Petals diary
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Sure sounds like it!
Jenniquest
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Ha, I'm getting a jump rope too! It's so fun! Your goals sound really awesome and I'm rooting for you! 
Your morning sounds like mine. My kid stayed up to 11:30 doing homework, so was a bear to get up this morning, and I finally gave up reminding her to eat and fed her breakfast with a spoon, which she actually likes, and the morning turned around and we happily chatted about silly stuff like the prospects of turning to a life of crime as an adult instead of taking a corporate job that squashes the joy out of life.
I love your exercises, too! How are you finding doing them?
I love your exercises, too! How are you finding doing them?
Petal001
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I'll be honest Marsia I'm a bit slow in actually getting into them so I'll report back on that in a few days . I'm finding by night fall I'm incredibly exhausted and as I'm sleeping really well I'm not waking until later than usual. However after years of insomnia I'm taking that and thankful.
I had a horrid dream last night that I was going to a wedding and I was too fat and I had nothing to wear . The wedding was in an hour and I was internally anxious and fretting . Not pleasant .
Yesterday tasks ( I intended to get here and post but didn't ) was to be either more assertive or less depending on your personality. As I did that last Saturday it was done but I was more assertive in work and it made me a little more productive I think . Will try to continue that now . Not sure of today's tasks . They are getting g harder as they are focused on my personality now .
I had a horrid dream last night that I was going to a wedding and I was too fat and I had nothing to wear . The wedding was in an hour and I was internally anxious and fretting . Not pleasant .
Yesterday tasks ( I intended to get here and post but didn't ) was to be either more assertive or less depending on your personality. As I did that last Saturday it was done but I was more assertive in work and it made me a little more productive I think . Will try to continue that now . Not sure of today's tasks . They are getting g harder as they are focused on my personality now .
Sounds like your body has some catching up to do. Being able to sleep when you´re tired is amazing! Apart from anxious dreams, that is. I used to have a lot of them in my previous job and they usually correlated with me feeling anxious in waking life.
Petal001
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Lama for 3 years I never had a proper night sleep . Some nights broken sleep some mins at all . There were days I would sit half dead at my desk and I was a mess . Thankfully all that has passed and recently I’m sleeping proper sleeps maybe since last November. I’m hoping all the rest will follow now .
Petal001
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Today’s task is to be other more group centres or individual centred . Not much time to write much here so Badically im a group centred person . I follow the group be it in work or home . I often keep quiet or agree with the crowd . I’m seeing a trend here as this sort of goes with me being not asssertive . So today I have to be individual centred . It works well today actually as I have an appt at lunch time . Normally I would kill myself after trying to fit in things for the family but I’m going to go and purchase my daughter a dinner in a restaurant that do take out and have a walk around the town first for me . I might even buy myself a new lipstick or something nice non food related.
Petal, I have to agree wholeheartedly with LaMa and Cate. You did amazing this past year, and even though the scales don't show it, I bet it shows up in other ways in your life how much you've accomplished as far as your commitment to exercise and your health and yourself and how gracefully you faced so many hard things in your life. You are doing amazing! Don't let any number on a scale throw you for a loop!!
Petal001
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Agreed Cate . I know for me I have put everything else first .
Today's challenge is to either increase my energy level or lower it depending again on what type I am. Personally I fall in the middle . This is not in terms of exercise but how I lead my life. I say I'm in the middle as there are times I do with lots of energy and there are times I do with little. So today I think I'll be mindful on my energy levels. But it's to make you think is some of your high energy driven from a state of hyper and is low energy from a can't be bothered.
I'm having problems at work now and finding it stressful. So today I would go in in s heightened state of anxiety and be very energy driven but not in s good way so I need to be mindful and relax breathe and remain calm . My boss forgets there is only one of me but I need to remember that there is only me and I'm not a machine.
Today's challenge is to either increase my energy level or lower it depending again on what type I am. Personally I fall in the middle . This is not in terms of exercise but how I lead my life. I say I'm in the middle as there are times I do with lots of energy and there are times I do with little. So today I think I'll be mindful on my energy levels. But it's to make you think is some of your high energy driven from a state of hyper and is low energy from a can't be bothered.
I'm having problems at work now and finding it stressful. So today I would go in in s heightened state of anxiety and be very energy driven but not in s good way so I need to be mindful and relax breathe and remain calm . My boss forgets there is only one of me but I need to remember that there is only me and I'm not a machine.
That's a great goal. If you dig the best ditches all the boss gives you is a bigger shovel.
Petal001
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Today went really well until tonight a friend asked did my husband go to doc today. . I told her he did and she has got the hump I think because I didn't tell her earlier . Also I didn't know till late this eve as he was away . Said we don't share so much as friends anymore . Never heard such complete b s in my life . How to deal with needy friends eh