Phoenyx's Final 10 & Journey to Fitness
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T2 Trucker
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Well, if I had to go back ten pages find you, I'm sure as hell giving this diary a bump. Haven't seen you posting since I got back from Fla and got a lil nosey 
Hope all is well out your way.
Hope all is well out your way.
Phoenyx
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Well, if I had to go back ten pages find you, I'm sure as hell giving this diary a bump. Haven't seen you posting since I got back from Fla and got a lil nosey
Hope all is well out your way.
Hi!
I'm hanging in there. Still technically on 'furlough' with my job, but I've been doing some part time stuff with them, and some freelance stuff in San Francisco sporadically.
Ironically, I'm even busier when I'm NOT working. I wouldn't mind the not working thing if it weren't for those pesky bills.
Doing pretty good with maintaining the weight. Sometimes it spikes but tends to drop back down. Trying to keep it within my 5 pound range.
Loving the gym I joined, taking yoga classes at least 3 times a week there.
NASCAR started back up too, so that addiction is being fed.
I'll be back to posting regularly as soon as I can. I need to catch up with a lot of people's journals, and that's going to take a while.
Glad to have you back, Keri 
T2 Trucker
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oh hai
Whew! I just called and had your pic taken off all the milk cartons
Whew! I just called and had your pic taken off all the milk cartons
Phoenyx
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Whew! I just called and had your pic taken off all the milk cartons
You're so cute.
Had one heck of a workout tonight, full body weight workout. Made the reward of the steam room afterwards feel SO good! Salmon, part of a baked potato and a lot of broccoli for dinner.
And I have work through the end of the week, and on Monday... yay!!!
I'm toying with the idea of seeing what I'd look and feel like at 18% body fat. I'm in the 20-22% range right now. Just contemplating if I want to go that strict on the food again now that I'm figuring out the balance of maintaining where I'm at.
Phoenyx
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Dealing With Projected Anger
Lately it seems every time I'd see somebody (usually women) that was overweight… not those with the extra 15-20, but people who are VERY overweight (50+), its been making me angry. Its only been limited to line of sight too.
This was confusing to me. I mean, I was there for a long time, you'd think I would have more empathy/sympathy/compassion for people carrying around so much extra weight.
Then it finally hit me yesterday.
I'm angry at ME for allowing my body to get that way. Only now the anger is projecting itself to complete strangers, just because they represent the thing I am still so very angry at in myself.
I just "love" it when an epiphany hits me like a ton of bricks. Or 81 pounds of fat, whichever.
Now I find myself hoping I can forgive me for doing that to myself soon. Well, now I know the intent I will focus on when I'm on the yoga mat. I need to give myself some empathy and compassion for being fat, even if I am not anymore.
I don't think its going to work on my annoyance at people that whine about being overweight and do nothing about it though.
Lately it seems every time I'd see somebody (usually women) that was overweight… not those with the extra 15-20, but people who are VERY overweight (50+), its been making me angry. Its only been limited to line of sight too.
This was confusing to me. I mean, I was there for a long time, you'd think I would have more empathy/sympathy/compassion for people carrying around so much extra weight.
Then it finally hit me yesterday.
I'm angry at ME for allowing my body to get that way. Only now the anger is projecting itself to complete strangers, just because they represent the thing I am still so very angry at in myself.
I just "love" it when an epiphany hits me like a ton of bricks. Or 81 pounds of fat, whichever.
Now I find myself hoping I can forgive me for doing that to myself soon. Well, now I know the intent I will focus on when I'm on the yoga mat. I need to give myself some empathy and compassion for being fat, even if I am not anymore.
I don't think its going to work on my annoyance at people that whine about being overweight and do nothing about it though.
T2 Trucker
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Spillover awareness hits me (too) often. I can't explain why, it just does. Maybe weight loss is so much a part of life. Maybe I want to say something to them. I never do, though. I just use them as a mirror of where I can end back up at if I don't keep up the effort that got me this far.
BetterBody81
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Girrrl you are an inspiration.
Phoenyx
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Ok, so I fell off the face of the earth again
Had a crazy couple months there. Still trying to find steady work. The owner of the company that put me on furlough is a complete douchebag. A clueless one at that. 'Nuff said on that. Worked some contract stuff for a while in San Francisco, but that ended a week or so ago. Now trying to find something else..
Got a little too lax with my eating habits and was shocked to see the scale reading 169 this morning.
I had been maintaining around 162, so I nibbled my way up about 7 pounds. I still want to get down to 155 and maintain between 155-160. So, back on the 'diligent eating' program.
Workout-wise I've been pretty good. 3-5 days a week, either yoga or weightlifting for the most part, and started doing some bellydance practicing again, which I end up doing yoga during those practice sessions anyway.
Time to create another one of those tickers and get back on the 'wagon'.
Had a crazy couple months there. Still trying to find steady work. The owner of the company that put me on furlough is a complete douchebag. A clueless one at that. 'Nuff said on that. Worked some contract stuff for a while in San Francisco, but that ended a week or so ago. Now trying to find something else..
Got a little too lax with my eating habits and was shocked to see the scale reading 169 this morning.
I had been maintaining around 162, so I nibbled my way up about 7 pounds. I still want to get down to 155 and maintain between 155-160. So, back on the 'diligent eating' program.Workout-wise I've been pretty good. 3-5 days a week, either yoga or weightlifting for the most part, and started doing some bellydance practicing again, which I end up doing yoga during those practice sessions anyway.
Time to create another one of those tickers and get back on the 'wagon'.
