Phoenyx
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Thank you! I'd have to say it was a lot of kicking my own ass and determination to succeed.
First thing, you have done AMAZINGLY WELL with weight loss this year, WOW!!!
And not only that, but you don't appear to have debilitating body image issues like is so common among us women--maybe the martial arts helps(?) It just seems like you know you deserve it and you're excited to look and feel great, instead of freaking out over little things. Don't get me wrong, I understand and don't judge people at all for anxiety, it's just really impressive that you're so laid back about it all. You're amazing!
Anyway, I feel ya on the appetite thing--can't wait to start and feel not so hungry again!
Aww, thanks!
When it comes to body image issues, I've had/have my fair share of them. Like if I look at myself in the mirror now, the remaining jiggly bits do bug me. However, they aren't as big as they were, and there's a lot more areas that are approaching that toned/tightened look I'm aiming for. And it took a while for my eyes to lose weight. Even though I was down a lot of pounds, I was still seeing myself in the mirror as I was at 241 lbs. I think the big shift was that day I was able to try on the size 10 low rise jeans and have them fit. Looking at the pants initially my brain is thinking 'yeah, right... no way your ass is going to squeeze into those'. I nearly passed out with glee when they came up around the hips, and I was able to zip them up. Mom was right. She told me I needed to try on pants to get an idea of what size I really was.
Funny thing is... those size 10s are kinda loose on me now and I want to see how a size 8 would fit me.
I also remember being roughly this size in high school and college... and thinking I was fat!
Its like it took gaining 80 pounds to make me appreciate how I looked back then. Its taken losing those 80 pounds to really appreciate what its like to be slim & in good shape. And healthy. That is a feeling I need to keep reminding myself of & appreciating so I don't gain the weight back.And I hadn't thought about it, but you're probably right. The marital arts has likely helped with the confidence level. Knowing your body is capable of moving like that, knowing where you started at and where you are now... yeah, it is a confidence booster.
I think after I get my pic taken standing in those jeans that are in my avatar photo... I'm going to find a big canvas to attach them to and do a mixed media painting to serve as a reminder. Or cut them apart and use the fabric to make a couple pairs of shorts or something. Or maybe a bag to hold my boxing gloves & escrima sticks and a pair of shorts. Hey, there's a lot of fabric there.
Yeah, my eyes are similar--when I gained weight to my heaviest, I still thought I looked the same as I did 20 pounds earlier--and I have to constantly remind myself that being where I'm at, now, is great and I shouldn't criticize too much....though lately with the eating thing I have been a bit harsh on myself!
