype.
I'm going back there this weekend to help them move, I'll drop them at the airport on sunday afternoon then come back to Annemasse in the evening.

I'm kind of busy since yesterday, that's why I didn't call or text before. Unfortunately, I won't have a car starting this afternoon (my cousin needs it for a few days), but I'll come back from Marseille with my parents' car - so starting next week (and until my sister comes in November, when she'll steal it for 3 weeks), I shouldn't have any more car problems :)
I found this link yesterday, just a taste of things to come for next year - hopefully, we'll finish watching our pending movies and series before then!!

I miss you very much, I hope you're well and your voice is back to its usual beauty!


I didn't answer, as I found this rather unsatisfactory. And I somehow found the strength to not send him any communication at all, as I wanted to wait and see how long it would take him to miss me or think there was something wrong.

He's done this so many times- ignored me completely for a week or more. Once it was nearly three weeks!

I've told him not to do it...and he still does it.

Writing this all down in black and white makes me see that it's stupid - I shouldn't put up with it and I should just dump him.

But I really do love him.

But I also can't bear being treated so carelessly.

Here's the email he sent me late last night, after having no news from me since October 1st:


Still no news from you - I'm wondering if you're mad at me, or ill, or .... ?????

I'll send you a "pong" by sms tomorrow, maybe it works in that direction too ? :)

I came back from Marseille very late yesterday night, my parents are now back in Ouaga
and I'm totally exhausted after a long weekend helping them to close the house and
prepare their stuff.

Last week was horrible for me : not only I had no news from you, but at work I had to deal
with emergencies, emergencies, and more emergencies...
...and this morning was more of the same! :(

Gladly, tomorrow I'm in Carouge most of the day to prepare a new client's installation: this should
help me stress a little less - seeing you, talking to you, kissing you and fucking you would be the absolute
best therapy, but sadly it doesn't look like I'll get that kind of treatment tomorrow :(

I really hope you're OK, and send you all my love...

I miss you!


I caved and sent him an sms. I suggested we meet at five thirty tonight to talk. He still hasn't answered.

I hate this.

I'm going to go workout now......
 
I did my Kenpo workout today: I really love doing the martial arts/kickboxing type stuff!


I've decided that a good goal for me would be to get down to 19% bodyfat. Over the past three and a half weeks, I've gone from 24 % to 12.4%, so I think it's pretty realistic to think I could get to 19...or even below!


I saw Nick last night. It was a very passionate reunion, after not seeing each other for nearly two weeks. I told him very honestly how unhappy I've been. He seems sorry, but it's unlikely things will change much...


At least my creepy husband is leaving me alone more. He has taken up with a new girlfriend and has been away nearly every day seeing her. it's kind of nice for me, as he usually works at home all day and annoys me. The only downside is that she seems to be a university student from South America. The guy has a thing for preying on young, third-world women. I just hope she doesn't have plans to get "accidentally" pregnant. .... We have four kids to put through college and our agreement is to stay "together" until they are independant.


I guess I'm a bit jealous, too... his girlfriend is available all the time, Meanwhile, my Nick is so busy with his job, elderly his parents, his baby, his girlfriend.... It's a wonder we even manage to see each other. I guess I don't feel like I'm a priority in his life and it really gets me down..


On the other hand, today I weigh 138lbs and have 21%bodyfat. Three years ago, I weighed 221lbs. I find that AMAZING! And I'm only going to get better!!!!!
 
Did the StretchX workout...am not a fan. It's only the second time I've done it. The last two days it was scheduled, I ended up doing step aerobics instead. and I was right to have done so, as it seems like a waste of an hour. I'm already pretty flexible and benefit more from the yoga workout in that aspect.


I've decided to cut my calories to 1300 per day. I weigh 138 and I think I'd like to see 129 on the scale eventually. And losing one pound each three weeks or so seems too slow and painful. So....


Today's calories were 1277. 40% protein (Cottage cheese at lunch, FTW. I'm SO glad I can finally find it in France now!) and lots of veg, with whole grain and some fruit.
 
One month progress pics for my P90X project:

For each pair the top is today and the bottom is 30 days ago
 
My weight plateau is OVER!! My weight today was


136.8 lbs!!!


(and My body fat is 19.1%!!!)


I am SO happy!! I think the last time I weighed this much was ....i can't actually recall! it must have been in junior high, because in high school, my weight stayed steady at 144lbs all the time...and then slowly went up from there...


At any rate, I can hardly believe i got down below 139!


And best of all, i feel strong and pretty toned!


I'll definitely post more pics soon. I just went out to a swinger's club last night with Nick and I wore a super-revealing dress. I hadn't been out to a club for a few months, so lots of my friends hadn't seen me since the spring. The first thing people said when I took off my coat was "OMG! You lost so much weight! Did you lose 5 or six kilos?!"

It's crazy, as I really hadn't lost much weight since I'd seen them...but I've replaced so much fat with muscle that it's given me a new look...which i'm pretty happy about!!


My goal of 19% bobyfat is met now:coolgleama: So- time for a new goal.


I'd like to get my weight down to 128 and get to 17 bodyfat. I think(hope!) i'll look very athletic, but still feminine...


More soon!!!!!!
 
Progress is slow, but steady! I'm down another half a pound. And best of all, it was fat, not muscle. I weighed 136.2 this morning and my bodyfat was 19 %. it took nine days, but it happened. At this rate, it will take me quite a while to get down to 128, but I guess I've got nothing better to do. Literally!

The important thing is that I keep feeling strong and fit!


I




I've been having a nice time the last two weeks. JP is away in Africa and I'm free to enjoy life with my fantastic kids!


I also find a bit of time to see my darling Nick, of course. Above is a pic of what I wore out to a club with him on Saturday night. I'd sometimes seen other women in the club wearing similar dresses, but never thought I could. I figured my fat would squish out through the netting... but thanks to my P90X workouts, I felt really good in this. And at the club i saw a lot of people that I haven't been around for a few months. They were pretty amazed by the change in my look. In fact, Nick started getting upset and saying things like "Well, she was already perfect before and didn't need to change anything!" He's such a sweetie. He can make me crazy, but he's so wonderful...


Just rambling to myself, I guess....it's SO quiet on the forums here lately! Where IS everyone?
 
I'm at day 60 of my P90X adventure.

My weight is down to 133.5 lbs!!!!

I'm very excited, as my bodyfat is at 18.8%, too. The results of the workout and eating plan are really so amazing.
 
Thanks so much!!!

I guess you're online today as you are Canadian and your Thanksgiving is another day. I nearly forgot it is the US version today. Here in France, it's easy to let it pass by.
 
AOh my god!!!!! You look amazing, and you've done amazingly to get your body fat down to 18.8 :D Those workouts are SO HARD!!! I am in awe of you :)

Hopefully you'll be able to maintain your weight on higher calories soon, as each pound of inactive muscle burns 50 calories a day. I'm glad changing your body shape is your focus, and not just losing weight.

I see where your coming from, with your husband away with his girlfriend and nick going quiet for no reason every now and then. Its probably extra hard nick being your neighbour... Sometimes he is so near, but so far. How did you end up sleeping with Nick in the first place? I imagine it to be like something like a porno, you going round there for a cup of sugar, and ending up doing it over the dining table ;) I am not one to offer advice with my fucked up relationship, but I hope you are happy soon x
 
Thanks so much, Ruthie! You don't have to be in awe...I can still barely do one real pull-up. But when I started I could do zero- so I guess that's progress.
General warning to other readers: if crazy sex escapades disturb you, stop reading NOW!
Just a note: Nick isn't my neighbor. the neighbor guy is just someone I have sort of an on and off affair with. I met Nick at a gangbang party at a local swinger's club and it was love at first...sight. And what a sight it was! He only lives about a 20 minute drive away, so it's not too far and we try to see each other at least once a week.

The hot neighbor guy is kind of a pain in the neck. I'd rather be just friends with him, but he keeps bringing it back to sex again. Last week he wanted to get together for "coffee", but I said no.

Anyway- back to weight and fitness.....Where I've really been able to make progress is burning my fat!
My weight is down to 133.1 lbs now ...so it's taken me two weeks to lose .4 of a pound. Not super.
On the other hand, my bodyfat is down to...
17.1%!
Holy cow!!! I can hardly believe it myself.
I know I look really different now and get SO many compliments.

So, there was plenty of occasion for compliments last night, as I was at a gangbang at our usual swingers club. There were two lovely Swiss women from Berne there and me...and about 30 men. Nick brought me and looked after me...and I have to say that I was much more interested in him than in anyone else. Guess that's love!
At any rate, it was a great experience. I danced on stage on the stripper pole and felt really good and confident. The P90X workouts have increased my strength and physical confidence SO much! And then I had sex in public with about 10 men.... it was LOTS of fun. Nick just watched and kept things under control (ex- made sure that nobody got too excited and forgot to put on a condom) Afterwards I had to drag Nick into a back room where we could be alone and we could reconnect with some one on one sex.

Sometimes I can't believe my life, srsly. I couldn't make this stuff up if I tried...
 
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