Warning:
1. this may get kind of long, sorry
2. there's cussing coming up
3. I'm 100% fine - I just need to vent. Please don't worry!!
Ok? ok.. so
My life has a wicked sense of balance. If things get too bad, something happens and it picks up again. But on the same token, when it gets too good... my life shits the bed.
I get one part of my life running smooth and the other parts go to hell. My health is great. I feel great, I'm eating well, taking care of myself... but I have almost no social life, my love life is non-existent & my career is in the toilet. Maybe those other parts need a break while I deal with the health issues? Who knows.
I am pretty upset right now, crushed would be a better word. Not throw myself off a bridge or into a cake upset but a good cry on a firm shoulder would be really nice right now. I'm debating about whether I should go into details or if I should just hit the 'close' button and walk away for the night...
I guess I'll type away, if you're reading this then I decided to deal with the problem rather than hide from it.
My brother is also my employer. I am an independent contractor for him. We've never had a great relationship, I am more than 10 years younger, 300 miles away and the half sister who by just being born, shattered the fairytale idea that our father would ever move back to his hometown to be with them (them is my half sister, half brother & our dad's x-wife). I have always looked up to my older brother in a way that only a younger sister can know. So when he called a year ago and wanted a website, I jumped at the chance to get closer to him.
I designed his website, I maintained it for a year.
I just got fired.
I just got fired in an effin' email.
And not in a nice 'hey I love you sis but we've decided to go another way with the website' email, oh no no no... this email he sent was demeaning and shows just how little respect he has for me. He implies that I am stupid, he tells me that he *will not* pay. And he flat out lies to me, saying that he never got a bill when I have a return receipt saying he did. And to put a cherry on top - he closes with the shittiest thing I have ever received from a family member EVER:
"If I need anything else in the future from you I will let you know." This line makes me feel like a used up whore. I'd love to write back, "Yeah right, go ahead and assume that I am your lap dog you slimy...."
*ahem*
So yeah. And to make it even worse, I don't want to tell my dad. I don't want him to get caught up in it and worry. I don't want him to have a clouded view of my brother. I don't want to be the one to break my daddy's heart.
I've not emailed him back. Too mad and upset right now to be professional.
If you're reading this then I hit the 'submit reply' button and didn't go curl up with a bag of chocolate.
